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40 - 54 Severely challenged (Less than 1% of test takers)
55 - 69 Challenged (2.3% of test takers)
70 - 84 Below average
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115 - 129 Above average
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Hahahaha!  Is this for real? XD!

I was just being curious because I would have a test tomorrow (on one of the companies I am applying for) and I thought of having a little practice.

Oh well, I am going to take more tests to see if this is true.  If it is, then lol. :>

]]> http://sylunedarkchylde.tabulas.com/2009/08/12/lol/ http://sylunedarkchylde.tabulas.com/2009/08/12/lol/ Wed, 12 Aug 2009 05:48:30 +0000 Rest well, Juneli. I hope you are happy.

 

...and that fucker who took your life will pay a thousand times over.

 

News.

]]> http://sylunedarkchylde.tabulas.com/2009/08/07/rest-well-juneli./ http://sylunedarkchylde.tabulas.com/2009/08/07/rest-well-juneli./ Fri, 07 Aug 2009 09:26:00 +0000 Apology She has always been my friend, my lover and my secret escape.  It's like a long lost friend that seemed to still fit so nicely with you even after years of being apart, as if nothing has changed.  It's like a faithful lover who patiently waits and accepts you after being apart for a long time.

While it is true that she has been faithful to me, I admit that I have not, but she still takes me in her reluctant embrace and weary eyes.

I am so sorry.

I wish things weren't as they are.  I wish there was a better way.

I'm sorry that I left you, and I'm sorry that I will still be leaving you, but you know very well how much I would want to hold you, cherish you and let you wrap your arms around me until I breathe my last breath.

I know it is wishful thinking to always think that you'll stay and continue to wait for me even after I leave you. 

But I want to let you know...

...that nothing even came close to the happiness you gave me.

I had money, I had power, I had friends, but none was ever able to touch me, move me, embrace me...

...love me the way you did.

I'm so sorry.

I'm so sorry that I am so confused.  I'm sorry that I couldn't fight for you, I couldn't stand for you and wait for you like you did for me.

I'm sorry for needing, for wanting things you cannot give me.  I'm sorry that I couldn't stand by you.

Now I look at my hands, tired and weary from years of toil, my heart burdened and confused...

...and ask myself, "are you still there"?

My hands tremble, tired, but I hear a faint, weak voice in my heart:


"I never left."

I'm coming back to you.  And this time I will cherish you, love you, and bring you back to how you were before.

Because you are my first love, my faithful friend, my cherished lover.

 

 

Thank you, art, for not leaving me.

]]> http://sylunedarkchylde.tabulas.com/2009/08/03/apology/ http://sylunedarkchylde.tabulas.com/2009/08/03/apology/ Mon, 03 Aug 2009 10:14:00 +0000 Fuck, I can't sleep.

