Serious? Yes. I am a bread winner, you must be too. Mahirap diba? Lalong mahirap pag malayo ka sa pamilya mo, magkasakit ka man..self service. Ni wala ka man lang magluluto sayo or bumuli ng gamot. Pagdown ka, wala ka makausap..well some friends they do but sometimes iba yung galing sa family mo...

Mahirap lang kami, there was I point that every night I would wake up to a loud cry of hunger. I just endured...kelan kaya titigil to. When that happens, I think of doughnuts, lush cream caramels, mouth watering ice cream sorbet and some sugary stuff..that would ease the hunger..at least on my mind.

There were high hopes when my eldest brother graduated, we were relieved. But behind that blinding hope was utter despair...all I could ask God is..WHY? My brother left us with Nothingness, vast void questions unanswered. I didn't cried, not that I remembered..I reckon that day I created my happy mask..I used that to show him that we didn't needed him...deceiving but empty.

I worked my way to get a job at the best of my abilities. I wanted to show my brother that with this little arms, this frail body, this scarred heart! that I can raise my...our family out of this misery. Yes, ikaw ang rason sa entry na to...I can never face you to tell all of these things and yes very cowardly of me...but this is just my outlet of misery.

My dear brother...wala naman akong gustong ibang hingin sayo, you never heard me asked a favor from you ever...not in my entire life..not even them. All I ask is for you to look back...look back on us. We are just trailing behind you, di mo ba kami makita? Nakatingala ka lang ba para sa sarili mo?

I know you will never wake up from that bliss nor even read this entry. But I am just furious about what you have said to me today..all I wanted was to ask for some help. I can never raise them alone...my happy mask is wearing out...my body is about to give up, the walls I build is ready to crumble....

Sorry guys ha, its my rant post again. My manoy (thats what i call him) is not really that bad, due to circumstances lang siguro. Nagusap kami kanina, he told me something that made me really angry, all I did was asked for help..is it really to much? yeah..bread whiner I am *happy face turned on*

Grabe, di ko maexplain kung gaano kasarap..basta masarap siya at enjoy lalo na kasama mo friends mo magluto. At iba dyan..di alam kung ano yung lard...aherm. Kala din namin tofu yung inihanda nila sa gitna...lard pala yun haha. Yun pala yung mantika for the grill...tsk tsk...how are art though innocent...sorry naman..first time lang.

We got there around 4:45 na kasi naman etong si kulot may interview pa...dun sa taas ng megamall. Hinatak nung bakla..false advertisement pala..wooo..ayun we wasted our time..

Pero! Going to the good part, you will need to select kung ano base ng soup nyu for the shabu-shabu. They had chicken broth, sinigang at yung isa di ko matandaan. So we ordered the Sinigang based, then after nun kuha na kayo ng kung ano-ano sa may gilid. They had wide ragnge of selection from veggies fish cuts, frankfurts, shomai at maraming pang iba. Kuha lang kayu dun tapos iluto nyu sa grill or broth.

It came to us na kumuha si Van ng maraming vermicelli, wala problema yun...kaso...sinigang based kami...kaya ayun...sinigang namin may sotanghon hahaha.

After 2 long hours of intensive eating...kulot..wag magdeny haha..nanood kami ng Confessions of a Shopaholic Weeeeeeeeee!~ (kung sino gusto sumama next time..itaas ang kamay)

Pictures can be seen here:

http://00f3e94.netsolhost.com/simpleviewer/TongYang/

I had a hunch that day that something bad is going happen and I was not wrong. I rushed at the house and I saw Molly enclosed on a container full of  water….the house smelled carbon that day. Nanginig ako when I got her up…”Lord..what have I done?”..yun lang nasabi ko at that time. Panic came and hysteria was standing by. Omg what should I do? I called her name name twice..thrice..I can not remember…

Yes..Molly drowned. “DO NOT DIE ON ME!” a shout that echoed in every inch of my spine. Tears were building up, my body was almost numb..think! thnk! Think!. Wala ako maisip that time…I shook her hoping for a response…this is hopeless…Molly did not blinked.

