a dash of dreams

KAMUKHA KO!

Mon, 13 Sep 2004 04:31:31 +0000

I was doing some research for my proposal some weeks ago when I came cross this in the B'laan page. Don't you think I look like her somewhat? Cool no?!

MOVIES

Mon, 23 Aug 2004 04:30:50 +0000

from rubes

01. Trainspotting
02. Shrek
03. M
.04. Dogma
05. Strictly Ballroom
06. The Princess Bride
07. Love, Actually
08. The Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Rings
09. The Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers
10. The Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King
11. Reservoir Dogs
12. Desperado
13. Swordfish
14. Kill Bill Vol. 1
15. Donnie Darko
16. Spirited Away
17. Better Than Sex
18. Sleepy Hollow
19. Pirates of the Caribbean
20. The Eye
21. Requiem for a Dream (I want to see!)
22. Dawn of the Dead (The original).
23. The Pillow Book
24. The Italian Job
25. The Goonies
26. Baseketball
27. The Spice Girls Movie (Spice World)
28. Army of Darkness
29. The Color Purple
30. The Safety of Objects
31. Canât Hardly Wait
32. Mystic Pizza
33. Finding Nemo
34. Monsters Inc.
35. Circle of Friends
36. Mary Poppins
37. The Bourne Identity
38. Forrest Gump
39. A Clockwork Orange
40. Kindergarten Cop
41. On The Line
42. My Big Fat Greek Wedding
43. Final Destination
44. Sorority Boys
45. Urban Legend
46. Cheaper by the Dozen
47. Fierce Creatures
48. Dude, Whereâs My Car
49. Ladyhawke
50. Ghostbusters
51. Indiana Jones and the Last Crusade
52. Back to the Future
53. An Affair To Remember
54. Somewhere In Time
55. North By Northwest
56. Moulin Rouge
57. Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets
58. The Wizard of Oz
59. Zoolander
60. A Walk to Remember
61. Chicago
62. Vanilla Sky
63. The Sweetest Thing
64. Donât Tell Mom the Babysitterâs Dead
65. The Nightmare Before Christmas
66. Chasing Amy
67. Edward Scissorhands (wallpaper ko last month)
68. Adventures of Priscilla: Queen of the Desert
69. Murielâs Wedding
70. Croupier
71. Blade Runner
72. Cruel Intentions
73. Oceanâs Eleven
74. Magnolia
75. Fight Club
76. Beauty and The Beast
77. Much Ado About Nothing
78. Dirty Dancing
79. Gladiator
80. Ever After
81. Braveheart
82. What Lies Beneath
83. Regarding Henry
84. The Dark Crystal (pero may dvd kami na original)
85. Star Wars
86. The Birds
7. Beaches
88. Cujo
89. Maid In Manhattan
90. Labyrinth
91. Thoroughly Modern Millie
92. His Girl Friday
93. Chocolat
94. Independence Day
95. Singing in the Rain
96. Big Fish (di pa rin pinapalabas sa davao!)
97. The Thomas Crown Affair
98. The Matrix
99. Stargate
100. A Hard Dayâs Night
101. About A Boy
102. Jurassic Park
103. Life of Brian
104. Dune
105. Help!
106. Grease
107. Newsies
108. Gone With The Wind
109. School of Rock
110. TOMMY
111. Yellow Submarine
112. From Hell
113. Benny & Joon
114. Amelie
115. Bridget Jonesâ Diary
116. Monty Python and the Holy Grail oh dear...
117. Heavenly Creatures
118. All About Eve
119. The Outsiders
120. Airplane!
121. The Sorcerer
122. The Crying Game
123. Hedwig and the Angry Inch
124. Slap Her, Sheâs French
125. Amadeus
126. Tommy Boy
127. Aladdin
128. How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
129. Snatch
130. American History X
131. Jack and Sarah
132. Monkey Bone
