well, i decided na puro happy memories/thoughts na lang i-popost ko dito sa blog ko. (pero teka, panu na tong emo theme ko?).

UPDATES:

July- (1)ang major event of the month, was my "mini-me's" 3rd bday. masaya kahit na umulan pa nung araw na yun. again sa mga nakapunta thank you, sa mga natulugan ko at di naasikaso pasensya na po. wala din ako mapapakita na pictures kasi naman nagcrash yung hard drive namen na sinavan ko ng pic. sayang nga eh. (2)ang 1st team building ng thundercats sa red box. masaya din. naging close na kami ng mga team mates ko after that. (pero sabi nga ni kurl iba pa din yung team karlos primeros! miss ko na kayo!!!)

AUG- (1)my 23rd bday. wah... tandang walang pinagkanadaan! ayoko na isipin yun kasi baka sumama lang ulit yung loob ko. (2)trip-tripang team building nga kung sinu-sing sup at agents sa carafe at may after party sa providence na inulan at binaha. may na late. may naghalf day. may nagwalk-out. may nalasing at muntik na masuka. (3)bday ni kurl. kumain lang kami sa labas since ayaw naman nia na magluto pa daw ako. (4)the latest was the fontana outing! bday kasi ni eric so ayun. super saya ng mga party animals. lashengan to the max. cnung kasama? me, kaycee, karlo, nom, gemma, eric, jaymee, robin, dale, junville. wave pool at giant slide to the max! babalik ulit kami baka next month or sa bday daw ni karlo...

CALENDAR:

Aug 30: AfterShift Jam - The Fort (9am-4pm)
Aug 30: watch E-Heads concert (hopefully!)
Sept 1: start to quit smoking!!! (this time i mean it! wak na kayo umapila!)
Sept 14: Bataan with West friends
Sept i don't know: magpunta na FONTANA ULIT!

You are loving, compassionate, and ruled by your feelings.
You are able to be a foundation for other people... but you still know how to have fun.
Sometimes your emotions weigh you down, but you generally feel free from them.

You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something.
You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense.
You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.
You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.
You have the classic "Type A" personality.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.
You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You are very open. You communicate well, and you connect with other people easily.
You are a naturally creative person. Ideas just flow from your mind.
A true chameleon, you are many things at different points in your life. You are very adaptable.

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.
You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.
At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong.
You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know.
You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do.

Very true, this is soooooo me....

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GAME?

2. i need a looooong vacation. pero pano, kung ung mga inaapply mong PTO di naman na-aaprove dahil lahat ng processing nagshe-share sa 1 allocation a day na blocked pa ang sat-sun.

3. nahihirapan na ko sa set-up nameng mag-anak. sobrang nami-miss ko na si kaycee ko. di ko xa masundo sa lola nia pag rd ko kasi i have to do some chores sa house at maghabol ng tulog. every thurs dinadalaw namen xa ni kurl sa qc pero hirap iwan. iyak ng iyak pag paalis na kami ni kurl. sinusundo naman xa ni kurl every friday at ihahatid ng sun after shift ko. parang bola na pasa-pasa.

4. andaming bagong muka sa GY. pero di ko na lang elaborate since ala naman akong masasabing maganda. (aminado ako, lait-tera ako!)

5. unti-unti ng nababawasan ung mga friends ko. ala na sla france, maisie, cindy, aalis na din si junville (mag-babakasyon) si blue naman na-promote na. so nakakalungkot pero i'm happy naman for them.

ang positive lang na mangyayari sa buhay ko ngayung GY na ko --- mas malaking pay since me night diff at haggard pay. at makaka-mall na ko since pag-out ko bukas na cla.

i wish i could just pretend that i'm fine. i don't want people to get affected by me and ask what's wrong or if i'm feeling alright. i wish i could just smile/laugh to take the pain away.

the bottom line is... i'm really hurt... i don't wanna cry no more. but it keeps falling down... i though i was a strong one... i guess not

"mami me tao oh." sabay turo sa me kisame. habang kinikilabutan sabi ko na lang, "anak alang tao. taung dalawa lang. pimikit ka na at dun ka himarap." sabay tulak ke kaycee para mag-face the wall.

2 nights ago same thing. sabi nia sakin me tao daw. tinanong ko naman xa kung anu itchura. tinalikuran ako at dumede na lang.

last night, the same pero this time sumiksik xa sakin at halos mahulog na ko sa kama sabay sabi na "dito ka higa." tinanong ko naman xa sabi nia ung tao daw.

nung sinabi ko ung ke kurl, sabi nia tinuturo din daw un sa kanya ni kaycee sa hapon pag magkasama sila.

sabi pa pala sakin ni kaycee kagabi. "mami lipat tau dun sa kabila." bakante na pala ung tapat ng unit namen at ala ng nakatira. alam ko na aalis na ung nandon pero di namen alam na wala na pala talagang nakatira dun.

sobrang nakakatakot. i guess normal lang sa bata na makakita ng ganun pero i don't think na sa edad na 2.5 kaya na niang magembento ng ganung kwento.

feeling ko naman good spirit xa. kasi diba kung bad ade sana natakot na si kaycee. sana nga good para bantayan nia ung anak ko at di magkasakit. good talaga un kasi binigyan nia kami ng pera.

sino gusto makitulog samin? samahan nio naman ako mag-insenso. ikaw, anu sa palagay mo? 3rd eye ba o kathang isip lang ni kaycee un? 

1. fri-sat kasi ung off ni kurl so parang bola na naman si kaycee na pasa-pasa kasi technically tue-wed na ang off ko. so fri sundo ni kurl si kaycee sa qc hatid ng sun. sundo ko ng tue hatid ng wed.

2. mami-miss ko ung mga frends ko sa morning. ang yosi buddy ko na si qa bilat. si tanda. lunch buddy na si arlan, rhon at kulot. ang ever demanding kong sup na si karlo (kung di xa matutuloy mag-midnight).

3. di na ko makakasama sa mga escapades namen ng mga west frends ko. kasi sun-mon off ung mga un eh.

4. ang alang katapusan tambay, tulog, kain, surf shift ko.

5. balik na sa morning inuman sessions.

6. ala na naman akong buhay!

on the bright side...

1. di na kami magkikita ng better-half ko. baka by then ma-miss nia na ko. since magkikita na lang kami sa la-la-land.

2. makakaipon na ko pambili ng aircon at pangtuition. makakabayad na din ako ng mga utang ko. siguro sa susunod na shift bid kumpleto ko na ung gamit namen sa bahay.

3. madalas na ko makaka-mall. since pagout ko bukas na clang lahat.

4. yayaman na ako ulit at meron na ulit haggard pay!

pero.... ayoko pa ding mag-gy!!!! T_T *sob sob*

But I'm very flexible... haha

you can love him with all you heart, in the end he'd still go home to where he belongs and where his heart lies.and that's here with me and kaycee. so FACE IT!

All I want to do is to sit in my station and be quiet for the rest of my shift. Can’t wait to go home, lay in bed and cuddle with my pillows and be alone.