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dreaming

Fri, 13 Oct 2006 07:49:35 +0000

andito ako sa multiply ng girlfriend ng aking "friend"

well ang sweet at ang cute nila

awww... i mean gnito rin yung na-feel ko nung 1st tym kong mkita pics nila at friendster...they look good...looking at them makes me want to walk away...wala lang...she has something that i can't give...that's the reason why i left him...i mean, she's waaaaay more better than i am...besides i don't think i could make him happy...sayang din sila noh...ang tagal na nila eh...

iniisip ko tuloy kung makakaabot din kaya kami ng "friend" ko sa ganyan...kiss.hugg.kiss.hugg.kiss.hugg...haiii...walang ganyan eh...iniisip ko tuloy kung may darating na better than him...pero di naman ako desperate...naisip ko lang naman...

ang weird nga lang kc parang...2 years have past...pero...hmp! never mind

i hate myself because i can't give the love you deserve.

i am the only one to blame...

di kita dream guy pero you have something!

tinitingnan ko tong mga pics ngayon para matauhan lang ako. i'll save it in my computer, to remind me that i can't give what she can't give and i don't deserve your love even if you leave her behind...

well, i'm just missing the days when you said you love me...not knowing you still like the girl who left you...and then one day after some serious cold treatment from each other...you're back with her...

sige na...i think you'll be happier with her...

i can't give the love you deserve...

i am the only one to blame...

hindi ko lang alam

maybe after another 2 years...ano kaya mangyayari sa atin?

IRIS

Thu, 22 Jun 2006 10:53:05 +0000

matagal ko nang naririnig ang song na yan. maganda siya pero d ko ito masyado tinangkilik. hindi ko kasi magets ang chorus at di ako maka-relate masyado. importante yun eh. lalo na pag love song.

"and i don't want the world to see me/and i don't think that they'll understand/when everything's made to be broken/i just want you to know who i am..."

ayaw mong makita ka ng mundo? made to be broken? malabo pa sakin ang kanta eh. pasensya na ah. siguro masyado pang occupied ang utak ko sa kantang, "close to you" by the carpenters at "truly, madly, deeply" ng savage garden at "when you say nothing at all" ni Ronan keating. ano ba yan. Love mode ba ito?

ngunit...isang gabi nakikinig ako ng mellow myx habang ngbabasa ng magazine. may narinig akong familiar na tono at lyrics...

"and i'd give up forever to touch you/ cause i know that you feel me somehow..."

pagtingin ko...si RONAN KEATING!!! so cute! tinigil ko ang pagbabasa ko at inaral ang lyrics. nakatulong ng husto ang lyrics sa myx. maraming salamat. naantig ako sa kanta! siguro kasi occupied ako ngayon. may naaalala ako. maganda na malungkot at the same time.

mataas ang tingin ko sa relationship. hindi ako basta-bastang ngsasabing, "mahal mo ako, mahal kita, mahal natin ang isa't isa tayo na at magsama!" (pweh) mataas standards ko. i think about our families, kung mgkaka-vibes b sila. wedding. kasama ang job, money, chuva... very serious.

i met him already. i never thought n merong taong tulad nya. pero kinikilala ko parin syempre. pero sa ngayon ok na ok sya. nga pala wala syang interes sa relationships at this point. iba sya. parang pari! too good to be true. walang biro!

i believe na high din ang standards nya. parehas kming naniniwala na, "why settle for less when we deserve the best."

wala sa muka nya to look at girls romantically. he's not like that. parang bakla nga eh. very quiet din. pero very kulit namn.

he's a good friend of mine. marami kaming kinekwento sa isa't isa. ayoko nang umasa ng todo. masasaktan pa ako. isa pa, yung mukang toh, papansinin nya? no way!

minsan lang kmi mgkita. at sa bawat oras na nkalaan para sa aming dalawa. nilulubus-lubos ko na. i know na nandito ang feelings ko for him pero ayokong sabihin yun sa kanya. ayoko rin n malaman yun ng ibang tao. ayokong pg-usapan kmi o maranasan n mailang pag-andyan sya. i guess we will just have it this way. he sees me as a friend and i see him as someone more than that. every moment we spend together i do my very best para maka-leave ako ng mark. para maging meaningful ako sa buhay nya. para sa bawat oras na maghihiwalay kami meron syang alaalang panibago na matatago 2ngkol sa amin.

un lng...

anyone can dream

Mon, 29 May 2006 02:32:27 +0000

i have just finished editing my photos and my profile at friendster and the caption of my current photo says, "the creator of the new fashion label, ANJELYKART" haha! anyone can dream right? it doesn't matter if i only have the name and not the things that should go with it at this moment. Maybe if i'm brave enough all the things stuck in my head that caused me sleepless nights would come to life. well, that is, as i have said, if i'm brave enough and i really want it! i only have concepts in my head, a name, and a dying dream. there are times i want to go for it and there are times that i would leave as it is, a dream. I don't know...I don't know...I guess coming up with a name is a good sign. I think it acts like a motivating force. everytime i see it, (feel it, taste it, smell it?)hear it, it will remind me about my first love, Art and sharing it to people. well, bob ong did it too and he succeeded. could it happen to me too?

