i confessed already.

i don't know what to say or do right now.

all i know is that i accomplished it already..

all those sleepless nights and unbearable gossips..

finally.. it ended.

first entry this year.

first confession this year.

last heart-breaking decision.

still.. the feeling remains.

miss ko na yun panoorin eh!!

some parts ng paguusap namen sa ym..

[21:05] ja_715: walang sinuman ang nabubuhay para sa sarili lamang! )
[21:05] yatch32: EXCUSE ME?1
[21:05] ja_715: )
[21:05] ja_715: )
[21:05] ja_715:
[21:05] yatch32: )
[21:05] yatch32: benta... steph!
[21:05] periwinkle_starfish: SAMAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
[21:05] ja_715: )
[21:05] ja_715:
[21:06] karscastro: )
[21:06] cyrith14: HAHA XD
[21:06] karscastro: )
[21:06] karscastro: )
[21:06] ja_715: )
[21:06] ja_715: grabe tawang tawa ako ngayon!
[21:06] periwinkle_starfish: SAMA!SAMA!
[21:06] periwinkle_starfish:
[21:06] periwinkle_starfish: :-L
[21:06] yatch32: steph... wat's your favorite name?
[21:06] ja_715: ok lng yan stef, marami kang pinapasaya
[21:06] yatch32: katy ba yun?
[21:06] ja_715: )
[21:06] ja_715:
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[21:06] ja_715:
[21:06] ja_715: )
[21:06] carol_ann90: )
[21:06] cyrith14: )
[21:06] ja_715: )

isa pa..

21:11] yatch32: hey... we don't have our HAIR.
[21:11] yatch32: BOYS.
[21:11] ja_715: we want hair daw!
[21:11] yatch32: HELLO!
[21:12] karscastro: edi cge gumawa ka ng wig ah
[21:12] ja_715: )
[21:12] karscastro: joke
[21:12] yatch32: sama...
[21:12] ja_715: from hay
[21:12] yatch32: hindi nga...
[21:12] ja_715: joke
[21:12] periwinkle_starfish: HAHA!
[21:12] ja_715: ewan..
[21:12] ja_715: pony
[21:12] periwinkle_starfish: SO NTAWA NALANG AKO
[21:12] karscastro: bun

YOKO! GUSTO KONG PUMASOK!!

PERO HINDI TALAGA PEDE.. BAKA TANGAYIN PA AKO NG HANGIN EH.

PERO ANG BORING DITO SA BAHAY.. WALA AKONG MAGAGAWA.

....

YO MAMA JOKES. :) SIGURO ANG BABAW KO PERO NATATAWA PARIN AKO. BENTA!!

Yo mama's so fat, even her shadow has stretch marks.
Yo mama's so fat, her belt size is the equator
Yo mama's so fat, I saw a picture of her in a magazine on page 4, 5, 6, 7, and 8.

Yo mama so fat were in her right now
Yo mama so fat she went to the movies and sat next to everyone
Yo mama so fat when she wears a yellow raincoat, people said "Taxi!"

Yo mama so old her social security number is 1!
Yo mama so old she has a picture of Moses in her yearbook.

Yo mama so short she has to use a ladder to pick up a dime.

Yo mama so fat she jumped in the air and got stuck.

HAHA. FUNNY.

bakit ngayon ko pa kailangan malaman.

kung kelan naman vulnerable ako ngayon.. tsaka pa ako titirahin ng ganito..

why now?!

gagayahin ko rin ung sinulat ni dannie sa papel niya..

 MANHID!!

we went to shangri-la and watched happy feet.  ramon is so cuuuute!!  ang galing pa nung pagspanish niya eh.  ahaha.nakatawa. sobrang ganda ng movie.. my favorite part is yung nasasakal na si lovelace dahil sa can-plastic na nasa neck niya,. eh ang taba taba niya. ayan. nasakal tuloy. haha! tapos ang haba haba pa nung nilakbay niya. haha. nakakalungkot naman ung isang part na mag-isa lang si mumble tapos gusto siya kainin nung mga birds.. aw.. hm,. naiyak si char dun. si cheska din ata eh. haha!!  nakakatawa,, ang cute.  hmm.. aun. may pictures din kami na ang background ay happy feet!!

we also went to powerstation. naglaro sila ng basketball pati ng kung ano anong games na may tickets..:) tapos may laruan dun na may metal na manggrab ng stuff toy tapos ikaw magccontrol. anyway ang hirap iexplain. basta milyon milyon na nagamit namen dun hindi parin namen nakuha ung stuff toy.  puro candy lang...

iniwan nga pala namen ung stuff namen sa national.. and guess what.. muntik pa kaming kasuhan ng mga guards dun dahil iniwan namen ung stuff namen dun nang patago at dahil inilabas namen ung claim-card. haha! pero nakakakaba un ah. hihi.

may nakita rin kaming mga MONKS sa shang! ang cute cute nila!!! kalbo tapos nakamonk damit sila.. 

after umuwi ng mga ibang teammates.. tumambay kami sa starbucks.. inaapi ako nila aj!!! wala akong kakampi tapos ayaw pa nila ako tabihan. tsktsk. anyways.. di naman ako nagpatalo..

i love this day talaga. i love my teammates. i love clara, nikki, aj, char, cheska, ino, ysh and camille.

this line gives me the creeps. mas lalo na kung sila dianne and bea and cathy ang gumagawa. haha!:P

i can't believe i said those words.. outloud ba? nakakahiya. minsan pa naman ako magenglish. tsssk.

other lines.. para sa DRAMATICS. :P

"bakit?! kapatid ko nanaman?!" with a constipated expression. haha!

"hindi mo na ba ako mahal?! meron ka na bang iba? eh bakit ka ganyan?" with a happy expression. haha!

kaya mo ba toh?!

..

wheee. :D

..

daya nila ja!!! napanood na nila! :((

i'm sick and tired of getting yelled and cursed at. I'm not the one who did those stupid things! did i really deserve the slap i received earlier.?

what the heck. my life's getting dark and cold.. if only YOU can understand me.. then nothing else will matter..

ang boring naman kapag ganun lang kabilis. pero ok lang yan. :)

Pacman deserves it!:) CONGRATULATIONS PACQUIAO! CONGRATULATIONS PILIPINAS!!!

nagovernight kami sa Edsa shang kagabi.:) at as usual natulog na naman ako sa floor kasi hindi kami kasya.. tsktsk.

nakita ko nga rin pala si ren ren ritualo sa CPK last night. gosh! i was so embarrassed!!!

it happened this way...

Sam and I were talking outside CPK when suddenly my cousin told me that my aunties were calling me.. so, i went in. Then, i saw them smiling and pointing someone behind me. I turned around and saw him.. ( I was expecting someone i know as in like a friend but NOOOO! it was ren ren!) I saw him smiling and looking at me as if he knows me.. tipong EYE-to-EYE ung pagtingin namen sa isa't isa.. and because i was so surprised I forgot all of the lines I memorized before. (I wanted to ask him if he knows my father and if he knows that I'm his FRIENDLY neighbor.. it goes like this.. "ren ren right? hi! do you know my father, benjie tan?" parang ganun!) and because he gave me a fright, i froze and my face looked like this.. ->... i just turned around walked back to my chair.

damn. sayang ung opportunity.. pero grabe.. ang gwapo niya.. sana narecognize niya ako.. kasi nakita ko rin sya date sa training niya sa adidas sports camp eh..