this is Perlumbaan Kedua for you ignorant fools

IHATEYOU!

(not as much as Julia)

BUT I STILL HATE YOU
anyway
after all the injustice you've done me

IT'S TIME TO BID FAREWELL

BYEBYE TUK KURA

AND

GANG!

=D

seipokaiJuliaIhateyouforever
hah!
fuckoff
@!#?

Fairuz Nadhirah
This is for you (=

The Pearl Necklace

          “So, why do you wear that pearl necklace all the time? I’ve been curious but didn’t come about to ask” asked Marie sheepishly as she eyed the shimmering necklace clinging onto my neck. Marie has been my roommate for 2 years now. There was a moment of awkward silence as I never wanted to share the story of that particular episode in my life. I will never breathe a word about what happened 24 years ago. I smiled politely at Marie as the interruption from the waiter gave me an opportunity to escape. I excused myself from the crowd. I scouted for an empty seat where I can enjoy some time alone. As I sat comfortably on a couch, undisturbed, I allowed my thoughts to go back 6 years ago. I was 18 and I had to leave the orphanage. My one and only salvation.

          For 18 years, I was kept under the impression that my parents abandoned me on the steps of the orphanage. I loathe them. Never have I felt the love from my parents. The only people who took care of me was Aunty May and Uncle Peter. They’re like parents to me. But by 18, when I am independent enough to fend for myself, I decided to leave the comfort of my home. The orphanage was slowly overcrowding and I know I have to leave so that other children can seek refuge in the place I called home. I packed my bag with my head held high for I know that Aunt May and Uncle Peter were really proud that I made it to college.

          As soon as I landed my foot on the pavement, Aunt May called out for me. I spun around to see her panting lightly. She held my hand out and I felt something was placed on my palm.

          “18 years ago, a feeble young lady left a blessed child in a basket with a ten pounds note and this. I now return what is rightfully yours and I have something to tell you” Aunt May said as a solemn look flashed through but was quickly replaced with eyes tearing up.

          I opened my palm to see what my mother left me with. It was a pearl necklace. Each pearl identical to the other. Aunt May lead me back to the house and we sat down facing each other. She sighed deeply. I had no idea what I was about to know.
         

“For the first few years, your mother posted money to us to support you financially. She couldn’t look after you with 3 jobs daily. She worked hard to make sure you don’t go starving. She even wanted to save for your education. Sometimes, she’d be so weak that she could hardly walk but her face would immediately lit up with sheer joy and pride when she carries you in her arms. After 3 years, there was no news from her. A week later in winter we heard that she died in a corner of the street. She died of cold and fatigue” said Aunty May as she looked down trying to hide the tears streaming down her cheeks.

          “Your mother was the only daughter of Lord Spencer who is well known for his wealth and also his ruthless ways. This pearl necklace was a gift from your father to her. However, Lord Spencer didn’t approve of him because he came from a family of commoners. Your parents were so deeply in love with each other that one day, your mother made a drastic but firm decision to leave everything behind for him. They ran away and came to this town to get married in a small church behind the school over there” Aunt May pointed out. I was still in a state of disbelief as I try to accept the fact that I had a family.

          “Some time later, God blessed your mother with you. However, this joy went as fast as it came. Your father was called up to join the army when your mother was pregnant with you. He died as a hero. For our today, he gave his tomorrow. Your mother was a determined woman. She was persistent to bring you to the world. I remember she said that you are all your father left her. I’ll never forget how the determination burned like fire in her eyes” said Aunt May. I was slowly losing my focus. I can feel my emotions taking over me. Tears started to blur my vision. All these while, I wrongly assumed that they didn’t want me. I blamed them for all my misfortunes. I blamed them for how I suffered the bullies from kids at school when they found out I have no parents. I hung my head low with guilt.

          “Your mother tried to go back to her family. She swallowed her pride and knocked on the front door. However, Lord Spencer was a man with no mercy. He gave stern orders not to let your mother in. He said he have no daughter like your mother. He rejected her from the family” said Aunt May as she wiped tears from my cheek.

“Before she left us to rejoin Him, she told me to give you this pearl necklace. She wants you to know that she loved you and she would do all she can to be able to look after you and hold your hands through your life. But how was a young lady like her stand long working hours being treated like a servant washing dishes and doing laundries?” said Aunt May as she shook her head. She looked up and wrapped me in an embrace. She looked at me straight to my eyes.

