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		<title>Intoxicated Addiction</title>
		<description>4 BS CTM. Atenean. Former Theresian. Plurker.
Reads, writes, sings anything.
Likes long walks, letters, surprises.
Loves lollipops and Popsicles.
Wants to be someone.
Loves Bumblebee and Cookie Monster, too.</description>
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			<title>And so, love</title>
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<p style="text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: arial;">And so there it is, it's fun to fall in love. However, there is always madness, roller coasters and dramas.</span></p>
<p style="text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: arial;">It feels so good to fall especially when someone's there to catch you. I'm lucky enough to have that someone. Or rather, I'm lucky to experience love in general. As the photo says, life's too short not to experience it. I must say, my life in college has been an adventure in searching the "right one". The person may not be "right forever" yet he is the "right one for now".</span></p>
<p style="text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: arial;">I don't know, I've never really looked at my future having the love aspect which is pretty funny. I have everything panned out except for that. Yikes! I'm getting old when I have my future planned. But nonetheless, love is spent at every moment that we live. &lt;3</span></p>]]></description>
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			<title>A month's worth</title>
			<description><![CDATA[<p style="text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: helvetica;">I haven't eaten anything heavy since lunch but enough about that.<br /><br /> I have been blogging again since when again? Now that explains how long
it has been. I've been caught up with academics, Ondoy, orgwork and
friends. <br /><br /> I was keeping tabs with my Tabulas blog and I forgot to keep tabs now.
I bet it has become boring. Oh well, what happened during the past
month?<br /><br /> First, I wrestled with feeling and trying to erase every single message
but I still don't have the heart to do. I will soon. I will. No, I must.<br /><br /> Second, I've witnessed a love story blossom and destroyed by their very
own doing. I got sad here, there are things that needs to be given a
chance. Great potential but why? Seriously, I want to ask why did it
have to end that way?<br /><br /> Third, I was on the brink of taking risks such as taking orals and
finals exams. Come on, maybe I could have aced my subjects but wanted
to take the safer course instead. but in the end, I fared well. So far,
senior year is giving me the best of what it could. I was really the
suckiest student back in junior year, having the suckiest grades ever.
Senior year, however is a blessing in disguise.<br /><br /> Having ordinals in my blog makes me iffy. Oh well.<br /><br /> I've been keeping up with family matters and been keeping myself intact for them, 'nough said.<br /><br /> On other things, I've been going out with my friends and reconnecting
with them, too much academics make me crazy. add the fact, that too
much work in our organization makes us insane. The recent PlevSem was
very eventful since we've been closer than ever. Rant-fest, FTW.
"Responsibility" and all the other quotes. <br /><br /> I could feel responsibility now. One thrust of the org is empowerment
and most of it relies on how we do the job well. I'm glad I have a
deputy someone who would help me think and be there. I know I can
really depend on her. Thank you Aly.<br /><br /> Yet, the highlight of my month was being with someone I'm with for a
very long time. Though it was more of formalizing arrangements, it was
the best ever. I have dreamed of different proposals but that has just
been the best ever. Everything is in place except for a few
arrangements that I am planning to fix soon, hopefully. Happy Weeksary!