133. Rocky Horror Picture Show
134. Kate and Leopold
135. Interview with the Vampire
136. Underworld
137. Truly, Madly, Deeply
138. Tank Girl
139. Boondock Saints
140. Blow Dry
141. Titanic
142. Good Morning Vietnam
143. Save the Last Dance
144. Lost in Translation
145. Willow
146. Legend
147. Van Helsing
148. Troy
149. Nine Girls and a Ghost
. A Knightâs Tale
151. Bill & Tedâs Bogus Journey (party time, excellent!)
152. Beetlejuice
153. E.T.
154. Harry Potter and the Sorcerorâs Stone
155. Spaceballs
156. Young Frankenstein
157. Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind (wala pa dito sa probinsya no!)
158. American President
159. Bad Boys
160. Pecker
161. Pink Floyd: The Wall
161. X-Men (dalawa ang 161)
162. Sidewalks of New York
163. The Children of Dune
164. Beyond Borders
165. Life Is Beautiful
166. Good Will Hunting
167. Run Lola Run
168. Blazing Saddles
169. Caligula
170. The Transporter
171. Better Off Dead
172. The Abyss
173. Almost Famous
174. The Red Violin
175. Contact
176. Stand and Deliver
177. Clueless
178. William Shakespeareâs Romeo & Juliet
179. Dangerous Laisions
180. I Am Sam
181. The Usual Suspects
182. U-571
183. Capricorn One
184. The Little Shop of Horrors
185. Die Hard
186. The Flamingo Kid
187. Night of the Comet
188. Point Break
189. Chatterbox
190. Secretary
191. Breakfast at Tiffanyâs
192. American Beauty
193. Pulp Fiction
194. What About Bob
195. Roger and Me
196. Fahrenheit 9/11
197. Bowling for Columbine Marilyn Manson speaks sense
198. The Professional
199. The Fifth Element
200. La Femme Nikita
201. Heathers
202. Bull Durham
203. The Scorpion King
204. The Thin Blue Line (di ba dapat The Thin Red Line? Pero di ko din napanuod iyon)
205. Do the Right Thing
206. Lady From Shanghai
207. Natural Born Killers
208. Funeral in Berlin
209. Decline of the American Empire
210. The Pink Panther
211. Spider-Man
212. Barefoot In the Park
213. Jesus Christ Superstar
214. Stand By Me (one of my favorites)
215. In America
216. 10 Things I Hate About You(my favorite teeny bopper film)
217. Thirteen
218. Chasing Liberty
219. When Harry Met Sally
220. Footloose
221. Can't Buy Me Love
222. A Beautiful Mind
223. The Crow
224. Lock, Stock, and Two Smoking Barrels
225. the 'burbs
226. The Secret of NIMH
227. The Phantom of the Opera (1925)
228. Dancer in the Dark (napakagandang pelikula)
229. 8 1/2
230. 12 Angry Men (original)
231. An American in Paris
232. In The Cut
233. Joe Versus The Volcano
234. Velvet Goldmine
235. Far From Heaven
236. Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban
237. Playing by Heart
238. The Village (di pa din palabas!)
239. Starsky & Hutch
240. Battle Royale
241. MoonChild
242. Oresama
243. My Own Private Idaho (1991)
244. Blue Velvet (1986)
245. Central do Brasil (Central Station) (1998)
246. Being There (1979)
247. Lawrence of Arabia (1962)
248. Ran (1985)
249. Le Retour de Martin Guerre (The Return of Martin Guerre) (1982)
250. The Piano Teacher
251. Delicatessen
252. Y Tu Mama Tambien
253. Autumn in New York
254. Dreams by Akira Kurosawa
255. Along Came Polly (mamayang hapon)
256. Cinema Paradiso
257. One Flew Over the Cuckooâs Nest
258. Stolen Summer
259. Catch Me If You Can
260. Malena

