1. My friends, Batch 2009, passed the CPA Board Exams last October. The news came out just as our Final Exams Week started. I am so happy for them. I can't think of a group of people who deserve this achievement more that they do. Congratulations, guys!

2. I like Lester. I ignore Francine.

3. There has been a lot of drama this first week of November but the bottomline is: I'm out of the Accountancy program. It stings but it's also a liberating experience for me.

4. I passed Auditing 320!!! Why #3 then?! Go figure. HAHA

5. It's unbelievable how delusional and manipulative some people can be. And they're grown ups for crying out loud.

6. I love watching Keeping Up with the Kardashians. It's quite refreshing to see a family that's a little less crazy than mine. HAHAHA

7. I just finished reading WATCHMEN. I bought a copy of the graphic novel when I was in Cebu. I love the North Wing! :p

8. I just read this e-mail from Facebook. WTH?!?!

9. I don't think I'll be able to write as often as I did a year ago. It's been two months since I last posted something here. I'll update Twitter as often as I could though. I'll get a new SIM for it.

Worse of all, my dad is asking for the laptop back. How the hell am I supposed to finish all the work I have to do?! So I told him NO. 

Heads up to my dear stepmom (though I don't think you'll read this) and to the Cenizas out there: My dad is bringing the brats to Cebu for All Saint's/Soul's Day. He hasn't told me to buy the tickets yet but I think he'll push it for sure.

I miss blogging but it's a luxury these days. I really have to go back to work. Until the next free minute. 

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ALL midterm exams are finally over. We had Auditing last Saturday. I think it went well. By well, I mean at least I didn't freeze and got mental block all three hours of it. I'll just have to wait and see my midterm grades to find out how I did this first quarter.

I saw pictures of the Bears at Manila--Ric's birthday and Ahye's weekend visit. It made me miss them like hell. Every time Ahye has laugh-out-loud moment and we crack up like crazy, I stop and think, there's something missing. I miss their laughter, laughing with them. Madz sent a text that perfectly captures this: Missing someone...is about that very moment when you're doing something and you wish they were right there with you. See you soon, Bears!

It's back to work today. We're starting the audit of Grace Corporation. We have a case to solve and pass on Wednesday. And homework to boot.

I really had a GREAT time at the fashion show/party.

I still can't think straight so I'll just post some pictures from the event and note them.

I wore an ash gray dress with black stockings and patent pumps. The rosette on my hair is actually a corsage I pinned on an elastic headband.

Winmark, Ahye, Lace, ME and Alen at our table.

Since only a few of "us" went, we shared the table with our new classmates. :p

The Monggo Band! (From left: Epoy Beira aka AAO President, Kathy Jusay, Abby Paragas and Odessa Alpay) They were really good. They sang Katy Perry's Waking Up in Vegas and Thinking of You.

We danced like crazy after the Seniors Presentation. I kicked off my shoes, placed them on the table and moved on the dancefloor in my stockings.

The shoes eventually caught the attention of my new classmates. The posed with it like they're shooting an ad for Cole Haan.

Even the teachers couldn't help themselves.

Monday is a Moslem holiday and there's a lot of school work to be done so I need free internet. HA!

I found a great way to send tweets and update your Twitter page through SMS. Click HERE. For more information about this, click HERE.

I uploaded some videos on Facebook. One of my birthday surprise and three of last year's Christmas Party. I miss the Bears terribly, more now since they're sending group messages that I don't have a clue about. I'll see them in October. Hopefully, they're already CPAs by then and we (Me, Lace, Winmark and the rest of the Fifth Years) have succeeded in passing through the first semester unscathed. We can do it!

Deadlines for our Donor's Tax Docket and Mgt report is next week. Plus, we'll have our 3rd long quiz in Auditing. This semester is becoming more stressful by the week.

I also posted photos of my dad's birthday and Father's Day celebration at Kalugusan Beach.

I got to watch 17 Again and Blood: The Last Vampire. 17 Again wasn't that bad except that I couldn't stop myself from cringing every time Zac Efron and Leslie Mann have you know, sexual tension. I mean, yuck! Blood: The Last Vampire needs to improve its F/X. I bet the animé movie was better. I still love Blood+ more. Believe it or not, I haven't watched a movie in the cinemas yet. No Transformers 2: Revenge of the Fallen. Not even Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince. Oh, well.

I was busy buying stuff for the Fashion Show even though it'll be in two weeks yet. I have the dress and the shoes. I even got stockings and a pin. Now, I only have to survive the next two weeks of academic hell and I'll be set.

Help!