:D<br /><br /> Hmm, I miss my friends now. I haven't seen them after PlevSem. Two days
or so won't be that long and I'm practically sleepy now. I'll have
something better next time ;)</span> <br /> <br /></p>]]></description>
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			<pubDate>Sun, 01 Nov 2009 16:09:00 +0000</pubDate>
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			<title>Erasing messages</title>
			<description><![CDATA[<p style="text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: arial; font-size: x-small;">What's your opinion in erasing a thousand messages in your phone's inbox? No, seriously. I have a thousand which I can't erase because there are messages that I can't let go even if in reality they are just meaningless.</span></p>
<p style="text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: arial; font-size: x-small;"><br />Any ideas, how I can easily erase it? Or why can't I even erase it? </span></p>]]></description>
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			<title>Monopoly</title>
			<description><![CDATA[<p>Wish life's like the monopoly game. Only that you can't go bankrupt.</p>
<p>&nbsp;</p>]]></description>
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			<title>Bayanihan: Ondoy</title>
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<p style="text-align: justify;"><span class="insertedphoto"> The day that the Philippines was out of the map. This is the first time
I've seen this picture of Ondoy. And this typhoon practically erased
and paralyzed Metro Manila. Iwasn't able to experience the floods that
were chest-deep but the repurcussions of this typhoon was felt even in
the very walls of Ateneo. <br /> <br /> It was 9am and everything waas dead lock in Katipunan, waters are
rising and the storms raged like a fiesty fairy wanting to destroy
everything in its path. Since we were in school, we decided to take
refuge in our humble org room and waited for everything to settle.
While waiting our connection to the outside world was Facebook, I know
there isn't any signal in our orgroom but the Globe connection made it
worse. <br /> <br /> I was trying to contact home but to no avail. We waited and waited up
until there was the announcement that we have to stay for the night.
Since our org is catered to the fellow Ateneans, we opted to stay and
give charging services at the least.<br /> <br /> Also, we shifted early in the morning to help out in responding to
people in need. I didn't know we can be productive even if we are
stranded. Up until now, I can still feel that urgency to help. I'm
putting off some academic work so I can help out not just in school but
in other places. <br /> <br /> Bayanihan can really be seen now, I just hope it'll forever be there
and redirected to other things as well. This country needs changing,
all we need is an eye-opener. </span></p>]]></description>
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			<title>Writing about..</title>
			<description><![CDATA[<p>..things.</p>
<p>I'm not a good writer. I try to be but then this seems like a futile attempt compared to all the other writers around me. It seems that my grammar is slowly leaving me and making a grammar fail. Sometimes, I think management subjects take away your imagination and at the same time, kill your english. I really don't know why there is such a thing.</p>
<p>Before, I used to write about my day. I saw the transition of my blogs. It was ranting years before or how my day turned out. Next were rants about "someone" in my life and now, questions, realizations about me, my life and things around me. Most of it are about love but well, it's what makes our lives, right?</p>
<p>Oh well. I wish I can write well.</p>]]></description>
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			<title>Advice for girls</title>
			<description><![CDATA[<p style="text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: arial;">For all the other girls. It's a friendly advice to those who are loved, loving and will love. Posted by my bestfriend :D</span></p>
<p style="text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: arial;"><br />1. A man won&rsquo;t let go if he really loves you.<br /> Do not hold on to someone who has let go of you. He does not love you
and does not value having you. Believe me, he will not let go if he
really loves you. There is another reason he is not willing to tell.<br /><br /> 2. Do not look for reasons why he ended the relationship.<br /> There is only one reason why he ended your relationship. He just does
not love you. Do not waste your time thinking of reasons or what you
should have done. Move on and be open to a man who will truly love you.<br /><br /> 3. Do not get hang up on your past.<br /> Do not nag or distrust your current boyfriend just because your ex hurt
you. Do not treat him or the relationship the same way. Do not compare.
