Ok, madami talagang nangyari since nawala ako dito, I'll just list them down but I'll post the details next time.

1. Nagkaron ako ng A(H1N1)
2. I became the leader of our group.
3. Ang daming bagong hot C.I's sa school namin.
4. I experienced failing since last 2 years.
5. Sobrang naghabol ako sa lessons
6. I became popular at my school just because of the Swine flu--
7. ..my professors loved me because of it!
8. I failed Oral revalida
9. Naka away ko partner ko.
10. Meron na kaming O.R/D.R duty every thursday
11. May gf na ung Ex ko. (I think, this is just an old story)
12. Naiirita ko sa iba kong friends, I'm beginning to doubt them.
13. Mahal ko na yung iba  kong close friends sa college.
14. Absent ako ngayon.
15. I tried smoking but I failed.
16. Umiinom na ulit ako at naka epxerience pumasok sa class ng lasing. Thanks to MATADOR!
    
17. Nanghihina na loob ko sa course ko.
18. Mas dumami friends ko ngayon.
19. Favorite DAW ako ng adviser namin
20. Crush ko siya. :D I mean, yung adviser namin. :)) Kaso parang bakla, pero may gf. Galing siya sa FEU.
    
21. Crush ko siya. :D (Si Mamar).
22. Tumigil na yung iba sa paninira sakin.
23. Nakakarma na yung ibang umaway sakin.
24. I'm loving myself more than before. :D
25. Na-shocked ako kasi hermaphrodite pala si Lady Gago! Lady Gaga pala!
26. I'm ready to fall in love again.
27. Bitter pa din ako sa ex-bestfriend ko.
28. Break na si Phoebe and Ikko.
29. I need motivation para ipagpatuloy pa ang kalokohan na 'to.
30. Nakakita na ko ng UTERUS - CS case sa O.R. and hindi ako natakot. This is one reason why I'm still loving this shit.
31. Dito na nakatira ung sister ko with our parents.
32. May bf na kano yung ate ko.
33. Naiinis talaga ko sa partner ko!! Buti na lang mahal ako ng prof namin.
34. Walang nakapasa sa prelim exam sa section namin, I got the highest score, 64/100. 1 point na lang, pinagkait pa!
35. Madami pala talagang insecure sa room namin. But I don't give a damn.
    

I opened up my thoughts and feelings dun sa dalawa kong friends na kasama that time. Lahat ng nangyari at nagbago simula college. Kung bakit wala na kami nung bestfriend ko, kahit yung tungkol kay Jessica, nakwento ko na rin kasi naman, nagulat ako dahil hindi pala nila alam na nakaaway ko yun nung highschool. Akala ko galit silang lahat sakin dahil sa mga ginawa ko nung highschool but I admit naman na naguluhan ako that time and pinagsisisihan ko na lahat ng yon. Pero sabi naman nila, mali daw talaga nun si Jessica. I dunno pero sa tingin ko hindi ko talaga dapat ginawa yun. She's still my friend afterall. May point din sila na iba talaga pag sa friend mo nagkagusto yung ex mo unlike pag ibang babae lang na hindi mo kakilala.