Stainless Longganisa pp.165-166

"marami ang magsasabi sa'yong hindi mo makukuha ang gusto mo sa mundo kung hindi mo talaga alam kung ano ito. pero ako, gusto ko lang mabuo ang una kong libro. at naniniwala ako sa prinsipyo sa psychology na nagsasabing para makuha mo ang gusto mo, kailangang nakatatak ito sa isip mo nang buong-buo. visualized. ikaw mismo kumbinsido. kaya gamit ng dot-matrix printer, ginawan ko noon ng mock-up cover ang una kong libro. at yung cover na yun ang itinapal ko sa ibang libro para magmukang published work na nasa pangalan ko: stainless longganisa. By Bob Ong. Instant libro in 5 minutes, home made noong 1999."

well...i'm not that desperate yet. Maybe i'll set my mind on money and grades for the moment. I'll make fake bundles of money and pile them in my room. I'll also make four merit cards and frame them on my wall. visualize.

hey...i told you anyone can dream

but not everyone has the capability of achieving it.

windstruck

Thu, 23 Mar 2006 02:17:31 +0000

kakapanood ko lang ng windstruck

(Windstruck is a korean movie. if you loved the girl in "My Sassy Girl" then you'll love this.)

grabe the very first movie na napa-hagulgol ako ng husto!

as in talagang hagulgol

kapag naaalala ko yung itsura ko nakakatawa talaga

iyak ako ng iyak

pano ko mabibida sa inyo na maganda toh e umiyak ako ng husto nung sinalang ko yung disc two!

oi diane,jenny,jilly,joan,ashleiy,mindy...punta kayo sa March 28 ah!

after ng kahindik-hindik na brokeback mountain itong windstruck sunod natin!

speaking of brokeback

kinakabahan akong panoorin toh....

super pwede ba sakin toh....

nagulat ako dun ah

di ko na-realize na "super pwede ba sakin toh"

yung nasulat ko

wala akong naramdaman na sinulat ko yung "super" ah

promise!

nakakatakot....

hehe

sige

hanap na kayo ng kopya ng windstruck!

pesteng swimsuit!

Thu, 23 Mar 2006 02:08:46 +0000

ang corny ng sinulat ko sa swimsuit

kapag nakikita ko yung swimsuit gusto kong sumuka

di kanaman cute eh!

sabi na nga masyado tayong padalos-dalos

porket magaling kang mang-akit kumagat ako

peste ka!

pero andyan ka na

buti nalang mura ka lang

di pa kita nagagamit ganto pakiramdam ko

di bale papapayat nalang ako para umayos

lam mo

it's not you eh

it's me

let's work this out pare

haiiii....

swimsuit...

swimsuit

Sun, 5 Mar 2006 03:09:49 +0000

Pumunta kami ng pamilya ko sa Robinsons kahapon kasi may bibilhin na pagkain. Habang naroon kami sa grocery store, naisip kong humiwalay at pumunta sa expressions kasi may bibilhin ako. Matapos bilhin ang dapat bilhin, nag-pasya akong mag-ikot. Inisip ko ring hanapin ang mga kaklase ko kasi alam kong narito sila. Mamaya-maya’y nakita ko sila Nikka, mica, at cheryll. Natuwa ako at sumabit ako agad sa kanila.

Sa pagsabit ko nalaman kong gusto rin pala ni nikka bumili ng bagong swimsuit. Dumaan kami ng penshoppe kaso ang sabi ng mga tao doon eh, nasa Sta. lucia pa ang hinahanap ni nikka. Nung napadaan naman kami sa Department store may nakita akong mannequin na naka swimsuit. Hinila ko agad si nikka. Nag-ikot kami at nagsukat ng swimsuit. Ang sarap pala ng pakiramdam na mamasyal kasama ang mga kaibigan. Nagdadaldalan kami sa fitting room tapos nagtitinginan kung bagay ba o hindi ang sinukat at nagtutulungan pa sa pag-pili ng swimsuit.

May natipuhan akong swimsuit (two piece). Hindi sya katulad ng kadalasan nating nakikita na pink, blue, yellow o kung ano pang candy colored swimsuit na nakakapag-agaw ng atensyon ng mga batang tulad natin. Black and shades of blue ang combo nya. May flowers din pero hindi ka naman mahihilo sa itsura nito. Hindi naman sya masyado agaw pansin na mapapa-wow yung tao. Wala naman ito masyado masabi sa mundo, simple sya at swimsuit sya.

Sinukat ko. Ayos! Napaka-komportable ng dating basta ang sarap ng feeling. Sabi ng friends ko ayos lang naman daw.

Tamang-tama naman siya. Komportable ako kapag suot ko. Hindi ito yung tipong hihila ka ng hihila o huhugot ng huhugot. May pera nga naman ako. 495 lang siya. Maganda naman ang kulay. Kahit hindi naman mapapa-wow yung tao. Ayus lang. Kaso…may pakiramdam akong dapat makakuha ako ng swimsuit na isang tingin lang, masasabi ko nang “ito ang gusto ko” Gusto ko mapapa-wow ang tao o maraming sasang-ayon na maganda ang napili ko. Maganda ang nakuha ko pero inisip kong malaki ang mundo. Paano kung may nakita akong masmaganda? Hindi kaya magsisi ako? Baka naman masyado akong nagpapadalos-dalos?.Ayos siya pero may hinahanap pa ako. Hindi pa ako makuntento. Pinabayaan ko nalang at inisip ko na hindi lang naman yan ang makikita kong swimsuit, marami pa dyan. Maaaring maganda sya ngayon pero bukas ewan mo. Makakalimutan ko rin yan. Masyadong mabilis ang mga pangyayari. Siya lang sinukat ko, siya lang ang pinili ko, hindi pa ako nagsukat at siya na nga ba ang bibilhin ko? Kahit ayos, parang ang bilis. Hindi ba delikado yun? Iniwanan na namin. Kulang sa Spark.

Matagal din kaming nag-ikot nila Nikka hanggang sa nakita naming sila Pate. Pinakita ko kay pate sabi ni Pate, ayos lang naman daw. Hindi ko parin binili.

Ikot-ikot ulit kami hanggang sa nakita ko na tatay ko tapos sinabi ko sa kanya. Binida ko yung swimsuit at sinabi kong mura lang naman tapos sabi niya, “Bakit hindi mo binili?”

Okey bibilhin ko na!

Naroon pa sila Nikka at hinatak ko naman siya agad. Masaya ako pero nagdadalawang isip parin ako. Parang ang bilis talaga. Wala man lang kahirap-hirap. Binayaran ko na ito at ilang beses kong sinusuot sa bahay. Sukat-sukat sa kwarto. Nung nakuha ko sya, ang ganda talaga! Natanggap ko na rin kasi andyan na eh. Wala na akong magagawa. If ever may nakita pa akong masmaganda yung tipong wow! Babaliwalain ko nalang siguro. Meron pa naman ako eh. O kung may pera ako bibilhin ko. Pero mukang imposible yun kasi masyado akong pihikan at mabagal sa ganyan.

Kitams? Buti nalang hinintay niya ako. Buti nalang hindi siya nabili ng iba. Kung nabili naman siya ng iba maiinis ako kasi, ang engot ko! May pera no, tapos kmoportable na hindi pa kinuha! Matapos magmukmok sasabihin kong dibale in the first place hindi naman ito ang aking dream swimsuit. Biglaan lang. Pero kung sakaling hindi ko sya nabili, hihilingin ko paring sana andun parin sya kahit alam kong marami pang iba. Pero it will pass din kasi hindi nga naman ito ang aking dream swimsuit. Lilipas din yan. Sanay na ako sa ganyan eh kasi buon buhay ko ganyan ang ugali ko.

Nakakatawa talaga. Hindi naman ganito ang dream swimsuit ko pero sinukat ko parin. Kahit maganda naman parang ayaw ko pang bilhin. Masmaganda pa ang inaasahan kong dumating kaya iniwanan ko. Pero tingnan nyo pagdating sa huli binili ko rin at hindi ako mapakali kakasukat. Naisip ko ring unique sya kasi maraming nawiwili sa candy colored swimsuits at kakaibang design bukod sa flowers. Minsan combo pa. Ganyan din ako kaya nga medyo hesitant pa akong bilhin yung swimsuit, pero matagal na pagde-desisyon ang naganap bago ko sya natanggap.

