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MOVED!!!!!!!!!

Mon, 28 Apr 2008 05:21:37 +0000

I won't be using tabulas anymore! I moved!

http://mochichancutie.livejournal.com/

GOOD NEWS!!!

Tue, 20 Nov 2007 20:47:32 +0000

I have good news for you guys. Puricute.com ask me to design kawaii graphics for them, for their website! They ask me to make them 7 frames, and 7 stamps! So, I've already submitted them!

look at here!

I'm so exicited they are gonna give me credit for my hard work. I know my characters are new. But, this is a chance for me to get recognized. YAY!!! ^W^/ I feel special now.

Also, if you guys can do me a big favor please go to my "main shop" and read the latest entry. To help me out!

http://kawaii-inc.org/shop/

The reason I need help from you is cause' I want people to know about "Kawaii-Inc." I need more exposure! LOL ^_^

Well, make sure to visit http://puricute.com it's so cute. I wish I could of done that myself. But, I'm not that skill! >_<

I made this don't you think hk rocks? I just love drawing her. Grab her at my main site!

I love the new gwen single!
Early Winter

http://youtube.com/watch?v=EFVTW6-2D7Q

am I a control freak?

Wed, 14 Nov 2007 02:09:58 +0000

I ask myself that question all the time. Cause' I feel I control my fiance too much. It's very weird how our relationship end up like that. Cause' before I wasn't like this. I guess I want everything to be perfect. I want to have a perfect life. Like everyone wants, they want to live more confortable.

Just like last weekend. My fiance went out to pay the rent. Then a couple of hours later, I get a phonecall. He calls me If it's okay to bring his friend over? Cause' he has tickets for a football game. The UCLA were gonna play at the rosebowl. I said "Okay, it's fine!" then later on, it was "midnight" he comes home all drunk. And also his friend was all drunk too... and his "brother" was too. I was like. What the hell? I said to myself. I was like, this is night gonna be a good night for me. Cause' his brother is like a fucking owl and a pig. He hardly sleeps at night. And his messy.

Anyway, it did end up that way. I got paranoid cause' he was going outside and living the door all open. I told him to closed the door cause' I have very valuable stuff here. He said "OKAY, OKAY!"

Anyway, I went back to my room and of course my fiance it's all pass out. He sleeps pretty fast. I wish I had the ability to fall asleep that quick. But, I really don't.

I got so mad and woke him up. I was complaning that I should of just said "NO" I change my mind. He was like " stop bitching and we talk about it tommorrow!" I was so tense that I just went back to the computer and started to make graphics. Just to ease down my stress. His brother was still out there doing things.

His brother could be cool when my fiance is not home. If you get to know him. You'll like him. But, when it comes to living with him. You end up "hating" him. Well, the reason I know that is because he just to live with my fiance. And he was very messy and did not fulfill all his responsibilites of paying what it's due.

So, his brother didn't wanted to pay the rent so, he moved out.

That's what he told my fiance.

His brother tells me a different story. He said he moved out cause' he wanted me and my fiance to start a family. TOTAL BULLSHIT!!

I really don't think he is honest with me. But, I don't care. I'm here with my love and I'm happy. I know his jealous of me. But, I really don't care. Anyway, to get back of me of been a "control freak" well, I order my fiance to do things. I order his brother around too! Cause' he doesn't have the responsibility of cleaning after himself. Cause' his mother didn't teach him that. His mom it's just like him. YES, my mother in law is a messy lady. But, she has other issues.

Okay, I know I told you guys that I couldn't sleep at all. So, I turn in to the computer. Then I got so tired that I "try" to go to sleep. I just couldn't it was too loud. So, I woke up angry. When I don't get a night sleep I wake up grouchy. But, I try to not to show it. Luckly his brother was living to work. He works at 11:00 a.m. "LUCKY BASTARD" I wish I could have a job that I could get in on that time.

Anyway, I wanted to use the bathroom and he was in there. He asked me "you want to use it?" I said "YES!" then I see his "dirty ass socks" near the toilet. I got so upset but didn't show it to my face. Then I tell him "Charlie! can you please pick up your sock?" so he came in and pick it up. I could see his face, and it wasn't happy. I know he doesn't like people telling him what to do. But, he did that. So he needs to learn.

He pick it up and did not say a word. I know he didn't like it. But, I was like okay... that's better. So, he left and I decided to make food. So, when I got in the kitchen. Guess what I saw in the floor? His socks.... his dirty ass socks. I was like... OMG! I just couldn't stand it! My fiance came in. And I just had to open my mouth and say it, "I don't want to be rude, But, I think your brother is retarted" so I went on and said alot of stuff that bother me about his brother. We started to talk about it. But, my fiance refuse to listen. He always says I'm bitching to much. His friend was noticing that. And he was like in shock. But, he didn't got in to our conversation. It was just between me and my fiance. We stop arguing and we started to eat. I started to cry and his friend said, "claudia, this is so good, thank you" he notice I was upset. So, I choke down my food. And went to my room. I get pretty easily offended... but, I just had to say that.

Anyway.....

I guess, I do seem to be a "control freak" who likes to have everything neat. I love to have a clean home. It just gets me happy. WHAT'S WRONG WITH THAT?

