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Freaked.

Sat, 2 Jul 2005 06:04:01 +0000

Well I'm pretty freaked. I had this dream 2 days ago.

It's somehow about DMB... somehow not. I don't know exactly. Okay, I forgot what happened but I got news (in real life, not online... in that dream) that they found a DMB member dead in DMB. And DMB wasn't even a forum anymore, it became like a school. I guess that's how they think the cliques in DMB much like high school but whatever. DMB became modelled by my current school.

Somehow my mom got news of that too. And so we took a bus and we went to school and she saw that my school is rather secluded. And expressed surprised that I studied there and I was like "YOU'VE BEEN THERE!". Then somehow we ended up in the hall or something. Then we heard stuff like "charred to death", "chopped into pieces" and... "cholla", who happens to be a member of DMB. We were pertty freaked and then suddenly we saw the corpses. Which were really really freaky. Okay. so cholla was pregnant, and with another guy and they were both dead. I don't know. They both lost their legs... And they were charred, carrying shock and agony on their faces. It looked really gory... and I was really scared. I stared for a long while.

I don't know what else happened but I was just running in and out out and in the hall in fear. I don't know why, rather I can't remember

To cholla if you read this: I haven't an idea what's going on either. I'm so sorry, I hope you don't feel too affected by that strange dream X_X

Parents

Fri, 3 Jun 2005 17:21:44 +0000

I haven't blogged here in a good long time. It wasn't that I haven't had dreams or nightmares. *shrugs* I've got my fair share of them this year.

Just the day before yesterday I had another dream that I woke up crying from.

When I woke up crying, the nightmare replayed in my mind, but it didn't seem to have commited to memory, but instead seemed that the running replay was stripping itself off my memories. I fell back to bed soon after because the nightmare was upsetting me and I wanted to just sleep. After sleeping, I had another dream/nightmare. So there're two parts.

First dream was with my dad. My dad was violent and angry. Ivan (sec 1 brother), Benzley (Primary 2 brother), Auntie (maid), and I were on his car. Then Ivan and Benzley started making a din and he got really angry but I remember he wasn't exactly angry because of that, he was already really angry. Then he chased the both of them off. And he sped off. Outside, Ivan was chasing Benzley, Benzley almost tripped, almost causing Ivan to trip OVER him. And that was my worry at that point, that Ivan will fall onto Benzley. So while my dad sped off I told him so, in a tone half-remarking on his rashness. He didn't seem too affected, he was really angry already, really really really angry. He just sped and sped and sped. And in the car, there's just me and the maid left and I remember being really scared. Then we screeched to a halt at a deserted area, those sort of secluded sites with barrels and all. It was scary. I think we were still in the car speeding and banging through those barrels. Dad was angry and violent. Very violent. He really scared me. I remember a flash of him hitting me away slightly as I tried to control him. Then after that something happened. I don't know what. Something made me really upset, I cant' remember what it is. Then I woke up crying.

After I woke up. I fell asleep again.

This time it's with my mom. We were still at that strange deserted area. Something was happening in the background, something bad, I can't remember what. Then after that we're at some strange tentage that has a neoprint machine. I remember only mindy there. We were taking pictures. And I don't remember who else was there, but mindy and the rest were there smiling for the camera. Then my mom and I were frowning. My mom was retreating to the back and still upset. And it was just frowning. I think my dad was at the back where the -something- happened, still angry... grumpy. So strange, something happened with my mom and I can't remember what it was.

Fighting, death POOF

Sun, 27 Feb 2005 07:55:45 +0000

Alright. Ms Teow, my new form teacher, kinda invited us to her place for some sort of party thing. So it's supposed to be a class kinda thing yes? While my current classmates were present, there are also people involved in the dream who are my ex-classmates. Maybe this just says of how I won't let go of my previous classmates.

Anyway, the dream didn't start that way at all. The dream started with a girl telling a GUY (I think I was supposed to be the girl ;___;) to kill a tree. Basically, the tree is like... the whomping willow. So yes, he managed to kill the tree, I don't know what happened. I had this dream before. The girl getting the guy to kill the tree but the guy never did. And the dream never got further than that. But we were led through a dark path to "Ms Teow's house. Then there were uh... ninjas in the house. I only got a view of the ninjas cornering the guy and I was like "Oh no." But later, I'm left with just me.

Remember the girl I mentioned? I don't think she's me now.
So lets just say both the girl and guy disappeared and I'm left with just me.

