dOrkster..

Back from the dead..

Fri, 3 Feb 2006 14:11:30 +0000

Yes Im back and Im posting this because I feel nervous about the LTI (Test thing for our training!)...... Shit Im like back in Link2support where we had to talk our american work dudes... for evaluation for our appilcation... in short they decide if we go ahead or "alryt beat it!" this sucks! but now that Im here in convergys if I fail this thing later I lose my position for the account that Im supposed to be with... I'll be shifted to ortigas... to another account... and ya thats gonna suck coz thats a bit too far from my house! its like im back in sykes... but far more from where I used to work!!!!!...................... Man I dont know whats goin on... Ive been talking to americans for the past two years and yet I feel nervous because Ive been a BUM for a month and I think my english is kinda lost....... anyway I hope someone out there prays for me! or wish me luck if ever you get to read this... I dont know what questions are going to asked later but hell cares! I'm gonna answer here with what I have and what I know... nervous.... well whatever! for the guys going out tonight cheers! drink up! n for those couch potatoes! ya.. keep that belly burstin! nyahaha! PEACE OUT!

pain in the head

Fri, 4 Mar 2005 14:53:18 +0000

shit.... everything is so wrong with this fucking day.... my team lead just made me realize that i'm gonna lose my job if I dont get back on track... I don't have enough money left... I can't go to where I wanna go.... and I am so distracted today.... never felt this before... shit everything is like crumbling down in front of me...

I wanna be alone I wanna go some where.... some where I can think and be alone... I wanna relax... I wanna think clearly about my future... I just wanna be away from all of this madness and be in an isolated island and think about why are this things happening... I can cheer other people up I can give solutions to them... and they all are doing ok... but when I have the problem I realized that I can't seem to find the right solution to fix my problem!!! I'm such a freak.....

Decisions

Thu, 3 Mar 2005 11:31:53 +0000

I don't know where to go or whom to go with this weekend, its really driving me crazy!

I have one which is an overnight stay in Palawan, with my Friends. The other one is an overnight stay with my Aunt's (who is on vacation here) in Laguna with our whole line of realtives attending!! <----got to hate this one... and the last trip but not the least going to Puerto Galera with my cousins also an overnight stay <------ I wanna go here but the other two outings are for free and in puerto I'm gonna burn money! hehehe! I don't know what to do....

Last night or should I say morning! After work my cousins texted me and made me go to one of my cousins house because one of my cousins has a Brand new chiQ G.F. and so that we could drink and all... it was cool because we were complete all four of us that is, we haven't managed to be complete for months now because all of us are so busy with work and studies....

Anyway I'm just gonna stare at my computer and wait for my dinner break so that I can eat up! I'm really hungry and I wanna eat eat eat!!

bored..

Wed, 2 Mar 2005 11:06:44 +0000

I dont know what to post coz I can't think straight right now... so I'm here at work with my computer in front of me, my headset on my neck, and waitibg for europeans to call and ask for help... and I'll be stuck here till 1am! isn't it cool!.... not.... anyway stress once again has conquered my mind and body... cant wait for the weekend so that I can have my restday and just relax...

View...

Tue, 1 Mar 2005 16:10:21 +0000

I miss this view back in puerto.....

bakasyonistas!

Tue, 1 Mar 2005 10:46:55 +0000

Well today is the day my aunt's from chicago will be coming for a vacation for 14 days and will be staying at our house.. I'm excited to see them but unfortunately I cannot coz im at work and I wont be able to catch them coz i leave at 1 am!......... talk about luck, well there's always tom... But I hate the fact that I'm going to be sleeping in my sister's room which is filled with.... ahhhhhhhh.. barbie's and doll houses!!!! horror i say... I slept there last night and I could swear I saw the barbie doll move! hehehehehe! well what could be wrong in 14 days sleeping there!?............... mmm....... well everything!!! I rather sleep on the couch but I can't coz we have visitors!! damn!! anyway my hope's on going to puerto is slowly fading away..... and with the arrival of my aunt's!! shit everything went wrong... now I'm stuck in the doll house room prison plus I won't be able to go to puerto this weekend because we have a family outing or something.... NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!! I think I'm gonna be sick!!! man I really wanna go to puerto!..... but I can't.... my aunt's better have a nice package for me waiting back at home.. just to lighten up my feelings about all of this.... Damn... or cash even..! hehehe!! too bad I won't be able to go.. but hey the summer is still young and I can go anytime by next week or next month if my friends wanna go back!!!!! shit! yun pa pala! wala na pala akong kasama pa balik dun pag di ako nakasama this weekend!!!! now this is really a pain in the ass!!! shit!!!..

hopeless Sh*t!