          “Please don’t think ill of your mother. She was the greatest woman I’ve ever known. I am sure your parents would be very proud of this fine lass standing before me. Uncle Peter and I are so proud of you” Aunt May said with a soothing voice.

          I spent a week in college thinking about what Aunt May said. I imagined my mother being treated like a slave. These images seemed to keep flashing before my eyes and every time they do, tears would roll down my cheeks unknowingly. I have parents and they do love me. How very wrong of me for think that they left me.

          I pulled myself back to the present. I was still on the couch waiting for the Chancellor to announce my name. I was about to go upstage and receive my top student award from my college. I rehearsed my prepared speech in my mind.

          “The prestigious Lumen Christi Award is to be honored to the top student for this year. May I present you, Cosset Iris Moncrieff!” exclaimed the Chancellor over the microphone as the audience clapped and whispers of admiration are passed. I adjusted the microphone and began my speech with full confidence knowing what I want to say and to who my many thanks will go to.

          “First and foremost, I would sincerely thank my parents because they went the extra mile and sacrificed a lot for me to achieve what I have and made me who I am today” I recited my first line as I unconsciously ran my fingers through the necklace. The audience were looking around trying to identify for signs of a couple beaming with pride but were confused as none appeared to be my parents. I smiled and left it that way. Then, I continued my speech.

Qing! You got nominated for principal's award!
exclaimed my deskmate, the excited Zattul


So
stayed back for principal's award test
There will be only one winner out of the 15 or so nominees
Basically I'm there to lose
Serious.



But I went nevertheless
because I'm a good student (:


JiaMin sat next to me

Qing, got bring testpad ar?
er.. no..
Har? then how ar?
er.. don't care lah! later they'll give wan


*teacher walks in*


teacher! got testpad ar?
No. You're supposed to bring your own writing materials

._.

Jiamin.. how ar?
HAR. I don know la. I don't have testpad!
we go down buy la. faster.
har.. okok..

Then, the teacher told us the topic is
The Pearl Necklace

First thought.

WHADDAHECK?!

crap.
what am I gonna write
racked my brain for 15 minutes
time allocated was 60 minutes
wrote furiously
my writing can only be read by yours truly.
don't care lah.

so yea
:D

Twisted
(:
Totally my kind of movie
this is a very kickass movie
NO GORE :D:D:D


Just watched this yesterday in JJ
If you're afraid you'll scream like nobody's business
and end up embarrassing yourself


No sweat
Everybody in the cinema is about the same
XD


It focuses more on the plot
And not scaring you with the
"now you see me, now you don't" moments


Got zombies wan
*grins*





GO GO GO
WATCH IT
KICK ASS STUFF!

Hotel 626
a Snack Strong Production


This game needs no download
Just go to the website from 6pm to 6am
and start playing


It has this very very real graphic
makes you feel like you're in that goddamn hotel yourself
not to mention the sound effect
scary shit


you being in this hotel
there are 10 levels
Each level with different tasks
It doesnt challenge you intellectually though
So, its a stupidpeoplefriendly game
(:



However
if you're a coward chicken  like me


change the time on your pc
and play in broad daylight
(yes it works)



It's more advisable to play with your webcam and headset and mic plugged in
Trust me.

TRUST ME GODDAMIT

Because I'm such a caring and awesome friend,
here's more to guide you through



uhh
the call on your actual cellphone thing is only available for the citizens of US
*sulks*
but it doesnt matter cos in the game, directions will be given as well (:

HOTEL 626 WALKTHROUGH

Good luck people
Do entertain me with your experience (:

credits to waiseng for introducing this to me

Is it just me?
Or does everyone not get what they want?
=(

Yours truly learnt a valuable lesson
recently
in a hard way

All those tears and heartbreak
and disappointments
There is a lesson to be learned




That is
accept your friends for who they are
even if it means

they're hypocrites
or selfish snobs
or bitches
and even if they backstab you.

Turn a blind eye to it

Remember the reason why you were close
We were close
for a reason
Remember the good times
Appreciate it
Embrace it

Accept them for who they are

(:

Dear God,
Please grant me the strength to change what I can,
the courage to accept what I cannot change,
and the wisdom to differentiate the both.

No regrets (: