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return demos

Sat, 14 Nov 2009 03:24:56 +0000

I am so f***ng retarded. I am really exhausted memorizing those basic nursing skills. I don't know why. It's maybe because of the crazy schedule I have for this silly demonstrations. Like today I have to get my ass off for 3 in the afternoon because I have to perform only one skill, chest tube care. With just one skill I have to experience the burden of taking a bath, memorizing 21 skill procedure, brushing my teeth, and spending my 3 hours on the school. Imagine?.

At least I am done with almost 5 nursing skills already. And what's more worst is we have to provide the supplies needed on our return demonstrations. I really need money this season. I have a large list of my wishes today, that I myself is subjected to buy them. Darn! Who the hell will give me a piece og headset from bose', a bag from adidas and a pair of shoes from adidas also. But on the top my list is a jacket with a hood from adidas. Luckily I have $50 and 750 php on hand. But it was not enough to buy those things I have written on my wishlist. I need to find my ninongs and ninangs this christmas.

Another thing is I have a hard time allocating my time for such occassions, like going to my highschool friend's house, due to my loaded and fucking busy schedule. I am really praying hard that I could graduate already. You know! so that I can feel the air of liberty and the freedom from those large books, from the patients in the hospital and from those people who really pissed my ass off in my college.

Well, that's it for today!

Can't feel the break

Wed, 21 Oct 2009 02:48:37 +0000

Of course after a tiring and exhausting semester in a college, everybody deserves a semester break. Unwind, rest and do facebook maybe. But for me, I really don't know if I am dumb enough that my semester break is within my hands. Maybe there are alot of reasons why I can't even breathe the break everybody is wishing for, maybe for some. Like tomorrow we have a duty in KAMUNING LYING IN, and honestly I don't know how to goo there by commuting. It will last until Saturday.

Another thing that bothers me is the reshuffling of the sections. FUCK! Why do they have to do that. I am really dissapointed with what is happening right now, not only with myself but with the college as well. Sincerely I don't know what to do next semester If I am to be transfered with another section. I was about to cry yesterday night, reminiscing those times that our section is solid and complete.

But i think this is better than being kicked out from the college for failing a certain course. This program I am enrolled at is much difficult than other programs offered by those top billed colleges and universities. I am not acting like a shit here. But damn it, NURSING? who would care? After you finished this, what now? It's either you can go abroad or you stay here in MANILA being a call center agent. Fuck those Nursing schools that suddenly popped up like a mushroom and trying to make a name in the Nursing profession, buth the truth is they are just for the money. Because the fact that they know that Nursing is really in demand before. That is why Nurses are overproduced nowadays.

The supply is very high but the demand is very low. Which makes an imbalance to the Nursing practice. Too much of that dissapointing reality. Last night I've watched " Ma millionaire's first love", a korean movie. It is a tearjerking movie, I guess! It is a bout a millionaire to be, but suddenly a girl change her life. Typical story, it may seem. But you need to try watching it!

HERE is GONE

Mon, 19 Oct 2009 14:16:02 +0000

Of all the things that I usually do to waste my time before is to put an entry on my blog. It really is a part of my routine, a task maybe. But as time progresses and as I grow older there are those factors that predispose to my lack of posting entries here. I really do miss my blog. I missed posting very vital events not only in my life but in our country as well. I think my last entry was about our duty in the delivery room.

Well, let us forget those entries that I missed, let's move forward to things that to be celebrated and to be grateful for. Recently I had taken my removal examination on NCM 101 ( maternal and child Nursing), because my grade didn't meet the standars of the subject. Coincidentally my removals exam is also in time with my repeat rotation duty in N6 a ward, in the new building. Luckily our C.I is Sir Santos who showed support and encouragement to us, he didn't bother to stop us in studying those 2 fully loaded books. But as a nursing student I still have to be responsible for my patients. I habe 2 patients that day that needs rendering of care and proper promotion of health, my colleagues who are also my friends volunteer themselves to attend my patient. AW! I feel loved.

And then REMOVALS was done. I failed of course. Luckily before the start of the class we signed a contract that whoever fails the removals will be enrolled for remedials. hehe. We have to attend a 3 day class and answer 2 long exams per day averaging 200 items per day. Me, ralph, nikka, and JV sticked together and help each other to work things out. We even play TONG-ITS before the major exam. Every feedback is heart bounding to us, because every exam is difficult. We are compensating with the weakness of each other in order to pass. the 4 of us even go to church yesterday at Sto. Domingo.

And earlier is the gorundbreaking major remedial examinations, and with patience, perseverance and prayers, we passed it. I almost cry with tears. lol.

I would like to take this opportunity to thank all of those who prayed for the success of us. Thank you!

BABY OUT.

Fri, 21 Aug 2009 01:06:07 +0000

I am a nursing student as you know. Well maybe there are some things that I should boast or I should be proud of. Though there are some very challenging and undoubtedly very difficult times that lies behind this journey, there are also some things that soothes me and can make me smile. This semester we are exposed to different areas in the hospital but it was more likely focused on child and maternal wards.

My first duty was on the Pediatric Charity which really sucks, It was a very traumatic experience i wish i could put it on Dumbledore's pensieve or somehow it will regress as time goes by.It is a long story, i guess it will take me two entries to finished it. XD. Second is on the new building, w/c i don't also want to talk about but my previous entry is about my stay there.

Thirdly, is on the Out Patient department which really is kinda cool, our instructress is great and cool, the area is well i think is not in my area of expertise. My only job there is to be a barker, shouting surnames of patients that will eventually get mad if their names was called late and someone who is actually late, called first.

There is an instance in that ward where all the mothers goes gaga on me, they are like bees squeezing me and telling me that their names was on the list first but some mothers are called early they come to me like I was the crowds enemy. *sighs*, I come to enroll myself in this program not to be a barker and yet they are like that to me, thanks to my long lasting stretchable patience. Ms. A. our C.I there was kinda funny, she throws jokes and stuffs. One thing I mastered there is to compute AOG's and EDC's of mothers there. Imagine about 150+ out patients. Also is mastering the art of injecting tetanus toxoid to the mother's deltoid aside from taking vital signs. Sometimes I thought that is Nursing the perfect occupation form me. Thoough some instructors told me that I can be a better nurse, but I can't imagine myself being a nurse.

Fourth duty is on the Nursery Ward (charity), it is a special area, that's why we are able to wear for the first time our Scrub suit which really make me look like McDreamy of Greys'. Thank God our C.I there is already our C.I last summer, that's why we feel great and good at her. Nursery is great. we are exposed to different skills that should be rendered to a newborn. From receiving the baby, to cord care, to cleaning the baby removing the vernix caseosa to bathing the newborn. Then taking the anthropometrics, signing papers for newborn records, to rooming in the babies to their mothers. There I experienced to be a dad, from preparing the babies bottle, preparing the milk formula to inserting the bottle to the babies mouth letting them suck it, and sadly if they are poorly sucking it you should try different styles in order for them to drink it. After feeding, of course burping the baby which really making me crazy because I can't distuinguish the sound. AMP. It is my first time there to handle a newborn with pneumonia which is placed on the isolation area. Taking his v/s every 15 minutes to check his stability, feeding him and wrapping him to blankets because he is hypothermic also placing droplight to him, whoo, I am so attached to babies and children. I wish I could be a better father to my children someday.

And there on the Nursery Charity where I met an 8 mo. cute little baby girl. I feel like her father or somehow I wish that I could be his father. I even gave her a souvenir toy, so that someday he will remember me. I am into crying right now. Moving on. I really mastered bathing a newborn. Because every morning there is this time that is alloted for the babies to bathe. So the parents lined up outside for their babies to smell like a baby. lol. Of course one thing that is kinda aloofing is that when your baby poops. Especially if the poo is so sticky like a sundot-kulangot ( a food from Baguio). Of course cleaning it is a Nursing aide's job, but because we came there to learn and to experience we took the challenge.:)). I really love our C.I there she is one of the C.I's which really wants our to eat alltogether with her. I will surely miss working in that ward. I never had troubled working with my groupmates because they are one of my best friends in that College. That's why working with them in Nursery ward is just like we are palying and enjoying ourselves there. Well I think it is the bonding we had since our first duty on our 2nd year there. It is not like a competition to them, hence it is like you are competing to yourselves and there they are cheering.

