Hindi man nya sinabi yung totoong rason, atleast he was decent enough to break up with me...

Hay ang buhay...

There was something about your naughty smile that made me say "I want to love this guy.." (naks naman). Pero pwera biro, that's what I really felt when I first saw you...

Our relationship started roughly. HIndi natin kasi kilala yung isa't isa pero that time, I really felt na ako lang yung nag eeffort na makilala ka.  Feeling ko nuon, ako lang yung siryoso.  Mayroon tayong mga napagdaanan na para sa ibang tao eh dapat cause of break-up na pero "we" gaveit a chance, I gave this relationship a chance and another and another.  Hindi ko pinagsisisihan yun kasi kung hindi ko ginawa yun, hindi ako ganito kasaya ngayon.. Yes, I am happy with you baby and I got to know myself better dahil saiyo.  I never knew I could cook and do the laundry and most of all, forgive.  Forgive in a sense na maniniwala ako sa explanation ng isang tao kahit gaano nya ako nasaktan at kakalimutan na nasaktan nya ako ng todo-todo. 

Bago kita makilala, prinsesa ako nuon.  Lahat ng gusto ko sinusunod ni "best" kahit na alam kong unreasonable.  Dahil saiyo, natutunan kong isipin ang ibang tao.  Natuto akong tanggapin na hindi sa akin umiikot ang buhay ng taong malalapit sa akin kahit gaano nila ako kamahal.  Natuto akong intindihin ang ibig sabihin ng "ME TIME" at natuto akong magdasal ng hindi para lang sa sarili ko.

Lahat ng ito natutunan ko ng hindi sapilitan kundi taos puso dahil mahal na mahal kita.  Hindi ito pakitang tao.  Siguro ito yung sinasabi nilang "compromising" sa isang relationship.

Minsan, natatakot ako na baka sa sobrang mahal kita, pag iniwan mo na ako, hindi ko na alam kung saan ko pupulutin sarili ko.  Pero hindi ako dapat nagiisip ng ganito, kung tayo, eh di tayo...Kung hindi eh di hindi.  Hindi ko naman ipagpipilitan sarili ko saiyo pag hindi mo na ako mahal o gusto.  Masasabi kong mamahalain kita hanggang sa kaya ko at hanggang sa gusto mo ako.  Sobra ba yun? Hindi naman siguro...Yun kasi ang paraan na alam ko kung paano magmahal.

Minsan naiisp ko nakakasuka na ako kasi sabi ako ng sabi na mahal kita pero gusto ko lang naman na malaman mo yun at nasabi ko sya dahil hindi nga natin alam kung hanggang kailan tayo.  Atleast walang araw na hindi ko nasabi seo. Hindi ko ireregret na hindi ko nasabi seo.

Gusto ko lagi kang masaya kasi pag nakikita kitang nakangiti o tumatawa, nakakagaan ng puso ko.  Parang ang saya saya ko na din. Madami akong gustong gawin with you like akyatin ang Mt. Everest o sumali sa Amazing Race pero syempre hindi kitapipilitin. Hinahayaan kitang ayain ako sa kung anong gusto mo or tanungin ako kung anong gusto ko kasi ayaw kong isipin mong pinepressure kita or dinidikta ko ang buhay mo...  Gusto ko swabe...steady lang...

Sana naririnig mo to kasi ang puso ko ang nagsasalita ngayon.  Mga bagay na alam kong hindi ko masasabi o mababanggit sa harap mo kasi natatakot ako sa magiging reaction mo.  HIndi ako magrereklamo, itratry kong intindihin ang mga gusto mopero sana pag dumating yung time na hindi ko nakayang pigilan ang nasa utak ko eh pakinggan mo din ako.  Promise hindi ako iiyak o luluha sa harap mo kasi alam kong ayaw mo yun.

Namimiss na kita by.. Nasaan ka na?... Hinihintay na kitang umuwe para mayakap kita ng mahigpit na mahigpit.  Dahil mahal na mahal na mahal kita....

Hmmm, should I call it human nature that a girl needs another man (most commonly known as a rebound) to be able to get over with his ex-boyfriend?  Oo nga naman, the rebound will do everything for the poor girl to gain her confidence back.  After knowing that the ex-bf had been two timing all this time, saan nga ba sya nagkulang? 