I'd stop the world and melt with you.
Created by letsnotgetbusted and taken 49 times on Bzoink
What do you do to stay awake when you're tired?: I play games and nom on crackers
Are all nighters something you have grown used to?: Yes
Do you use sun block or tanning accelerator?: Nope
Do you usually wear sunglasses when you're driving?: No
Do you wear your shoes around the house?: No
Is there ever a time that you enjoy cold showers?: I always enjoy cold showers
What clothes are you most comfortable in?: My PJs
Are you more likely to keep secrets about yourself, or level with people?: I like to keep things to myself
Is there anybody you're not ashamed to tell anything to?: Yes
What has changed most about you in the past year?: I have grown more confused haha!
Are you good at painting nails?: Yes
If it's late at night and you're hungry, what do you reach for?: Crackers
Smoothies or slushies?: Smoothies
Are you good at filling silence in awkward situations?: Nope
Be honest, have you ever used Wikipedia for school work?: No haha!
What word should you really probably remove from your vocabulary?: ...owut.
Can you multitask well?: I think so o.o
What's your opinion on good grammar: important or not?: VERY IMPORTANT. I judge people when they use poor grammar. XD
Will you eat something if it falls on the ground?: Sure, depending how dirty it is.
Do you rip out the page if you make a mistake writing, or cross it out?: Cross it out. Help the environment. GO PAPERLESS!
Ignoring nutrition, could you live off veggies for the rest of your life?: Yes
Do you see the value in education?: Of course.
Elaborate on a way you have volunteered?: ...volunteered for what?
Do you use a full length mirror daily?: No
Can you walk in heels, or do you feel awkward in them?: I can walk in 5-inch heels with no problem. :3
What type of TV shows do you like best?: I don't watch TV ._.
Any TV shows you sit down weekly to watch?: *points at previous question*
Are you more physically flexible or situationally flexible?: Situationally flexible.
Do you care much for the music on the radio?: No, I don't listen to it either.
Does anybody know about your sex life other than your partners?: Hahaha no.
Even if you don't like politics, do you still have opinions on the issues?: Of course.
Mac or PC?: PC D:<
Are you one to sneak food into movie theaters?: Of course.
What type of pillow is your favorite to sleep on?: Cotton pillows! I hate synthetic/feather pillows >.>
Do you think feminism is necessary anymore?: No
Will you tell someone if there's something in their teeth?: Yes
Are you prone to illness?: Yes
What does most of your money go toward?: Food, meds and transpo
Do you ever actually make your bed?: No haha!
Do you make an effort to eat healthy?: Yes
You've been totally Bzoink*d!
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--I know you like personal surveys really--
Created by kamy--x and taken 86 times on Bzoink
Are you a morning Person?: Yes
Whats the first thing you do when you wake up?: Check if Cat's online
Do you take Baths or Showers?: Showers
Do you like the rain?: Yes, very much
Does thunder scare you?: YES T_T
Have you lost any friends lately?: I don't think so o.o
Do you feel lonely right now?: Yes, very
What are you doing apart from this quiz?: Trying to decide if I should go to work or not
Do you have any exs?: Yes
Are you 100% happy with the way you look?: Nope
If not, why aren't you happy?: Everyone has their little insecurities sometimes
When was the last time you cried?: Umm, last Saturday
Why did you cry?: Trying to sort out my life and failing miserably XD
Who shouted at you last?: I can't remember
Have you ever stolen anything big?: Nope, the biggest I've stolen was $2
Have you got any piercings?: Yes
Do you want some piercings, or want some more?: I already have enough :3
Have you ever done drugs?: Yes
Have you ever gotten drunk?: Yes
Is there anything big right now that you haven't told your parents?: Yes
Is there a secret that nobody knows?: Haha no
Do you keep a diary?: Used to.
If you do, what kind of things do you write about in it?: Usually when I want to remember good things or when I have no one else to talk to about bad things.
Do you have an enemies?: I don't know. I JUDGE YOUR POOR GRAMMAR XD
Have you ever kissed someone of the same sex as you?: Nope, I don't swing that way.
Have you/ Did you ever skip school?: Of course lol! My favorite hobby.
Do you think you are a honest person?: Nah-uh.
Whats your view on homosexuality?: Whatever floats their boat. As long as it's not concerning me, I don't care.
Are you happy with your current weight?: Nope ._.
Have you ever had a eating disorder?: Nope
Are you shy?: Sometimes, yes.
Have you ever thought about suicide?: Yeah, like now. /emo /wrist
If you had to comit suicide how would you do it?: I'd skydive and never pull my parachute. Just close my eyes and fall endlessly.
Do you like to stand out from the crowd?: Sometimes
Do you swear a lot?: No
Do you prefer texting, calling people or talking online?: Calling people and talking online. Cheaper that way.
Have you ever questioned your sexuality?: Nope
Do you think you eat healthily enough?: Yes
Do you think you are smart?: I don't know XD
Do you regret anything in your life so far?: Yes, I have many regrets.
Whats the weirdest dream you've ever had?: Talking to a dead person o.o
Do you smoke?: Used to.
Whats your greatest fear?: Failure and cockroaches.
Have you ever lied about your age?: Nope, I'm 25 and damn proud of it D:<
Have you ever been in love?: Yes
Do you even believe in love?: Of course
Do you flirt a lot?: No
How many people do you trust?: Very few.
Do you secretly hate any of your friends?: No
Do you love all your family?: My mom and sis, yes. The others are just weirdos.
Have you ever told someone you loved them when you didnt?: Haha no
Are you addicted to anything?: YES *nudges Cat*
Have you ever made someone cry?: I think so ._. sorry...
Have you ever been bullied?: LOL yeah. But I whooped their sorry asses so lol!
Who do you love the most?: My kitty cat.
What are your aims/goals in life?: I just want a simple life. I don't need to be wealthy.
Do you miss anyone right now?: YES T_T
How do you feel right now?: Bad. I can't sleep at all.
Whats your biggest fear?: Dude, I just said failure and cockroaches.
Are you pessimistic or optimistic?: I'm a damn pessimist ._.
Do you wish you could go back in time?: YES
Do you wish you had never met anyone?: No
Do you get depressed sometimes?: A lot, you mean.
What are 6 words to describe your personality?: Quiet, reserved, observant, intimidating, confused, distant
Do you hide your feelings or share them with others?: I hide them and share them with only a few whom I trust.
Do you have loads of friends or only a few?: A few
Do you believe in God?: Yes
Have you ever stolen from a friend?: No
Do you get jealous of your friends sometimes?: No
Do you stereotype people based on their looks?: No
If you had 2 minutes to live who would you call and what would you say?: I'd call Cat, and tell him I love him and that he was the best thing that came into my life.
Do you cry easily?: Yes
Do you wear make up and if you do why?: Sometimes, for work.
Are you addicted to the internet?: YES
You've been totally Bzoink*d!
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]]> http://sylunedarkchylde.tabulas.com/2009/07/19/fuck-i-cant-sleep./ http://sylunedarkchylde.tabulas.com/2009/07/19/fuck-i-cant-sleep./ Sun, 19 Jul 2009 19:36:36 +0000 Signs and Decisions Okay, this is really weird.

I have always wanted to become a painter...to teach others how to paint, and to help people.  I have always wanted to be a teacher, to make a difference in people's lives.  However, I have decided to give up on that dream--just around two months ago, and I cried so hard of all the sadness I felt about giving up on something that I really loved.

Then, recently, things happened that I just couldn't ignore them:

First, I thought I had the best luck in the world, because when me and my mom went to National Bookstore, I found a life drawing book that used to be PhP1,600 on sale for PhP300.  I was thinking if I should buy it, because at that time I knew that I already had given up on painting and I really didn't need it.  But for some reason my hands never let go of the book, and as me and mom went to pay in the counter, I ended up paying for it as well.

Second, I suddenly visited my DeviantArt site and I noticed that the last artwork I did was over a year ago.  I wrote a journal, and I apologized for not updating anymore (although I wouldn't really know if people would care, since it's been a year), but surprisingly, there were a few comments.  It may be a few, but there were comments.  And they did say they missed my works.  I was slightly fascinated that people still remembered me, or even bothered to read what I was babbling about.

Third, around less than a week ago, I received a text message from a friend in college, which was forwarded from our college professor.  It was an invitation to
join an exhibit.  I wasn't really up to it, mainly because I had my own expenses
and I didn't think I could spare any more money.