So I went roaming around the house. All was dark, there was only little light from some doors. I know that I saw some of my current classmates. And I know that Ms Teow was in a room alone with Kelly, no idea what they were talking about.

I don't know what happened in between, but I was in a movie theatre. We were watching "Hide and Seek" There are about 5-6 of my friends there, but I only very clearly remember Alessa. The strangest thing is that the theatre, the seats, it's like some puzzle sort of thing. Rows of them can move to any position. It's kinda tough to explain, so just refer to the pic below.

So yes. When I said the seats can be moved, I don't mean they are in motion, they are stopped, but they can be arranged somehow. So anyway, my friends and I were at C, is was the very edge, there was nothing behind us, so it was all dark and scary. Alessa said, "Eh, I'm kinda scared if something just appears behind us." I nodded and so we HOPPED over to A. So we were well, just watching the show. I wasn't really scared since I knew what was happening. Strangely, now that I recall the dream, it didn't seem exactly like "Hide and Seek" but well, it was it... at least in the dream. Yeah, just watching the movie. Then suddenly a guy appeared behind us, on row B. And women appeared on the other end of A (where we're sitting). But anywho, we weren't afraid, we were glad, in fact ... that there's someone else besides us (Well, we had our friends there, so I have entirely no idea why we felt that way).

Later, we were back in the house. There were still ninjas. So there were killing us. Yeah, you didn't hear me wrong. They were killing my friends. I don't know if they're EXACTLY ninjas or anything, all I know is that someone is killing my friends. We were just running. Soon, we got to the exit. And all of us ran. I tried to look out for my friends who are alive. I can't remmeber who it was running with me. It could be Alessa, but I don't know. I know I was looking for Nicole and Connie, wondering if they were alive. Well, they were. So that's good. I know that I thought Liling got killed, but later I saw her and well, she wasn't. Then I felt a sense of lost. I knew someone close got killed. Now I can't remember who it was. -.- Meh. Then later, the person beside me (I mentioned that it could be alessa), we went back to the house because something told us that the ninjas or killers, whatever were gone.

We went back and we saw the place was alright again. Maybe a little messy. And finally, we see Ms Teow and she invited us to sit. And the place was all filled with people and happiness. So we were just there. I clearly remember her talking about some movie theatre which really is just her living room. So well, Alessa and I wondered how we got into the scary movie theatre through Ms Teow's house.

Then there was this Indian father and son. The son was around 5-6 years old. He starting climbing on the sofa, and then playing with the wall. And then the dream ended. O_O

Luck, Fortune?

Thu, 24 Feb 2005 18:40:00 +0000

Alright this is a strange dream. People involved, my maternal grandma, my mom and myself. I had never been close to my maternal grandma and I don't bother to be, actually.

Well, I was with my mom, somewhere. Then my mom got a call from my grandma telling her to head to chinatown for some fortune thing and so we did. The place is, like most chinese places, pretty much red and well, chinese. There was this booth there. Suddenly, when we reached Chinatown, my mom was alone. And I became a third person in the dream. I saw my mom walking towards the booth and my grandma, on the other aisle, doing so as well. They meet there and started talking to the man at the booth looking thing. He was in the "God of Fortune" costume, all red and all. I don't know, they were just talking or something and then everything lost focus and I got sucked into a whirlpool, full of red and gold.

*shrugs* I can't think of what this means, really. And I can't find any keywords to find symbology.

Possessed

Thu, 16 Sep 2004 05:20:52 +0000

This dream was strange. I either really experienced it or I dreamt that I woke up, to experience it. It was a really really short \"dream\" though.

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I was on my bed, just woke up from sleep (or i really did experience it *shrugs*) My hand was under my head/ear and the other hand was by my waist. Then, still lying down. I felt something went into me... I felt possessed. I tried to block out all my very very personal thoughts because I was afraid whatever had possessed me would then know all my secrets.

Well, then I found that I was immobilised and numb. I could not really feel much with my hands or anywhere else. Wait... I could move only my fingers. Well, then I used my fingers and allowed the nails to \"pinch\" into my head. I couldn\'t feel it. And I couldn\'t move. I wanted to move my whole arm, but I couldn\'t at all. No part of my body could move. Here, I hear very very soft screams and cries...

Then later, I felt that thing just leave me. Then I could move again... I can feel again and I no longer hear them. I looked at my watch and figured that I still had time to sleep, so I did and I fell asleep.
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[b]Possessed[/b] - To dream that you are possessed, represents your state of helplessness and not being in control of things.
[b]Immobilised[/b] - To dream that you are immobile, signifies feelings of being trapped or that you are rigid in your attitudes and decisions.
[b]Numb[/b] - To dream that you feel numbness, indicates that you are letting fear take over. You are afraid of taking any risk and failing.

