Half A Breath to Blue

Stone and Water.

Tue, 16 Mar 2004 23:11:34 +0000

Well last night I was a bit depressed, Im not sure why now cause Im not depressed now, just tired from work. Any who I wrote something maybe you can call it a poem but I just hope it gives a message to someone.
Stone and Water
Today you have grown into a rock
Selfish, Single-minded, and Self Satisfing yourself
But you cant live always alone
Beaneath the sea I\'ll protect you from seeing the wrong path
You\'ve grown above the sea to equal our views
The Rain raises above you but cries for you for running away
It is your mountains that have grown above the clouds
To see the light who you want to look more important to
So now we arn\'t equal cause you believe there can only be
One, the one who you can now only look up to
But now I cannot touch it or you.

What\'s wrong?

Sun, 14 Mar 2004 03:35:52 +0000

Well I have nothing to do but complain, I guess some good news is I have more money in the bank than I suspected. I kind of feel that I can easily do my bills now, although its to late now since I forgot to pay one and they are going to force me to pay higher amounts or I get bad credit. I keep losing weight I dunno how fast I gain it cause Im almost always the same weight but in the end I find myself losing 5 pounds under 2 days.
Gaining weight is what I guess would make the pain in my chest go away. Before it was a pain near my shoulder blades but lower than that of course. Now I get a pain right in the middle of my chest to the sides where my lungs would be really weird pain, I was afraid it was my heart but it sometimes moved to the other side. I really hate sleeping its getting really annoying how I work for 8 hours and once I get home my body wants to go to bed then it works to my eyes getting heavy bahhh. I was getting really tired at 8 pm then the smell of food woke me up a bit, I didnt even eat. My mom made some weird boiled stuff, I heard her scream to my brother about she not having anything to cook since she already made everything in the week. So theres just left over chicken, steak, spaghetti, rice, pizza from friday, and a couple of things I cant remember.
Oh well, I lost my Brand New CD Ive been looking for it for umm 3 weeks I even cleaned my room 4 days ago It could only be under the bed or in a drawer. Ill have to wait till monday.

Mon, 1 Mar 2004 05:42:13 +0000

Bahhh, Im really bored. Sometimes when im bored I look at my favorites list. Which is pretty weird full of weird junk lol now I found someones journal and they seem to have been a friend of mine maybe i think im not sure. The journal is very vauge hmm well not updated much either but being vauge sucks.. no wait bahhh I know i would never put my email on here nore would I put Aim name those stupid porn IMs suck! But still curse you! who are you so ... unknown! Im 100% sure i havnt talked to this person in a long time cause i only talk to 1 or 2 people hmm well time to... interigate my buddy list!

Nice Breaks.

Mon, 16 Feb 2004 03:46:49 +0000

Ive been trying to cut back on somethings in life heh mostly like playing final fantasy and maybe a big cut back cutting off music. I like the old stuff I have now so I really dont know whats knew out there and I dont really care to much now but I bet ill be one of those dumb people who will end up being the last fans and be posour like.

What I find really bad is Ive been cutting myself off what I should be doing. I think Im lacking food alot playing so much I just kind of zoned out eatting. One day my arm just went dead and I had some weird chest pains, it wasnt my usual lung pains either.

I missed seeing Nicole >< Im sorry Nicole! It would have been very nice to see you again Im very sorry. Although I should also add saying sorry to all my friends cause I havnt been on chat programs for a good while. Though even saying that Im not sure what to say I wanna delete my character on Final Fantasy to start over and make more money. I cant seem to afford a certain type of armor now lol and Im completly clueless about farming though I really cant since 4 of my characters are above the lvl of 15 none soloing lvl. Sigh its so addictive alot of hard work to be deleting doesnt sound good. I dont wanna think of it now.

So Tired.

Sun, 25 Jan 2004 05:36:21 +0000

Not much to say for now. I hate how this year is starting and Im going to get beat in February =\\

Shut Down.

Mon, 12 Jan 2004 22:14:49 +0000

Blah, not that I just noticed now but I had a feeling my sound from kazaa lite was very weak. I went to check if they have updated and all the sudden I find sites say that Kazaa Lite has been shutdown blah. Everyone knows Kazaa has spyware, by reading it the article said that Kazaa lite might not return again but the latest versions can be found on the net, and I cant even find those >< So this is pretty crappy I dont use winamp much but I guess Im going to have to making a playlist sucks.

Rain on Friday!