Fourth, just a few days ago, I realized how tired I am with running away from the things that I wanted the most.  I have been avoiding these things mainly because, if I'm going to think practically, it's not going to help me earn money as fast as I could.  But living this kind of life has become most taxing; my health and emotions suffer each and every day.  I suddenly felt old, tired and depressed.

Fifth, just yesterday, I was able to talk with (by chance) my former classmate in college.  He said he was going to take take up masters degree.  I was hurt to a point, mainly because of envy, that other people actually have the means to realize their dreams and I have to fend for myself.  But all the while I was talking to him, it came to a point that we were talking about things that we wanted to do (since we always go to this kind of conversation), and he himself is not satisfied with what's happening with his life, so he decided to give it a shot.  By observing him, I noticed that we aren't really that different.  He decided that we could help each other, and right then I made the first decision of many: I am going to school on Friday, talk to my former professors and ask for a referral letter to get a Masters Degree.

Sixth, also yesterday, I was still confused and torn, and my most patient and caring other half talked to me about it.  He said that he wanted to see me do things that I want to do.  He even remembered the time when I cried to him when I decided to give up on my dream, and he admitted to me that I was in so much despair that he felt his own heart being torn out.  He then told me that he doesn't want me to cry like that anymore...and all of a sudden, he wanted me to read "The Alchemist".  I was surprised, since he really wasn't the reading type, but he said the book will help me, so I downloaded an e-book and gave it a shot.

Seventh.  I was reading the first parts of the book and it made me even more confused with that big decision that I'm going to make.  Sure, it's good to talk
big about following your dreams, but as the book progressed on, and I read
about the challenges and soon I realized: I have been doing things the
wrong way.  I have been over-analyzing things and was being too practical to
the extent that I was forgetting what happiness was.  And all this time, all these years, all I ever wanted was to be happy.  But I didn't really make any action to pursue it.  So it remained ever elusive; and I felt trapped.

Eighth, I suddenly received a message from an old classmate, way back in
Elementary/Primary School.  She was asking me how was I doing.  I looked up her profile and I saw very familiar things:  she is a member of the Art Association of the Philippines, which I used to be a member, and is now a professor.  Again, my heart burned with envy.  I wanted to be just like that.  But
instead of nursing that little pang of pain, I opened up a conversation and
told her that I want to be like her.

Ninth.  When I closed the message window and refreshed a page, an update from another classmate from Elementary had a quote that was stated in the book.  It went like this:


"Whenever your heart is, there you'll
find your treasure.  You've got to find
the treasure, so that everything you
have learned along the way can make
sense."

So tell me: is it just me and my wishful thinking, or is it a sign that I should, this time, pursue what I have always wanted?

I know, I know...it's also easy to say that those are signs for me, but signs are signs, and reality is reality.  I am weighing things down, mainly on my financial needs, because if I have any chance of getting a Masters Degree, I would have to have money, or a way to earn money.  Working in a call center is not going to help me at all, not unless they have day shifts, or part-times. 

Well, I wouldn't know if getting this degree will be impossible or not unless I try, right?

So yes, here I am, and I am going to try.  I know there are things that I need to
sacrifice, and there will be a breaking point where I would just want to give up, but God help me, I don't want to live my life in a call center anymore.  I tried, believe me, for FOUR years, I tried to make myself love my job, but it just isn't working.  It's not what my heart wants.  It's not what I would want for my children.  It's not something that I would allow myself to be subjected to, again.  I want to paint, and I want to teach how to paint.  That was what I
have always wanted.

And I still want to be that. 

So help me, God.

]]> http://sylunedarkchylde.tabulas.com/2008/12/17/signs-and-decisions/ http://sylunedarkchylde.tabulas.com/2008/12/17/signs-and-decisions/ Wed, 17 Dec 2008 02:04:01 +0000 Tara's Story I don't know why I am doing this, but maybe because I cannot help but feel sad about what happened.  I personally do not know Tara, or have spoken to her, but a lot of my friends do, and it saddens me to see such things happen to good people.  I am posting this in behalf of my friends.

The post is written in Filipino, but I translated it in English the best that I could.  You could find the English translation right after the first one.

Please do consider reposting, or reading this one.  Me, my friends and Tara's family would greatly appreciate it if you could help, by any means.  Since I have no monetary help to give, this is the best I could do.

If you decide to give monetary help, information on how to give them is in my previous post.

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(Reposted from Stormy's blog.)

This blog was taken from Ms. Lacsamana's account and purely written in Filipino (she's our Filipino teacher as well).

This is not to get all the hate from readers only, but to open the eyes of everyone because this is inevitable.

"Kararating ko lang galing Medical City. Dinalaw namin at ipinagdasal si Tara. Kasama ko sina Sir
Louie Lorenzo, Sir Lito Jimenez, Ms. Taks Clarete, Ms Ettie Miranda at Ms. Rorie Francisco.

Halos mapuno ang pasilyo ng ospital dahil sa mga nakapilang mga tao na nais makita si Tara.
Nagtataka ang ilang nars dahil ang daming bisita ni Tara. Di nakatiis ang isang nars at nagtanong
kung kaanu-ano namin si Tara. Sabi namin " dati naming estudyante." Ang sagot ng aming kausap ay
" ang dami niyang bisita hanggang kahapon." Isang matipid na ngiti at sabay sabing " oo,  dahil
marami ang nagmamahal kay Tara."

