so here it is!

after trying metropolitan, FIX and tony & jackey.. ako pa rin ang nagtapos!

it looks like asian whatever style..

somebody actually mistaken me as a 17 yr old girl LOL

some people who know my ex told me it looks like his hair. but no. kalbo na sya.. well mahaba na siguro ng konti ngaun...

last few days.. me and my boyfriend spent the days happily! lol enjoy sobra.. i was able to go out with my friends and officemates as well. shempre inom. i hope i'm not becoming alcoholic.. i love soju. shit.

macocomplete na payment ko sa dlsr yey! i'm excited..

ok na saken kahit wla na ang camera kong minahal. may kapalit na sya na mamahalin ko den ^_^

at may webcam pa ko.. at may phone cam pa LOL  .. SO WHAT!?? hahaha

Let's see.. Last weekends.

I don't know why i forgot what happened last friday night >.< or maybe i was in the office? Weird.

Ok, saturday..  I met Stacy at shangrila coz she invited me to watch the japanese film showing at cineplex. She's with her other chinese highschool mates so yeah, i was the only one with big eyes haha.

I flaunt my new spikey hair lol with my thinner-not-sexy-body haha

I loved what i wore that day.. I don’t. Maybe because it reminds me of someone.

When the first movie ended, we ate at Greenwich where I ate a lot. Haha…

Wooooah I remember now what happened last Friday! Haha

After work that night ( my shift ends at 1pm) I went straight to gerry’s ali mall coz my officemates who finished their shifts earlier went there to have fun. So we drank some beer and ate.

At 4pm, we walked going to cubao ex and ate and drank again. At night around 10pm, my friend invited me to a metal gig at center for arts, I know I was already wasted and sleepy that time. We also drink some beer and chat with our friends. I should say, metal scene is still the same old thing.. and there are chikkababes from different colleges in uniform.. long hair drunk guys.. alcohol. Loud music. Bad ass looking metal heads.

Going back to Saturday.. Stacy and her friends decided not to watch the next film, and I thought what the heck are we gonna do at this early 5pm?? We  went to megamall and ate again at redmango and did some chit chats..

When we parted, I texted gwen to come by. So she arrived and we saw some of her officemates at krispy kreme and we also got free coffee and doughnuts >.< that’s good!

Then we went to liquor store coz I was dying to drink soju. It is not my favorite but I'm getting addictive

 Soju! Good for my mental health! Haha

We went to cubao ex to wander around. We then met some people had some drink.. talk.. blah blah

Don’t worry, I’m not becoming an alcoholic. Alcohol is only for restdays. Ok?

This guy we met told me, “You’re a dalagang Pilipina”.

 I got it. Of course I am! Haha

 Somebody also told me I looked 17 which is really a compliment, I almost fainted lol.

And this guy me met asked me if I know bijan.  So what’s the answer?

we have house in marikina where me and my half sister shared the same room.. we also have another one in nueva ecija where i have my own room and everytime i wake up in the morning, i just need to take a bath and eat..

i am missing my grandma. i love her so much..
now that i am alone.. i am always looking for someone to be with coz i'm feeling lonely. i want someone to hug like a pillow at night, someone to understand me, someone to play with whenever things get fucked up and someone to share my life..
i've been imagining a lot of things.. things that will make me very happy.. things that can make me always feel comfortable.. things that somehow will be reality, and things that should've come true if only i didn't do some things in the past..

regrets..
contentment..
satisfaction..
happiness..
affection..
good life..

I am my bestfriend and I read my bestfriend's thoughts to comfort her.

I suck. I often feel anxious about the things happening with me.

Just a moment ago, i was in high spirits and then suddenly, unexplainable.

I hate to see my treasured  folks to just come and go to my life. I want real action and soft compassionate.

I daydream a lot like it will be the reality once I opened my eyes.

I always get trapped in a love story where in the girl will fall inlove then would like to kill the person she loves who doesnt love her anymore bu still loves her in reality and then live with the present love for ever and ever which is ridiculous. I dunno. I didn't understand this twisted story.

I don't care if you get it or not. If love is forever, so be it.

But I know, not every heart will still feel the same thing after a long time. But sometimes it does.There’s a lot of people around that you may like and love.


I know I was happy last night. very happy. and..
happy.
yes I was.


I don't know what do I feel right now.
I can't distinguish love and hate. i often feel these to the ones I truly love. I know it's jealousy but sometimes it's not.

I know you can't understand this entry coz you don't know what I'm talking about.

The only thing I'm sure is that I saw again the magic harp that i first saw eight earth years ago.

It still fascinates me.

last sunday was my boyfriend's birthday so we dine out and watched star trek at robinson's. yes i liked it! and of course he enjoyed watching it coz he's a star trekker.

today i'm just here at the apartment after work doing some online whatever to feel sleepy.. i still have work tonight and tomorrow night.

i'm getting tired -_-

i just finished my multi-skill training.

and now i am powerful! hahaha

i can do almost all of the things that can be possibly done with this company lol

last saturday, we met.. had some small talk and drank some soju..

i went there after me and friends had some beers at mogwai (cubao ex)

i really missed that kind of feeling where #$%^@ is so close to me.

i'm not bad.

i just did what i think would be nice to my sanity.

i wished at that moment, "i hope it would stay like this forever.."