http://yahn.tabulas.com yAhn's pLacE!! Instinct is the name of the game. Richard Bach called it in his book, One, Tink. I'd prefer to name her Yahn--the sole writer of this blog. Yahn is the source of every single letter, color, and sequence visible in this reserved space in the highway of technology--the internet. Yahn has total control over each and every letters, words, sentences and paragraphs that appear here chronologically--yet she neither has the power to alter nor tamper with the events the more-powerful ideas, the words, produce. Yahn is capable of creating not her own reality, but her own world that is capable of attending to her needs. Yahn is the soft whisper in my ear, that instructs my fingers what and when exactly keyboard item/s is/are to be pressed in an ordered manner. Yahn is the very soul that dwells within--the life which moves me to live. Yahn is me, and I am Yahn, according to my God--no matter how much people would love to deny it. en Mon, 16 Nov 2009 03:55:29 +0000 What's the sense in waiting? As Lovers Go
Dashboard Confessional 

She said, "I've got to be honest, you're wasting your time if you're fishin' around here."
And I said, "You must be mistaken, I'm not foolin', this feelin' is real."
She said, "You've gotta be crazy! What do you take me for? Some kinda of easy mark?"
"You've got wits, you've got looks, you've got passion,
But I swear that you've got me all wrong."

All wrong
All wrong
But you've got me

I'll be true, I'll be useful, I'll be cavalier
I'll be yours my dear and I'll belong to you if you just let me through
This is easy as lovers go.
So don't complicate it by hesitating.
This is wonderful as loving goes.
This is tailor made, what's the sense in waiting?

I said, "I've got to be honest, I've been waiting for you all of my life."
For so long I thought I was asylum bound, but just seeing you makes me think twice.
And being with you here makes me sane. I fear I'll go crazy if you leave my side."
"You've got wits, you've got looks, you've got passion,
But are you brave enough to leave with me tonight?"

Tonight
Tonight
You've got me

I'll be true, I'll be useful, I'll be cavalier
I'll be yours my dear and I'll belong to you if you just let me through
This is easy as lovers go.
So don't complicate it by hesitating.
This is wonderful as loving goes.
This is tailor made, what's the sense in waiting?

This is easy as lovers go so don't complicate it by hesitating.
This is wonderful as loving goes. 
This is tailor made, what's the sense in waiting?

This is easy as lovers go so don't complicate it by hesitating.
This is wonderful as loving goes. 
This is tailor made, what's the sense in waiting?

]]> http://yahn.tabulas.com/2009/11/16/whats-the-sense-in-waiting/ http://yahn.tabulas.com/2009/11/16/whats-the-sense-in-waiting/ Mon, 16 Nov 2009 03:55:28 +0000 Book Of The Yahn Three Emotions are so intense, they can cloud one's judgment.
Just the thought of you makes me like you. :)

I'm loving this life. Even just for now.

]]> http://yahn.tabulas.com/2009/11/15/three/ http://yahn.tabulas.com/2009/11/15/three/ Sun, 15 Nov 2009 13:25:15 +0000 Whore-iffic Memoirs When you can't admit what you want All I want is happiness.

And it really pains me to admit this.

Because all it means is that I haven't been exactly happy all along.

And if I don't make it known that I'm LYING all along...

I wonder what will happen now.

Can someone please help me make myself happy?

Emo sh*t.

You'd think things are falling apart now.

They're not.

They're just breaking into pieces.

Just why am I sad?

For this long already?

]]> http://yahn.tabulas.com/2009/11/15/when-you-cant-admit-what-you-want/ http://yahn.tabulas.com/2009/11/15/when-you-cant-admit-what-you-want/ Sun, 15 Nov 2009 10:20:42 +0000 Book Of The Yahn Complex I want to move on! I don't wanna get stuck on him... thinking he is the only guy for me. I am positive and know perfectly well there are other guys out there. But I also want my heart to feel like I COULD LIKE OTHER PEOPLE.

And right now I just can't do that. I have no freakin' idea why. But right now I just can't. I cannot see the possibility of all other. It may be because he's still around. It maybe because it's the first time I felt this way and I can't let it go. It may even be because of fate. What?

Whatever the case, I can't live in this irony. I can't live in this complication. Everything is changed now. Much more changed than before. I may seem to live the normal life. But deep within, a lot has been going on. A lot has changed.

Now life for me is no longer the same. So much for a change, huh?

]]> http://yahn.tabulas.com/2009/10/26/complex/ http://yahn.tabulas.com/2009/10/26/complex/ Mon, 26 Oct 2009 12:59:01 +0000 Book Of The Yahn Two Today, 4am.