Edit // Rellie said that my mind just woke up before my body did and this caused some hallucinations. I think i\"m going to take her explanation because it does sound more likely. Besides, I went to bed at 4am and woke up for \"that dream\" at 4.20+am

A trip on the elevator

Sat, 11 Sep 2004 07:30:42 +0000

I haven\'t been updating. I forgot I even had this blog. Pardon...
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This dream is hella strange. I was really freaked out... Besides fear, more emotions were there.

Alright. I haven\'t been going home very early. I intentionally go home close to midnight. I wasn\'t doing anything bad or illegal. So in the dream, it was late at night, it\'s sorta like 2am or 3am, at least it felt like so. Tandiono (classmate) was with me. I guess I kinda dragged her and made her stay with me. I was pouring out my troubles on her. We were sitting on a couch on the highest storey of the building we were in.

Finally, when I decided to head home. We went to the elevator (2 other men were with us) and headed down. We were mindlessly chatting. In the dream, it was soundless, I don\'t know what we were chatting about. But there wasn\'t much emotion in the conversation. Then we realised that the elevator never stopped after a long while. We looked up and realised that in front of us was a magician. He was staring hollow-ly into us and had an evil grin. He was just doing his magic tricks without looking at them. He was pudgy, has a beard, in a typical magician costume.

Then he reached his hand to the buttons (ehh to get to whichever floor you want to), then we realised that there\'s another set of buttons and screen. He increased the number to 6. So it\'s like that\'s the number of times we go from the first floor of the building to the last in the elevator non-stop without it stopping for any floors. It occured to us that the magician seemed to want us to look at him and have him entertain us. We were afraid, but we just looked at his tricks. Then slowly the number decreased. Finally, we were on our last trip, we were all relieved... until the magician went to increase the number, non-stop. He held the button for quite awhile...so that the number went over hundred. We all went hysterical. I was very afraid. Tandiono was next to me. I kept glancing at her. I was very worried for her as much as I fear what was going to happen to us.

Then the magician just disappeared. Faded away. We didn\'t know what to do. Except to wait. We wanted to wait, but we realised that we did stop. We stopped at the highest level of the building, where we started. 2 sides of the elevator opened (strange, because there was only 1 initially). Both sides were really dark. Yet, it seemed to be a cemetry. Not in it\'s physical form... You see nothing, but shadows. Which is pretty strange, no light source besides the elevator. Yet scientifically, the shadows shouldn\'t be cast in the directions I saw. From both sides, voices kept ringing... They were very very dragged and soul-less... They were saying \"Are you coming to help us get down or to disappoint us again?\" It\'s not the exact words, but that\'s the rough idea and the whole feel. They were very angry, vengeful yet souless. The 2 men who initially got on the elevator with us were still there. Rather frightened as well, but never talked.

Tandiono and I wanted to back away and move back, perhaps to allow more space for them to enter. But suddenly, a solid metal, cart-like thing appeared behind us, taking some space. I didn\'t know what to do. Whether to let those \"people\" enter the elevator, because I was scared. A voice told me yes. I told them they could follow us. Tandiono didn\'t say anything, so I guess she agreed. Then... 1 side of the lift with the \"people\" turned into the regular place we were before we got on the elevator. There were many people there. Campers, rather. They seemed to have just finished some school camp thing. Two guy campers got on.

On the other side of the lift, where the scary \"people\" were from still remained, and they wanted to rush onto the elevator. I think they did. They seemed to have occupied some space, yet were invisible. Or rather, I seemed to know that they were just shadows... bleeding shadows... with very decomposed bodies. Well, the two guy campers who got on... The elevator door closed slowly. We realised the two guy campers did not get onto the elevator properly, they were standing at the door itself. They got squashed. Not squashed exactly. But sucked INSIDE the door. It was like, they were rubber or something so soft that\'s able to bend.

Then the door slowly opened as it reached a level down. The guys *slided* out of the door. Like some cartoons, they appeared flat. The flesh just slided off their bodies, like... minced meat. Blood was just everywhere. They walked quickly, jerkily out of the elevator, roamed around that level we just landed on quickly. They didn\'t seem to want to return. They kept coming in and out. The lift door wasn\'t stuck, I was certain about it. But it just won\'t close... We were just stuck there.

