One thing for sure though...

Another new beginning is here: 

Honey-Clover.net

It's not all set up and personalised~ Christin~style yet... but it's up and about.

 
Back to the webby world, baby...

Hopefully this time it's for good :) 

But I had a good holiday! It was relatively short (not even 2 weeks, *sob*) But at least I had one... it was funny though, how I feel so strange and weird when I first went back to Indo. I missed so many things about Melbourne, the weather, the people, the flexibility... (and to be quite frank, there are heaps of things I don't like about Indo!), but as I was leaving yesterday, I felt quite heavy... kinda reluctant, i suppose. Esp. when I had to say goodbye to my parents... for the first time after a looong time, I felt like sobbing like a lil girl. I refrained tho ~

It hasn't even been two weeks, but now as I'm typing this on my warmed up bed... I feel quite strange. Back to the familiarity, in a strange sense. I guess one thing I missed is the freedom to do whatever I wanted, (well it was a holiday after all), although I had to take care of some things, it was so relaxing there. Now I'm back to the busy hustle bustle of Melb... *sigh* oh well. It ought to be good too. I guess now I'm weighing up my options of where I'm gonna settle in the future.

At least it's Friday. I get to rest for the weekend... catch up with people and stuff. Take care of the bills (it pilled up ! Ahhh, superannuation stuff, phone bills, credit card payments... ick. No wonder I liked it there better).   Anyhoo. Flight was bad, I hate travelling alone, and somehow I only had 1 hour of sleep. So I'm gonna sleep now...

For those in Indo... the ones I meet often and don't meet often enough... missing you all. All the best in work and study (or both) guys... hope to see you soon?  

Aside of that, things have been good. I have been doing a lot of ... shopping, mosly (shooes... I can't believe that the tags here are only a fraction from those in Melb. I think I went a tad overboard. Oh well). Meeting up with people, mostly Nanas (haha)... sadly I haven't had the chance to meet up with Vivi yet (T_T) and Alex too... tsk2, he's a busy man now.

My parents have been really busy with the project, and I feel bad at times for not being able to help. Live is really strange here. I actually feel homesick on the first couple of days (haha, how funny is that). Now I dunno, I'm thinking of extending my stay for a couple more days... then head to Singapore with Nanas, for about three days or so, before returning to Melbourne. 

O, my car is delayed too, it'll arrive in the middle of July instead of end of June (as promised) - that's another reason why I might be coming back there a tad late..

We'll see, we'll see. For those of you there.... if you want anything, just give me a buzz... you know where to reach me. Have a happy holiday peeps !

Why is that so? Because I stupidly drank 2 cups of coffee yesterday. Not at the same time, but obviously the effect is there. I had one in the morning after I woke up, and one at 12 am... well, it was an instant coffee (that Nestcafe Ice one) and it was yummy, and I thought the effect would be mild and wouldn't affect me at all (since that's usually the case). But noo.... I want to sleep but I just can't. -_-

On the brighter side, studying has been quite good. I'm understanding everything so far, so that ought to be good. Statistics is not that bad after all.

On the darker side (hey, they don't really say that, do they? oh well). Ahem- on the darker side, I'm supposed to meet up with Pam, her other friends, and Lala at 1 pm later to study at RMIT library. 

Now I don't even know what time I'll be able to sleep (if I ever). Damnit. Whatmore, I actually need to do some last week shopping too, today... I wonder if I'm gonna be half-dead later if I ended up not getting any sleep at all (because right now I'm feeling really, really, awake and fresh)

So here I am, all curled up in my bed, random thoughts running through my mind (about the car, the past, the future, then the exams, flashing back to the assignments, then to Indo, to Sydney trip, and to other stupid random things) - and it's making me quite dizzy. I hope I can sleep soon... I need to at least catch a few hour's worth of sleep. Ick... one way or the other, I seem to always manage getting myself into stupid incidents like this.  

Well... some things never change... although it really should.  

Ooo the irony... i can't even manage myself! How can I manage other people? hehe, anyway. I was on the train station on the way home feeling very crappish, and watching these bunch of Indo girls laughing and talking about the exam~ and i was thinking about how long it has been since the girls get together and shop and stuff... do something funn...shopping, sport, all that stuff.

