Walking away from everything

Sunset

Wed, 23 Sep 2009 12:01:00 +0000

I watched him go, yet I didn't say a word.

Wish

Thu, 09 Jul 2009 15:05:26 +0000

“Love is when you take away the feeling, the passion, the romance and you find out you still care for that person." How I wish someone apart from God, can give me this kind of love.

One more

Wed, 08 Jul 2009 17:01:39 +0000

The worst thing is holding on to someone who doesn’t want to be held on to.

Untitled

Wed, 08 Jul 2009 16:38:18 +0000

Is love enough to justify ones existence? Is love the most powerful thing left in this world? Do I have to love just to prove my existence?

Goodbye.

Tue, 16 Jun 2009 18:25:57 +0000

It's over. I am over you. And you are out of my life. I don't want you anymore and heck, I shouldn't be thinking of you this way. You are no longer part of my memory.

Find me

Sat, 13 Jun 2009 15:30:44 +0000

I am back. The feeling of losing track of everything is back. The feeling of losing one of the most important things is back. I am losing them. I am losing it. I am losing you.

Now I must find a way of finding them. Of finding it. Of finding you.

I still recall

Tue, 26 May 2009 02:12:06 +0000

This is where my silent suffering resides. I have cried a lot that no one ever noticed. Because I didn't want people to see through me. To see the suffering I have faced all my life. And yes I am grudging. I can remember all the things a person had done to me even without seeing him/her for long. So in my memory, I added one that (noticed the "that" not the "who", because you are no more than a thing) killed and stabbed me partially. Partial death is more painful than death itself. I can vouch for that.

Catalyst of change?

Wed, 13 May 2009 07:32:17 +0000

I cease this moment in my life. The air seems to whisper me words of wisdom. The loud shrill of the roosters from our neighberhood feels like music to my ears. The aroma of the pinakbet from the kitchen makes me want to write more. And more.

I have decided today, I should become a participant in this life rather than sitting in a corner, expecting something to happen and not doing anything. I have been an expectator for years. I have seen a lot. I have heard a lot. I have learned a lot. But one thing I haven't been able to do. I have never experienced it myself.

Yes, I know I have enough experience in this life. I have been through a lot. But I still feel, there is still missing in my life. And that missing piece makes me want to explore more. To become a useful part of my own life and the life of others.

I know how this sounds. Yes, outright ridiculous.

Ingredients

Sun, 10 May 2009 18:50:25 +0000

Waking up midnight, promises that have been broken already, hopia dice big, one glass of water, shrieking of the electric fan, roaring thunderstorm, confused heart and a mix of Parokya ni Edgar and Eraserheads.

Not too late

Sat, 09 May 2009 18:59:10 +0000

Tell me all about your angst and I will tell you all my frustrations. I have been wandering in this world for so many years now. At times I had wore my mask and sometimes I had taken it off. But I had seen no difference. This world is just a facade of the real world. From all the times I have walked, these were the things I have encountered; selfishness, greed, jealousy, insecurity, pretense. You can't take away these things from human beings. And I have grown sick and tired of these bull shit. I have grown tired of all these callousness. I have grown tired of complaining. I have grown weary from all these hiding and running away. When will I become ready to face my own fear, my own problem? When will I become ready to accept my mistakes and shortcomings?