The level that we landed on... that the guys were roaming. It was a corner. A rather small corner like those malls with elevators are the very corner. Yes, it\'s a well-lit corner with elevators on the side. It\'s strange because we had only 1 elevator in the building. At least that was what I know during the dream. In fact, at that corner... it\'s 2 elevators. Meaning 3 elevator\'s in the building? with 2 elevators as illusions? Strange... they never opened and never looked like they will.

Throughout the whole process of them being squashed and something. Tandiono and I were very very scared. I told Tandiono to come closer earlier because we wanted to make space to others to come on. We kept squeezing each other\'s hands and screaming-whispering (i have no idea how) \"Oh God...\" During that situation. I wanted very much to protect Tandiono, as a friend. And being able to protect her seemed to be a strength for me. Yet, in the first place, I called Tandiono out with me to that place to talk to me, for me to pour my troubles. She seemed to want to protect me as much as I wanted to protect her...

I was very very scared. I wasn\'t crying in the dream, but when I woke up, I found out I was crying... *shrugs*

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From here

Magician - To see a magician in your dream, signifies that an issue or a task at hand may be trickier than you had anticipated.
Zombie - Denotes that you are physically and/or emotionally detached from people and situations that are currently surrounding you. You are out of touch.
Victim (?) - To dream that you are a victim, forewarns that you will be oppressed and overpowered by your enemies. Such dreams suggest that you feeling powerless and helpless in a situation in your waking life.
Afraid - To dream that you are afraid to continue on some situation, signifies trouble in the home and failure in business. To see others afraid in your dream, signifies that some friend will be too wrapped up in his or her own problems then to help you out with some favor.
Fear - To dream that you feel fear, signifies that you achievements will not be as successful as you had anticipated. You are having anxieties in certain circumstances of your life. However, your worries will be temporary and short-lived.
Building - To see a building in ruins, forewarns of problems in love and/or business accompanied with great loss. Your own self-image has suffered and taken some blow.
Cemetry - To dream that you are in a cemetery, signifies sadness and unresolved grief.
Protecting - To dream that you are protecting someone, suggests that you are putting up an emotional wall or barrier between you and others around you. Consider who or what you are protecting for clues as to what aspect of your own self you are afraid of letting out and letting others know.
Elevator - To dream that an elevator is falling out of control, refers to your fears of letting go. You may also be expressing your desire to give up and escape from some demanding situation. If the elevator stops just right before it crashes, then it indicates that if you hang on long enough, everything will turn out all fine in the end. The up and down action of the elevator may represent the ups and downs of your life go emerging out of and submerging into your subconscious.

Too vague.. I wanna know more than these.. Geeshhh

Freaky ><

body image and death

Sun, 4 Jul 2004 08:15:34 +0000

yesterday I dreamt about something to do with body image. o.o;;; I\'m not going to go into details because it\'s really gonna gross everyone out. Then today I dreamt of death again... except this isn\'t intentional. It\'s kinda an accident. I was uhhh leading a group of kids. I have no idea what transport I was on because it\'s just out-of-the-world. Then I drowned all the kids in stories of death. I was telling them that they are all going to die and how cruel this world is, that\'s why it\'s always better to die. How assuring.

nightmares

Wed, 16 Jun 2004 16:19:26 +0000

during my trip in malaysia. I woke up struggling. I was at a carpark thing in a hotel, supposedly following my uncle but I couldn\'t find him. Bleargh then I everyone came up to me and screamed at me telling me it\'s all my fault and I have no idea what. Then there\'s this red-eyed creature they said would get me because it\'s all my fault... Duh I\'m scared, not of the creature but of what they\'re blaming me for. Then I struggled and struggled and woke up crying at midnight. Bleargh. I need to think. I must have done lots of wrong. I had already done them. I\'m horrid.

FAILED

Tue, 8 Jun 2004 07:50:14 +0000

I failed a suicide attempt... I don\'t want to go into details. traumatising... and it\'s jumping down.... and I just failed... and also, i was dealing with a drug addict, trying to nap him, stupid, really....

scars

Thu, 3 Jun 2004 13:43:09 +0000

I\'m seeing lots of scars on people\'s hands, wrists and everything.... I dreamt that I saw scars on hands of people around me. I just broke down. I don\'t know why. Why should they cut themselves? Why can\'t they just tell me if they\'re unhappy? It\'s my fault. Why have I neglected them? My personal depression shouldn\'t be a reason to neglect my friends\' wellbeing, but I am. I hate this. And these dreams just come and come and come... scars and more scars... I don\'t know..