confession number 553847138 :

I am a chameleon. I blend to people’s expectations & lie to myself as well.

I have done so many fucked up things but find it ok because I rationalize it. I feel superior to people & I hardly ever give a shit about their emotions.

confession number 738408976 :

If you like me, as in more then a friend like, either let me know up front or give me a hint about it. No big deal, no worries. I promise no drama. I just want to know

confession number 563671034 :

What do I have to confess..?

.. This site makes me doubt the world, and all the people in it. Especially the ones I used to think I was close to. I suppose you can never really know a person. They’re all backstabbing sons of bitches, just like most of you who post here. Best friends commit acts that would emotionally kill their comrades. Lovers put the most depraved, unessecary animal cravings above the feelings, and love of their partners.

There is no honor and nobility left in people these days. It makes me sad.

confession number 561149900 :

When I was 12 years old I sat in the middle of the street nearby, hoping to get run over.

confession number 275009948 :

I’ve only had one boyfriend for (3 1/2 year) 2 months after he took my virginity, he left. My rebound fuck gave me an STD.

I’m screwed for life =(

eto yung pic nung nag-eco walk kami. kaya kami naglagay ng ganyan kasi ginagagu rin kami. dun sa simula ng eco-walk may nakalagay sa isang puno

"Welcome to Busol Watershed"

sabi ko pa naman "wow. ambilis ata. ang ikli ata ng eco-walk na 'to"

tas after few minutes of walking may nakalagay ulit sa ibang puno na sign, sabi:

"di pa kadi, joke lang yun"

haha. puta. tangina

PAGIBIG.

" Kung iguguhit ko ang hugis ng pagibig,

hindi ito pusong inukit sa katawan ng puno ng mangga.

kundi isa itong dahon na naligaw sa binagsakang lupa at tinuyo ng tag-araw hanggang madurog nang matapakan ng naghahabulang magkasintahan " 

- r. rodriquez

so you thought i'd never see it?

it reflected to the window you thought i was staring at

yes. i was staring at you too.

"madami akong binura dito.. lasam putangina"

malalim din ako magtagalog nun. nauso dati yun e. at naaliw ako, kaya susubukan ko na ibalik ang ganoong tono sa pagsusulat ko dito. pero inaamin ko na hindi na yun ganun kadali para sa akin di tulad ng dati.

masaya akong araw na 'to, tanggap ko na hindi ko na talaga mapapanood ang palabas ng E-Heads. sa ganun talaga e, wala akong magagawa.

natulog nalang ako paguwi ko ng bahay kaninang umaga.

pag-gising ko ng alas-tres, magaan pakiramdam ko. inayus ko na mga gamit ko para sa eskwelahan.

sumakay na ako ng dyip, naramdaman ko ang lamig ng hangin sa pagdampi nito sa aking katawan. nasilayan ko ang maliwanag na sikat ng araw na hindi nagbibigay ng init. mabilis ang takbo ng jip. gustong gusto ko yung naramdaman kong yun habang naglalakbay kami papuntang bayan.. bakit? kasi napaka-simple ng mga bagay na yun pero masaya ako. lalong gumaan ang pakiramdam ko. pinagmasdan ko ang paligid, mahinahon ang mga puno, tahimik ang kapaligiran.. masarap maglakad ng magisa, mag-isip-isip.

haaaaaay buhay

this just sucks. i mean its a week before the concert tas tska lang nila i-a-announce na the tickets aren't free anymore. like what the heck?!

can't they lower the price for their fans? 

it's just a big disappointment because a lot of people were looking forward to it. buti sana kung hindi costly yung ticket price, but no. nevermind. i read online forums about the said concert, madami na hindi manonood. wala. sayang. kala ko pa naman maka-masa.

my dad actually said he'll pay for our (sis and me) tickets but we think it's just not practical.

just sucks..

they got my hopes up. sigh

it would be better if they re-schedule the concert so that people could save enough money to buy their tickets. we're in a third world country hellowwww.. pambili nalang ng pagkain yung isang libo na yun.

manonood nalang ata ako sa net nun. haaaay

iniisip ko

kung masaya pa ba ako 

masyado ko kasing inuuna yung nararamdaman nung ibang tao

..kesa sa nararamdaman ko

so i was eating lunch half-awake. then i went to my room to change. removed my shoes and kicked it under the bed, threw my pants somewhere in my room, and grabbed a pair of PJs in the closet. then slept.

woke up at 4 PM

home alone

ayus. ang tahimik, nagcocomputer lang ako, wala ring soundtrip. just pure neighborhood silence. sun was close to setting, the bright orange light that the sun produced illuminated our asotea.

it's a nice day for walking. alone or with a company. it was not hot, neither cold. just the exact amount of warmth for an afternoon. it reminded me of a good day for going to church. strolling a path where there are trees and few passing cars. a worn-out pair of jeans, a light shirt and a comfy jacket. sipping coffee and just feeling so relaxed.

sigh

i hope similar days come again

and be given an opportunity to do such things.

yes. sundays.

June 7, 2008

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everyone's so messed up