And now here we are on the Delivery room it is my first day yesterday. We are on the night shift from 3 pm to 11 in the evening. Well what will you expect to see on the DR? Of course a woman's womanity. XD. yeah it is my first time to assist a doctor to pull the baby out, to make some stitches to insert my bare finger to a woman's thing. I did not perform an I.e. I just put the catheter inside the woman's urinary meatus. Yes and of course my hands are shacky; It is not in my small nor big dreams to prep in to a labor. My expertise is on the O.R.lol. :)). Maybe this will serve as a stepping stone for my future exposure in the Operating room. One thing i really hate in that ward is me cleaning the used instruments. AMP. But in fairness i am able to memorize those instruments at once from the tissue forceps to small clamp. And on the first day i received my first actual and assist delivery cases. I hope this day will have more woman to be on labor. :). Our C.I there looks like my Highschool English teacher. :). Well i think that's it for now.

I am sorry me dear readers of my blog if It takes me a long time to post an entry, maybe there are already thousand of new users of tabulas who don't know me because of my long absence. I hope I can be a regular blogger here again. Just pray for me this time again so that I can pass 3rd yr 1st semester again. I will thank you all for the prayers. It really works trust me!:)

isang MALAKING drama

Sun, 05 Jul 2009 04:06:11 +0000

I am actually exhausted right now. I feel like I'm already drained by the expectations this program (course) wants me to do. Yesterday when I got home tired, weary and super weak as in, My dad and mom give me a dozen of " demands", they even got angry at me when I forgot to put my clothes to laundry, they gave me words and cuss that made me in distress. That's why I answered them in an illed manner way while crying, I said to them " I'm tired"... really tired. And I point out to them that I have a really hard time coping up withmy subjects because what I said earlier, it's all in the demands of this course. From the quizzes, long exams, NCP's, case studies and even case presentation really gave me a heartache. I know I am not in the position to answer my parents in such way, but I hope that they will understand me, and instead of givine me burden they should give me the support that I ought to have because they are my parents, they should see my worth. I am doing this not for my own good, but for the good of them. they want to go to states, so be it, that is why I am studying Nursing.

I know it's kinda rude and it is a not an adnirable attitude from a son. But I've already done it. Stress and hardwork plus patience, darn! So i decided not to go with them yesterday and decided to stay to my uncles and cousin. I am not that lonely in class especially in the hospital setting, my friends are with me. Even in our duties I am never tired because of my groupmates whom I considered my best pals in my Nursing career.

I think that I am getting too dramatic this week, and it is not me anymore. I am so fierce and tough when handling such problems. I don't know, I really don't know. I love Group 2, my RLE group, so much not all of them really. They are my fortress in our duties. And on the other day, There is a not really fight, but almost a fight, It is because of a piece of stethoscope, my Stethoscope specifically that triggered the arguments. One of my groupmate "lopez" blamed "ralph" as the one who get it because I can't find it and it is vital signs time. And the steth I am pertaining to is a Littman classic that my aunt gave me before, It is a very special steth because it is her personal use since '96. That's why I am taking care of it like a pet. Going back, I know I am also to blame because I even doubted ralph's statement that he is not the one who used it or hide it. So he goes out like a mad killer and I follwed him and said to me with power and intense "'Tang ina mo, Sisihin nio ako". I even him push him to guard myself. And it is my first time to see him acting like that, because personally he is not like that, he is quiet and always laughing. But from that moment I saw him like a dragon with ears flaming hot.

So i decided not to talk to him or not to bother him anymore. Unfortunately my steth is being used by Nox then. And tetay even come between the two of us and she even said "mag shake hands na nga kayo, I laugh inside inisip ko "PArang bata naman masyado tong atake na to", But my pride is as high as the peak of Mount everest that I will not apologize for that mistake. And I even asked our Instructor that if she can allow me to step out of the duty that day. But she said to me "kakain mo lang, aalis ka na naman". lol. And I have no guts to see my patient anymore, because he is my buddy for that day and pride kills me. The staff asked me to obseve the IV bottle because we will discontinue it that day, so I have no choice but to act professionally then there he comes. But I think our patient is the mediator because of the plato wraps that may patient gave us with that chunky chicken inside we became ok. One thing I learned from this is never doubt a friend. Doubt a stranger but not a friend, and not to blame someone if you have no proof. But i think it is healthy to fight with a friend even Jesus and Peter fight once, but if you really are friends then there are no boundaries for forgiveness.

After that we played l4d with emerson and Nox and martian as well. With tha kind of scene, I started to get nostalgic and again missed highschool. I miss my life, the way I live highschool is so great that every moment of my life I will cherish it. The friends I have on highschool are like precious stones to me, to be kept and to be treasured. Second to my family I have my college friends and my highschool friends. The word friend is very broad, you can never use it to a certain person once you appreciated the meaning of it or once you learn how to be a friend. I wanna go back to highschool. I turned on the radio last night and coincidentally the song is somewhat like this " highschool life oh ang highschool life, every memory kay ganda" .

So much for the drama. I just want to give my symphaty and condolences to the relatives and family of the late Michael Jackson, he really is a pop icon, but sorry for him I am not a fan. So MJ wherever you are just BEAT IT......

Sa isang ward

Thu, 02 Jul 2009 12:15:22 +0000

Ewan ko bakit napakatanga ko ngayong araw na to. Pumasok ako ng tanga. Alam ko swerte naman ako kasi sabi sa horoscope ko, araw ko ngayon. Dumikit lang ako sa kaklase kong nagngangalang Ralph at siya ang nakatokang partner ko sa pasyente ko, aba ayun nagsimula ang katangahan. Wait, masaya nga pala ako Kay Ma'am Limjoco at sya ang naging C.I namin sa N3 sa ospital, feeling ko isa akong magaling na nurse, isang aspiring na clinical instructor o pwedeng maging isang doktor balang araw. Ginawa pa niya akong supervisor kanina. At feel ko namang mangutos sa mga kasama ko.

Going back. Ililista ko ang mga katangahan ko kanina:

a. Nalimutan kong ibalik ang lalagyanan ng thermometer sa kwarto ng pasyente ko, nadala ko sa canteen. Buti na lang mabait asawa ng pasyente ko isang dentista.

b. Dumaan ako sa daanan ng kotse, muntikan na akong madaganan ng harang ng kotse sa parking

c. Natapon ko yung urine ng pasyente sa sahig, nakatanag ako sa wowowee

d. Mali ang naiplot ko sa chart na BP,, nakatanga ako sa hangin, buti na lang nabura, samantalang si Ralph tawa ng tawa sa buong ward.

Grabe yung iba di ko matandaan, pero laughtrip kanina sa ward sobra. Di ko malilimutan tong araw na to.

On Transformers

Sat, 27 Jun 2009 14:14:15 +0000

I was moved not only by the digital visual effeccts of the movie, it is also because of the power and impact of the movie that make me crave for more. I am pertaining to Transformers "Revenge of the fallen". It is a mixture of everything. This is the kind of movie I always dreamt to watch and Michael Bay found the rifght formula and the right pathways to make this movie "one of a kind". Of course who the heck doesn't know the autobots and the decepticons. Optimus Prime and Megatron, BumbleBee and Starscream?. This are some of the transformers that are still part of the cast.

The movie is a combination of evry emotions created to make a certain audience feel high and feel worthy of that 200+ peso they paid on the different movie houses.Comedy, action, love, hate, revenge, passion, service, action and comedy again, did I mention comedy already?. Comedy + action, for me this is the perfect sum up for the movie. I laugh 45 times in the movie, I mean literally laugh. There are new casts that make the movie more entertaining to watch.Especially Simmons and Leo. They are great tandem, they bring more spice togeether than Optimus and friends.

I did not regret watching that movie, that piece of 170 for some is a very large amount especially when using it to physiological needslike foods. But I am more fed by that movie. BTW, I watched last June 25 at Trinoma witha Nox, Martian, tetay and Ralph after our not so toxic duty in N3, an OB ward in the new building of our hospital. Maybe it is not so stressful because Ma'am Limjoco served as our Clinical Instructor on that area.Unlike on our first duty where hatred and anguish develop in our heart. I will not talk about it anymore it is already a member of the past.But what can I say? Pedia Charity will be I think, is the most memorable ward in the history of my career as a nursing student. lol

Going back to Transformers. The Decepticons in the sequel are much unified and much stronger as megatron rise and regroup his team. But the highlight is the descent of the fallen where he find his revenge in the planet earth.Where he and the rest of his team searched for the matrix to use it for their own good. BTW I know I am fucking spoiler, But I cant't hold the tip of mny tongue anymore, Apology please "Optimus will die....on the 1st half of the movie but he will rise again just like Lazarus whom Jesus brought up from the dead.

I am so inlove with Megan Fox in the movie, she is so sexy, hot and beautiful. Damn Goddess of the northern forest forgive me for the word but she really triggers the beast in me. I want to be her boyfriend. I love her with the fire red now it's turning blue... lol. She is one of the highlights in the movie.

Well the lead actor is great, funny and I think is really good. Sam wickWicky? I think, correct me if I'm wrong with the spelling. sam holds the key in finding the matrix, so he really has a vital role that's why i did not expect him to die in the story. Well to sum this long entry short I suggest all of the movie goers there, readers of my blog to watch this movie, much better if you watch it on TriNoma, mall of asia's imax and Rockwell. But some scenes are not appropriate for those kids there, there are some scenes that are not suited for you my kiddoes, but forgiven maybe, because the fact that the action in the movie is much stronger than those little bitchy scenes there. I remember a scene in the movie, where we viewers clap our hands because of the comedic attack of some scenes.

So go out and buy a ticket, grab a popcorn, call some friends, call me up if you want. And watch this movie, maybe we can compare this to Harry Potter (my fave movie of all time)..

halili ng independence

Sun, 14 Jun 2009 07:13:49 +0000

Independence day? What do we know about it, My dear Filipinos? Are we really free from the hands of those evil leaders trying to interfere with our constitution just like before when the Spanish conquered us. Do we really feel the independence right now.? Actually my entry is not anout this whole independence day celebration which is celebrated every June 12 here in the Philippines. I just want you my dear readers to reflect on the issues that revolves everyday on us. And for those Filipinos who are satisfied with our government today, maybe you can feel the independece with in you, which is actually good for you.

Well let's talk about that topic regarding Katrina Halili and Hayden Kho, Yeap I know the issue is too old for us to ponder, but I have no entries yet regarding that topic. Of course within myself I know that I am no position in writing or criticizing them, but I am a Filipino, and every Pinoy has the freedom of speech given to us by the constitution; therefore I am allowed to give my opinion. First: i don't know what's the big deal in that sex video. I think it is being over reacted and over used.

There are so many issues that the government should focus on rather some love making video issues that won't help the poor people or those people who are in need of some financial support to get their need. Senators should pass a better bill rather than making an anti BOSO bill, which i think is so bullshit. Sorry for my word! But you see, what am i pointing out. I did not watch the video, I reviwed it " see the difference?". Why so? I am looking for the points in that video which should be taken for consideration. And here are thm:

Katrina Halili is a bf thief, yes she is, we all know that Dr. Hayden Kho is previously hitch on Dra. Vicky Belo. Morally Speaking, why did this girl agree to Hayden's need to have sex. If you are really an ethical girl you should never let yourself be involved on a relationship of other people especially if you have this sexual intention on that man.

Second, Dr Hayden Kho is such a damn a**hole. Yep, maybe it his own thing, that he needs to take a video of him hooking his girl, But the problem is Why don't you gave your partner a consent that she is on a video or that there is a camera on play recording our actions. And Doctors, OMGeek, doctors should have this code of ethics. As a medical practitioner we should have this code of ethics we should follow. Now after what he did, do you think that there will be patients running to him and seek his medical help. Maybe some bitch will do.

Third, As I said awhle ago, I am not in the position to gave my criticisms, but this is my blog and I have to give this opinion. I think that Dra. Vicky Belo personally made those videos available in the market or in the banquet place today. Sorry for her fans reading my blog, but that is only what's on my mind.

I hope that this scandal will be settled already, or maybe this will be just like some old issues that will be just hanging on tthe air that soon will be forgot.

FISHER SCORES it's 3-1

Fri, 12 Jun 2009 07:58:40 +0000

I am so wasted yesterday at my duty on the pediatric charity ward, I don't know but i feel so dull and unworthy of stepping to 3rd year. My C.I made me realize that I am not equipped enough with such knowledge. I feel so stupid infront of my patients yesterday. I don't know but this is the 1st time I felt that emotion. I can't blame my clinical instructor maybe she really is protecting her license.