About dun sa bestfriend ko, well, alam ko namang ayaw talaga nila dun and ayaw din naman ng bestfriend ko sa kanila. At ako? lagi naman akong nasa gitna pero yung pagiging nasa gitna ko yung nagpahamak sa relasyon namin ng ex bestfriend ko. Sa totoo lang, parang mas gusto ko naman talaga dun sa mga kasama ko nung third year highschool eh, sa kanila lang ako malaya, parang totoo ako sa sarili ko unlike pag kasama ko yung bestfriend ko nun, parang lagi ka na lang dapat maging tama or karesperespeto sa lahat ng tao, kahit gusto mong sumigaw, ma-excite over something, hindi ko kayang ilabas dahil iba ang tingin niya sa mga ganung tao. Pero buti na lang at natapos na rin yun, nagawa ko lang naman yun dahil sa mahal ko ang bespren ko pero sinayang lang niya lahat. Oo nga, siguro, para sa kanya ay binackstab ko siya pero ang hindi niya alam ay napilitan lang ako or nagpacontrol nanaman ako sa ibang tao, hindi ko sinisisi yung boyfriend niya ngayon na close friend ko or namin before pero siya rin naman ang nagtulak sakin para masabi ang mga masasakit na bagay sa bespren ko. Sabi nga nung kasama ko nung friday, malamang siniraan nga talaga ko nung guy na yun para maging sila ulit ng bespren ko. Iba talaga ang dating pag ibang tao ang nagkwento tungkol sa mga sinabi mo sa taong malapit sa inyo pareho. Ang mali lang ng bespren ko, hindi niya inalam kung bakit ko sinabi yun, hindi niya alam na impulsive lang ako that time. And sinisi niya lahat sakin kung ano man ang nangyari sa kanya at sa mga naging boyfriend niya. Isa lang masasabi ko, kung talagang kilala niya ko, hindi siya maniniwala sa ibang tao pero sa tingin ko ay hindi, after 6 years, wala lang siyang alam kundi magpasweet sa harap ko, loved me but she never understand the real me. Okay na sana eh, kung tinanggap lang niya mga pagkakamali niya at mahirap talaga para sakin na gumitna. Pero salamat na rin dahil nakawala na ko sa anino niya at wala na rin ako sa gitna. ^.^

Sa thursday, magkikita ulit kami ng mga friends kong yun kasi bday nung isa naming kabarkada.

Isa sa mga ex ko na may gusto pa din sakin ay makikita ko ulit. Pumunta siya nung birthday ko before pero sa totoo lang, ayoko talaga sa kanya eh pero parang pinaglalaruan ko na siya. Alam naman niyang friend lang talaga ang turing ko sa kanya.

Sana masingit ko na yung paggawa ng new layout. :D

2 days ago, I'm so relieved when I got enrolled and knowing that I'm still in the same section, 3F and with the same group. But sad to say, some of my close friends got transferred to other sections. But at least, I'm still with my closest friend, Riza. :D Right now, I am thinking of changing my layout but I dunno when. And there's no adobe photoshop installed in my pc since it was repaired. Anyway, I am still hoping to see my former highschool classmates this week or maybe not? I dunno, I really feel of seeing them.

Lastly, we went to Real Quezon last friday until saturday, I was with my mom and her colleagues and her colleagues' family. We just went on swimming at the beach. Sad to say, we didn't brought our camera on those days but the picture of us in my mind will last forever. ^_^ I can still say, my vacation is worth it because of it.

Ngayong araw na toh, kumain lang kami sa Jollibee malapit samin kasama yung pamangkin ko pati yung asawa ng kuya ko together with my parents. Ayun, tapos may chocolate cake na bili ng mommy ko. Sana sa June 15 pa pasok namin pero ang kutob ko sa June 8 na. Hay. As usual, bitin nanaman ang bakasyon ko.

Minsan, merong mga tao na talagang hindi mo maiiwasan na matagpuan o makatagpo sayo. Kahit anong iwas mo, maliit ang mundo ng Tabulas. Kahit magtago ako sa nakaraan, sila pa din ang makakakita sakin, kahit ganoon man, salamat pa din. Sorry pero hindi na ako tulad ng dati. *talks to herself*

We had our individual Oral CNP today before we go home. It was my first time to get a 1.0 in my nursing care plan, well, I think I just deserve it because I really studied the case of my client and my C.I. was surprised on what I did. Yesterday, she already gave my a grade on my LFD, I think only 2 of us got a grade yesterday. And I got 1.50 on my performance yesterday and I just hope I got a higher grade today.