Niyakap kami ni Lila, ang kapatid ni Tara na naging estudyante rin namin. Pinauna kami na
makapasok sa ICU upang tingnan si Tara. Dala-dalawa lang ang maaaring makapasok sa ICU at sa
labas lamang ng kuwarto na may salamin mo makikita si Tara. Sa ganoong sitwasyon sari-saring
emosyon ang iyong mararamdaman. Mahirap at masakit sa loob na makita ang dati mong estudyante
sa ganoong kalagayan. Halos maga na ang kanyang ulo na may benda. Malakas ang kanyang paghinga sa tulong ng respirator. Halos nakalabas ang itim na bahagi ng mata dahil na rin sa bala ng baril na nasa kanyang utak. Kausap namin ang kanyang ina at isinalaysay ang tunay na nangyari. 10% lang ang tsansa kung maooperahan siya. Ang bala ng baril ay "double action." Ibig sabihin nito ay maliliit na bahagi ng bala ay nakakalat sa kanyang utak. Mahirap at maselan ang operasyon dahil iisa-isahing tanggalin ang maliit na bahagi ng bala.  

Nagpakilala ako sa kanyang ina at sinabi ko na ako ang teacher-in-charge  (IV-3 batch 2003) ni Tara. Tinanong ko siya kung ano ba talaga ang nangyari. Iba kasi ang mga naglalabasang balita.

Siya namang dating ni Joee, bestfriend ni Tara. Isinalaysay ni Joee ang tunay na  nangyari. Birthday ni Tara ng Agosto 6. Nag-text sa kanya si Tara na magkita sa "Burger King" sa Marcos Highway. Galing pa si Joee sa CSB, Taft Ave. Napagkasunduan nilang hintayin ang 12:00 ng madaling araw upang ipagdiwang ang 23 kaarawan ni Tara. Matapos ang 12:00 ng madaling araw ay sumakay sila ng dyip pauwi ng Cainta, Rizal. Sila lang ang sakay ng dyip. Pahinto-hinto ang dyip upang magsakay ng pasahero. Hanggang may isang lalaki na sumakay sa dyip na umupo sa tabi ni Tara sa bandang hulihan. Pababa ang lalaki ng agawin ang bag ni Tara. Naghatakan sila sa bag. Nakarinig na lang ng putok si Joee na nakaupo sa tabi ni Tara. Nang tingnan niya si Tara, ito pala ang nabaril at sa ulo mismo. Sinabi ni Joee sa driver na dalhin sila sa malapit na ospital. Bago pa sila makarating sa malapit na klinika ay binaba pa isa-isa ang mga pasahero. Halos isang oras bago sila nakarating. Pagkahatid sa klinika ay iniwan na sila ng drayber. Tinanggihan ng klinika na tanggapin si Tara dahil hindi nila kayang gamutin. Naghintay pa si Joee ng mahabang sandali upang tulungan sila ng mga nars na tumawag ng taxi at dalhin sa Eulogio "Amang " Rodriguez Hospital si Tara. Isipin na lang na 5' 2 ang taas ni Joee at siya pa ang nagbuhat kay Tara. Di na makausap ni Joee si Tara nang nasa EAR hospital. Tinawagan niya ang mga magulang ni Tara at kanyang mga magulang upang ipaalam ang mga pangyayari.
 
Nakalulungkot isipin na buhay na ang nakabingit ay parang walang pakialam ang mga pasahero ng dyip na nagpababa pa sa kani-kanilang destinasyon. Ikalawa, kung di  pa sumigaw si Joee upang magpatulong sa mga nars sa klinika na kanilang napuntahan na tumawag ng taksi upang dalhin sa pinakamalapit na ospital ay di pa kikilos. Siya pa ang nagbuhat kay Tara upang isakay sa taksi.

Medyo masakit at sariwa pa kay Joee ang mga pangyayari kaya di na kami nagtanong pa. Pumunta kami sa waiting area at nakita namin ang ama ni Tara. Tinawag  namin  ang mga kaibigan, kaklase at mga mahal sa buhay ni Tara upang manalangin. Sa pangunguna ni Ms. Taks Clarete ay ipinagdasal namin si Tara.

Pagkatapos ng limang (5) taon ay nagkita-kita kami ng aking mga dating mag-aaral at TIC class. Nakalulungkot ang sabi ng isang mag-aaral  " Ms, dito pa tayo nag-reunion." Sabi ko sa ilang mga dati kong estudyante na noong Agosto 1, bigla na lang sumulpot si Tara sa facebook at humihiling na i-add ko siya. Nang mabalitaan ko ang nangyari sa kanya ay tiningnan ko ang kanyang facebook profile. Sinulatan ko siya sa kanyang 'wall' dahil kaarawan niya. Di ko alam kung ano ang ibig niyang sabihin sa kanyang "recent activity" na nakasulat sa facebook: " Tara Bosch Santelices is chasing analog ghosts." Ikinuwento ko sa kanila na para siyang may premonisyon. Ang sagot ng ilan ay ; "Miss, sa kanyang ym ay kanyang isinulat: "bullet through my head."

Para sa iyo Tara, nandito kami .... nanalangin at nagbabantay sa iyong paggaling."


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ENGLISH TRANSLATION:

"I just came from Medical City.  We visited and offered our prayers for Tara.  I was with Sir Louie Lorenzo, Sir Lito Jimenez, Ms. Taks Clarete, Ms Ettie Miranda and Ms. Rorie Francisco.

The hospital hallways were packed because of the people who wanted to see Tara.  Some nurses were curious because of the number of Tara's visitors.  One nurse had to ask how we are related to Tara.  We said "our former student."  The nurse said "she has had so many visitors since yesterday."  I just smiled and said "yes, because a lot of people love Tara."

We received a hug from Lila, Tara's sister and also one of our former students.  We were allowed to go first in the ICU to see Tara.  Only two persons were allowed in the ICU at a time and we could only see her through a viewing glass window.  In that situation, you'd feel a lot of mixed emotions.  Her head was almost swollen, wrapped with gauze; her breathing was loud with the help of the respirator.  Her iris was almost showing because of the bullet that was still in her head.

We were talking with her mother and she told us what really happened.  She only has a 10% chance if the was to undergo surgery.  The bullet was a "double action".  It means that the small pieces of the bullet was scattered all over her brain.  It is going to be a hard and risky operation because they would have to remove each and every piece in her head.

I introduced myself to her mom and I said I was the teacher in charge in Tara's class (IV-3 batch 2003).  I asked her what really happened, because there were a lot of speculations.

It was then that Joee, Tara's best friend, came in.  She told us the whole story.  It was Tara's birthday last August 6.  Tara sent her a text message to meet up at Burger King along Marcos Highway.  Joee came all the way from CSB, Taft Avenue.  They decided to wait until 12:00 midnight to celebrate Tara's 23rd birthday.  After 12 midnight, they rode a jeep home to Cainta, Rizal.  They were the only ones in the vehicle.  The jeep had to stop occassionally to get more passengers, until a man sat beside Tara at the back part of the vehicle.  The man was about to alight the jeep when he suddenly tried to snatch Tara's bag.  They both tugged at the bag.  Joee just heard a gunshot right beside Tara, to her surprise it was Tara who was shot in the head.  Joee told the driver to take them to the nearest hospital.  Before they could even reach the hospital, the jeep stopped occassionally to let all the remaining passengers alight the vehicle.  It took them almost an hour to arrive at the nearest clinic.  When they did, the driver just left them to themselves.  The clinic declined to treat Tara because they can't be able to help her.  Joee had to wait a long time to get help from the nurses to hail a taxi to take Tara to Eulogio "Amang" Rodriguez Hospital.  Just imagine Joee's height of 5'2", and she was the one who had to carry Tara all the way.  Joee wasn't able to talk to Tara anymore when they got to Eulogio "Amang" Rodriguez Hospital.  She called Tara's parents to tell them what happened.

It saddens me to think of a life hanging by a thread seems nothing to the people in the jeep, that they could actually think of stopping the vehicle to get to wherever they're going to, knowing that a life is at stake.  Also, if Joee didn't shout for help from the nurses in the clinic, they won't go out of their way to help her.  She even was the one who carried Tara to ride a taxi.

It was still painful and traumatizing for Joee to think of what happened, so we didn't ask for anything more.  We went to the waiting area and we saw Tara's father.  We called out Tara's friends, loved ones and classmates to pray.  The prayer was lead by Ms. Taks Clarete.

After 5 years, we were reunited with my former students in TIC class.  One of my former student sadly said "Miss, of all the places we'd have our reunion, it had to be here."  I told my other students that last August 1, Tara suddenly showed up in my Facebook asking me to add her.  When I found out what happened to her I checked her facebook profile.  I said something on her "wall", because it was her birthday.  I didn't know what she meant on her "recent activity" what was written on Facebook: "Tara Santelices is chasing analog ghosts."  I was telling them that she might have had a premonition.  Some of them said, "Miss, her Yahoo Messenger status message was bullet through my head."

For you, Tara, we are here...praying and waiting for your recovery.

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TARA FEST

Update5: Fundraising Gigs for Tara and her Family

We, Tara's friends and family are trying to raise funds for Tara's medical bills. It is also to uplift the morale of Tara and her Family. Please support our events for Tara.

Thank you for your support.

August 9 (Saturday)
Bela Bar - Skies of Ember, Rubber Inc., Elemento, Carnival Park, Archaster, and more. (more details on dotternus.multiply.com) 9pm onwards
70s Bistro - Coffeebreak Island, Lady I, Chongkeys, Unitiima. 9pm onwards

August 11 (Monday)
Mag:net Bonifacio Highstreet - in cooperation with RockEd. Feat: Pedicab, Imago, Rivermaya, Gasulina, Unitiima 6-9pm only
Ten02 - Skies of ember, Scarlet Tears, Names are for Tombstones, The Bernadettes, The Late Isabel, We Nocturnal, Aurora Borealis, Dayuhan, Fuseboxx, La Luna. 8pm onwards

August 12 (Tuesday)
Mag:net Katipunan - Gang Badoy's Birthday (Open to everyone and will also be a fundraising event for Tara)

August 13 (Wednesday)
Freedom Bar - Nyctinasty, Kidzpool, Dayuhan, Sters, Chubibo and more. 9pm
Souk Cafe, Dasma Cavite - "I EXIST for TARA" EXIST artists. 8pm onwards

August 14 (Thursday)
Bela Bar - Electronica and Experimental Artists
Route196 - Chillitees, Cambio, Gasulina, Project 2, Hija, and more.

August 15 (Friday)
Route196 - Terno Inferno for Tara. All Terno Bands. 9pm.

August 16 (Saturday)
Route196 - Open Mic (acoustic) and Open art exhibit for women. Organized by Lunduyan ng Sining and F.A.M.E.
Mogwai Cubao X - Organized by RockEd. Feat: Radioactive Sago, Juan Pablo Dream, Cambio, Gasulina, Shift, Chillitees
Nine Mile - 420 Party.

August 25 (Monday)
Route196 - slots open

Other venues without final dates yet:
Big Sky Mind
Saguijo
Club Dredd
Gweilos Makati

Other events/groups:
NU107
Jam 88.3
Magic 89.9
RockEd
Terno Recordings
F.A.M.E
Lunduyan ng Sining

Please Spread the Love for Tara. Thanks.

 

]]> http://sylunedarkchylde.tabulas.com/2008/08/11/taras-story/ http://sylunedarkchylde.tabulas.com/2008/08/11/taras-story/ Mon, 11 Aug 2008 03:15:48 +0000 For Tara THERE SOMETHING WE CAN DO FOR TARA BOSCH-SANTELICES. PLEASE FORWARD TO EVERYONE YOU KNOW.

(Reposted from Mario @ kinkmonster.multiply.com)

Word spreads around fast and almost everyone has already heard about what happened to our afriend, Tara Santelices (Assumption Antipolo's Batch 2003 and Ateneo de Manila University's Class of 2007, AB Political Science).

On the eve of her 23rd birthday, Tara was shot in the head during a hold-up while riding a jeepney along Imelda Avenue, Cainta, Rizal. Joee Mejias, who was with her at that time, rushed her to Amang Rodriguez Memorial Hospital in Marikina City. The parents of Tara and Joee arrived at the hospital shortly thereafter. When morning came, Tara's parents finally decided to transfer her to the Medical City, Ortigas Avenue, Pasig City. Since 8:00am of August 6, Tara has been in the ICU fighting for her dear life. Her parents have decided not to push through with the operation.

Although it might seem that there is nothing else that we can do but wait for Tara to wake up from this horrific nightmare, we, the friends of Tara, have decided to raise funds for Tara's hospital bills. This is the least we can do to ease the unbearable pain her family is going through. We have been given the go-signal from Tara's dad, Tito Larry, and here are the details:

The temporary bank account is under Anne Marie F. Santelices, Banco de Oro, SA 2140-062201. For direct cash donations, please proceed to the ICU Waiting Room of the Medical City (Ortigas Avenue, Pasig City). Please look for Joee Mejias or Lila Santelices.

Any amount will be gratefully accepted. Anonymous donations are also welcome. Please spread the word. Forward this to your family, friends and even to everyone else you know. Please post this on Friendster, Multiply, Facebook and wherever else you can think of. Please send group messages on Yahoo Messenger. This will mean so much to us, her friends.

Please continue praying for Tara, for Joee and for both of their families. If you want to come see Tara, visiting hours at the ICU are at 9:00 am to 11:00 am and 5:00 pm to 7:00 pm.

Thank you so much for your time and kind consideration.

For inquiries, please contact Joee Mejias (09228154987) for calls and Jac Ledonio (09167243071) or Myka Francisco (09163695148) for text messages.

We, Tara's friends and family are trying to raise funds for Tara's medical bills. It is also to uplift the moral of Tara and her Family. Please support our events for Tara.
Thank you for your support.


August 9 (Saturday)

Bela Bar - Skies of Ember, Rubber Inc., Elemento, Carnival Park, Archaster, and more. (more details on dotternus.multiply.com) 9pm onwards

70s Bistro - Coffeebreak Island, Lady I, slots still open. 7pm onwards

August 11 (Monday)

Ten02 - Skies of ember, Scarlet Tears, Names are for Tombstones, slots still open.

August 12 (Tuesday)

No final venue yet.

August 13 (Wednesday)

Freedom Bar - Slots open.

August 14 (Thursday)

Bela Bar - slots open.

August 15 (Friday)

Gweilos Makati - slots open. (venue not yet final)

August 16 (Saturday)

Route196 - Open Mic (acoustic) and Open art exhibit for ladies. Organized by Lunduyan ng Sining and F.A.M.E.

Mogwai Cubao X - Organized by RockEd.

August 25 (Monday)

Route196 - slots open.

]]> http://sylunedarkchylde.tabulas.com/2008/08/11/for-tara/ http://sylunedarkchylde.tabulas.com/2008/08/11/for-tara/ Mon, 11 Aug 2008 03:14:06 +0000 Cute! I think I'm having a second childhood.

I'm playing DRESS UP DOLLS.

Lookie, lookie! <3

 

 

Cute, aren't they? <3

I have been spending a lot of my time on dress-up flash games lately.  For someone who's bored enough to play Solitaire, this is definitely a lot more entertaining.  There are a lot more dress-up games such as this, but since I am a fantasy fan, I chose to post fantasy dress-up characters.  Although, the other reason why I don't do much of the typical dress up games is because...

...I FEEL THE URGE TO GO SHOPPING FOR CLOTHES!

You don't believe me?  Go to Y8 and look for the dress-up games in there, and I SWEAR TO EVERYTHING THAT'S HOLY, you will have the urge to shop for new clothes.  Click this to try it out.  This is only one of the many, though. =3  Since I like studs, chains and buckles, I posted this.  But look around; you might find something that suits your taste.

But yeah, second childhood or not, they are still amusing as hell.  It's definitely one of the "online games" girls (and gays) of all ages would really enjoy.


Which ones do you like most? <3

]]> http://sylunedarkchylde.tabulas.com/2008/07/29/cute/ http://sylunedarkchylde.tabulas.com/2008/07/29/cute/ Tue, 29 Jul 2008 05:08:51 +0000 And more boredom! A Good Survey, NOT the over used questions, you wil tell ur life story in this great for myspace!!!! Name?: Jyl Wish your name was?: Reine Age?: 25 Wish your age?: 19 What color hair do you have?: black What color hair do you want?: white what color eyes do you have?: black what color do you want?: blue or green I fyou could change one thing about your body what would it be?: I want to be skinnier lol If you could change one thing about yourself mentally what would it be?: I'd like to have more discipline If you could have one super power what would it be?: Teleportation If you could live one fairy tale which one would it be?: When everything ends with a happily ever after Who would you sacrafice your life for?: himitsu! Who do you love the most?: err... Is the saying true blood is thicker than water?: yes If you could be with one person in the world who would it be?: lalala If you could bring one person back who would it be?: my dad If you could wish one person out of your life who would it be?: sorry, they're not just one. Haha! Who do you hate the most?: no one Love the most?: dum dee doo
Miss the most?: loolalaaa Have the most fun with?: Sazha! hehe Would spend your life with?: hmm... Would spend your life without?: too many to mention haha Who have you know the longest?: My mom, of course. >.> Who is most like you?: I have no idea Who is your opposite?: my elder sister Who looks most like you?: No one What celeberty would you want to be if any?: No one What celeberty do you look most like?: I have no idea Are you high matnance?: no what is more important looks or personality honesty?: personality Is honesty always the best policy?: yes How many people have you dated this year?: 1 How many people have you asked out this year?: 1 How many people have you turned down this year?: I don't know. I lost count. ^^; If you had only one friend who would it be?: Sazha (yihee) If you could eat anything right now what would it be?: Chocolate Mousse T_T Do you love your friends or family more?: my mom. others in my family is just meh. What is your favorite band?: too many to mention What is your favorite song?: -points at previous answer- What sterotype are you ?: Goth, they said. Not sure myself, though. What sterotype would you like to be?: Goth! haha Did you ever cut yourself purposely?: NO Did you ever cry to get out anger?: yes Did you ever cry over a boy/girl?: yes Are you a virgin?: maaaaybe? Do you have a boyfriend?: lalala How long would you want to keep your virginity?: *whistles* If you lost it already do you regret it?: i haven't. If you could change one point in your life would you?: yes What religion are you?: Iglesia Ni Cristo How do you feel today?: so-so If you could be anywhere right now where would it be?: somewhere... If you had to be one of your friends sisters/brothers who would you pick?: Sazha What is your favorite candy?: none What is your favorite kind of guy/girl .... sterotype?: punk/goth How long do you like your relatioships to last?: until the day I die? lol How tall would you like your boyfriend/girlfriend?: as long as he's taller than me about how much would you like them to be, toothpick,skinny,average,bigger?: idc :> How did your last relationshp end?: the last one before this one? it was okay. we just talked and it ended peacefully with no hard feelings. Do you miss it?: no Were your ever really in love?: yes whats the last thing you would say to one person b/4 dieing?: Live well and be happy. I am at peace with God, I am happy to go. If you were in love would you get married before college?: I am done with college. Do you have more guy friends or girl friends?: ..guy. lol
If you could be at any point in your life what would it be?: right now. I am enjoying my freedom and being loved and needed by people. I wouldn't want anything else. If you had to pick a way to die how would it be?: in my bed, of old age. Do you like yourself?: yes What do you wish to become someday?: just a free soul being loved unconditionally by someone, and loving them in return. Do you trust people easily?: no How important is school to you?: very important What song are you listening to right now?: none If you could talk to anyone now who would it be?: living or dead? living, I'd like to have a long talk with my sister and mom. Dead, I'd like to talk to my dad. Delivery is at the door at your house who is it from ?: probably from me what is your perfect date like?: just having a long conversation over coffee while raining. if you could completely change who you are would you?: no would you be friends with yourself?: yes Do you talk to people often?: no Are your romantic?: maybe. I could if I feel like it. Do you talk bout your dreams?: yes, to only one person Do you dream often?: yes Do you ever pray?: everytime I get the chance. Did you ever cheat on your boyfriend/girlfriend?: never How many hours do you