Fri, 9 Jan 2004 22:52:55 +0000

I finally got pretty bored of playing final fantasy. Though, I dont think boredum is the word for it I freaking couldnt hit a barn 5 feet away from me in that game grrr. I must have played like 6 or 7 hours straight I did lvl sometimes and I think Im due to lvl again but god missing crap so much is getting me really mad.
This rain pretty messed up what I was going to do today around 4 I was thinking of letting the dogs out of the room but it started to rain. My mom wrote a note saying to put them out in the porch and take them out later but they ended up doing their business in the porch and fast too >< So oh well thats my excuse if they ask.

Some Quiz's.

Mon, 5 Jan 2004 06:25:16 +0000

I am 54% Ska

Well, maybe I\'m trying too hard, maybe I\'m not trying hard enough. I shouldn\'t forget my roots, and remember that punk and reggae wouldn\'t exist without ska.

Take the Ska Test at fuali.com

I am 46% Internet Addict

I could go either way. Deep into the madness of nights filled with coding CGI-Scripts and online role playing games, or I could become a normal user. Good luck!

Take the Internet Addict Test at fuali.com
Hah only slightly really untrue, most the questions had to do with silly online relationships blah!!!

I am 42% Emo

Hmm.. I should stop listening to Dashboard Confessional.... enough said... Now that I stopped looking at my shoes, I know how the real world looks.

Take the Emo Test at fuali.com
The most taken quiz at the site.... hmm I wonder why, well none of these things are accuate XD I am who I am and these were the ones I was interested in taking. Oh and Im bored >.> still awake at 1:30 am heh. Oh how neat I just noticed I did them from best to worst hehe.

Money is painful.

Sun, 4 Jan 2004 05:07:17 +0000

First off heh I wanted to say I got cut at work again lol, I havnt really been counting but Im sure its gone over 20 now heh. Im sure I complained before but I remember when I was still in high school and I said to myself money has no value to me. Well I sorta still true I hate it and it goes away to fast and I cant even make enough of it. Yeah Im really starting to get annoyed by working in 1 position all the time. Its been a month now that Ive been in Drive Thru I try to speak up and I have lots of valid excuses. With my paycheck that I got today we all got a note. It said something about changing your position cause you havnt improved.
Sigh my car hasnt been fixed yet, not that it cost anything. Oh man, yesterday I got pretty depressed actually pissed at first I didnt know why my internet connection went offline so much, I couldnt play FFXI =\\ Well what got me depressed was when no one noticed my hair trim, instead they all said when are you getting a hair cut. Then basically I paid 12$ for no one to notice that my hair was atleast even, I was told that it couldnt be cut so short since it needs to be long to be straightened. Its just the thing that I paid so much for that and no one er no that they still made fun of it even when I did do something to it. Then adding the internet troubles that grr messed up my timing of being sucessful, sigh I know its just a game. Comedy Central was showing undergrads, I forgot when but I know its late night, perhaps very late night. I wonder how many episodes it had not to mention the GC theme that kicked butt. Heh it aired on MTV over 4 yrs ago and no one was into GC and now they are like glory hogs. Hmm maddness man, I think I finished 2 animes since I wrote, I dont even wanna say how one ended maybe it had moral but it wasnt that good. I wonder if theres a rule to when you can say We will release the next episode when We Can or something along those lines. Just alittle stress since Ive seen Naruto the whole thing of what I got maybe 4 times and its been 41 days since they released a new one. The other Anime groups are much ahead, I know Im complaining and ripping bad but the way I am is I like to stick to 1 group cause I usually like there subbing only. Yeah the subbers for Naruto are doing a ... good job but bad... come on. I wonder how many people really havnt seen the next episode, raises hand.

Next Week.

Sat, 27 Dec 2003 13:14:04 +0000

Doh, I found out Im working on new years it sucks cause Im not working on new years eve. So whats the point in staying up late late when you gotta work early tomorrow bahhhh. One day Im suppose to take my car to the dealer so he can fix the car, all the sudden your at the light with the right turn blinker and then poof it stops clicking and the green light stops dumb car. I wonder how long the movies were open on Christmas, I would be so exhausted to work on Christmas. Well I went to see Lord of the Rings 3, yay it was great, I dont think I saw any of the movies and not had to use the bathroom 2 times but I ended up going to the bathroom 2 times when I saw it. >< First time I went I was upset hehe but then I realized how nice the soap was in the theater mmmm nice smell! So I didnt feel bad the second time and I got more soap! hehe.