So, I spent a full half-day in the library today to mug the entire courseload. Go me.

It's been a long, long time since I've last written on tabulas. All my friends are gone.

Talked with my elder "sisters" last night. God I miss them!

 

yuch: serious?!

yuch: what's serious sex supposed to be like

yuch: do we discuss plato in bed

s: plato can be sexy

yuch: platonic sex!

s: hell the singapore statues can be sexy

s: if u do it right

s: HAHAHA

s: PLATONIC SEx!!!!!

yuch: how do you do a statute

s: HAHAHA

m: no.. statutes are not sexy

m: noooooooooooo

s: HAHAHHAA
s: there are private acts
s: that could be sexy

It'll be really nice if she comes down to Amsterdam though. I've been there three times and none of them for party purposes.

Books are very personal choices, I wonder if people really know how much they're giving away when they let people know what they read.

So true. 

CNY this year, like previous years has mainly involved shutting myself in my room to avoid interaction with relatives (people overload every year). did the mandatory visits to the usual places and ate the mandatory reunion dinner, which was not so bad because of the presence of a new baby sheltie this year, so we (meaning me) were spared uncomfortable silences by making use of the dog as a conversation topic.

shit, CNY each year is becoming a routine exercise in people-avoidance.

supposed to go housevisiting with jay and company tomorrow, that is, today morning, hopefully that'll do something about all that lethargy and restless energy. 

i really should get into the festive mood and everything, but the truth is that CNY is too long a break and I'm supposed to spend most of it seeing people I'm not going to see till the next new year, so why not make more productive use of it and just spend the day sleeping?

god, i wonder if i'm even chinese. 

i got a feeling i pissed off a whole lot of people by suddenly "disappearing" today and skipping dinner (i was supposed to be sleeping. which i mainly was doing). and i haven't even played a single game of mahjong yet. i mean like yah lah, lots of people gripe about CNY but they actually do (whether grudgingly or not) bother to put on their best behaviour and do the whole CNY socialising thing. i gotta pick up a guidebook on this kind of thing.

"Dummies Guide to Surviving Chinese New Year": List of common conversation starters -

1)My, I heard your son's a lawyer isn't he? Mine's a doctor.

2)So, your daughter's entering university next year? (feign humbleness) oh nooo, my son is so-so only lah, he's going to Oxford this year.

3)So, got a boy/girlfriend yet?

3a)IF YES: When going to get married?

3b)IF NO: When going to get boy/girlfriend?

meanwhile, i discovered this totally corny-looking learn-japanese series called the "George and Keiko Show". but then, after i watched a few minutes of it i found that it was actually vaguely informative and entertaining. the next step is to find out where to procure the whole series of videos.

That girl with the large brown eyes 

And long silky hair

You look so sad when you sigh

I feel like hugging you tight to keep you safe

"Everything will be alright", I say

Perhaps that was a tad too brave

I meant every single word I said

I'm afraid it'd be all a dream

Didn't want to open my eyes

To let it unravel at its reams

Finding out it's all a lie 

I just want to make this rhyme

Sell off to a record company

Milk it for every last dime

Even poets need their money 

Dedicated to a sweet, sweet girl who never did notice me.

(Which is why I'm willing to sell it off. Anyone need a songwriter?)

It's weird how you can be in a very neutral mood. Like no particular feeling. With some comfort music, finding you have absolutely nothing to do, just sitting in front of the computer screen. (I have lots and lots and lots of shows to watch but I just don't get down to them. Very draining, all the arty films. On my sanity.)

Oh give me some purpose in my life. I could start a religion, I guess.
 

It' damn cool to have a friend that'll come sing ktv with you the whole night, on a moment's notice. (not mine, a friend's) Damn cool.

Anyway, we tried 6 hours straight of singing, and i was groggy after midnight so I think I sounded like I was gagging.

There were *supposed* to be more people (it's all abt having more people and screaming the place down, isn't it?), but in the end grown-up boys in army are more sensible so they don't stay up overnight any longer. sigh. yes, unlike me and my ktv kaki, of course.

problem is that i'm not the totally wild party type so i don't go out with those friends who're that type. i don't go clubbing. but i like going to watch midnight shows, and i like ktv-ing no matter the time of the day. it's funny that most people are on either extreme (party and non-party), and i'm stuck somewhere in the middle with no one to go out with. i can like name three people (let's not include 65ers since they're amenable to practically everything, heh) in my usual social circle who'll go out with me in the middle of the night. that's like weird, man. i may need to expand said social circle and start clubbing, that way i can find more people to do stuff with me at 3am in the morning.

In any case coke light is the way to go. for some very strange reason i think the coke/pepsi actually prevented a sore throat.

soothing. oh well the next time i'm not available in the day (i.e. i'm sleeping) it's because i wasn't home the last night, ****ers.

I realised that I've seriously undervalued your idealistic, pure and honest views of friendships. (I hope army hasn't changed that) In fact, when has it been since I've known a person who'd give me a poster just because I mentioned I liked a certain character in the show? Up to now, never. I've met a lot more selfish people, people who never consider others at all before themselves, people who are just plain assholes. All the more to contrast that with you.

I've had to apologise for this many times, and to many people, that I'm simply not reachable. As in, that I'm quiet and all, so I don't talk much with people. I'm afraid that after all, I'm not a very interesting person. I don't suppose our interests coincide much, which is perhaps a reason why I'm not easily drawn deeply into a very good friendship. But absence of mutual interests have and should never get in the way of recognising a good friend - it's just that I don't know how to actually reciprocate.

At the end of the day, it's the seemingly small things that you never forget, trite as it might have seemed to you. I know a good guy when I see one (and especially when he gives me cookies, haha).

Eh, all that sounded seriously gay, but at the end of the day I'm sorry, really sorry that this is the only way I can tell you guys that while it lasted, it was really nice. And I hope there'll be more to come.

There's not much good people left in this world, I realise.

Maybe Sim Wong Hoo should try the same thing to beat Apple. I'm sure there're be a gem or two in a million suggestion forms, just that he'd probably need the power of a conscript army to do something as remotely stupid as that.