Now having overflowing confidence, feeling mo you are so important that you have to know everything.  Simpleng personal issue, you have to know.  Well, the world is not revolving around you dear.  Maybe your bf's life but not mine.  And hindi ka ganun ka-galing. Well, you're friendly pero anything else, exacto lang.  Magaling ang "charms" mo.

Hay, ano ba to! Negative vibes!!!!

I guess naiinis lang ako.  Call me bitter or whatever, ang sa akin lang is there is nothing wrong with being confident but beeing too confident is a different story. Hay, ayan nalabas ko na rin... It's been a long time since I kept this!

I'm tired.

We actually got there last Friday and my officemates and I didn’t waste time exploring Naga City.  The hotel was not that nice but what do you expect from a 500/ night room, right?  The hotel was situated just beside the river that looks like a big creek.  Good thing it didn’t smell like Pasig River… Anyway, when we got settled in our hotel/motel we went out and searched for authentic Bicol cuisine.  Geewan was the name of the Restaurant. It was behind the plaza, in front of the tricycle terminals.  They served real good food.  My bf and I spent almost 250 for the following:

-          Pinangat (was really creamy, tasted like it had cheese in it)

-          Lumpiang Sariwa

-          Bulalo

-          4 servings or rice (I had 1 ½…hehe)

-          2 bottles of carbonated drinks

Not bad… When I was doing the budgeting prior to the travel, I set our “money-food” at 250/person.  I didn’t expect that 250 was already a lot for a couple.  Hehehe..  We may not have chosen the authentic cuisine but we were able to taste their Bicol express, Laing and Kare-Kare.  I rate restaurant’s cooking at 8 (scale of 1-10, 10 being the highest).

Actually our Bicol experience was more on food trip.  That same night, my bf and I woke up at 1am and found ourselves hungry again.  Unfortunately, our hotel wasn’t serving food after 10pm so we had to go out and look for a place where we can satisfy our hunger.  We found the very dependable Jollibee which was open 24-hours and ate our way through dawn. 

Saturday was dedicated to the wedding.  The van picked us up at 9am and the ceremony lasted until around 3pm.  We went back to the hotel to change our clothes for the after-wedding party held at the bride’s place.  The van picked us up at 5.30pm and stayed there until around 9.30pm.  A lot of eating, singing and drinking was done until a kill-joy friend of ours decided to leave.  Well, that is another story that I have yet to decide if I would want to share it or not. Hehe..

Sunday was dedicated to CWC.  Yes, I was able to experience wakeboarding!!!  It was A-W-E-S-O-M-E!!!  Although I wasn’t able to complete the entire course, I was only able to make half of it… Apparently, I’m still having problems figuring our right from left. Hehehe.. Our body started to hurt after wakeboarding but we still tried the floating obstacle courses on the other pool.  It was a B-L-A-S-T.  there were:

-          Floating see-saw

-          Floating giant slide (that made me cry because I was so scared to slide down)

-          Floating iceberg

-          2 floating different obstacle courses that are connected with each other.

You have to swim you way from one course to another.  I allotted 30 minutes of our time there but our actual time was almost 2 hours.  I still can’t figure out how kids can finish the entire course at a flash!..  Nakakinsulto! Hahahaha…

My bf and I spent almost 2000.  It included the following:

-          165.00 for helmet and vest rental for wakeboarding

-          500.00/ person deposit for the boards ( I think)

-          350.00 for food (they serve great food there!!)

-          200.00/ person for the floating obstacle courses (good for half day)

-          1200 (divided by 8 so 300 for us) for the Cabana which was consumable

-          500 for the pasalubong ( I bought a shirt for my kulit)

Not bad for an entire fun and eating and drinking! Plus you get to see good looking mean with hot bods! Hehehe…

We got back at the hotel around 7pm so we visited the nearest “palengke” to buy some pasalubong however the stores were already closed so we went to the their “hot spot” located at Magsaysay street.  We found ourselves eating again at Doy’s place where the served authentic Filipino Cuisine. Food was not the great but we all went back to the hotel satisfied.  We played “tong-its” from 11pm to 2am… 

We left the hotel at 12.30 and was already on our way back to manila at 2.05pm.

So… as you can see, my bf and I, together with my friends really love to eat. Hehehe.

Bicol is a place to be if you are in for carbo-loading trip.*wink*wink*