http://sillyjazzy.tabulas.com da siLLy whiRLy mE en Sun, 05 Jul 2009 17:44:43 +0000 the perfect one the perfect one.... he just landed in my arms three months ago.... and i managed to drive him away after three months....


so now they've concluded "you're scared to be loved."


i just stare...


because....


i am...


i am...


i'm tired of rationalizing why....


but i am! i am scared......

]]> http://sillyjazzy.tabulas.com/2009/07/05/the-perfect-one/ http://sillyjazzy.tabulas.com/2009/07/05/the-perfect-one/ Sun, 05 Jul 2009 17:44:43 +0000 ang daya! i can't weave any more words or aphorisms to describe what has just pierced into me...... i was just wondering how you were.... so i checked your account.... that was quite dumb of me really....just to satisfy my stupid curiosity.... so there.... tear-inducing..... i felt so pathetic.... seeing you happy... happy with her..... doing what you do.... just being you.... i know.... it's what most girls wish for.... i remembered everything about you....by simply being you, you make a woman feel treasured.....

pero...........


maybe it was not our time.... everything was right but it was not yet our time.... so..... what's left for me to do is to be happy for you...... kahit na mejo may kirot pa....

]]> http://sillyjazzy.tabulas.com/2009/04/21/ang-daya/ http://sillyjazzy.tabulas.com/2009/04/21/ang-daya/ Tue, 21 Apr 2009 12:00:37 +0000 new year...!! it's new year...and i honestly came into my senses na... i'm cutting out on a few things... so here are a few of my resolutions (if that's what you call it)hahaha

so this year, i'm cutting out on:

1. sticks of relief and alcohol....(i've started this na before new year...accomplished for a month na!!)

2. food...i have to lose a little weight because gaining weight sure caused me this condition (i'm under medication for 4 months)

3. him...yes...i've grown tired...sure i like him around... but i shouldn't have allowed myself to fall into my self-created trap..misunderstanding everything...basta! honestly... i rest my case... this wouldn't get any further na


other bad habits? i'll keep them muna...hahaha

]]> http://sillyjazzy.tabulas.com/2009/01/09/new-year.../ http://sillyjazzy.tabulas.com/2009/01/09/new-year.../ Fri, 09 Jan 2009 16:41:03 +0000 memoirs oh well


i'm scanning through some old emails....and for the whole day, i was soaked with all those memories... especially from all the men who passed by my life.... from flings to those who allegedly "loved me" and those two guys i loved... and..... it's just amazing how time passed.... i've read the goodbye mails... the "i miss you" mails from some close friends.... everything was a blur... i recognize some mails while i was astounded by some mails - it felt like i haven't read them at all....


hai...


i'm just being nostalgic....


i realized how much has changed....but still there are some things that remain to be the same....


i love my life!

]]> http://sillyjazzy.tabulas.com/2008/11/08/memoirs/ http://sillyjazzy.tabulas.com/2008/11/08/memoirs/ Sat, 08 Nov 2008 14:31:55 +0000 pag sinabi ng eX mo.... answer daw with an honest heart. An honest heart

will give you good luck for the entire

year. You may imagine of one people or

maybe some people not only one. Answer

it, "What if your ex says"

.

1. Why did you let me go?

- I had to..un gusto mo dba?

2. I still love you

- So?

3. When did we last talk?

- Now? or were you talking to yourself?

4. Will you go out with me?

- Why not?

5. Hey, can i give you a ride?

- Sure

6. I cannot keep my promise to you.

- I knew it

7. My friends say we don't look good together.

- Haha... masyado ka nilang minamaliit!

8. You have changed.

- Change is the only constant thing...dba?

9. Can we get back together?

- I'm not ready for that

10. Oh, I know what this is all about. You found someone else.

- You talking to yourself?

11. Don't you realize? You are the one who hurt me!

- We both hurt each other...wag magmalinis!

12. How can u forget our memories??

- Whoever told you i forgot??

