I`ve said my Goodbyes and have cried as loud as I could hoping God might reconsider His decision but what`s done is done. Goodbye`s only hurt if you`re never gonna see each other again, it was far more painful than I expected. It stabbed me like a knife knowing that for that single moment my life would soon be over, everything will change and chances are I might never get a chance to see you again.

Seems like half of me is missing, the other half wandering away. I never thought I`d get to this point of my life. I never thought it would happen to me, but who am I kidding, bad luck`s been following me ever since and Friday the 13th doesn`t even sound that threatening compared to how bad my life is right now.

It`s funny how the most unexpected people were the one`s who were there during those lonely nights of tears. I didn`t expect them to be the one`s who understood me, who were there just because they cared and wanted me to quit crying, I never thought it would be them who`d stop me from doing what I had to do.

They say change is the only permanent thing in this world, I now believe that and trust me, one moment can change everything. It doesn`t even have to take 5 minutes, mine only took 1.

Do you even realize that everything`s happening a wee too fast? Oh, who am I kidding, masyado talagang mabilis lahat. And it`s not funny, it`s hectic, it`s frustrating and I am really under a lot of pressure these days. Bihira na lang ang makakahiga ako ng isang oras sa kama ng walang ginagawa. Sabaw na utak ko pag dating sa Chemistry at mas lalo sa Geometry.

I wish Sir Geom was our Geometry teacher, then I could probably understand something. Plus, may "math" pick-up lines pa. Bentang-benta sa iii6 ang mga hirit ni Sir. Sayang, kung siya sana edi pumapasa sana ako sa Geometry.

The fact that everything`s too hasty and I can`t cope up, it`s too straining. I mean, we used to talk about the most random things and now its all about college. Puro na lang "Ano course mo?" or "Saan ka mag-ccollege?" Nakakasawa. I believe that there`s still a long way to go before college but I know a lot of people insist that it`s gonna happen way sooner than I expect it too be. I know, I just hate the idea of me leaving High School. Ayoko pa talaga. Hindi pa nga ako marunong mag-formula formula sa Chemistry biglang college na.

I can even see the changes through my friends, we used to be the kind of students dependent on teachers to spoon feed everything. From notes to Lab reports, lahat spinoon feed na samin, tas ngayon wala ng pagkokopyahan. Mahirap yun lalo na kapag walang may alam ng sagot. Nakaka-drain ng utak. Pressure, never ending pressure.

Now it`s all about studies, love and other random teenage things.

I miss the simple days. I wonder where our immature talks have gone? I miss being young-er. Even my friends never fail to surprise me with our talks. Ang dami na nilang alam. I`m left behind, what happened to the good old days when everyone`s fuss was the latest song or the latest music video? Now barely anyone knows a  good tune, we`ve been turned into stereotype robots meant to study and nothing else to do but study.

Nakakapanibago, bigla na lang may susulpot na.. "Alam mo ba na ganito ganyan. Naexperience ko na yung ganito, yung ganyan." O `wag ma-green. I mean, it`s just overwhelming the things that are happening. We`re starting to do things on our own now, I mean mature things that we haven`t done before. We`re starting to learn new things, new ways to doing things. Overwhelming nga talaga.

And to top it all off, I`m being the most random person ever. From trying to change myself to trying to be more boyish slash tomboyish to trying not to dilly-dally anymore and focus on the more important things. Hindi na talaga pwde mag-moonie moonie ngayon. Kailangan na mag-seryoso. I don`t know how I`m gonna make it through 

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This was on Thursday. and man was I red (:

So before I totally gross you out `cause I had to post disgusting pictures of my allergies...

Please pray for Ms. Pascua who died last July 6, 2007 Friday.

She was my Adviser slash Language teacher when I was in Third Grade. She was really nice and a her penmanship was extraordinary. May her soul rest in peace.

Rawr, I`m stuck with homework this weekend. Just me && homework, joy o joy. It`s hard enough that we have to submit Pre-lab assignments every Thursday, I mean we actually have to do them. Haha.

Bring me to TriNoma and I`ll cry non stop `cause of all the things I see and cannot ever have. But bring me to National Book Store and I`ll be shopping for hours. Gahd, that sounds so geeky.

It`s my cousin`s birthday today!

Crayons in front of me, waiting for me to pick them up one by one coloring each section of my life like this huge coloring book, every part a different color.

Broken strings && broken promises, it wasn`t the first time I got my heart broken. Every heartbreak makes me stronger knowing that one day I`ll find you, I`ll finally find my happy ending.

Crayons and Broken strings. I color my own fate, I choose to get my heartbroken. Sometimes, broken strings get fixed, but they`ll never be the same.

Make sure you`re viewing My page in Mozilla Firefox `cause honestly, it really looks sloppy in IE. I mean really. I`ve seen it && trust me. Firefox`s bettaah (: Btw, losers. Get a Firefox, IE sucks. [No offense to IE users (:]

So anyway.

School`s been hell as usual. Nothing new, we still eat in class, drink when the teacher`s not looking, throw papers [or socks in Eury`s case] We still cram, copy everything from our ever-so-reliable seatmate and plus we still nod and agree pretending we understand everything the teacher says. Like I said, nothing new.

Teachers read blogs? I know. Memorize na nila yan.

But enough about school. It`s bad enough that we have to wake up every morning just to do work and more work then go home to do more work. Yup, school`s been praised enough.

Sabi nga naman ni Eury..

"You! You, you! The both of you! Form a straight circle and go to the Principal`s office tomorrow, NOW!"

SO.. Can`t think of anything better to say :] It`s already 6pm, have to do the Homework.

First things first. Yes, I know my life is boring, it clearly sucks and if there is any chance I could switch lives with someone who has it better than me, I wouldn`t miss that for the world.

Seemingly I can`t talk about anything more exciting since nothing exciting really has happened to me lately, or ever, so everything has still been boring. Same old same old, not like anyone cares.

I have to go, I`m in the middle of watching Making Fiends (: