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My ardent desire

Wed, 21 Oct 2009 16:37:49 +0000

Ive been wanting to go abroad, hoping to earn bigger bucks
I want to renovate our house in Proj 2. I need about 2 million
so help me god. I have been doin a lot of career evaluation these past
few years. I wanted a more stable and high paying job, and a
promising career as well. Just bought a 32 inch LCD TV for mom.
In all fairness, I have been working for only 6 years and Ive had
a lot of accomplishments in terms of monetary status.
Ive had my mom's & grandma's house renovated,I bought an owner
type jeep,I have high end techno gadgets,and some savings
My ultimate dream is to work abroad.

Counting the years..

Mon, 05 Oct 2009 18:56:46 +0000

I promised myself I'll never write another sad sentiment about love.
But I cant help myself, for the last six months I thought I was in love again but
am back here sulking..But am happy with or without a man in my life.I've proven that.It's just that I looked at my recent picture & I realized am not that young anymore and that I've lost that appeal I had when I was younger..
So sad when your exposed to these kind of realization.

Lessons of Ondoy

Fri, 02 Oct 2009 15:18:21 +0000

It was a rainy saturday morning, I went to my lola's house in Chico St. to pack some of
my things. I usually stay there from Monday to Friday. It's near my workplace and I prefer
staying there on a weekday except for weekends since I have to spend time with my child.
I didnt know the next few days will be a disaster. With my usual routine I went home that morning.
At around 11PM my aunt called me telling me that the creek near are house is overflowing and the people
living near the area are now on the street. She asked if we can accomodate them in my room since they have no
place to go. I agreed right away. But after 30 mins she called again telling me our house was now filled with rain water,waistdeep. Mom suggested that I go and see my aunt. And I hurriedly left our house.
The driver of the PUJ I rode, informed us that he will have to cut the trip due to the flood. I decided to continue my journey on foot. I walked almost a mile in waist deep flood. Until I reached the house,first time in 32 years.
I had mixed emotions, I was sad for all the people affected by the typhoon.
It made me realize a very important lesson in life. People should not hold on to material things, coz in just one snap it can all go away. I have always cherished my electronics gadget,and I know the rain has always been a threat to these products. But the typhoon made me realize that more than anything else god and family should always be our priority. With all the disasters,natural calamities goin on around the world. This is the best time to refllect and be in constant communication with God and our family. We'll never know what will happen next.Made me realize to live my life to the fullest and not be in constant fear of being hurt. No matter what we do we will always experience pain.

Going back to my roots..

Thu, 07 May 2009 01:31:16 +0000

Am back to my childhood home.A lot has change but there are some that remains the same.
I've been in drinking spree for a couple of days.Thanks to my cousin,I missed her too. It's been a while,
Doin the stuff I enjoy a lot. It's like am back at being 19 again.I miss my childhood friends though.
I love being with the people I grew up with. Who would have thought we can be together after ten long years.
So many catching up to do. I hope to spend more time with them. Am extremely happy.Luv u cuzin.
I will forever cherish these memories.

Know Thyself

Thu, 09 Apr 2009 00:28:38 +0000

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?
Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you:

You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.
How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.
Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.
Here is the analysis:

You've got great self-confidence and you're full of charm. Most guys who get to know you will be attracted to you. You are far from sweet and proper; your intriguing personality fascinates them. Most guys find it easy to fall for a girl like you.
You really care about other people's feelings and are quite serious about the issues that affect your life. You are sincere, and your concern for the well-being of others makes many people want to be your friend.
You are a bright, cheerful and bubbly person. You are thoughtful and considerate, and like to have fun. Everybody feels comfortable around you because of your pleasant nature. When you walk into a room, people's eyes are likely to be drawn to you because of your charm.
Your peers think of you as a fun person, but sometimes you can be a little irresponsible. You can be somewhat childish, and can try to ignore the fact that you will one day need to really grow up and be a mature adult! Perhaps you could start reading good books; they might help you look at the world in a different light. You do want to be taken seriously, right?
Your boyfriend believes that you are a strong and independent person. Your confidence and cheerfulness make you an attractive person to be around, but sometimes you need to pay more attention to what other people, including your boyfriend, are thinking.

Are we..aren't we..