He will not react the same way as your ex. Do not be worried that your
simple mistakes will cause him to look for another girl. What happened
with your ex was not your fault. It was not because you didn&rsquo;t guard
him enough or you didn&rsquo;t make him happy enough.<br /><br /> 4. Do not look into images.<br /> How many times have you met a girl who didn&rsquo;t have the best image in
school or at the office, but you get to know the girl and found out she
was actually extremely nice? Do not rely on images. Oftentimes, it is
far from reality. Do not fear men just because your &ldquo;supposedly&rdquo;
perfect ex-boyfriend mistreated you.<br /><br /> 5. Always have your own set of rules.<br /> Set your limits on how far you&rsquo;d go for a guy. It&rsquo;s perfectly ok to
give and do everything as long as it&rsquo;s worth it. And it&rsquo;s worth it if
the guy is treating you right.<br /><br /> 6. Do not be scared to lose him.<br /> Don&rsquo;t be scared that he&rsquo;ll break up with you. Once you are afraid of
losing him, you easily can be taken advantage. Be strong and if
something is unacceptable, do not accept it and speak up.<br /><br /> 7. Avoid calling your guy.<br /> It&rsquo;s a guy thing. The relationship will definitely be better if it&rsquo;s
the guy who&rsquo;s calling, not the girl. He will get tired of you if you
keep on calling. He will lose interest and challenge. More so, he will
get annoyed. But it&rsquo;s a girl thing also that your fingers get too itchy
until you dial his number. But avoid as much as possible. Call only if
really needed (like checking if your suspicions are reasonable).<br /><br /> 8. There is a guy who will value you.<br /> There is a guy out there who can make you feel valued, appreciated, and
loved. And I mean, not just during your first few weeks together. So
don&rsquo;t lose hope. Don&rsquo;t settle for a lesbian if you are not attracted to
women. There is a man out there who can love you like a girl can.<br /> Also, do not believe him when he says it&rsquo;s just the way he really is.
He&rsquo;s not the sweet or expressive-type. Remember during your first few
weeks together? Where has that sweet guy gone? He simply is not that
into you anymore.<br /><br /> 9. Always be the only one, no matter what.<br /> Do not ever fall for a guy who has another girl, be it his wife,
girlfriend, or any girl that he says he just can&rsquo;t get rid of for
whatever reason. If you truly believe that he loves you and for some
reason, he can&rsquo;t leave or let go of another girl, then you are no
different from any ordinary mistress.<br /><br /> 10. He must respect you.<br /> No matter how long the relationship has been, he should always show respect towards you.<br /><br /> 11. If he fooled you, end it.<br /> Philandering once is enough. You can never trust nor respect the person again.<br /><br /> 12. Never start a relationship the wrong way.<br /> Do not steal another girl&rsquo;s man, for whatever reason. Nor should you
enter a relationship for the wrong reasons (loneliness, on the rebound,
getting back at your ex, man-dependency, etc.) it is bound not to last.
You will only end up wasting more years of your life.<br /><br /> 13. Do not force yourself into a relationship.<br /> Do not get into a relationship just because your friends are getting
impatient with your dating escapades and the one hasn&rsquo;t come yet. Do
not choose who to say yes to based on superficial things like money,
looks, cars, etc.. If you are even thinking of these things, you have
not fallen in love yet.<br /><br /> 14. Do not settle.<br /> If you are not happy anymore with your relationship, break up
instantly. He will not stay with you forever no matter how upright he
might seem to be. Eventually, he will also want love and happiness in
his life.<br /><br /> 15. A relationship has to have love.<br /> Love is the only thing that will push you to give your efforts into
making the relationship work. And believe me, keeping a relationship
requires genuine efforts of both parties.<br /><br /> 16. Don&rsquo;t be afraid to be single.<br /> It&rsquo;s fun to be single, try it. You can go out whenever and wherever you
want. You are free. You can date whomever you want and you get to go
out for free! Do not get a boyfriend just for the sake of having one.
Do not settle.<br /><br /> 17. Be a good girl.<br /> Be a good girl to attract a good guy. Enter the relationship with
sincere intentions. Take the guy and the relationship seriously with
the plan of spending the rest of your life with that person (of course,
this is after you had your bit of fun in your younger years). If you
compare your flings from your real relationships, you will know that
the latter makes you happier and more fulfilled.<br /><br /> 18. Love without limits.<br /> Whether you loved and gave everything or loved but held out for some
things, if the relationship ends, you still get hurt. But if you gave
your everything, you were happy and you could say that it was worth it.
If you didn&rsquo;t give your all, you get hurt for nothing.<br /><br /> 19. You will get over him.<br /> Love is over-stated. Love eventually ends and you are free to love another.<br /><br /> 20. Be the one.<br /> Act like you are the one. Don&rsquo;t be a nagger. Don&rsquo;t hinder his gimmicks.