wala lang

Fri, 13 Aug 2004 08:54:21 +0000

the most fulfilled moments of my work is when i am with the kids. except that does not happen too often nowadays. sigh.

i really miss my nephews and nieces in cebu.

birthday soon!

Fri, 30 Jul 2004 05:51:39 +0000

i really don\'t pay much attention to my birthday. i always just remember it because well... i was born that day. but after a very lonely 25th birthday, i decided to just enjoy the fact that for one day of my life, it\'s all about me.

anyway... i was able to get WITCH issues from 13-16. It\'s 17 and 18 that is still out of print, but maybe in two months time, it\'ll be coming out again. yipee!

i don\'t know what to get myself for my birthday but i am buying clothes and books later. still it is more of a payday treat than anything else, since i often buy books and there was this skirt that i fell so in love with in galleria.

maybe i\'ll just save my self-gift until christmas for a digital camera. since i do not have much savings yet i will rely on my kaban ng yaman which is my blue piggy bank filled with fives and tens.

thanks to those who greeted me so far. advertising really does work.

i am HOPING for a better, happier year this time.

birthday wishlist

Fri, 23 Jul 2004 05:02:47 +0000

I want:

Matching beach malongs for curtains to my room

Ranma 1/2, Oh my Goddess, X-Men, Spiderman, Valkyrie, Death, Endless or Astroboy posters for my wall

LOTR, Harry Potter, Peter Pan, Ten Things I hate about you, Spiderman, Edward Scissorhands, Amelie or Batman Returns movie posters for my wall

Black Eyed Peas, Linkin Park, Smokey Mountain 1, Eraserheads (original) posters for my wall

The Best of Stevie Wonder 2-disc CD

Powerbooks or National Bookstore gift certificate

A nice pair of Adidas rubber shoes

a nice pair of Speedos or Arena two-piece (boy shorts bottom and racer-back top)

Seasons of Mists graphic novel

That Sandman graphic novel on the story of Destruction, whatâs the title of that?

WITCH issues 13-18

A multi-region DVD player with karaoke function

A 3.2 MP with 3x optical zoom, 10x digital zoom digital camera

An iMac

An entire editing suite

more meows!

Mon, 19 Jul 2004 04:48:03 +0000

This is another cat picture I adore so much.

Buti pa sila may katabi matulog. Hehehe!

And don't you think, they look so human in this picture. Just like a mother cuddling her little one. Reminds me somewhat of the Mommy and BB in Kill Bill.

Wala lang.

ngyawr!

Tue, 6 Jul 2004 09:33:31 +0000

I love felines! It could possibly be because my zodiac sign is Leo (oohâ¦ birthday coming up soon!). But then again, there isnât any connection.

They have the perfect size for cuddling. That is if they let you. I once came upon a cat and dog comparison in Readerâs Digest that went something like this:

âIf you feed, shelter and care for a dog, they think you are god. If you feed, shelter and care for a cat, they think they are a god.â

Tee-hee-hee! How true!

These creatures are so fascinating. Domestic cats, even when they become adults, remain to be cute and cuddly. Unlike some dogs, who like human beings, may lose their charm and cuteness when hormones kick in (nonetheless, they remain to be lovely creatures as they have kinder and more grateful hearts than any creature I know). It must be the catâs size, which at full grown stage, is about the same size as an infant. Something I picked up from National Geographic.

I used to have a cat named Kim. Heâs a male except our helper who worked in Thailand named him and she is scary woman. I would have preferred to name Kim something like Thunder or Muning (ang labo!).

We had to get Kim (by the way, that cat up there, he isnât Kim. Heâs just something I got from the e-mail) to deal with our mice problem when we living in the poor (as in almost squatter-like) side of Makati. My family has tried Dora rat killer, mouse traps, fly paper yet they still proliferate likeâ¦ well, rodents. You wake up in the morning, groggily go to the bathroom and are greeted with the sight of a mouse swimming in the bath water and even worse the toilet bowl. EUW! I cringe at the memory. EUW!

So when Kim arrivedâ¦ bam, bam, bam! Dead mice all over the place. Not as much scurrying. Not as much squeaking. Yipee! Except whenever I see the poor rodents, Iâd scream, âaaaaaaaaaahhhh! Dad-dddddeeeeeeeh! Kooooooo-yaaaaaaah!â and run as far away as possible.