I rushed outside taking her in my arms…”Please please lord…wag nyo siyang kunin sa akin…” I commuted and got her to a Specialist. He was shocked when he saw Molly…she was all pale and rusty. ”Ano nangyari?” tanong niya. I was speechless di ako makasagot, maybe its my guilt, di ko mabigay ang rason kasi alam ako ako ang may kasalanan. “Di na importante to yun! Pakiusap..tulungan nyo siya...”

He checked Molly…he shooked his head..he shooked his head twice..I knew right then kung ano sasabihin niya. “Ang daming damage sa system niya…kailangan natin siyang operahan”. This is not happening…this might be a dream..please wake me up! The attendant came…”Sir…paki antay na lang po sa lobby…well keep you informed.”

I sat at the lobby still in shock. Denial. Guilt, Anger, all mixed up emotions ARGH! What if di siya mabuhay? Isa sa ga milyong tanong sa isip ko..but that question weighed more..

If I could only turn back time…flash of memories came…the time we spent….the time she made me happy. I was contented having her..no ifs..no buts.

1 hour and 45 minutes passed, I saw the specialists sweaty face…I knew he had done his best..he did not have to tell me. “Im so sorry…wala na tayo magagawa…”. I did not know what to feel that time..seems like everything stopped…how could this happen…

“Di na po natin marerecover PSP niyo sir, ayaw na umandar ng mother board tsaka kakalawangin lang yan pag dating ng panahon..bumili na lang kayo bago.”

Oh my Molly…my precious PSP…drowned in Pepsi…(that actually rhymed J). “Pakshet ka..anong bago?..may sentimental value si Molly sa akin…siya yung unang sweldo ko sa PS! Bleh!” yun sana sasabihin ko sa technician.

That was the whole story of my Molly..yes..yung gadgets ko my names…tawag ko sa cellphone ko ay Bert. Bert was my first thirteen month pay..o ha…Im sure malungkot din si Bert nung nawala si Molly. Hehe. Its been four months now since it happened..naka move on na ako hahahah. Its time to buy a new one…hopefully mabili ko yung kay Donnabell Z kaso pink yung PSP..toink. Ano kaya maganda name for the new one? By the way, ngayon lang ako naka update kasi pakshet na background yan..pangit tuloy template ko kaya ayan..sana makabalik ako sa blogging nyeheh

ALAMAT Kung Bakit Nagsisinungaling mga lalaki.

Ito DAW ang alamat kung bakit nagsi-sinungaling ang mga lalaki...

Karpintero itong si Jojo at isang araw eh gumagawa siya ng isang bahay sa tabi ng ilog.Sa lakas ng pagma-martilyo niya eh nalaglag ang martilyo niya sa ilog...umiyak siya at lumitaw yung guardian angel niya, "tutulungan kita, Jojo".. .sabay lundag sa ilog. Lumabas ito na me hawak na gold hammer,"ito ba ang martilyo mo?"... "hindi po"...lundag uli ang anghel at lumitaw na me silver hammer, "ito ba?"..."hindi po"...lundag uli sa ilog ang anghel at lumitaw na me ordinary hammer, "ito ba?"..."opo" .natuwa ang anghel, "dahil honest ka, bukod sa martilyo mo, sa 'yo na rin ang gold and silver hammer"... Makaraan ang ilang araw,naglalakad si Jojo sa ilog at kasama ang misis niya... eh sa katangahan,nalaglag si misis sa ilog...iyak si Jojo...litaw si guardian angel, "tutulungan kita"...sabay lundag sa ilog at ng lumitaw eh kasama si Paris Hilton, "ito ba ang misis mo?"...sagot si Jojo, "opo"... nagalit si anghel,"sinungaling ka.akala ko pa naman mabait ka"... nag- reason-out si Jojo, "sorry po,angel...kasi kapag sinabi kong 'Hindi', eh lulundag ka uli sa tubig at pag-litaw mo eh kasama mo si Jessica Simpson, at pag sinabi ko uli na hindi siya ang asawa ko eh lulundag ka uli at ang tunay na misis ko na ang kasama mo. At dahil sa kabaitan ko eh ibibigay mo din sa akin sina Paris at Jessica.Mahirap lang po ako at hindi ko kaya ang me tatlong asawa, kaya 'Yes' na lang ang sinagot ko nung una.

