napping place

weee

Sat, 4 Sep 2004 02:45:54 +0000

had so much fun at the con... i thouched my comp for a total of only an hour since then... reason: been building the models that i bought and im STILL not done with all of them... only problem is now i dont have any money... but that will change soon... yes very soon... oh and lookie at what else i got... i know a certain someone whose name starts with a "sa" and ends with a "rah" that would want it... too bad... mwuhahahaha... oi, am i evil or what?...

convention

Thu, 26 Aug 2004 20:57:45 +0000

yar, its convention time again!

sassy-struck

Tue, 24 Aug 2004 06:19:25 +0000

everyone, and i mean EVERYONE, has to see both my sassy girl and windstruck. preferably sassy girl first cuz it came first but which is watched first, satisfaction guaranteed.

:P :P

feeling dead and the way i am

Tue, 17 Aug 2004 00:05:22 +0000

ive officially exhausted myself.

speaking hurts my throat like hell, headaches are a constant buzz in my head, and i cant really stand for more than an hour or two. my friends think im being lazy and my coworkers think im becoming a waste of time. the thing is they dont know whats going on with me cuz i wont tell them unless they beat it out of me. they dont know how tired or how sick or how stressed ive been over the last month.

a hundred fears rush into me every night when i try to go to sleep. will i have enough money to pay for school? will i get the bursary? how will i get the money? will i be able to maintain my average? why cant i seem to move forward with work? will i be able to live up to people\'s expectations of me?

i know everybody has the same fears that i do. my friends and family would give me pointers or tips on what i should do if they ever find out about my problems but honestly, no matter what, i dont want them to find out. i dont want them to pity me, or try to help me. they have their own problems to worry about. all my life, that has been the way i am. i take my pain, and i walk with it. alone. thats the way it is.

id rather smile and have fun with the people close to me than to see them worry about me. my problems are my own and no one else\'s. i know some people understand this but most others wouldnt.

i guess its this freakish sense of responsibility of mine that makes me this way. ive grown up with notions of honor and responsibilty. ive gone through life as \"the eldest, the responsible one, the hope.\" what has thinking like this done for me? ive become the quiet one, shy and secluded, never really speaking unless spoken too.

its kinda funny. this is probably the only place that i would even admit and say these things. its really too since bad that no one immediately close to me ever comes here. if they did, then theyd understand me so much more. but they dont. and itll stay that way.

little bits and pieces of my life will fall out from time to time. but no one will completly see the big picture that is me.

haircut...

Sat, 31 Jul 2004 04:11:50 +0000

boo... did something i never thought id do for a while... hair so short now... i feel so bald...

so many times

Wed, 14 Jul 2004 22:35:41 +0000

hehehe

watched spider-man 2 a total of 3 times already and will probably see it for a 4th time.....

hehehe

Wed, 30 Jun 2004 13:05:26 +0000

spider-man2, how many times will i end up watching thee?

\'nuff said ^^

back into the habit and a fun two weeks

Sat, 1 May 2004 04:10:41 +0000

hmm, i havnt really been posting for a while. truth is, i havnt been able to find the time. between working 9 hour shifts and catching up on my sleep and having fun and just plain being lazy, blogging was at the back of my mind.

but now i feel like getting back into the habit. and so i am.

the last two weeks went by so fast. i had a lot of fun with my visiting cousins sarah and krissy. although i was pretty much bled dry (well, my money supply was thin as it was when they came anyway), i had fun.

i really feel like visiting the philippines now. T_T

...must...survive...

Thu, 8 Apr 2004 06:05:08 +0000

...ugh...help...me...

...too many...all...nighters...

...work...load...too big...

...need...more...sleep...

countdown

Tue, 30 Mar 2004 06:31:40 +0000

just under 3 weeks of school left, then its summer vacation. ugh, meaning there's going to be a lot of long nights ahead of me...

....damn, time sure flies. 1/4th of the year 2004 is already gone.