on the lighter note, i'm gonna meet my beybi this april! :) after 18 months i can finally see him,hold his hands,hug him tight and kiss him non stop! ;) i just can't wait to spend the days and nights with him, us alone..well not really (gonna meet up some friends too) but i will just think of it that way,just the two of us..it will be just 5 days and 5 nights!:( i just wish it can be longer..well maybe next time.:) i'm just glad this is happening..:) thank you beybi, we really need that vacay but above anything else, we really need to see each other..1 yr of LDR baby! dang we are so good at it! :) i am so happy, we're so guided and blessed..i am looking forward for more years and spending forever with you, us growing old together..i love you so much! :)

masaya naman ako. e2 lng ang ilang pagbabagong napansin ko:

ndi na kmi araw araw nguusap, madalas nakakatulog sha dahil sa dami ng trabaho isabay mo pa ang mga klase nya sa iskwela.

d na ngttxt sa umaga pag gcng nya kapag nakatulugan nya ako.

nabawasan na ang mga email pag may trabaho at lalo ang chat . grabe ang demands ng trabaho nya kasi.

d na ko kilala ng manong kartero, dati kc sumusulat sha lingo lingo. dahil madaming ginagawa ngyon, minsan na lng sa isang buwan.

okay lng nmn lahat ng yan, alam ko namang ndi sha ngbabago at ang nararamdaman nya para sa kin. bumabawi din nmn sha. sabi nga pana-panahon lng yan. :)

just for the record, he made me cry awhile ago while we are talking. that was the first! it was not something he did though.. i told him it was okay, just don't me make cry for the reason that i am least expecting him to do and he assured me that he will not do anything. i have a big trust in him...anyway, he just teased me if i miss the clinic and yeah i soo miss it; the people and what i am doing and it sink in to me that i cried!  i am such a crybaby!!! i really miss what i'm doing, that was my passion.  anyway, as what he's always saying  that i am getting there and it's getting near. i have big hopes  and  i can go back to the clinic any time i want to. i just need to rest at the moment.

it's overwhelming i can cry to him right now, it's really like we've grown so close at a very short span of time. i am not worrying if i look stupid or sound odd when crying and the fact that i can tell him everything and totally entrusting my feelings and insights be it so deep,so confidential or just so nonsense.  oh well, enough of my blah. below is the lyrics of my so fave song at the moment...just wanna share, just for the record.

I can't help myself
If I don't wanna be with nobody else
I don't wanna leave my baby's side
And I don't wanna kiss another guy
I'll pass any test
Cause nothing in this world or in the next
Could make me second guess
Could make me change my mind
Could make me not protect what I'm feeling inside

Cause I'm smart enough to know that this is a good thing
Please believe it, please believe it
And I'm smart enough to stay right where I belong
And I'm faithful enough to know that this is meant to be
And if it's not, the don't speak
Don't ruin it, let me dream

[Chorus]
Hear me, hear me
This is for my baby
There will never be another
There's so many ways I love you
And that's just for the record, babe
I need you, need you
I can't wait to see you
I so love when were together
Can't nobody do it better
And that's just for the record, babe

I can't be perfect
No one is flawless
But rest in mind
I'll be there through the good and the bad and the ugly and worse
So if it's something that you're lacking
Go and tell me first

Cause I'm smart enough to know that this is a good thing, yeah
Smart enough to stay right where I belong, oh no no no
And I'm faithful enough to know that this is meant to be
And if it's not, the don't speak
Don't ruin it, let me dream

[Chorus]
Hear me, hear me
This is for my baby
There will never be another
There's so many ways I love you
And that's just for the record, babe
I need you, need you
I can't wait to see you
I so love when were together
Can't nobody do it better
And that's just for the record, babe

So if there's any way to cheat
Don't tell me 'cause I don't wanna know
And if there's any way to leave
Don't tell me 'cause I don't wanna go
I don't wanna go to sleep 'cause I don't wanna miss you
This is team and I love my position
Lead me anywhere, I'll go with you there
I'll go with you there

