http://fuuko.tabulas.com Fade Away. eccentric. boyish. gamer. bookworm. optimist. pessimist. morbid. down-to-earth. cheerful. naive. snob. spammer. music lover. anime lover manga reader. certified sweet addict. en Wed, 31 Dec 2008 23:41:06 +0000 new year. first post of the year. HAHA. :D anyway, been really lazy since my life's just full of crap in the later part of '08. don't ask anything about it, won't tell. :P

i miss my mom and dad since we're (me and Benedict) celebrating with Bj's family. i miss the way we celebrate Holidays. i, playing/watching/browsing the net; then they, sleeping and asking me to just wake them up 30 mins before the celebration. HAHA. :D

ang pakunswelo ko na lang this new year, Benedict can appreciate fireworks now. HEHE. :D last night, he was clapping his hands like an idiot, watching some fireworks display. HEHE. XD i really love his reactions, i fell in love again. HAHA. (oo shota nga ako remember?) XD~

so, that's it for now. isa sa mga new year's resolution ko ang mag-update na lagi. HAHA. :D tamad talaga ako mag-update eh. XD~ again..


HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!! :D

]]> http://fuuko.tabulas.com/2008/12/31/new-year./ http://fuuko.tabulas.com/2008/12/31/new-year./ Wed, 31 Dec 2008 23:36:50 +0000 another post. -_- anyway, if you want the drama, read the one below. well, it's in friends only so.. if you're not one of my friends, you can't see it. LOL.

ANOTHER POST!!!! yes. i've been uploading Benedict's pics and vids. BWAHAHAHA. just visit my multiply. XD oh yeah, be an angel and add me up if you feel like it. :P the pics and vids are in public viewing so if you don't have an account, it's okay. XD

http://lenuh.multiply.com/


EDIT: okay. i'm already sleepy so, i'll just finish it later. -_- so far, i uploaded from 10-6 months. <_< nyt all! :P

]]> http://fuuko.tabulas.com/2008/10/02/another-post.--_-/ http://fuuko.tabulas.com/2008/10/02/another-post.--_-/ Thu, 02 Oct 2008 16:18:25 +0000 encoding. -_- i'm encoding a new layout.. since i really can't leave tabulas. T_T si kairee kasi eh. (love you mareng bru!)

kaya lang, medyo nahihilo na ako kaka-ayos so, i'll just finish it later. hehe. i'm not used to it anymore. and since i reformatted (biglaan. syet!) my pc, i lost all my files.

yuh. you hear it right. ALL. as in. T_T good bye uber old images of anime and videogames. good bye GBA emulator games. good bye my downloaded animes. and good bye YM conversations (dated since 2005). T_T huhuhu. andun pa mandin 'yung mga lumang usapan namin ni husband. huhuhu. T_T

well on the brighter side, i've been busy lately, looking for work and.. playing PS2 games. LOL. finished some games (ToTA, KH 1&2); and a lot of pending games that are to be finish (Suikoden 3, Wild ARMs 3, Atelier Iris 3 and Final Fantasy X). ewan ba. bumabalik na naman 'yung dati kong sakit na.. pag matatapos na 'yung isang game, eh bigla akong tinatamad na at iba naman ang sisimulan ko. LOL. kaya ang nangyayari, nakakalimutan ko na 'yung story at uulitin ko na naman. BWAHAHAHAHA. :P

oh and i really need to have psp. -_- lalabas na 'yung Dissidia: Final Fantasy. and yes, i just want to play that game because Zidane will be there. BWAHAHAHA. 'wag na kumontra. <_< it's so cool. XD i hope si Edgar or si Sabin ang bida from FF6. wala pang protagonist from 5, 6, and 7. though complete na 'yung villains and Kefka will be there. i know, i'll enjoy killing him again. BWAHAHAHA.

para kong hindi nanay eh noh? :D pero hindi ko naman sya napapabayaan. BWAHAHAHA. pag umaga, syempre todo bantay ako. hindi nga 'yun nakakatulog pag hindi ako ang katabi. -_- so sa gabi, after makatulog na sya, dun na ako naglalaro ng ps2. XD mga 2-3 hours lang. then tulog na rin kasi sabay din kami gigising. he usually woke up mga 9-10 am na. :D