I was drunk enough NOT to tell you.
I plan to attend sessions only when you're there. But that's a little impossible now. I guess. Maybe then you'll figure things out. 
]]> http://yahn.tabulas.com/2009/10/25/two/ http://yahn.tabulas.com/2009/10/25/two/ Sun, 25 Oct 2009 10:10:57 +0000 Whore-iffic Memoirs One October 20, 2009

How come I am so annoyed? Darn madness.
]]> http://yahn.tabulas.com/2009/10/22/one/ http://yahn.tabulas.com/2009/10/22/one/ Thu, 22 Oct 2009 11:43:41 +0000 Whore-iffic Memoirs A Prelude to Whore-iffic Memoirs The Whore-iffic Memoirs chronicles horrifyingly drunken whore-some thoughts, suggestions, quotations, real and even imaginary events. To begin with, here are last night's whore-iffic drunken, surreal, but honest thoughts.

Being drunk gives me an excuse to text him.

It crossed my mind once, twice--no, it crossed my mind too many times already that I've lost count.

More whore-iffying lines and stories to watch out for in this link. See yah!

]]> http://yahn.tabulas.com/2009/10/17/a-prelude-to-whore-iffic-memoirs/ http://yahn.tabulas.com/2009/10/17/a-prelude-to-whore-iffic-memoirs/ Sat, 17 Oct 2009 13:50:31 +0000 Whore-iffic Memoirs So let's do it. So let's finish the story.
I talk, you listen.
I pour my heart out, you listen blankly.
My pulse is racing, my mind is screaming out.

So let's wrap up this session.
I shut my mouth, you blab.
I keep asking inappropriate questions, you go on defending yourself.
I listen intently. I laugh out loud. I wish for more time.

So let's keep it real.
I'm just being honest, while you do your thing.
You tell it like it is, I accept it like I should.
When now is all the chance we got, who has to fear the future?

So let's close the deal.
I tell your stories, you tell mine.
Like good ol' times, like good ol' friends--just the way I miss it.
And we part ways without looking back, like it never happened.

Do you even know I miss you?

]]> http://yahn.tabulas.com/2009/10/14/so-lets-do-it./ http://yahn.tabulas.com/2009/10/14/so-lets-do-it./ Wed, 14 Oct 2009 06:55:16 +0000 Book Of The Yahn For the last time. The semester is almost over. And I got nothing more to say.

No, I just cannot pour my heart out. No, I don't plan so.

That is exactly what I hate about emotions: always fluctuating, never reliable.

Oh thank God I still have time. And I got just enough time to think things over, and not plunge head first.

No, not worth the risk.

Goodbye it is. Goodbye it will be.

Closing Time
Semisonic

Closing time, open all the doors and let you out into the world.
Closing time, turn all of the lights on over every boy and every girl.
Closing time, one last call for alcohol, so finish your whiskey or beer.
Closing time, you don't have to go home but you can't stay here.

I know who I want to take me home.
I know who I want to take me home.
I know who I want to take me home.
Take me home.

Closing time, time for you to go out to the places you will be from.
Closing time, this room won't be open 'til your brothers or you sisters come.
So gather up your jackets, and move it to the exits - I hope you have found a friend.
Closing time, every new beginning comes from some other beginning's end.

Yeah, I know who I want to take me home.
I know who I want to take me home.
I know who I want to take me home.
Take me home.

Closing time, time for you to go back to the places you will be from.

I know who I want to take me home.
I know who I want to take me home.
I know who I want to take me home.
Take me home.

Closing time, every new beginning comes from some other beginning's end.

]]> http://yahn.tabulas.com/2009/10/13/for-the-last-time./ http://yahn.tabulas.com/2009/10/13/for-the-last-time./ Tue, 13 Oct 2009 19:00:43 +0000 Book Of The Yahn Drunken Bitterness and Sober Sweet-Nothingness Two weeks ago.

Why do I like you so much as this? And it hurts so bad that you like her that much, the way that I would have wanted you to like me. How come I badly want you like this when all you did was make me fall? I darn want you so badly. If you only knew... then maybe you wouldn't have hung out with me even more. Damn!

And today.

I can't wait to tell you. This has to be spit out already. I have to know already an answer. Just say it, or mean it. Either way, I'm already prepping up myself for the moment. I'm more prepared for the response more than how I'm gonna say it.

Sigh. What on earth is up to? Could this really be it? @___@

]]> http://yahn.tabulas.com/2009/10/02/drunken-bitterness-and-sober-sweet-nothingness/ http://yahn.tabulas.com/2009/10/02/drunken-bitterness-and-sober-sweet-nothingness/ Fri, 02 Oct 2009 17:45:00 +0000 Book Of The Yahn