Totoo bang kung paano ka mamili ng mga bagay-bagay e parang ganon ka rin sa pagpili ng taong papapasukin mo sa buhay mo? No wonder I’m still single and happy.

far away

Fri, 16 Dec 2005 10:51:07 +0000

yes...

after the christmas party on monday, BAKAsssYON na!

i was just reading a book entitled "Pictures of Hollis Woods" then I've read a line that struck me.

Dahil "na-struck" ako, andito na ako... to shshshshaaaare...

the line goes: "No one knows you. You can be different, you can be good, know what I mean?"

that happens when you are in a "new" place...

no one knows you...

you can be different...

wish ko ito dati...

i guess these thoughts come to mind when a person realizes that she has done a lot of bad things and she wants to start a whole new life...

you know... bagong buhay

matagal ko nang wish ito...

I guess it is better to have these thoughts than suicidal ones...

I would always think of running, running, and running...

just going...

somewhere out there...

I want to have a new start... to be born again...

"be careful in what you wish for, it might come true."

so it was granted.

I was happy at first...

very excited too...

then I remembered something...

"this world is full of sacrifices"

I was so greedy...

I was so happy for a wish that was granted...

I can run and walk away and live again...

but I forgot that I'll leave A LOTof things (living things,actually)

I was so greedy...

I forgot that I will leave one of the most special person in my life...

Sorry...

sorry...

ang sakim ko....

sorry....

wala talga akong kwenta...

"you'll only know ones worth once its gone..."

I love you!

harry potter

Mon, 28 Nov 2005 09:21:05 +0000

grabe ang astig ng harry potter and the goblet of fire...

grabe ang scenes!

grabe ang action!

pero parang nabitin ako sa story...

sa dinami ba naman ng harry potter movies na pinanood ko ngayon lang ako nagka-crush sa kanya!

ang cute cute cute cute cute cute cute cute cute ni daniel!

ahhhhhhhhh!!!!!

grabe!

tapos si cedric!

ang cute cute cute cute cute cute cute cute cute cute cute cute cute ni Robert

ahhhhhhhhhhh!!!!

ano ba yan!

ang saya ko talaga.

daniel and robert!

you rock!

masubukan ngang magbasa ng harry potter.

never pa akong nakabasa nun e.

dinadaanan ko lang....

ewan pero...

sige na nga try...

daniel and robert!

you rock!

credenda

Fri, 4 Nov 2005 07:02:24 +0000

Credenda

Turn away from the crowd and its fruitless pursuit to fame and gold. Never look back as you close your door to the sorry tumult of greed and ambition. Wipe away your tears of failure and misfortune. Lay aside your heavy load and rest until your heart is still. Be at peace. Already it is later than you think, for your earthly life, at best, is only the blink of an eye between two eternities. Be unafraid. Nothing here can harm you except yourself. Do that which you dread and cherish those victories with pride. Concentrate your energy. To be everywhere is to be nowhere. Be jealous of your time, since it is your greatest treasure. Reconsider your goals. Before you set your heart too much on anything, examine how happy they are who already possess what you desire. Love your family and count your blessings. Reflect on how eagerly they would be sought if you did not have them. Put aside your impossible dreams and complete the task at hand no matter how distasteful. All great achievements came from working and waiting. Be patient. God’s delays are never God’s denials. Hold on. Hold fast. Know that your paymaster is always near. What you sow, good or evil, that you will reap. Never blame your condition on others. You are what you are through your choice alone. Learn to live with honesty and poverty, if you must, and turn to more important matters than transporting gold to your grave. Never meet trouble halfway. Anxiety is the rust of life; when you add tomorrow’s burdens to today’s their weight becomes unbearable. Avoid the mourner’s bench and give thanks, instead, for your defeats. You would not receive them if you did not need them. Always learn from others. He who teaches himself has a fool for a master. Be careful. Do not overload your conscience. Conduct your life as if it were spent in an arena filled with tattlers. Avoid boasting. If you see anything in you that puffs you with pride look closer and you will find more than enough to make you humble. Be wise. Realize that all men are not created equal, for there is no equality in nature yet no man was ever born whose work was not born with him. Work everyday as if your first, yet tenderly treat the lives you touch as if they will all end at midnight. Love everyone, even those who deny you, for hate is a luxury you cannot afford. Seek out those in need. Learn that he who delivers with one hand will always gather with two. Be of good cheer. Above all, remember that very little is needed to make a happy life. Look up. Reach out. Cling simply to God and journey quietly on your pathway to forever with charity and a smile. When you depart it will be said by all that your legacy was a better world than the one you found.

galing po ito sa THE GIFT OF ACABAR written by OG MANDINO and BUDDY KAYE

Sun, 5 Mar 2006 03:11:54 +0000