]]> http://fuuko.tabulas.com/2008/09/13/encoding.--_-/ http://fuuko.tabulas.com/2008/09/13/encoding.--_-/ Sat, 13 Sep 2008 14:05:04 +0000 trying my best to.. post. @_@ ugh. yuh. i've been trying my best to post something.. but everytime something's in my mind, i always forget about it. grr.

anyway, life's been a bitch lately. 'yung mga akala naming meron, walang nangyari. hopefully hindi drawing 'yung papers na pinapaayos ni mama. at sana rin eh matanggap ako run sa work na sinasabi ng aunt ko. dahil if ever, eh mapipilitan akong mag-dubai. LOL. -_-

it's hard without my dad. my mom misses him a lot and i kinda feel the same way. kasi mahirap naman kung pareho kaming nag-e-emote dito db? eh d ang depressing naman ng buhay namin. tsaka may anak akong matalino, every time he sees my mom crying, nalulungkot din sya (how cute!!!).

uh. yeah. he's so adorable whenever he's making *that* kind of face. -_- and every time i scold him, he'll use *that* to me. and it'll melt my heart. -_-; kaya sa halip na pagsabihan ko sya eh pinanggigigilan ko na sya kasi nagpapa-cute sya sa akin. same with my mom. HAHA.

nakakatuwa lang isipin, kasi sa chinese tradition, meron silang paniniwala na kelangan magluksa ng 49 days. then after nun, meron pa 'yung 100 days. tapos dun sa said days, mag-aalay kami ng pagkain, then afterwards eh kakainin namin. if you count the days from august 12, ang ika-49 days nya eh bday ko, september 29. at ang ika-100 days nya eh bday ni mama. coincidence? HAHA. i just told my mom, "baka kasi gusto ni papa kahit papaano may reason tayo para maghanda ng masarap sa birthdays natin db?" he really love us, noh? ^_^

on the lighter side, 2 feet something na si benedict. grabe. kalahati ko na sya. -_- next time mag-post ako ng mga bagong pic at video. :D

]]> http://fuuko.tabulas.com/2008/09/07/trying-my-best-to..-post.-_/ http://fuuko.tabulas.com/2008/09/07/trying-my-best-to..-post.-_/ Sun, 07 Sep 2008 13:56:29 +0000 good bye papa.. it's been a while since i last posted and ito pa ang maipo-post ko. masakit isipin na parang kelan lang eh nag-post ako (LJ account) na na-hospital sya. then last tuesday (08-12-08) lang, he finally left us.

it was all of a sudden. shocking kasi nung sunday (08-10-08) lang nginingiti-ngitian nya ako nung dumalaw ako. tinanong nya kung san si benedict, sabi ko nasa bahay. then he told me, "wag mo syang pababayaan ha." then i told him, "sige, pagaling ka na." then he slept again. i was to go back the next day (08-11-08) kaso dahil sa abnormal na panahon, sumakit ulo ako. so sabi ni mama, kinabukasan na lang daw. eh kaso hindi na nga ako nakabalik kasi iniwan na nya kami at 9:30am.

it was hard. sobrang hirap tanggapin na ganun ang nangyari. hanggang ngayun may part pa rin ng utak ko na ayaw i-accept 'yung fact na wala na si papa; na pinaglamayan na namin sya at bukas ay libing na nya. parang feeling ko lahat ng nangyayari eh parang isang eksena sa pelikula o teleserye na napapanood ko lang o isang masamang panaginip at gusto ko na magising, parang napaka-unbelievable ng lahat.

nung una, sobrang sakit para sa akin. nung first 2 days, talagang naiiyak ako everytime tinitignan ko sya sa coffin nya. then si mama, 3 days umiiyak every now and then. tsaka makikita mo na sobrang lungkot nya.

sa ngayun, medyo natatanggap na namin na ganun talaga. hanggang dun na lang. tsaka walang huling habilin si papa eh. wala naman syang sinabi kay mama. so ibig sabihin, talaga lang tapos na ung mission nya sa mundo kaya kinuha na sya. naisip namin na mas okay na 'yun kesa naman sa pahirapan pa sya ng sakit nya. buti nga ilang buwan lang sya naghirap. d tulad nung iba na taon ang binibilang.

salamat nga pala dun sa mga nakiramay. dun sa mga pumunta, salamat ng marami. dun sa mga tumawag, nag-text, nag-message, salamat din. natuwa naman ako kasi ang dami ko palang tunay na kaibigan. na-touch naman ako kasi akala ko iilan lang kayo. salamat din sa mga prayers. maraming salamat talaga.

don't worry guys, we'll be fine. andyan lang naman si papa. hindi naman nya kami pababayaan. alam nyo naman, i'm strong. hehe. masaya na rin ako kasi alam kong masaya na si papa kasama ng lolo at lola ko.