13. I will always love you.

- I guess i do too....but not the same as before.....

]]> http://sillyjazzy.tabulas.com/2008/11/06/pag-sinabi-ng-ex-mo..../ http://sillyjazzy.tabulas.com/2008/11/06/pag-sinabi-ng-ex-mo..../ Thu, 06 Nov 2008 16:53:10 +0000 speechless the whirly happenings for today has left me dumbfounded


and speechless


and i'm going to savor this moment... this moment of heightened stress


and LOVIN IT!!


i love life

]]> http://sillyjazzy.tabulas.com/2008/10/28/speechless/ http://sillyjazzy.tabulas.com/2008/10/28/speechless/ Tue, 28 Oct 2008 10:40:52 +0000 patching things up it's sembreak...at last... and i left dumaguete with quite a bothered heart.... i've done a great deal of wrong things before leaving and the worse part of it is that half of those included my friends.... i can't even explain how things progressed and ended up with another party not feeling pleasant at all.... for the record, i've wronged 4 friends... and 3/4 confronted me.... the other one pseudo-confronted me....which still leaves me quite bothered because of some chance of not patching things up... the other one called me in the middle of the night screaming how much he hates me and all....which i whole-heartedly accepted and i appreciated because after the event where i failed him, he never replied na....and i asked for forgiveness... and after a few days...he called na nga.... to pour out how much he's upset with me...i have to make it up to him...pero at least we were able to talk kahit na i was so sleepy while talking with him... the other two....well...they confronted me.... the "do we have a problem" type of confrontation.... taken-aback since i was caught with another honest mistake i have to make it up to both of them...pero we're all patched up.... except the other one nalang....na sobrang namimiss ko na..pero how far should i go to patch things up?? siya mismo ayaw makipagconfront...1164.gif

]]> http://sillyjazzy.tabulas.com/2008/10/20/patching-things-up/ http://sillyjazzy.tabulas.com/2008/10/20/patching-things-up/ Mon, 20 Oct 2008 14:45:52 +0000 nadulas hai pambihira....


nadulas na nga ako sa kanya...


nadulas pa ako sa bukid.....


nadulas pa talaga ung grado ko sa majors!!!!


pambihira talaga!!


nakakawalang gana ang buhay

]]> http://sillyjazzy.tabulas.com/2008/09/05/nadulas/ http://sillyjazzy.tabulas.com/2008/09/05/nadulas/ Fri, 05 Sep 2008 13:35:49 +0000 piano i'm going back to my ebony and ivory keys....


i'm trying to memorize All I Ask of You....1149.gif


and i just started chasing cars of snow patrol....


la lang.... something to keep my heart preoccupied......


sige lang.....


i'll pour my heart out using those keys.... at least.......

 

 

]]> http://sillyjazzy.tabulas.com/2008/08/13/piano/ http://sillyjazzy.tabulas.com/2008/08/13/piano/ Wed, 13 Aug 2008 12:57:08 +0000 sana......... sana ganon kadaling gawin lahat ng salitang kaya nating sambitin!!


para di na ako mahirapan....para di ko na kelangan pa magpakalunod sa ilang toneladang alak at sigarilyo.... para di ako masaktan ng todo kapag kaharap kita.....

ayoko na masaktan....


ayoko na ring gumanti....


ayos lang kase masaya ka na sa piling ng iba.....


ayos lang kahit na wala na akong kuwenta sa buhay mo....


ayos lang.....


so simula ngayon......di na ako magpaparamdam pa....


babalikan ko nalang ung malungkot kong piano.....


magpapakalunod ako sa pagtugtog ng mga piyesang makikidalamhati sa mga nararamdaman ko......


paalam kaibigan.............

]]> http://sillyjazzy.tabulas.com/2008/08/12/sana........./ http://sillyjazzy.tabulas.com/2008/08/12/sana........./ Tue, 12 Aug 2008 15:57:10 +0000