When we transferred to Paranaque, Kim continued using his predatory skills. Weâd wake up in the morning greeted by bodies of mice by the doorstep. Contrary to Tom and Jerry folklore, cats donât eat mice. They just hunt them for play. And apparently, according to another National Geographic docu, dead creatures brought by cats are sign of thanks. Uh, welcome then. Uhâ¦ Excuse me while I run to the nearest toilet bowl. Euw.

Ah well, my love affair with cats waned when Kim disappeared to die. He may have gotten some disease from strays because during the last days we were together *sniff, sniff*, he was awfully skinny and weak. When he never came back, I knew he went off some place for a dignified death. I preferred it that way. There wasnât any yard we could have buried him in.

Sudden death came to my relationship with cats after I had my first taste of alcohol when I was sixteen. That was when I realized I was allergic to it. Damn shit. How unlucky can I get. After that, any contact with the felines, got me sneezing and sniffing and puffy.

Waaaaah!

And so thatâs that.

Uh, this entry doesnât seem to have much of a point.

crushin\'

Tue, 29 Jun 2004 08:21:18 +0000

One of my friends sent me this picture. It was Buwiâs wedding and she was invited by his sister who happens to be her good friend.

Why did she send me the picture? Because she knows I have the biggest crush on one of them. Actually, ever since I have been in Davao, I have not thought much about them except to enjoy their music whenever Iâm in the mood to be silly.

But this pictureâ¦ this damn picture got me crushinâ on him again. :boys: Together with the information my spy has given. He was the only one in the band who didnât have a girlfriend with him. Most of the night, he didnât have anyone to talk to. Omigod. :crazy: That could have been my chance! We could have talked about Robotech and valkyrie fighters! I could have asked him about his Robotech collection! I could ask him about life back when he wasnât in the band yet.

Argh. :boggled: I suddenly missed watching their gigs in Bistro again. I suddenly missed the feeling of just staring at him, giggling to myself for thinking him cute because he just sits still while the rest of the band act silly and crazy. Iâd snicker at the memory of him singing âDonât Touch My Birdieâ and struggling with all his might not to laugh at the innuendoes. He was just the cutest things then.

I think Iâm in-love again. Silly me. I need some bopping on the head. :loveeyes:

âHello, Earth to valkyrie! Rock star? No hope? Wake up?â *bop, bop, bop* :tooth:

Pero libre naman ang mangarap eh. :broken:

get out

Sat, 26 Jun 2004 00:57:14 +0000

Sometimes when in a dark room, all you need to do is open the door and get out.

vicarious motherhood

Mon, 21 Jun 2004 05:46:42 +0000

Wanda Jude or Ea, is the latest addition to my older sister's brood. The fifth and last of the bunch (to make sure, she had ligation). Isn't she a beaut!?

Her kids are spaced two years apart, unintentionally. None of the five were planned. But all of them are beautiful, precocious children who have brought sunshine and joy (and soiled diapers, fiery tempers, too) to every house they lived in.

The first four - Nonay, Yano, One and Eo - I took part in caring for. That was before my sister moved to Cebu with her husband to establish their medical careers. (My sis is one of the 64 neuropediatricians [or is it pedianeurologists?] in the country.)

All of them, I stared at when they were asleep. All of them, I carried and fed and burped, changed diapers and played with.

The tight hugs when you get home from work that took away the tired feeling. The kiddie conversations that make you realize that you might just have taken the world for granted as you mature. The cute, chiming laughter of children's voices that ring melodiously in your ears. There are many, many things I miss about having kids around the house. And a part of me feels bad of not being able to take part of Ea's life. How I long to go to Cebu and do my share in caring for her. I'd gladly play nanny to her if I could.

Maybe I was Maria Von Trapp in my past life, minus the singing voice. :p

But then I dread the role of real mother. Of not being enough of a woman to take responsibility of one from my own flesh. Of not being enough of a provider to make sure they have everything they need.

Though I seriously think that not a lot of mothers ever felt ready to take care of a child. That motherhood just unfurls itself everyday. That mistakes are made and lessons are learned. That you just hope you don't mess up the life of your child in the future.

Oh well.

At this point, I just miss being Tita Gie.