I was trying to create a Deviant Art account, but to my surprise, the site said I had already registered. So I came to recover my account details, and found out that it was made last 2005. After four years, my DA account is now active. Congratulations to meeh~

It'll mostly contain enhanced / photoshopped pictures by amateurish me. And probably the finished weapons, when they finally make their appearance with their respective owners.

An Jing
by Jay Chou

只剩下鋼琴陪我談了一天
Zhi sheng xia gang qin pei wo tan le yi tian
Only the piano accompanies me throughout the day

睡著的大提琴
Shui jiao de da ti qin
The sleeping cello

安靜的舊舊的
An Jing de jiu jiu de
Quiet and so old

我想你已表現的非常明白
Wo xiang ni yi biao xian de fei chang ming bai
I think you've made yourself clear

我懂我也知道
Wo dong wo ye zhi dao
I know and I'm sure

你沒有捨不得
Ni mei you she bu de
You don't regret

你說你也會難過我不相信
Ni shuo ni ye hui nan guo wo bu xiang xin
You say you're upset too, that I don't believe

牽著你陪著 我也只是曾經
Qian zhe ni pei zhe wo ye zhi shi cheng jin
You being with me was in the past

希望他是真的比我還要愛你
Xi wang ta shi zhen de bi wo hai yao ai ni
I hope he loves you more than I do

我才會逼自己離開
wo cai hui bi zi ji li kai
Only then will I bring myself to leave

Chorus

你要我說多難堪
Ni yao wo shuo duo nan kan
You want me to say it, but it is awkward

我根本不想分開
Wo gen ben bu xiang fen kai
I don't even want to break up

為什麼還要我用微笑來帶過
Wei she me hai yao wo yong wei xiao lai dai guo
Why must I depend on a smile to tide me through?

我沒有這種天份
Wo mei you zhe zhong tian fen
I don't have the ability

包容你也接受他
bao rong ni ye jie shou ta
To accept both you and him

不用擔心的太多
Bu yong dan xin de tai duo
Don't worry too much

我會一直好好過
Wo hui yi zhi hao hao guo
I'll still be fine

你已經遠遠離開
Ni yi jin yuan yuan li kai
You've already gone far away

我也會慢慢走開
Wo ye hui man man zou kai
And I will slowly walk away

為什麼我連分開都遷就著你
Wei she me wo lian fen kai dou qian jiu zhe ni
Why is it that I have to accommodate you even when [we] break up?

我真的沒有天份
Wo zhen de mei you tian fen
I really don't have the ability

安靜的沒這麼快
An jing de mei zhe me kuai
Staying silent doesn't come so fast

我會學著放棄你
Wo hui xue zhe fang qi ni
I will learn to give you up

是因為我太愛你
Shi ying wei wo tai ai ni
Because I love you so much

* Lyrics taken from: Jay Chou's Official Website

** He re-arranged the song in this concert rendition: he started the song with the second verse followed by the first line of the first verse, and repeated the second and third lines of the second verse. He also changed "xiang xin" (believe) of the third verse, to "zhi dao" (understand)

Konti lang mga nag-greet sakin, pero okay lang, masaya naman ako. Or I think, masaya naman ako. Hahaha! Countdown na ito sa quarter-life crisis ng buhay ko! Oh no!

Salamat pala ulit sa mga nag-greet sakin, in chronological order (parang sponsors lang):

1. Eric, Mathieu, Rain = ang mga nag-greet sakin ng advanced happy birthday, excited kasi sila

2. Ziggy = grabe tumawag pa talaga ng exact 12MN para lang mag-greet hahaha!

3. Michael = na na-late, at nag-greet sakin ng madaling araw na haha :D

4. Jason = pwede naman mag-greet personally, pero ni-greet pa talaga ako sa friendster

5. Joy = nag-greet when she woke up first thing in the morning

6. Mark = na supposedly mag-ggreet sakin ng 12MN pero nakatulog, kaya early morning nalang daw

7. Mommy and Daddy = na ginising talaga ako para i-greet lang =_="

8. Marose =screaming all caps pa talaga yung message nya, haha

9. Joan = na kelangan daw manlibre meeee (eh may recession eh! hahaha)

10. Chad = na hindi sure kung ako ba talaga ang may birthday, pero pa-burger narin daw ako

11. Ana = na pupunta daw sa bahay mamaya para maki-kain lang hahaha

12. Jose = isa sa mga magaling mag-advise among my friends

Updates:

13. Mystery Greeter #1 = nag-send sya ng picture message, pero wala sya sa phonebook ko, sino kaya yun!

14. Jacob = ayan kaka-greet lang, may mwahugz pa! hahaha

15. Jacqui = private message is private

16. Arn = may birthday wish pa talaga para sakin, lol

17. Alfred = !!! waa

18. Em = Waaa! Long timeeeee!!! ~_~" get-together naman tau~

19. Ate Yolly, Kuya Ryan, Adrie = yieee~ haha :D

20. Nathan = dude! haha

21. Richard (AUS) = hahaha childhood friend!

22. Jazzie = and our taiwanese dreams and fantazzie

+ At sa iba pa na nag-advanced happy birthday, mag-ggreet palang ng happy birthday! Salamat

+ Sa mga nakalimutan akong i-greet, or hindi masyadong aware na birthday ko, may next year pa naman! :D

*Hint : Para makasama sa list na ito, i-greet na agad ako! LOL! :D

Nakakabwiset, sa totoo lang.

Hindi ako fan ng mga resolutions eh, tendency kasi hindi ko talaga sya natutupad hahaha! Pero kung sabihin ko sa sarili ko na yun ang mga dreams ko, mga pangarap ba, mas gusto ko sya ma-achieve that way. Resolutions kasi parang masyadong outward, pakitang-tao lang? Or mali lang yung understanding ko-- that people make new year's resolutions to make themselves be a better person in relation to others (as in: magigising na ako ng maaga, hindi na magiging mapanlait, parang ganun, lol).

Pero ako, I make my own list of things that I want to accomplish, hopefully this year. Hindi sya para sa iba, para lang talaga sya sa sarili ko. (LOL! Selfish!) In the end, kung hindi ko sila natupad, may next year pa naman, and I won't look like a terrible person afterwards-- its just that some dreams are meant to be postponed. Pero if I can do this soon, edi okay!

1. Learn how to Surf - I already mentioned this in an earlier post, and even if it really doesn't sound like me, it still is something that I want to do; something I want to experience. And hopefully, I can take it up as my sport (also, or if not swimming).

Takot ako sa dagat. Takot ako when I see a blue, flat, and endless horizon. But its not the kind of fear that happens when I see a spider or a cockroach; or fear of the dark and unknown; its a fear born out of overwheming and overflowing appreciation. The grandness of the ocean is just so great, it makes me weak. Kaya a part of me is wanting to be part of that endlessness.

2. Buy a DSLR and learn Basic Photography - Because vanity is not a crime, its a passion. Syempre sarili ko ang ppicturan ko. Hindi naman dahil sa gusto ko sumakay sa growing community of photography enthusiasts, gusto ko lang syang gawin matagal nang panahon, but really never had the time and I didn't put too much effort into it. Sabi nga ng bestfriend ko, pang Communication Arts talaga ako-- visual and literary. So I want to pursue towards that direction not as a profession, pero as a hobby~ Hahahaha!

3. I-develop ang Image - Dahil mag-wwork na ulit ako-- na, sa tingin ko eh, its really more of a balance between my own inter-personal skills (pakikisama) and real-life office work talaga. As in parang artista lang, aside from doing your work, you also have to take care of your fans. Hahahaha! (Napaka-conceited ng mga example ko! Pero hindi ako masyadong conceited ah!)

I should learn how to smile, to be friendly, to appreciate things as they are. Dapat maging mababaw ako, hindi mapagmataas, marami kasi nagsasabi na snob daw ako. Medyo nga, I admit may pagka-masungit ako Haha! I have to be mas mabait; I have to take life seriously, hindi pa-joke-joke lang. I have to have grace and style. I have to be someone that people can look up to. I have to have dreams, and I have to make it come true.