Then yesterday also marked the 18th Birthday of my former highschool classmate KRIZEL. That's why after my over time duty in the ward yesterday, I immediately rush going back to Taguig yesterday since my father can't fetch me, because he is color coding that day I take the long way, I rode the jeep. From Manila to Taguig, a very ass wrecking trip. The traffic in Pasig was so undeniably uncool, I hope Mayor eusebio can hear me especially in the San Joaquin Area. As I arrive n Krizel's birthday bash?,

I mmediately grab the microphone since nobody is using it, I sang with my lungs out, give all my shot in the different songs I played. The celebration is simple but cool because amost all of my highschool friends were there. I went home at around 10:30 since their house is a stone's throw to our apartment here in Taguig.

Earlier is the 4th game of Lakers to the Magic. After they have lost to the Orlando Magic's, they gave their best this game. Since I am an Avid lakers fan I did not enjoy the 1st half of the game. Anxiety and sadness lingered me, I haven't eat my breakfast since I don't want to loose any scenes in the game. I immediately prayed hard, hoping that there will be a miracle in the 2nd half of the game and at last I knew there will be. The game was so intense, The Lakers has about to received their penalty already. Turkoglu, Howard and Lewis made the Orlando to gather the points in their score.

But on the second half, ARIZA scored 11 points in the 3rd quarter in just 5 minutes. See there is really a posibility in seeing great things beyond the impossible. And I like that mentality.

I hate Turkoglu and the rest of their gang, especially when they are guarding my pet KOBE bryant. Argh. Bryant scored the most in their team. The second half closed to a tie, w/c lead them to an Overtime.

And I did not close my eyes in that Overtime. I prayed and shouted every time the Lakers gain point. So much credits to Derek Fisher. He gave the team the power to lead with his 3-pointer capacity, that CUT WRENCHING PLAY by Fisher.

I hope LAKERS will won. And I hope I will also won on my duty in this fucking ward!!

wake - NBA- SLEEP

Tue, 09 Jun 2009 08:29:41 +0000

Tis' is supposed to be my entry yesterday...I am so into it. I wake up at about 9 in the morning and ate my breakfast, and crap surprisingly my favorite spread was served in the table, my favorite TUNA spread. The flakes of tuna fish and the crisp of onions incredibly mixed with mayonnaise was so YUMMY, and I couldn't sdtand my hungriness anymore, I immediately grab a whole wheat bread, then grap the spatula and let my hand do the job. The taste was so ravishing cool. I wish I could have more. And not to worry of any illness you will get for eating tuna unlike eating bacons and hams wihere you will get oils and cholesterol. Thanks to Century Tuna's Omega 3 which is with all fairness is good with our heart.

Then I immediately tune in tour television because it is Game of of NBA finals today with L.A lakers and Orlando Magic. I was so crashed because it is already the 2nd half of the Game, 3rd quarter and was about to finish. I am really mad with myself with the tuna with the bread and everything, all else follows. But I am not disappointed because it was a good game I am into shouting that quarter especially in the 4th quarter w/c all the best players of Lakers was in the court, I cuss, curse, shout, and I eben say "defense" repeatedly, especially when The ball is on Turkoglu. I feel like I am ofthe audience in the Staples Center wanting for Lakers to won the game and to get 2 pts in the lead. And the score was so close to each other, the Magic's was leading thanks to Howard and Turkoglu who almost made the points in their score.

I don't care for deep inside me I know Lakers will get game number 2. Thanks to Bryant, Fisher, odom, Ariza and Gasol who push through the 4th quarter giving their best defense and best shots. And 4th quarter was finished with a tie both teams got 88. That's why an Overtime was called.

There Bryant and Gasol worked so hard to make a lead. But Turkoglu was so fierce when guarding Kobe. Lakers got the lead, until the time has almost ended, For The Magic's to win they should shoot the ball. And the ball was on Lee's hand he lay up and BADLUCK the ball never got in. So the Lakers won 2-0. I am about to cry then.God, I hope someday I will have a picture of the Lakers team with me especially Kobe. Though I am not that good court player, I am a big NBA fanatico. The dream of stepping to America is into my reach now. After I finished my course, and get all the examinations done, I will go to U.S.A to meet my American Idols, to meet my relatives, to be with my highschool friends again, to earn dollars, to feel the greener pastures and to meet my DREAM TEAM. I can't hardly wait to live the American Dream.