Don&rsquo;t give in to him too easily. Make him treat you as important. Don&rsquo;t
be easy. Don&rsquo;t be like every other girl he had in his life.</span></p>]]></description>
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			<title>Entry Dump</title>
			<description><![CDATA[<p style="text-align: justify;"><span class="insertedphoto"><a href="http://izzalaza.multiply.com/photos/hi-res/1M/8004"></a><br /><span style="font-family: arial;">Okay, it's been a week plus since I had my posts. <a href="http://startled.tabulas.com/"></a><br /><br /> Anyway, how would I put my days in points. Let's see how many numbers can I get out of this.<br /><br /> 12 September 2009<br /></span> </span></p>
<p style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: arial;"><img class="alignmiddleb" src="http://images.izzalaza.multiply.com/image/kZZ7L8ml2XGh3hnT76oGVw/photos/1M/300x300/8004/100-6043.jpg?et=wJOeZbGTBEQ0Gt9o6u65Ug&amp;nmid=0" border="0" /></span></p>
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<li><span style="font-family: arial;">I had my first cold rock experience! I must say it's pricey for
an ice cream but oh boy! I like it. I had Ferrero and Oatmeal Raisin
Cookie. Yey! <br /></span> </li>
<li><span style="font-family: arial;">I watched KimmyDora with Marcelle and I must say there's hope for
Filipino movies. It's not slapstick comedy, swear! It's not all the
time I get to watch Filipino movies and my jologs side being unleashed.
Hurrah!</span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: arial;">OD seminar and Sir Chris can really rock the house. How similar
can his lovelife be with mine, really now. Then again I ask, it's not
scripted, ayt?</span></li>
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<p style="text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: arial;"> 13 September 2009<br /></span></p>
<ol style="text-align: justify;">
<li><span style="font-family: arial;">I kinda argued with someone and got really scared. I love you
then and there. Things just got better. Aww. My Sky's back! That's one
thing and it's been a week.</span></li>
</ol>
<p style="text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: arial;"> 16 September 2009<br /></span></p>
<ol style="text-align: justify;">
<li><span style="font-family: arial;">I went to a sorta roadtrip with Alex to NAIA for an LS (HR
subject) interview. I learned a lot from the company and then learned
that my mom is really close to them. She is really hoping for me to
graduate and so are the people there. Come now, pressure! Go, go, go.</span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: arial;">I didn't attend any of my classes (I only had one for the day)
and went to lunch with Jopet and Sheena. I missed the days when we
three used to hangout. Summer's back, baby! Happiness! &lt;3<br /></span> </li>
</ol>
<p style="text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: arial;"> 17 September 2009<br /></span></p>
<ol style="text-align: justify;">
<li><span style="font-family: arial;">We went to a food expo and tried on the shoes of being a field
reporter and well, it's HARD. Getting the story done, what questions to
ask, the right people to talk to and other FAIL moments we had. But
then, nothing can be more satisfying than trying different foods! FOR
FREE. Look, we even got a picture with Cory Quirino. <span style="font-style: italic;">(In the picture: Mea, Cory Quirino, Me)<br /> </span></span></li>
<p style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: arial;"><img class="alignmiddleb" src="http://images.izzalaza.multiply.com/image/lhC12fNkJaoVshCBe5urjw/photos/1M/300x300/8005/100-6091.jpg?et=My8xzCrC15l6OuRDBJlCjg&amp;nmid=0" border="0" /></span></p>
<li><span style="font-family: arial;">Note to self, try out different dips for bread/croutons, Japanese pizza is yummier than Takoyaki. Nya. <br /></span> </li>
<li><span style="font-family: arial;">Also, find the DC in if you want to charge a camera.</span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: arial;">If you're in a food expo, drop everything even class.</span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: arial;">Storm? Nothing beats a free ride back to school. Nothing beats a nice comfy car with cool jams. <span style="font-style: italic;">Don't stop believin' hold on to that feelin'</span><br /></span> </li>
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<p style="text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: arial;"> 18 September 2009<br /></span></p>
<ol style="text-align: justify;">
<li><span style="font-family: arial;">PR is on the roll. BERDE'SKOOL :D Hahaha. Find out more :D</span></li>
</ol>
<p style="text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: arial;"> Ok, ok. Everything's really eventful and it seems like everyday is full
of cheese but then I should take note that I'm a human person. I do get
sick too. It was during the long weekend that I got sick and still
tried to be productive. And sure I was, well at least half. I'm
expecting more sleepless nights which makes me sleepy now. Toodles!
