if this is just a dream...

And this is what we have learned...

Fri, 20 Jan 2006 02:00:00 +0000

moving closer to the fire will leave us burned.

You can't end something that never began in the first place.

Thu, 12 Jan 2006 11:59:38 +0000

Haha, it did last two weeks. =D

don't read me.

Tue, 3 Jan 2006 13:18:30 +0000

1.Buong pangalan?
= Therese

2. Anong nararamdaman mo ngayon?
= My tummy hurts x(

3. Bakit yun ang nararamdaman mo?
= Nalipasan ako ng gutom. Oops.

4. Saan mo gusto pumunta ngayon?
= Magandang tanong. ;D

5. Kung may yayakapin ka ngayon, ano o sino?
= Marami eh.

6. Kung may chance kang bumuhay ng tao?
= Mommy ng mom ko kasi miss niya eh.

7. Anong kanta ang lagi mong kinakanta
= Can't touch this!

8. Sinong katabi mo ngayon?
= Wala

9. Kung papipiliin ka, sino pipiliin mo:mahal mo
na di ka mahal, o mahal ka na di mo mahal?
= Neither. Magmahalan tayo para masaya. Haha.

10. Sinong gusto mong makausap ngayon?
= Marami :)

11. Kung hindi ka ikaw ngayon, sino ka?
= Ikaw, sino ka?

12. Ano pinakamalungkot na nangyari sa'yo?
= Hm..

13. Anong kanta ang gusto mong i-play?
= as you sleep ng something corporate... wala lang.

14. Kung bibigyan mo yung mahal mo ng
bulaklak ano yun?
= Chicharon! Mahilig siya dun eh. Nge.

15. Anong talent mo?
= I can make my friends smile. =D

16. Ma-pride ka bang tao?
= Yes.

17. Anong isang bagay na gusto mong makuha
ngayon?
= World domination.

18. Sinong artista ang kinalolokohan mo ngayon?
= Christian!

19. Sino ang kinakainisan mo ngayon?
= Rachelle! Charing :)

20. Anong pelikula ang gusto mong panoorin?
= Enteng Kabisote, woohoo!

21. Kung bida ka sa isang pelikula,sino gusto
mong leading man/lady mo?
= Yung bading sa My Best Friend's Wedding

22. Kung di mo pangalan ang pangalan mo
ngayon, ano ang pangalan mo?
= Tiffany daw. Blech.

23. Kung may gusto kang balikan sa nakaraan
mo, ano yun?
= Wala

24. Masaya ba ang kwento ng buhay mo?
= Aba oo.

25. Kung papayagan kang pumatay ngayon,
sino ang papatayin mo?
= Wala.

26. Sino ang pinakaimportanteng tao ngayon sa
buhay mo?
= Si Papa God.

27. Ano ang pinaka-pangarap mong maging
nung bata ka pa?
= Sikat!

28. Kung singer ka, sinong singer ang gusto
mong maka-duet?
= MC Hammer o kaya si Vanilla Ice. Patay kayo diyan.

29. Sa tingin mo, bakit kailangang magmahal?
= "We love because he first loved us." (1 John 4:19)"

30. Isang pelikula na talagang iniyakan mo?
= Passion of the Christ

31. Ano ang pinaka-ayaw mong ugali ng isang
tao?
= Wlang sense of humor.

32. Anong theme song ng buhay mo?
= Unpretty ng TLC

33. Kung pwede mong i-rewind ang oras,wat
g2wn mo?
= I'd spend more time with yooooooooou.

34. Kaya mo bang pakawalan ang taong mahal
mo?
= Ewan.

35. Motto mo tungkol sa love sa mga oras na ito?
= And it'll always be a happy day because love has come my way! ;)

45 PAINFUL REALITIES IN LIFE(about loving!)
01. flashing your smile to someone you don't want
to see
02. bringing back the feeling you've learned to
forget
03. showing that you care
04. finding a way to mend a broken heart
05. learning that you've been used by someone
you
truly love
06. saying i love you when you mean it and when
you don't
07. letting go of a person you've just learned to
love
08. realizing that you love somebody you've just
taken for granted
09. realizing that you love the person you've just
broken up with
10. waiting for promises you know she or he will
never keep
11. saying your love for someone who loves
somebody else
12. reminiscing the good times you shared
together
13. shielding your heart to love somebody
14. trying to hide what you really feel
15. having a commitment with someone that you
know would not last
16. trying to hide the tears that voluntarily fall
from
your eyes
17. sharing the one you love with someone else
18. loving a person too much
19. giving up someone you never thought of giving
up
20. falling in love for the first time
21. loving someone you haven't seen
22. having the right love at the wrong time
23. exerting effort to make the relationship last or
work
24. not being appreciated when you know you've
given your best
25. taking the risk to fall in love again
26. hiding your relationship from someone else
27. controlling your feelings to avoid hurting a
friend
28. choosing between two persons whom you
really love
29. finding out that you can never have the person
you just let go of
30. seeing the person you love with someone else
31. learning that the person who claimed to have
loved you so much never really cared
32. seeing the one you love fall for someone else
33. falling for your best friend and knowing that
things can never be the same again
34. learning to trust after you have been betrayed
35. accepting that it was not meant to be
36. smiling when all you want to do is cry
37. falling and knowing that it can never be
38. not being able to love the person who truly
cares for you
39. saying that you can never love a person the
way he loves you
40. hearing that he can never love you the way that
you love him
41. saying that you are over someone you still love
42. being friends again and learning to let go of
each other coz you both know it is better that way
43. convincing oneself that you are not in love
when
you know that you are
44. having to let go because you know that he
deserves someone else
45. trying not to remember how perfect everything
used to be