YOU SEE?

If you were in my shoes, would you like to invite someone I mean I didn't invited him he just invites himself but, would you ever let a messy person in your home?

So.........

I guess...

his brother feels when everytime he comes over, he just do what he wants. I did told him some stuff that I wasn't to cool about. But, I don't know if he listens to me.

Next time, I wont' say anything.

And just be cool with it. Is not like I don't like him. It just his messy...
that's his flaw.
I wonder what the lucky girl who falls in love with him would do?
DON'T KNOW, bless her heart.

PS: his brother eats all my food! UWU so that's why I'm a control freak!!

sick....

Fri, 09 Nov 2007 08:12:35 +0000

OMG! I think I'm getting the cold. I'm not feeling myself anymore. This is just a face of me complaining of being sick. Today I had to do some things for my love. He needed his boots shine and his uniform dry clean. I think been a "traffic officer" really got to him. He says they are too strict. He never saw it coming. POOR GUY. but, he says is only for the good.

I just hope so...

He was really exicited when he got the phone call that he was gonna be a traffic officer. But, he never though the training would be really hard. That's why I'm helping him to make his life easier. I love him so much.
Anyway, um...

I guess that's it... bye!

Sugar Plum Fair!

Sun, 21 Oct 2007 18:56:03 +0000

Me and my friend went to the "sugar plum" arts and craft. It was really fun looking at all the halloween and christmas decoration they were offering. I got to try samples from vendors and I seem to like them all. I love the snacks and chocolates. They also had people dress up as faries, witches, and scare crows. It was really cute. My friend was saying I hope you don't get bored cause' this is for old people. I mean, she told me she just go with her grandma to these events. She said her grandma just to buy alot of cute things there. I don't blame her. It's really cool.

Also, we went window shopping at the "fashion island" in costa mesa. It's like really expensive there. Only rich people go there to buy the high end clothing. It's cool see it but, not my style. Also, we got thirsty and she bought me some juice. It was really good. Then, she took me to laguna beach. OMG! that beach it's so beautiful. We saw the waves splashing against the sand. It was breath taking. I took pictures though. Will see if I put them here. And it was like 7' or so she ask me if I was hungry?

I said yeah... I was O_O so she invited me vegan food. I love the veggie burger. It was so tasty the "fries" were subtitude with sweet potatoe. Very good. then we went to target then.... we went to this health food store. Very expensive place. Cause' all there food is organic. Yes, my friend is vegan. I mean she's a true vegan but, she doesn't judge me of what I eat. She's very nice.

Anyway, sorry for typing too much...

I had fun!

Why I do this?

Fri, 31 Aug 2007 18:46:02 +0000

Ever since I lots my baby I have been getting angry at him. I really tell him some sick stuff. That I feel bad afterwards. But, sometimes he starts disrespecting me and I get even madder. Like yesterday, I told him that I had my first vegan burger. And I wanted to show him the DVD about the animals. He took it the wrong way. I told him that I wasn't gonna alot of meat. Accept the cheese stuff. I need the milk but, I will eat meat once in a while. But, he took it the wrong way. He was saying that "you are just trying to change me". I love meat and you can stop that. Through out the DVD he was saying shit about it. He was been a jerk. He always act like a jerk around his friends. My intension wasn't to change his style of eating. I was trying to make conversation. But, they took it the wrong way. Anyway, he was saying dumb stuff about the video I felt bad, I told them, "Well, if you guys don't want to see it. I'm sorry I waste your time."

Everything I do, like I told my fiance that I put on a wig to try to look like those Gongaro girls. He made fun of me. His friend did also. I really didn't like that. So I got really pissed of and took their beers and slam it on the floor. My fiance said what the fuck!! he scream at me and said what's wrong with you.

Anyway, we settle everything out. And now we are cool about everything. But, I know it's gonna happen again. I just know it. I feel my hormones are very taking over my life. It's ruining my relationship. I just hope I don't end up alone. I feel I let everyone down. Like I was gonna be a mother. I know is not my fault. But, I feel the urge to not be with him. Cause' I don't want to hurt him. I hurt his feelings alot. I don't know why?

He says I hate him. But, I love him so much. I just want to protect him. That's all...

Anyway, so sorry for telling all this it's just something I need to take off my chest.

BLAH! @__@

Thu, 07 Jun 2007 23:57:38 +0000

I'm still trying to organized my life which means my room. I manage to trow away some old junks. I donate alot of cute plushies only the ones I don't bond to. I'm pretty old for having too many cute plushies. But, I still feel that my plushies are part of my life. I love all my cute toys. ^3^b Anyway, I made chilli with my fiance. We are still planning to get married. But, don't know when....

Anyway, so far my "new" computer it's been acting okay. But, I still need to upgraded. *__*b

New wallpaper!!

Wed, 09 May 2007 18:58:13 +0000

cute wallpaper I made!!

Anyway, I have been updating my site!! Finally is up and running. And I'm still shock that I have a domain!! YAY!!!

Video Utopia OPEN!!

Fri, 22 Sep 2006 22:15:50 +0000

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Me going to the laundry!!!

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