spend on myspace?: just a few minutes, checking inboxes and friend requests What is the layout?: I made my own What is the song?: Still Doll by Kanon Wakeshima Do you know everybody on your myspace friends?: no Do you like everybody on your myspace friends?: no Do you like who you are becoming?: somewhat. What is the most important thing in your life?: My relationship with God. what would you never change about yourself?: my lack of discipline When was the last time you cried?: yesterday, at church Do you think the guy should always pay?: no What is your favorite movie?: too many to mention What movie sucked the most?: haha TOO MANY TO MENTION Who is your favorite actress?: none Who is your favorite actor?: none If you could change one thing in our world what would it be?: I wish it wouldn't be so damn hot during summer! Do you have any bad habits?: smoking Do you think your fat?: yes Are you overweight?: yes What was the last thing you ate?: rice and fish What is better mcdonalds/burgerking?: BK Would you date Ron off of harry potter? /guy,hermoinie off harry potter?: no Woud you date a guy/girl with freckels?: sure, if they're nice and if I like them if you could star in one movie what would it be?: none Who do you want to be like?: my mom ^_^ what word best describes yourself?: nurturing Take this survey | Find more surveys
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]]> http://sylunedarkchylde.tabulas.com/2008/05/19/and-more-boredom/ http://sylunedarkchylde.tabulas.com/2008/05/19/and-more-boredom/ Mon, 19 May 2008 06:14:45 +0000 >.> bored. • c o n f e s s i o n s •~•*be honest*•~- y e s - o r - n o -I'M AFRAID OF SILENCE:no I TALK A LOT WHEN I GET NERVOUS:no I AM REALLY TICKLISH:no I'VE BEEN CALLED A TEASE:yes I'VE BEEN CALLED "JAIL-BAIT":no, cradle-snatcher more like! I'M AFRAID OF THE DARK:no I'M AFRAID OF FACING MY BACK TO OPEN DOORS AT NIGHT:yes I CAN'T SLEEP IN A ROOM IF THE CLOSET DOOR IS OPEN:yes I AM A HOMOSEXUAL:NO I BELIEVE IN TRUE LOVE:yes I'VE RUN AWAY FROM HOME:no I LISTEN TO POLITICAL MUSIC:no I COLLECT COMIC BOOKS:no I SHUT OTHERS OUT WHEN I'M SAD:yes I'VE STAYED OUT ALL NIGHT:yes I OPEN UP TO OTHERS EASILY:no I AM KEEPING A SECRET FROM THE WORLD:yes I WATCH THE NEWS:no I OWN OVER 5 RAP CD'S:no I LOVE DISNEY MOVIES:no I AM A SUCKER FOR GREEN EYES:YES! *sighs* I AM A SUCKER FOR BROWN EYES:no I AM A SUCKER FOR BLUE EYES:no I DON'T KILL BUGS:NO! They have to DIE!!! I CURSE:yes I'VE CHEATED ON MY BOYFRIEND/GIRLFRIEND:no I'VE SLIPPED AND FELL IN PUBLIC:yes I'VE SLIPPED OUT A "LOL" IN A REAL CONVERSATION:no I LOVE SPAM:no I'M A GOOD COOK:yes I HAVE WORN PAJAMAS TO CLASS:no I HAVE OWNED SOMETHING FROM ABERCROMBIE:yes I WANT A BETTER JOB..OR A JOB:YES I'VE TALKED ON THE PHONE FOR 6+ HOURS:yes I LOVE DR. PHIL:no I LIKE SOMEONE:yes I AM GUILTY OF TyPiNg LiKe ThIs:NO I AM SELF-CONSCIOUS:yes I LOVE TO LAUGH:YES I DRINK ALCOHOL FREQUENTLY:NO I'VE SMOKED A PACK OF CIGARETTES IN 1 DAY:NO I'M NOT A VIRGIN:no I LOVE LORD OF THE FLIES:no I EAT COUGH DROPS WHEN I'M NOT SICK:no I CAN'T SWALLOW PILLS:no I HAVE A LOT OF SCARS:no I CAN'T SLEEP IF I KNOW THERE'S A SPIDER IN THE ROOM:YES I LOVE CHOCOLATE:YES OMG. I BITE MY NAILS:no, eww? I TWIRL MY HAIR:no I AM COMFORTABLE WITH BEING ME:yes I PLAY COMPUTER GAMES WHEN I'M BORED:yes I TAKE THESE GAY SURVEYS WHEN I'M BORED:yes I'VE SEEN A SHOOTING STAR:yes I'VE HAD A "MENAGE A TROIS":NO I'VE GONE OUT IN PUBLIC IN MY PAJAMAS:no I'VE KISSED A STRANGER:no I'VE KISSED SOMEONE FOR THE HELL OF IT:no I'VE HUGGED A STRANGER:no I'VE BEEN IN A FIST FIGHT WITH SOMEONE OF THE SAME SEX:no I'VE LAUGHED AND HAD SOME TYPE OF BEVERAGE COME OUT OF MY NOSE:yes I'VE PUSHED ALL THE BUTTONS IN AN ELEVATOR:no I'VE MADE OUT IN AN ELEVATOR:no I'VE KICKED A GUY WHERE IT HURTS ON PURPOSE:yes, he was harrassing me. >.> I'VE BEEN SKYDIVING:no, but I want to! ><;; I'VE BEEN BUNGEE JUMPING:no T_T I'VE HAD STITCHES:if you mean "stitches" as in "surgery", yes. I'VE BITTEN SOMEONE..AS A JOKE:no I'VE BEEN TO NIAGARA FALLS:no I'VE HAD THE CHICKEN POX:yes I'VE CRASHED INTO A CAR:no I'VE BEEN TO JAPAN:no I'VE RIDDEN IN A TAXI:yes I'VE SHOPLIFTED:no I'VE BEEN FIRED:no I'VE HAD FEELINGS FOR SOMEONE WHO DIDN'T HAVE THEM BACK:yes, many times I'VE STOLEN SOMETHING FROM MY JOB:no I'VE BEEN ON A BLIND DATE:no I'VE HAD A CRUSH ON A TEACHER:no I'VE CELEBRATED MARDI GRAS IN NEW ORLEANS:no I'VE BEEN TO EUROPE:no I'VE SLEPT WITH A CO-WORKER, AND/OR EMPLOYEE:no I'VE BEEN MARRIED:no I'VE GOTTEN DIVORCED:no I'VE BEEN PREGNANT:no I'VE SEEN SOMETHING/SOMEONE DYING:yes I HAVE A LIST OF PEOPLE I WANT TO KILL:no I'VE DRIVEN OVER 400 MILES IN 1 DAY:no I'VE BEEN TO CANADA:no I'VE BEEN ON A PLANE:yes I'VE SEEN THE ROCKY HORROR PICTURE SHOW:no I'VE THROWN UP FROM DRINKING:yes I'VE EATEN SUSHI:yes I'VE BEEN SKIING:no I'VE BEEN ICE SKATING:yes I'VE CRIED IN PUBLIC:no I'VE TRIED TO COMMIT SUICIDE:no I'VE LIKED SOMEONE EVEN THOUGH I KNEW I SHOULDN'T HAVE:no I'VE THOUGHT ABOUT SOMEONE ALMOST 24/7:yes I'VE HATED THE WORLD:yes Take this survey | Find more surveys
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