IDK is so NOT me.

=(

Sun, 20 Jul 2008 23:01:45 +0000

talk is cheap and so are you. + kupita.

iRandom for uRandom

Sun, 20 Jul 2008 14:28:52 +0000

because i view life from a hole in my neighbor's backyard fence, i don't see everything quickly as compared with other people. i need time to digest things. i hate new set-ups. i have this tendency to be so attached with the old one that when the new one comes along, i really don't know what to do. na-realize ko din pala that my filtering system malfunctions when i am sleepy or when i am thinking too much. ayan a. hint na yan para sa mga taong gusto akong awayin.

whoa! i need coffee. seryoso lang. i need to save money. i need to go shopping. i need a boyfriend. i need to be happy. i need to accept things as they are. wa? i need to love myself.

shit happens

Sun, 13 Jul 2008 12:20:30 +0000

una.

pwede ko bang gamitin itong tabulas para mag-drama? hindi. ayoko. nu wi.

second.

natatakot ako.

tweny - nu.

napapagod na din pala ako. di na kaya ng daily energy levels ko.

chuelve.

schizophrenia? MPD? shit. meron ka ata. kaya pala. sabi ko na nga ba. i am so galing!

piftin.

masyado na. may nakakalimutan na ako. ayoko na ako yung mas may lamang. mahirap yun, babe. tama na.

CHANGED PENs Ü

Sun, 06 Jul 2008 15:59:01 +0000

Two years ago, I was this innocent girl who never slept without reading a chapter or two in her textbooks. She'd rather finish up an assignment than talk with a friend over coffee. She had spent her freetime at home watching DVD's and reading novels instead of meeting up with her girlfriends to hang-out and have a good time. Two years ago, I was likable. I was a GOOD girl. I was not happy.

Now, i am happier. I may not be as likable as i used to be; but, i still possess the same old sweetness that made me shine in spite of gloom and longing. Way, i am a bad girl. a good girl gone bad. haha. nyeh-eh. kiddings! i just decided to free myself form those maria clara-ish principles and Über conservative views i once had about life and stuffs that's in it.

today, she can now sleep without reading the prescribed article in class. she is so ready to ditch her homeworks over a talk with a friend. her freetimes these days are not spent inside the crib unless, she is so angry that she wants to kill herself (do you get how much i hate staying at home?).

i know that i've changed -- a lot. i once thought that i was lost. i was this close (pretend that you can see my thumb and my index finger so close to each other) to being my highschool self again. fortunately, i found myself, my happiness, my fulfillment and my contentment just in time.

i am +

Fri, 04 Jul 2008 02:31:58 +0000

i love independence. i just can't get enough of it. being away from my immediate is the best way to de-stress myself. it's not that i don't want to be with them. it's just that there is this certain light, good - natured feeling that i get when i am not around them. i am happier now. i am more content now. i don't get my daily dose of "shopping pangs" aymore.

you know what? life is not bull. it might suck at times but it'll only get better. Ü

basically, it's basic.

Mon, 30 Jun 2008 13:17:59 +0000

get ko na yata. no need to explain. i am tired of THE blank blank. shit. i can't fuckin' explain things around me anymore esp. the blank that i call THE blank blank.

you know what?

probably, it's probable. dapat get mo na e. do i really have to explain fuckin' everything to you aaaa???????

p.s.

di ako galit. mainit lang talaga sa asturias at sa kahit saan man ako magpunta. haha.

rae-ish

Mon, 23 Jun 2008 00:10:49 +0000

funny how things turned out.

how one day, i was so deperate for answers, for quick solutions but never for the truth for it would definitely hurt my insides, my ego and myself.

for some weird instance, after a reasonable period of time, i found, not just the answers, not just the solutions but the truth that is not painful and hopeless.

patience is a virtue. trust me, it really pays off. don't rush things. if it's meant to be fixed, be grateful. if it's really not meant for you, let go. holding on is not the safest choice. let us learn not to dwell in the past. the past can create an illusion, a longing, a pseudohope that can suck all the happiness and authentic hope within you.

i have learned my lesson well. people have seen. people can still see.

p.s.

this is for deb. hugggg!

wala.ewan.

Fri, 20 Jun 2008 01:56:10 +0000

just shoot me. i am a total loser when it comes to..there you go. shit.

p.s.

i want to go shopping. money, pleeeeassssee???? (read: yung scarf.) sige na jhong, pagtawanan mo na ako. hahah.

tv prod gets me so excited. hip hip hurray!

casa pictorial: kasama ba ako? idts.

you rant, i'll rant. rar!

Sun, 15 Jun 2008 23:05:22 +0000

since everybody's ranting about the _____________________________. i guess, i'll rant about them also.

i hate plastics. if you don't like the noise i make, all you have to do is to shut me up. i hate contrived smiles and non-sensical answers coming from the other end. in short, i abhor MAJOR BITCHshit moments. haha.
don't just talk to me. if you see me lethargic and not as smiley as the other day, you don't really want to talk to me. don't joke and laugh a lot, if my irritation is evident. just smile and i'll smile back. i think that is enough for you to know that i am still capable of friendship sans the positivity of it.

so far, yan pa lang naman ang nakikita kong di maganda at dapat kainisan. there is more to come! much love. ♥

all the bones in my body are tamad

Sat, 14 Jun 2008 11:33:11 +0000

medyo tamad ako ngayon. try ko next time, baka medyo masipag na ako.