Till next time.</span></p>]]></description>
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			<title>Eye lock</title>
			<description><![CDATA[<p style="text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: arial;">Core events just get awkward for me at times, but this is number 1 for everything else that has happened.</span></p>
<p style="text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: arial;">I never thought that similarities or histories can be related with my life. Ha! </span></p>
<p style="text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: arial;">My organization has a lot of complicated love lives. It's my turn to have one now. If our speaker, who was an alumnus from our org had Girl A, B and C. I have my Boy A, B and C but in a sort of similar matter.What struck me most was the similarity of our speaker's Girl A and my "love". Therefore, I call him Boy A.</span></p>
<p style="text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: arial;">It's a complicated situation for me since Boy A is in close proximity. And since he was in the same seminar I am in, there is a GREAT chance of me and him getting together. Thanks to my friends, in the "Perfect Triangle" activity we were beside each other. It doesn't end there.</span></p>
<p style="text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: arial;">TRUST FALL. We were one of the people who will catch the fallers. It came to a point that I was in front of him and in short, facing each other. I was actually avoiding him, I don't know how to face him with everything else and me trying to get back with him and moving on at the same time. However, our eyes met. It was long enough to establish eye contact and enough for me to look into his eyes and "say something". I can't help but smile or just look at him for a time yet awkward thoughts came in and we went back to our thing, catching people for trust fall.</span></p>
<p style="text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: arial;">It wasn't the only time that our eyes met. It was during a discussion and then, when I our eyes met, I said silently, "What?" and he's like, "What?" Ha! So much for eye contact.</span></p>
<p style="text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: arial;">I really want to be normal around him but that was funny. Maybe, I really like my Boy A. If Girl A for the speaker was a <i>love - like - nothing stage</i>, Boy A is a <i>like - nothing - like to a possible maybe love thing</i> (depending on how things pan out).</span></p>
<p style="text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: arial;">That eye contact pushed me to send a message that I was glad to see him today. Ha! Oh well. So much for that. I hope he is glad that he saw me too. Nya.<br /></span></p>
<p style="text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: arial;">Must work for my paper :D</span></p>]]></description>
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			<title>091009</title>
			<description><![CDATA[<p style="text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: arial;">It's just Jeri reading or browsing through my planner during class. Ha!
that planner was just given to me and not an announcement that I love
myself, ok? <span class="insertedphoto"><br /> </span></span></p>
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<div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div>
<div style="text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: arial;">I had new songs today! Thank you to Trixie. Hurrah for new songs. Now, I'm thinking of getting a legit player. </span></div>
<p style="text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: arial;">Someone
told someone that I had something written. I wonder what was the
reaction. Curious me but then, what would happen anyway? Move on.</span></p>
<p style="font-weight: bold; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: arial;">Realizations:</span></p>
<p style="text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: arial;">-- Bad things happen to strengthen our faith.</span></p>
<p style="text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: arial;">-- I should listen to myself. No, I should listen. Period.</span></p>
<p style="text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: arial;">-- Free chips and sandwich will get you through school. </span></p>
<p style="text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: arial;">-- Skype is better than YM. Note to self: Buy earphones and mic.</span></p>
<p style="text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: arial;">So much for today. Must. Sleep. Now. Bye.</span></p>
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