]]> http://fuuko.tabulas.com/2008/08/16/good-bye-papa../ http://fuuko.tabulas.com/2008/08/16/good-bye-papa../ Sat, 16 Aug 2008 16:17:16 +0000 back! dumating kami last night galing quezon. :D hopefully hindi muna kami umuwi ulet dahil marami akong dapat asikasuhin dito sa bahay. anway.. sa next post na lang ang chika at na-aliw ako sa meme na ittech. :P

 

What Elena Means
You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.
You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.
At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow.
You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily.
Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is.



You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.
You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.
You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.
You have the classic "Type A" personality.
What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?
 
totoo ba ittech? LOL. how i wish confident ako. :P pero 3/4 nyan eh totoo. -_-
]]> http://fuuko.tabulas.com/2008/07/06/@1584174/ http://fuuko.tabulas.com/2008/07/06/@1584174/ Sun, 06 Jul 2008 07:11:19 +0000 still alive. yuh. i'm still alive. -_- last month biningayagan na si Benedict. i know ang daming hindi nasabihan, pero pagbalik ko na lang galing ng quezon ako mag-e-explain. after kasi ng binyag, kung san san na namamasyal si benedict.

may mga sumama ang loob, at alam kong meron pang iba na sasama ang loob dahil hindi ko nasabihan/nakumbita pero may malaking reason ako. at wala akong nakalimutan ni isa sa inyo. lahat ng friends ko, from school, to anime community, to tabulas/LJ community, to RO/RF community, naalala ko. kaya naman 1 day before the christening eh hindi ko pa rin nai-submit 'yung list of sponsors ko dahil ang hirap mamili; buti na lang ka-close ko si father. -_- gusto ko nga sana, lahat ng nag-prisinta at nag-alok eh isasama ko.. kaso nga may nangyaring something na kinailangan na mamili na lang ako.

basta ang daming kwento, masaya at nakakaimbyerna.. pero next time na lang kasi need ko pa maghanda para sa pag-uwi namin sa quezon. -_-

promise talaga, pati 'yung mga pic upload ko rito. ~_~;

]]> http://fuuko.tabulas.com/2008/06/03/still-alive./ http://fuuko.tabulas.com/2008/06/03/still-alive./ Tue, 03 Jun 2008 16:23:32 +0000 moving? i'm still thinking if i'm to move or not. o_o i've been hesitant since mag-pa-5 years na rin ako rito sa tabulas. -_-

i'm thinking na mag-concentrate na lang sa pag maintain ng LJ ko and leave tabulas na lang. -_- mas na-a-update ko kasi LJ ko kesa dito since most of my *close* friends are there. o_o pero ayoko naman iwan mga naging friends ko rito sa tabby.

now i'm confuse. argh. <_< dun sa may mga LJ dyan, pa-add na lang ako. pero comment muna kayo at magpakilala para ma-add ko kayo kasi friends only lang sya. o_o user's yoru_morino. (without the period ha.)

]]> http://fuuko.tabulas.com/2008/03/05/@1532045/ http://fuuko.tabulas.com/2008/03/05/@1532045/ Wed, 05 Mar 2008 18:41:00 +0000 merry christmas! MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!! :D wala na akong ma-type kasi tinatamad na ako mag-isip ng idadagdag. bumati lang ako. HAHA. XD

MERRY CHRISTMAS ULIT!!!

]]> http://fuuko.tabulas.com/2007/12/25/@1510210/ http://fuuko.tabulas.com/2007/12/25/@1510210/ Tue, 25 Dec 2007 06:44:34 +0000 wishlist. got this from mii-chan. :D

Top 10 Wishes for Christmas

1. MONEY. maraming maraming maraming maraming marami. XD
2. Eyeglasses w/ grade.
3. DVD burner.
4. PSP.
5. Nintendo DS Lite.
6. PS3.
7. PC.
8. Laptop.
9. Sandals.
10. Clothes.

]]> http://fuuko.tabulas.com/2007/12/14/@1507030/ http://fuuko.tabulas.com/2007/12/14/@1507030/ Fri, 14 Dec 2007 13:59:21 +0000