My pc's still broken, I'm currently here in a computer cafe since last night, yeah. I am again the one who did our group's brochure, and supposedly, we don't have classes tomorrow but we will have our dry run so I guess, I have to go. Still on Hiatus. :]

This week's so frustrating, my duty at Manila Naval Hospital is good, I injected a man who's a soldier actually, and then I got pricked by the needle, I know that my blood can be contaminated by his but what can I do? So I let it bleed and then used alcohol to wash it. I was worried back then of how should I do, and also, I help a baby for her nebulizer, she's so cute. I got to know more of my friends because this hospital's just near at Market-Market so my friends and I went there to go shopping/window shopping. At our second day of malling, I saw Martin, yes, my old friend way back in highschool, I think that he really saw me there and he's walking in front of us then I called him but he didn't talk to me, damn. He went straight to the C.R. and my friends and I also went to the c.r. and then when we got outside, he's gone. I never saw him again.

My exam on nutrition was so difficult, I was totally in shocked. And our exam on NCM isn't that difficult if I really got a time to review, the reason that I didn't have enough time to review is I was doing my requirement on NCM, paperworks, 6 nursing care plans but I just finished 4 ncps. Thankfully, I passed the exam on NCM, 66/100. We're only 3 students who got passed.

I'm currently on: HIATUS

I'll be back maybe when my pc is already fix.

So am I blaming God again?

I really don't want to tell ALL the reasons why I'm feeling like this, this post should've been posted a long time ago. I was just being patient.

Bokura Ga Ita. So I finished this series a month ago, I watched this over the internet and wrote what I've felt on this anime series. This is the first thing I did.

Paris Hilton's BFF. I'm also watching this series at MTV whenever I got nothing else to do.

Fushigi Yugi ova Eikouden. This is actually on Animax, I really don't know it's schedule so I haven't finished it yet.

Paradise Kiss. Also on Animax, it's one of my favorites so I don't care how many times I watch it.

Movies. (Cloverfield, Ripley Underground, Underworld 3, Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, etc.) I really planned on going to a movie marathon.

DVDs. Just yesterday, I bought 3 anime series which are Death Note, Maburaho & Nana. I also bought Korean/Japanese horror movies. I haven't tried watching any of these.

Derma. I went to my dermatologist to buy some creams for my skin asthma.

Antipolo. I went in our house at Antipolo to chill. I used my sister's laptop all day for playing games, watching movies, etc. This is the day when I lost my sister's 1,000 Php.

Layout. I also made a new layout for my blog and this is my current theme as of now.

Eastwood city. I went there with my sister just to take pictures, we also went to her office.

Nurse. My first calling happened 2 weeks ago after my sister and I went to Eastwood, we encounter some accident on the high-way, there's someone lying on the street, he's with his motorcycle and people were around him, they couldn't touch him at all because it will be more dangerous for that person and there was a truck in front of him. Since it's holy week, vehicles were driving fast, I guess. I just can't help myself, I really wanted to help during that time.

Facebook. How can I forget? I was so addicted on their applications: Farm Town, My Farm, Yoville, Pet Society, Restaurant City.

Past. This summer is also the time when I found out that my last ex bf has a new girlfriend.

Religion. I realized I was being Agnostic and I didn't went to church until now.

Friends. Still hanging out with some old friends like Manoel, and talked to Karen of course. But I didn't talked to Riza the whole summer vacation. I didn't go with her at the beach.

Summer class. My grades really payed off last semester. My first day was last thursday and it was nice to see my classmates again, and of course Riza. I again, eat California Maki, and I really miss the fast food restaurants around there. But our clinical instructors are disappointments, we are handled by third year CIs already.

Final Schedule. Our summer class might end at May 18. We only have midterms and finals. I'm not aiming high this time since our CIs are different so for sure, I'll find it hard to cope up.

Monday & Tuesday - NCM rle/duty/immersion. YES! We'll be having our immersion even if it's summer. Stubborn.

Thursday-Saturday - Sad to say, we have class.

So wednesdays and sundays are day-off.