Anyway, there I was feeling crappy and that... walking my way home,.. went to check the mailbox.. and I got a mail from World Vision, with a Mexican stamp. I instantly knew what's in it...  and it makes me feel all warm and fuzzy in an instant~ hehehe =) it's a letter from a child i sponsored in Ecuador... (well, from her dad, she's too little to write).. giving me warm greetings in His name and telling me about the area they live in. It's short and simple, but it's sweet and it made me smile. It's true that I hear them saying this while promoting it at train stations... 'If you have a bad bad day, and you receive a letter from your sponsor child, it realy made your day...' .. now , I thought that was just a promotional strategy, but it's actually true.

Hmm what to do now... I've told my sis about my present to her (it's a 1 1/2 hour spa and massage... hehe) and she sounds happy about it... whee... hearing people smile (yea, you can hear it when people smile!) adds to your mood too. Anyway, it's best that I rest now... one more day, and it should be allright... until next week.  Ooo, and it's happening next week, her getting me a Jazz... xP it's really quite exciting.

And last day of school too... God, I'm still not in the zone. I need to get into it... aghh... at least I've got one down... one to conquer... one to revise on.... and the last one is mission impossible... :p ...  

I'm thinking of giving a spa gift voucher for my sister's bday. Although I wouldn't mind a massage myself at the moment... xd ... ah well. Gonna go to the car showroom with her tomorrow... whee... I'm getting really hyped up over it.  

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes til' I touch the sky
I'll make a wish

Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway

Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I loved

Buildings with a hundred floors
Swinging around wild indoors
Maybe I don't know where they'll take me but
Gotta keep moving on, moving on
Fly away, breakaway

I'll spread my wings
And I'll learn how to fly
Though it's not easy to tell you goodbye

I gotta take a risk
Take chance
Make a change
And breakaway...

 God, don't I just love lyrics. I've been such a slacker lately... but at least all the rooms are clean today. Or appears tidy, if not thoroughly clean. Spending time at home is definitely comforting... so hardcore studying to start really soon too. Just need to get into the zone again... (yes, the zone!) If only there's no classes at all this week... that'd be damn convenient.

And on a happier note, my work agency is giving us free tickets to watch Mr. & Mrs. Smith on the 16th ! Wheee ! Thats just after my exam finishes... and before I go back to Indo... meaning, if I pack everything, I can just go and watch the movie straight after finishing the exam, and go straight to the airport afterwards. Oughta be busy even on the last day too ! That's allright.  

 Study study study....

You and me
We used to be together
Everyday together always
I really feel
That I'm losing my best friend
I can't believe
This could be the end
It looks as though you're letting go
And if it's real
Well I don't want to know

Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me cause it hurts
Don't speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me cause it hurts

Our memories
Well, they can be inviting
But some are altogether
Mighty frightening
As we die, both you and I
With my head in my hands
I sit and cry

Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me cause it hurts (no, no, no)
Don't speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me cause it hurts

It's all ending
I gotta stop pretending who we are...
You and me I can see us dying...are we? 

Can't write much.... have to clean up the house for some people who are coming to take a look at this place tomorrow... and have to study study some more.... whee... 

 Today I only had 4 hours of sleep.... 14 hours of typing and analysing things.... then after that, had to go to East Richmond... city to meet An n Irene... then I worked till 11.15... hehe.... I scare myself sometimes... but my energy level is still quite high... although I'll probably collapse soon..

 Work was again fun.. the people.... and to make up to the fact that we couldn't participate in the 'Biggest Morning Tea', they had a 'Biggest Supper' instead.... they made scones... buttermilk... dates... jam... cream... yum yumm... :9

Now I'm not sleeping yet.... tomorrow we're gonna get highh.... slack all day... sleep... watch animes... read manga... whatever... drink some yummy Archers and possibly Ume Wine.. ^_^... hmm... then maybe watch some movie later at night.... we deserve this break!!

Anway I'm getting woozier by the minute... happy weekends people...  

What day is it? And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up and I can't back down
I've been losing so much time

Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

All of the things that I want to say just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping on words
You've got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here

Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

There's something about you now
I can't quite figure out
Everything she does is beautiful
Everything she does is right

Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you
and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

What day is it?
And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive...

Just pondering... and pondering.... wondering about the day I'll stop wondering... wondering if I want that day to come... or do I secretly want to go about wondering...

But I know I've got to stop... I know I've got to stop....