Now, if you liked it, you should have put a ring on it! :D

(And yes, that was Justin Timberlake on the left, hahaha!)

And speaking of wishes, while we were on the way to Zhuhai para mamili ng mga pang-regalo (it was a two-hour drive by the way), ano ba talaga ang Christmas Wish ko? No holds barred, magpapaka-selfish ako. Gusto ko ng malaking beachfront property. Gusto ko may bahay na modern ang design, na medyo nasa taas ng isang rocky hill (na part parin ng property syempre. It has to be environmentally-friendly, syempre para ma-minimize ang impact sa environment. Solar-powered para renewable and source ng energy... kahit sandamakmak na ilaw ang ilagay ko, hindi parin mataas ang electricity bill ko. Maybe I won't even need to pay my electric bills~ It has to be carbon neutral, and built with minimum impact sa environment. It has to have full-length glass windows fronting the sea, kahit two floors lang okay lang, but it has to be big, spacious, sprawling~

Hmm, pwede rin maglagay ng infinity pool overlooking the sea, heated din (by solar power of course), para over-the-top! Tapos on the way down papunta sa beach, syempre dahil mataas ung house, may stairs yun... may mga trellis over the stairs, at may flowering vines na nakakapit sa trellis haha. Malapit lang sa house, dapat may greenhouse or farm area, para dun na kukuha ng mga vegetables, less gastos din yun sa pag-palengke, not to mention fresh talaga ang strawberries at vegetables mo. (Yep, may strawberries talaga!) No, ayoko naman ng bakahan at babuyan or poultry farm na malapit hahaha~ Pero kung gusto mo mag-fish, cge lang, maglalagay tayo ng fishing boat. Pwedeng hindi ka na lumabas ng bahay mo, lahat ng need mo andun na hahaha. Tapos, pagbaba mo ng house, dagat na! White sand, para masaya. May mga cottages at banana boat. Ayaw ko ng jetski at yacht, sobrang sosyal naman na yun, di ko na kakayanin!

Yan! Yan lang naman ang Christmas Wish ko ngayong Pasko! Pero kung medyo realistic talaga tayo, ang gusto ko talaga ay HAT! Hindi sya baseball hat, kasi yung baseball hat malalim yung loob. Ito hindi, saka medyo maliit lang yung brim nya. Yun kasi ang dapat para sakin, kasi pag masyadong malaki, masyadong overpowering.

Parang ganito lang:

Kasi naman, gusto ko itago yung buhok ko, kasi hindi ko sya gusto. Nagpagupit kasi dito, sabi ko trim lang. Grabe, kinuha yung clipper, tapos *zoooom* andaming nahulog agad na buhok. Grabe, nakakaiyak, ang mga buhok kooooo. Mukha tuloy akong high school student na naman! Hayz. Hayz. Oh well~ Humahaba naman ang buhok, so... patience, patience.

So simple lang ang gusto ko sa pasko diba? Magkano lang ba ang beach house... este, hat. LOL

But more than that, syempre masaya ako sa lahat ng nangyari ngayong taon na ito. Masaya, masayang masaya. Marami akong dapat ipagpasalamat, at hindi ko na yun ililista lahat dito.

Merry Christmas to Everyone! :D

December 1, 2008 @ RedBox Trinoma

Attendees from Bach Server

Attendees from Rembrandt Server

The Gamer Girls

The Guys

Nung finally naitayo na nila, may decoration na at lahat-lahat... ay nakalimutan pala nila ilagay ung mga christmas lights, so syempre tinanggal na naman ung mga decoration haha! Finally natapos din at naitayo ang Christmas Tree just in time for dinner. Iba-iba ung effects nung mga christmas lights, may kumikislap, may pa-fade-fade yung iba, ung iba naman, medyo steady lang.

Some Christmas Decorations and Tree

Nung nakita ko yun, naisip ko... Pasko na pala. December na next week, ilang araw nalang pasko na. Pero... pero... bakit hindi na ako ganun ka-excited tulad nung dati? What have I lost as I was growing up?