Proof of being loaded with schoolwork is that I haven't posted anything since Father's Day. Thank God for mobile Twitter and UPD8, I still was able to update my page and Facebook regularly.

We're having the annual AAO party on July 31 for I think the third time. Different venue though. I'm excited. I still haven't found the yellow dress. I'm browsing LOOKBOOK.nu for other options. The theme of the party is FASHION STATEMENT after all. It's quite clever of the officers to tag it as a fashion show instead of an acquaintance party. That way, students won't be able to rant that there's no "acquaintance" going on.

Why are there no Preview magazines available in this city?!?! It's bloody horrific! I had to settle with Stella. But though it featured Japanese fashion well in its July issue, I still found myself wanting more. Pauline, we need you in Zamboanga!!!

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I love being a mean girl. If I don't like you and show it, then give it back to me. Then, I might like you, respect you even. Not liking you is one thing, hating you is another. And I hate passive people.

Here is the trail of thoughts I saved in my mobile notes.

It saddens me that your happiness and mine do not lie on the same things. They never did. Your joy causes me pain. We can never be "happy together".

We're celebrating Father's Day. Then why do I feel like an orphan?

I still hate babies. Specifically, three of them.

I suddenly want to die. There is really no indispensable reason not to. The hope of future happiness is the only reason I still breathe. Else, I wouldn't bother. Ha! Suicidal much?!

I totally get why he's cool with the idea despite the circumstances. You practically are in the same situation that's why the both of you don't get it. You have no idea what's it like to be in my shoes. Never will.

Yes. I am jealous. I have every right to be.

This relationship is hopeless. That's why when the opportunity comes, I am leaving... far away from you, far away from them.

The first week of classes just ended and I feel drained. I don't know why.

The family drama is still ongoing. Enough said.

I'm starting to get addicted to Twitter. Follow me. 

And I'm still addicted to Facebook. See me.

It's funny, sad and...boring!

After the whole ordeal, I find myself asking: Why should I care?! I just realized that everything that has happened really has nothing to do with me. And since it does't have anything to do with me, it's pointless to keep thinking about it. The anger and resentment I once felt has now changed into annoyance and irritation. I am tired of thinking and feeling about these things. It is really getting old. I'm sick of it.

It's my last year in college (God-willing!) and I have a lot of other important things to worry about like losing weight, 18 and another 22 units of academic subjects to finish, graduation, CPA Board Exam <groan>, and finding a decent job <double groan>.

When will all of this drama end?!

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For You-Know-Who

No two songs could say what I want to say any better.

Stuck in the Middle by MIKA

I sit and think about the day that you're gonna die,
'Cause your wrinkled eyes betrayed the joy with which you smile.
Care to see my reason?
Care to put your life in mine?
Looking at life from the perspective of a boy girl
Who's learned to love you but has also learned to grow.
Could we make it better, stormy weather,
So I dunno.

Oh, oh, oh - Is there anybody home?
Who will believe me, won't deceive me, won't try to change me?
Ah, ah, ah - Is there anybody home?
Who wants to have me, just to love me?
Stuck in the middle.

I look at you,
You look at me,
We bite each other.
And with your bitter words you kick me in the gutter.
But my troops are bigger than yours
You'll never stand my fight.
Ours is a family that's based upon tradition
But with my careless words I tread upon your vision.
Are five four kids better than one, who'd doesn't like to be gone?

This is who I am,
This ain't a greater plan to break your heart, oh me.
I know that what I've started means that when we have parted
I can live in all this stench.

Please Don't Leave Me by PINK

I don't know if I can yell any louder
How many time have I kicked you outta here?
Or said something insulting?
I can be so mean when I wanna be
I am capable of really anything
I can cut you into pieces
But my heart is…broken

Please don’t leave me
Please don’t leave me
I always say how I don’t need you
But it’s always gonna come right back to this
Please, don’t leave me

How did I become so obnoxious?
What is it with you that makes me act like this?
I’ve never been this nasty
Can’t you tell that this is all just a contest?
The one that wins will be the one that hits the hardest
But baby I don’t mean it
I mean it, I promise

I always say how I don’t need you
But it’s always gonna come right back to this
Please, don’t leave me
I forgot to say out loud how beautiful you really are to me
I can’t be without, you’re my perfect little punching bag 
And I need you, I’m sorry.

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Imaginary Conversation

Z: (talking to SM) She called P a demon. (laughs) I really wanted to shake and ask her, "You just realized that?!"

P: (overhears Z) Excuse me?! Are you implying that I am?

Z: Yes, of course. But don't worry, I still love you.