I want to delete my tabulas.

Mon, 26 Dec 2005 13:38:43 +0000

Going through my entries, I realized that I don't know the girl who wrote all those entries na anymore. I can't remember why I used to enjoy playing guys, how I used to not care about anyone other than *insertnamehere* and how I actually was willing to pretend that I had a chance in hell with the guy I liked (as in reallyreallyreally liked) this year. I have come to understand that he's not torpe. He just doesn't like me. And everything that we had (or I thought we had) was just a figment of my imagination. It all took place in my head. I read between the lines too much.

I gotta stop using the guys who like me and liking the guys who use me.

Or not.

I still don't know. I'm confused. I'm scared. Just totally scared. What if all the fxcked up things I used to do come back to me? What if karma is real and I get kicked in the a** for being such a biatch? More importantly, why do I even care? Maybe he's just one of 'em two week flings.

I know it's not going to last.

I'm praying so hard it will.

Yo, biznatches.

Fri, 23 Dec 2005 02:53:33 +0000

Merry Christmas.

Vanity times two.

Wed, 21 Dec 2005 13:53:06 +0000

My tiara pic was supposedly stolen but off the record, alam kong kukuhanan ako so nakatingin ako. =D Tama si Rupert, pa-cute ako. Hehe.

Do you want to know what it feels like?

Sun, 18 Dec 2005 03:46:24 +0000

I faintly remember the first time I made that mistake. I was told not to do it, but I still did. I had enough sense to know that I shouldn't do it, but it didn't stop me. And so I subjected myself to unnecessary heartbreak. Which I could have avoided if I did what I knew was right. But I didn't. I didn't I didn't I didn't.

I CAN'T BELIEVE I FELL IN LOVE WITH YOU. It's been two years but I still can't forgive myself for not doing anything to stop myself from falling. Not that I could have stopped my heart explicitly but I could have done something. But I couldn't stay away! I was attracted to him like bees to honey. Which is why I got hurt so badly.

But it's over. And it's okay.

So why am I bringing it up?

Because OMG, I'm falling in love again.

It was acceptable the first time. I was young (hehe not like I aged considerably in two years - especially not mentally, I know) and stupid and I didn't know any better. But this time I do. I know what it feels like to be disappointed. To be hurt. To be in so much pain you can't really feel anymore.

And I learned my lesson.

So why am I still falling?

Don't worry, I'm alright. Possibly even happy. Yes, happy. Really really happy.

I'm so happy I could cry.

Sa pic lang yan.

Fri, 9 Dec 2005 00:55:45 +0000

The message from that complete stranger reads: "hi i was just browsing mg friendster and i noticed u... has anyone told u that u look like say of pbb? coz u really look like her!! no joke! anyweiz thats it! ciao! rock solid m/"

Yup, if Say had bad skin. CAN YOU SPOT THOSE ZITS.

Thu, 8 Dec 2005 14:39:00 +0000

alam mo yung nabili nating gulay sa palengke noong cookfest natin dati? ganoon ako eh. akala mo lang maganda sa labas yun pala bulok yung loob.

Ewan.

Sun, 27 Nov 2005 04:11:51 +0000

Ngunit pag ika'y lalapit para bang masasaktan... ayaw mapahiya ngunit di makaiwas at kapag nandyan at kaharap ay biglang mawawala ang gustong sabihin... unti unting nagiging lihim.

Pano kung di na tayo magkikita
Pano kung wala na pagkakataong masabi
Ang lahat sayo
Pagkakataong masabi ang..

Kulang ba ang oras na binibigay
Kung ikaw at ako magkahiwalay
Hindi sasayangin
Bawat sandali magkahiwalay
Hindi sasayangin..

Kailan ba mauulit
Oras na di na pansin
Kailan ba maririnig
Tawanan na di na pigilan

Sana'y maalala
Kailan pa maibabalik
Ang lahat ng pinagsamahan