I remember nung elementary pa ako, grabe, katapusan pa lang ng August, may kapirasong bahagi na kami ng blackboard na dedicated sa countdown ng pasko. 150 days nagsisimula na kaming magbilang ng mga araw, at kahit 150 pa yun, lahat kami sobrang excited na kasi feel na feel na talaga namin ang Pasko. Kahit alam namin na wala pa namang araw ng mga patay, para samin paskong pasko na talaga. At everytime isa sa mga cleaners, makakalimutan na i-update ung countdown, eh marami na agad magrereklamo. Ganun kami ka-hardcore!

Nung high school naman, talagang nag-iisip pa kami ng theme para sa christmas decoration ng classroom namin. Ang pinaka hindi ko makakalimutan, eh nung gumamit kami ng Sinamay na sinabit namin across the room gamit ang isang piraso ng wire. Tapos may mga christmas balls na iba't iba ang length ng pagkakatali at may mga ponsettia pa! Simple, pero may dating! Literally, Christmas is in the air!

Kagabi nag-serve sila ng ham sa dinner, kasi bumili na si daddy ng mga pagkain na madalas na makita lang pag pasko. Pagkagat ko sa ham, bumalik ang mga ala-ala na dala ng ham. Nakaka-miss pala makita ang ham, naaalala ko dati, kakahiwa palang, eh kinakain ko na agad ung ham. Wahaha! Hindi ko naman sya inuubos, pero masarap din syang ubusin, diba?

Ang mga laman ng Ref

Habang kumakain, napatingin ako sa Christmas Tree... hindi sya katulad ng naalala ko nung nakaraang taon, kasi parang medyo maliit sya ngayon. Last year kasi, alam ko hanggang ceiling ung taas nya, at nung ako pa talaga yung nagkabit ng mga decorasyon eh kinailangan ko ng matinding hagdan. Tapos bigla kong naalala... hindi pala yan yung bagong christmas tree namin! Luma na pala yan! Waaa~! After all the effort, na nakalimutan pang ilagay yung christmas light, eh maling christmas tree pala ung naitayo! Hahahahaha

Ang tunay na Christmas Tree... nasa box pa!

So sabi ko nalang, para di naman masyadong sayang yung effort, ilagay nalang yung lumang christmas tree sa taas, tapos ung bago, dun nalang sa baba. Tapos syempre i-rerearrange na naman ung buong living at dining para ma-accommodate ung christmas tree! Ito ang favorite part ko eh, yung babaguhin ung lay-out, kasi mas gusto ko na mas malapit ung dining table sa living room, mas cozy kasi tingnan, parang mas masarap kumain. At syempre papalitan na ulit ung mga carpet, at baka i-update narin ang cover ng sofa.

Andami pa kailangan ilagay na mga decoration, para paskong pasko na talaga... pero ngayon, why does Christmas seem to be so distant? Or ako ba yung naging distant sa Pasko?

Not to mention na over the top ang kasal nila. For one, hindi sila hinatid ng white limousine, kasi naman, white helicopter ang transport of choice nila! And all the pictures, despite the concrete structures of the urban jungle as a backdrop (kasi usually and mga wedding sa mga nature at secluded sanctuary-like places diba), their pictures were still very much charming. And you can really see that they are soo very much in love.

Kaya napaisip ako, I want to be young parin and so in love when I get married. Hindi naman rare yung magpapakasal kayo na bata palang kayo diba, pero usually kasi nauuna ung anak before you get married. Wala na kayong time to enjoy each other, kasi iisipin mo na agad yung baby. Ayaw ko ng ganun, lol!

Tapos, gusto ko rin ng helicopter, pero goodluck naman sa presyo diba hahaha, magkano kaya ang rent dun per hour. And I'm still fleeting over my own wedding fantasies, na parang ako tuloy ung kinasal, parang nakakahiya tuloy na isulat yun dito haha!

I was also browsing random blogs around, tapos biglang, I came across this:

Do not marry a person
that you know,
that you can live with;
only marry someone
you can't live without

Aww so true. So true.