Mon, 30 Mar 2009 23:00:17 +0000

Are we friends or are we lovers?Or where we do it take from here. I've had male friends before, I could always be who Iam and they don't mind.No romantic attachment,maybe there were some attempts, but in the end we always love each other like family. But when do you say your more than friends? Do you have to be intimate with each other?
Or maybe One of you may view it in a different way. What if your treated different from the rest?
What if there are times when you feel the electricity flowing while your together and you both can't deny,
there something goin on you can't explain. But your both holding back..
I don't know, I can't clear my head. Chasing each other like the wind. Both needing each other to get thru the
day... Can't last a day without you..I dunno if I can still compose myself.. I know there are no gurantees,no expectations, all I know is I can't live a day without you in my life..

Butterfly & Lotus Flower

Mon, 09 Mar 2009 19:20:58 +0000

I chose the Butterfly as the design for my second tatoo. Based on my research,it symbolizes young womanhood.
Somehow I wanted my tatoos to be symbolic of who Iam. Not just having it for the sake of fashion. Here are the
meaning of these symbolic figures.
In ancient mythology, the butterfly stands for wisdom and everlating knowledge.A Symbol of change,joy & color.
A reminder to get up & move. Powerful symbol for transformation- Butterfly is a reminder to make changes when the oppurtunity
arises.Change & transformation are inevitable but it does not have to be traumatic.
Butterflies are safe keeper of secrets.
Twelve years ago, I had my first tatoo, I really didnt know what design I want but the artist decided that a lotus flower
could fit me. I had it in Sacrifice Valley in Bataan. Weird place to have a tatoo eh, but I just wanted it to be unique and memorable.
People always wonder why I had my tatoo there. But it remains a mystery, I never tell anyone. I just wanted to be impressive, no other significant reason at all.
The lotus flower starts as a small flower down at the bottom of a pond in the mud. It slowly grows up towards the waters surface continually moving towards the light. Once it come to the surface of the water the lotus flower begins to blossom and turn into a beautiful flower.The petals open in the morning and closes at night.
The symbol represent the struggle of life at its most basic form.Lotus flower symbolizes those who have gone through a hard time and are now coming out of it.Thus a lotus flower or blossom can also represent a hard time in life that has been overcome.A symbol of awakening to the spiritual reality of life.
At least my tatoos are related. I love having it on my body,Tattoos are forever..

Breaking boundaries

Wed, 04 Mar 2009 00:02:49 +0000

I know it's premature to conclude with the things goin on, am overwhelmed with
happiness. It's nice to have this overwhelming emotions again, even if it's never gonna escalate
to the next level.
All the little things he does is magic,I can face all the madness the world had to
give but I won't last a day without you. And you complete me and I hope if not in this world,
you will one day be mine.
A mixture of sunshine and rain, a combination of love and hate.
She must be so lucky to have you in her arms and me in his pedestal.
Life's contradictions, the bitter sweet,
the good and the bad. How I wanted to cross the line,to go over the other side.
To hold you and never let go, the one true thing I've been waiting for.My moon in the darkest night....

My Tramp stamp

Thu, 26 Feb 2009 19:08:28 +0000

Am excited to get my tramp stamp tom.
It'll be at my back just above the butt crack
Hehehe, though there were just some arguments
with my mom and my boy toy. But no one can stop me.
I always do what I want and thats final. Tatoos are forever!
I have no plans to have it removed. It'll be there till
my soul leaves my body. I'll show some pictures in
a couple of days. My birthday gift!

If you realize what I realize...

Mon, 23 Feb 2009 18:47:39 +0000

I feel so human again these past few days,all the kilig moments
the electricity flowing in every touch he makes. The daily conversation
we both enjoy,chatting while working er multi tasking,hehehehe
The sweet nothings, the q&a,getting to
know portion. The early morning walks.
And soon we're planning to take our breaks together,
I dunno, or maybe am assuming again. Lol.
But I know he's taken,and he's quite too young for me. But I enjoy his
company, makes me feel alive. Changed my life in a moment.
How we compliment each other, I can feel how amazed he is with all
my achivements,how I bring out the best in him and he in me.
How am dying to be his. But reality bites, That's how far we can be.
Nothing more.
Take time to realize that were perfect for each other, but I can't spell
it out for you,it's never gonna be that simple.
We'll never have to wonder if we missed out on each other,if you meet me
half way....
Oh am heading for another heartbreak..
But I can always love him from a distance.