september is also my month, another year older - another year wiser. actually i already bought myself some gifts :) though some on my lists like the blue wedge shoes and pink ballet flats i've been eyeing since last month is still there and the cebu/bohol trip and the vigan/pagudpod trip and maybe some Asian tour and the charity work which is now in process. :) i'm not a big earner (maybe a big spender  ) but a lil something can give a huge smile to others, after all we need to share our blessings no matter how big or small it is. i have simple desires and sometimes fancy ones too, i can be easily pleased and right now what i wanted was something close to reality...still waiting on my list to be crossed out are wi-fi phone, slr camera, phillip stein watches, LV, european tour, egypt and south african tour to name a few. :) well, on top of that are my wishes for my family, my beybi and my friends. :) and of course i'm still aiming for that house i wanna build on the lot that i'm claiming it's mine since they have no one else to give it to  but the house will still be for my parent's though. oh well,  i just need to wait for that one thing i am praying for to achieve all those. i am staying positive and keeping the faith...it'll be given in God's time. :)

at this point, i just need to take it easy. enjoy the job that pays the bills :) that in fact it's been a year also since we signed the contract (sept 3 to be exact) and flew to US for training and some work, go back to the gym, yoga classes and maybe a dance class, read and study more, more time watching tv and movies, pampering myself and sleeping...grueling 17 working hours every other day is over. i miss the clinic though, the patients and my fellow PT's..i miss giving care and treatment at the same time learning and interacting with different types of people. it became unhealthy (i am gaining weight and getting sick) that's why i need to stop even if i still don't want to, my body just quit...three months is very short but soon i will be back and definitely it will be out of the country already. it will still be a long tough road, bumps and curves everywhere but i am ready to face it and enjoy the ride. i am holding on to my love and my dreams. life is indeed a great journey and thanking HIM is not just enough...:)

2. When you lose, don't lose the lesson.

3. Follow the three R's:

           > respect for self

           > respect for others

           > responsibility for all your actions

4. Remember that not getting what you want is sometimes a wonderful stroke of luck.

5. Learn the rules so you know how to break them properly.

6. Don't let a little dispute injure a great relationship.

7. When you realize you've made a mistake, take immediate steps to correct it.

8. Spend some time alone every day.

9. Open your arms to change, but don't let go of your values.

10. Remember that silence is sometimes the best answer.

11. Live a good, honorable life. Then when you get older and think back, you'll be able to enjoy it a seconds time.

12. A loving atmosphere in your home is the foundation for your life.

13. In disagreements with loved ones,deal only with the current situation. Don't bring up the past.

14. Share your knowledge. It is a way to achieve immortality.

15. Be gentle with the earth.

16. Once a year, go someplace you've never been before.

17. Remember that the best relationship is one in which your love for each other exceeds your need for each other.

18. Judge your success by what you had to give up in order to get it.

19. Approach love and cooking with reckless abandon.

again, call me crazy but just the first few days that we started talking and get to know each other i felt and knew it...IT WAS HIM...it's him that i wanted to share my dreams with and spend the rest of my life...it's him that i will love for the rest of my days...it's him that i wanna grow old with...i dunno! i just felt it and i am confident with that thought...with that feeling...he's the answer to my prayers and i am not even expecting it at that point of time when he arrived..he really is the one that God gave to me to share his gift of love...i am just soooo THANKFUL! super thankful!i am just sooo blessed!with him, everything starts to fall into it's right places...he's such a blessing!and i just can't help to be positive...with God's grace it will be...everything will work out...He's with us...it will not always be sunny and there will be though times but it will be just a part of our journey together.good or bad i am with him and he's with me always... i love you joseph! :) i sooo love you!!!and i will stay this way for the rest of my life.i know i will...love you sweetie!

and yah, i am crazy! ;)

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my current song for him...i just can't get over this song as much as i can't get over him! :)

The thing about love
Is i never saw it coming
It kinda crept up and took me by surprise
And now there’s a voice inside my heart that’s got me wondering
Is this true, i want to hear it one more time

Move in a little closer
Take it to a whisper
Just a little louder

Say it again for me
Cuz i love the way it feels when you are telling me that i’m
The only one who blows your mind
Say it again for me
It’s like the whole world stops to listen
When you tell me you’re in love
Say it again

Thing about you is you know just how to get me
You talk about us like there’s no end in sight
The thing about me is that i really want to let you
Open that door and walk into my life

Move in a little closer
Take it to a whisper
Just a little louder

Say it again for me
Cuz i love the way it feels when you are telling me that i’m
The only one who blows your mind
Say it again for me
It’s like the whole world stops to listen
When you tell me you’re in love

And it feels like it’s the first time
That anybody's ever brought the sun without the rain
And never in my whole life
Have I heard words as beautiful as when you say my name

Say it again for me
Cuz i love the way it feels when you are telling me that i’m
The only one who blows your mind
Say it again for me
It’s like the whole world stops to listen
When you tell me you’re in love
Say it again

When you tell me you’re in love…
Say it again