Mon, 28 Feb 2005 10:47:28 +0000

Man.. I wanna go to puerto next week! I wanna spare my stressful life for 2 days of relaxing again! well I deserve it!...... I wanna really go because I wanna go and I miss the feeling of freedom!! naka addict pala yun! hehehe!

I hope I can go and budget my salary which just came today! man paying with all the bills and stuff is a pain in the ass! can't have fun with all those stupid papers to pay! I WANNA BURN THEM!!

I will go this weekend and I promise that! hehehe! I just need to make some plans to be able to have enough money when I get back!..... shit this is hopeless.... Im dreamin again.... Shit!!!!!!!!!!

Beach Sick!!

Sun, 27 Feb 2005 07:50:00 +0000

I wanna go to a beach!!! I wanna go back to puerto to relax!!! I miss the feeling that I had when I was there, no hassle, my mind flying, beautiful view, nice massage, cool henna, mindoro sling, nice sounds, salty water, never felt bored, nice night bars and the best of all NO PROBLEMS!!! DAMN! hehehe!

I read the blog of my good friend here in the blog universe and it reminded me of what she watched the Butterfly Effect. That movie was cool you know dripping blood out of your nose is always fun! hehehe! the question is would you do the same thing he did to change something he needed or wanted to? the funny part is when he woke up without a leg, an arm and worst part is no love!! but everything around him was cool except that his Bestfriend got the big prize! its nice movie! the lesson is shown and as for me I have no regrets whatsoever on what I have done from the past and I don't wanna change it! beacuse everything happens for a reason right!? and there are always consequences that you will face along that long road you call your life.;)

Shit I'm typing crap again!! I just wanna go to somewhere relaxing where I can think with-out any hassle and stuff along with someone who can relate to my friggin head!! hehehe! I'm plaaning to go back to puerto next week but with all this bills in front of me I ask myself how!!!? sh*t its never easy being the head of the family and stuff! its no fun.... hope my dad hits his head in the wall and realizes that he needs to work again and save his son (me) from all of this work.... <--dreamer again!! well i know it won't happen and I dont expect of it anymore... what I have now is what I'll take care off and what I'm thankful off! but..........................

I hope I can go next week to puerto to relax... and thats all I ask..... (it rhymes perfectly right?! nyahaha!)

Currently listening : Love Song by 311
Currently felling : BORED!!

Love this song..

Fri, 25 Feb 2005 14:57:57 +0000

This is the kind of song that makes me think.. im listening to it right now..

Walking After You
by Foo Fighters

Tonight I'm tangled in my blanket of clouds
Dreaming aloud
Things just won't do without you, matter of fact
I'm on your back, I'm on your back, I'm on your back

If you walk out on me, I'm walking after you
If you walk out on me, I'm walking after you

If you'd accept surrender, give up some more
Weren't you adored
I cannot be without you, matter of fact
Ooh I'm on your back I'm on your back
Ooh I'm on your back

If you walk out on me, I'm walking after you
If you walk out on me, I'm walking after you

Another heart is cracked in two, I'm on your back Ooh

I cannot be without you, matter of fact
Ooh I'm on your back

If you walk out on me, I'm walking after you
If you walk out on me, I'm walking after you
If you walk out on me, I'm walking after you

Another heart is cracked in two, I'm on your back Ooh

Weekend Madness!!

Fri, 25 Feb 2005 08:49:10 +0000

will Im excited because tom. is my rest day! and I wanna relax.. infact i want to go out of town... but i dont have a car.. I want to watch a movie... but i dont have anyone to go with... I want to eat in a resto... but I dont have a date.... I want to spend the whole day with someone I love... but the real problem is I dont have one... So now I realize im not that excited about my weekend... So I guess I'm gonna spend time with me,myself and I!!! shit!.....

Where are you?? Why can't you find me....?? I hope your doing fine..