*Moral of the story: kaya lang naman nagsi-sinungaling ang mga lalaki eh for a good and noble reason.* Tama nga naman..^^v

First off is I had to borrow a jacket since I had to finish off my dirty clothes, wala na kasing akong matinong jacket. Di na sana ako hihiram kaso nga naman sa lagay ng katawan kong eto eh di pwede magshirt lang. Anyhoo, ayun punta sa kabilang kwarto para humiram ng jacket at yung isang ka dormmate namin na itago nating sa pangalang "For The Win" ay nagpresentang magpahiram ng jacket niya.

Natuwa naman ako kasi medyo ok yung jacket, hooded tapos may pockets sa harap...pwede ilagay ang kamay just in case malamig talaga. Nasa sa opis na ako but I did not wear it until natapos yung first break ko. I asked for a "personal" tapos takbo dun sa restroom para suotin yung jacket.

Pagpasok ko, there were 2 person "relieving" themselves tapos isang tao sa sink. At syempre ako naman, dali-daling sinuot yung jacket..."Ok din to ah, sakto sakin" sambit ko sa sarili ko. Then i realized na may bukol dun sa harap ng jacket.

I was still checking the fit then I tried to place my hands dun sa front pockets...then I felt na may laman nga yung pockets sa harap. Curiousity kills the cat....hinugot ko yung laman ng bulsa kasi akala ko naman kasi panyo or towel...malambot kasi....at nung time na yun, yung mga tao sa rest room ay nakatingin sa salamin....yung isa nasa sink pa din..yung dalawa nasa likod ko.

So ayun, hinugot ko siya sa harap ng madla at ang nahugot ay hindi towel...hindi din panyo...kungdi ay isang makasaysayang panty! Opo, isang maitim na panty. Di ako makapagsalita sa lagay na yun, nanlaki mata ko and to think na lahat kami dun sa rest room ay nakatingin sa hinahawakan ko. FTW!!! Oh my dignity....Di ako agad nakapagreact, waaaa! Nakakahiya talaga. Gusto ko ipulupot yung sarili ko sa tissue. Blanko pa rin yung mukha nung tatlong lalaki nung dali-dali akong lumabas. Argh! Taga ibang account pa naman yun tapos sa kabila lang yun station nila. *toink*

Sabi nga ni NomRay na sana sinout ko na lang daw yung panty sa ulo para kunwari hood siya nung jacket or pinunas ko agad sa sink para magmukhang reliance nyahaha

Tapos eto pa..kanina sa kasi medyo antok pa ako dahil adik sa portable dvd, nung kumuha na ako ng milo sa vendo ayaw lumabas ng hot milo...yun pala yung number na pinipindot ko eh yung password sa Avaya ko hahaha! Maglog in ba naman sa vendo?  

 

 

She was just whispering then, but when we were inside the elevator that whisper came to a whimper then i guess she heard a bad new...her eyes widened, her hands were trembling...she was about to burst..I could feel the tension in the room...I was dumbfounded. Pity. The doors opened and a friend of hers patted her at the back then details came.

Her first born was diagnosed with Kawasaki disease, I never knew what that is but I feel for her. ("Kawasaki disease can cause vasculitic changes (inflammation of blood vessels) in the coronary arteries and subsequent coronary artery aneurysms. These aneurysms can lead to myocardial infarction (heart attack) even in young children." - Wikipedia)

It saddens me to see things like this, pain is a part of life, yes, unfair yet realistic. Just came to me that we all should always be grateful for what we have today. Sounds cheesy, we might be realizing what we enjoy most might taken away from us just like that.

On teh other side of the note..belated japi monthsary..havi! hehe

Ang pag-ibig parang tsinelas......

Kahit gaano man kadami sapatos mo....

Pag-uwi mo....

Tsinelas pa rin hahanapin mo....

Ikaw?..Nahanap mo na ba Tsinelas mo?..

This was the reply:

"Pwede ba ikaw na lang HAVAIANAS ko?"

I mean sh*t...in lab ata ako....

Bakit?

Kasi lahat na lang ata ng mga fwends ko dito ay in lababu o di kaya ay inspired....

Junville-kun - http://lucenzojean.tabulas.com/ (biga-on kayog entry haha)

Maisiechan - http://angeiique.tabulas.com/2007/12/31/@1512022/#comments (kiligers 2 da max)

Aileensurz - http://fish-me.tabulas.com/2008/01/01/new-year-thing/#comments (galit-galit kunware pero inlab pa rin,,wushu..)

Blueming - http://blue001.tabulas.com/2008/01/02/hmmmm-isnt-he-cute/#comments - (were getting to know each other? ahihi)

Cindylauper - http://zinnia06.tabulas.com/2007/12/26/yes-or-noright-or-wrongleft-or-righthehe/#comments (balita ko may sweetie daw to eh..sino kaya yun?)

Millete - http://angcutenakulot.tabulas.com/2007/12/11/-hapi-bertday-to-me-/#comments (No comment..complicated daw pero happy..di ba millete?)

"Dung, dung dung", "Passengers of Cebu Pacific flight 563 bound for Davao, your flight will be delayed due to late arrival of the aircraft."

Patience level: 40%

December 17, 2007/ 10:20 a.m.

"Dung, dung dung", "Passengers of Cebu Pacific flight 563 bound for Davao, your flight will be further delayed due to late arrival of the aircraft. We apologize. Thank you"

Patience level: 70%

Sometime later that day....

"Dung, dung dung", "Passengers of Cebu Pacific flight 563 bound for Davao, your flight will be definitely delayed more due to the <insert all of your alibis and what not here>. We apologize. You can get your free lunch at counter 8. Thank you."

Patience level: Wag mo na alamin...

           !@#$%^&* It was a great thing para umuwi ng Davao since its holiday season, napakahaggard lang talaga ng travel since peak season siya. Prepare yourself para makipagsiksikan, iringan, hiyawan at bulyawan sa mga ibang pasahero kasi parang welga, kulang nalang magdala ka ng cardboards pero ok lang lahat ng eto para makasama sila.

            Super excited ako umuwi kasi susurprise ko uli pamilya ko hihi. Pagdating ko dun sobrang saya, mapapawi agad lahat ng pagod at efforts mo..di ko madescribe. Nakita ko din ulit ang mahal kong si Azumi**, lab yu beh wahahah

             Laki ng pinagbago ng Davao since umuwi ako last March, may People's Park na at ang ganda ng Queensville (isang bayside na park), akalain mo ng gumuwa sila ng mahabang mini pond in front nung statue ni david at sa pond na yun ay may 50 sharks at ibat-ibag isda. Ang ganda tingnan nung place lalo na kung sunset..sarap magdate dun (kung di mo type date mo, tulak mo lang sa pond jejeje).

             Nung 24 na ng gabi, nagsimbang gabi ako kasama ang isang friend kaso nga lang nakakahiya kasi di ako naligo. Amf talaga Dec. 23 pa di na bumuhos tubig sa village namin, kung may tubig man..pinaghuhugas lang ng gamit. Argh kainis talaga, ayun nagwisik lang po ako ng pabango (ewwww, sabi ko naman.."di naman ako aamuyin ni Lord" hehe). Nung nasimbahan na kami, nakita ko yung childhood crush ko, ngumisi siya at sumenyas na tumabi sa kanya...kumusta naman ang walang ligo?...ngumisi na lang din ako at dun na lang sa gilid umupo..mahirap na...wrong timing talaga amfufufu.

             Pagkatapos nun....ay bukas ko na lang isusulat....may naghihintay sakin... tu bi kontinyu..

Busy kasi. 

Well, Ako po ay pupunta....sa.... Saan? Basta..wait nyo lang....