http://chasingfireflies.tabulas.com tabulas.com im just the same kind of person you everyday in the streets. the kind who stares at the sun. en Sat, 21 Nov 2009 20:55:28 +0000 why everyone loves a jacob?  

What is a rough jacob compared to a dreamy edward.

I'm an edward fan myself, but something about jacob's character that makes me want to love him too. :P

I was pregnant when i read the twilight series, (heheh.. through ebook) and I really didn't like the part when Edward took off, and bella was left alone. But then again, Jacob was there to keep her company during the alive-yet-dead period of her life. I hated it, when bella was with Jacob, I kept hoping that by the next page Edward would turn up.

However, when I watched the movie, courtesy of the company (we were given a free pass to watch new moon! oh joy!), it made me appreciate Jacob's character.

I have to admit the gorgeous bod was one of the reasons (ahahha..he is so sexy!! i think everyone can agree!), but it was this part towards the end that made me love his character. It was when bella told him not to make her choose between him, and Edward. Because even if she (bella) loved him (Jacob), it has always been Edward. (ouch..).

But even If Jacob knows that; even if he knows even before bella said those words, he still pursued bella. He didn't give up on his feelings. Unlike Edward, he's not into sacrifcing-myself-for-the-sake-of-the-one-i-love.  He knows what he wants and he'll do everything to prove that he deserves bella, even though he doesn't stand a chance against Edward in Bella's heart.

And for that Hurrah to the stubborn wolf!

P.S. And yes, He is so gorgeous! everyone was screaming when he first took his shirt off! And everytime he appeared half-naked. wew!

 

]]> http://chasingfireflies.tabulas.com/2009/11/21/why-everyone-loves-a-jacob/ http://chasingfireflies.tabulas.com/2009/11/21/why-everyone-loves-a-jacob/ Sat, 21 Nov 2009 20:55:28 +0000 dispensable

Dispensable

Grabe jud. Dili na jud ni tama.

So gibulagan nako siya, and so after 5 days, in a relationship ka na agad.

Wow! How I wish mali ko this time.

When we were together halos dili nimu ichange imu status into "in a relationship".

Always naka "complicated".

I guess, It was the right move for me to break up with you.

It was a sane move.

But man! This really hurt.

I broke up with you because I thought you needed space; because I thought you’d be able to think clearly without me and our baby on your way.

And I was right. We were on your way.

You must have been really glad.

Gosh! Pde paligsan ug jeep one time lang.

]]> http://chasingfireflies.tabulas.com/2009/11/21/dispensable/ http://chasingfireflies.tabulas.com/2009/11/21/dispensable/ Sat, 21 Nov 2009 01:10:59 +0000 faith please don't waiver...

]]> http://chasingfireflies.tabulas.com/2009/11/19/faith/ http://chasingfireflies.tabulas.com/2009/11/19/faith/ Thu, 19 Nov 2009 07:41:34 +0000 POssible reasons why I let you go Maybe i was looking for a real relationship, and you are totally incapable of having one. 

Maybe you care so much about things would impact your life, you forgot to think about how I'd feel.

Maybe It been a number of times i got really hurt, i guess it's about time that i say no to pain.

There's so many reasons... How come i ignored this before.

hmmm..

I must have really loved you. I believed in you, in us, in our so-called love. (which only exist in my head)

I still do. But I have to keep moving forward.

]]> http://chasingfireflies.tabulas.com/2009/11/16/possible-reasons-why-i-let-you-go/ http://chasingfireflies.tabulas.com/2009/11/16/possible-reasons-why-i-let-you-go/ Mon, 16 Nov 2009 10:28:59 +0000 Finally Seeing the Light

I guess when you’ve had enough, you’ve really had enough.

Like water, we all have our boiling point, and I guess I’ve reached mine.

I’ve always had this insane idea that one day things will be better, and you’ll realize that I’m important to you. And I was desperately hoping that time will come that you’ll become responsible and start taking charge of your life. But I guess, you’ll never realize someone’s importance when they’re not really important in your life. You can’t make oil out of water.

And so finally someone hit me in the head, and I’ve realized that it’s about time to stop ignoring all the signs and, accept that this isn’t going to work.

This isn’t worth all the pain.

 

 

 

]]> http://chasingfireflies.tabulas.com/2009/11/14/finally-seeing-the-light/ http://chasingfireflies.tabulas.com/2009/11/14/finally-seeing-the-light/ Sat, 14 Nov 2009 01:57:33 +0000 UNSENT LETTER3 LITTLE by little, i see each day how unimportant i am to you. What's also hurting is you don't seem to care about your child.

Little by little, i see each day that the only thing that making this work, is me.

Little by little, i come to realize, that the best thing sometimes is to give up.

Little by little, i am learning to accept the fact, that you just cannot trust the person who hurt you before.

little by little, i learn that even if you were hurt countless of times, he can still hurt you.

little by little, day by day, i realize that i just can't go on with you.

Goodbye....

forever.

]]> http://chasingfireflies.tabulas.com/2009/11/07/unsent-letter3/ http://chasingfireflies.tabulas.com/2009/11/07/unsent-letter3/ Sat, 07 Nov 2009 08:57:30 +0000 unsent letter 2

Unsent letter part 2

 

 

I had my breakfast/lunch alone again. But this time, I had burger, fries, and a glass of regular coke on my table. Right beside my not-so-breakfast-like meal was a local newspaper that I asked from the cashier. The front page posted a picture of cebu’s governor hugging a middle-aged woman. The article was about squatters from Apas who were spared from eviction because the government was able to buy the land for them. It caught my attention because that’s around where I’m staying. It’s about time the government did something right for the people. I think is it benefits both party’s; the people gets a place to live, and the government gets good publicity. Fair and square. Everyone’s happy.

 

That does not include me though.

This second letter goes to the person I hate a lot at this very moment.

I can understand that you’re tired, but to tell me that I’m stupid just because you don’t want to help is not acceptable. I hate you.

You’re not even paying attention. And you act like you know everything. Well, technically, you know more than what I know, I just got hired, you’ve been a long time employee. I don’t understand why they put you in this position. You think your so smart?! I so hate you. You’re a pig with bad manners. A fat black pig.

 

]]> http://chasingfireflies.tabulas.com/2009/11/06/unsent-letter-2/ http://chasingfireflies.tabulas.com/2009/11/06/unsent-letter-2/ Fri, 06 Nov 2009 01:21:16 +0000 unsent letter

Unsent letter

There I was at Jolibee having my lunch/breakfast alone. In the call center lingo, every 1 hour break whichever time it falls is called lunch break. I ordered the hotdog breakfast meal, not really my favorite, but I only had P50 in my pocket.

While I munch my way out of hunger, my mind is also busy thinking of things that I shouldn’t be thinking. Lately, I have been considering ending my relationship with my partner (because I don’t really know how to call him).

I’ve always believed in not giving up on someone. I’ve always believed in working things out, but I don’t feel like that’s going to be the case between us.

In my head, while putting ketchup on the eggs on my plate, I was rehearsing what I’m going say to him.

You know that I love you, and I don’t think that it’ll ever change. But I don’t think this relationship healthy for both of us, I’m not even sure if there’s even a relationship between us. You text or communicate only whenever you feel like communicating. I understand that I’m being clingy and as much as you don’t want me like that, I also don’t like myself acting like that.

And then I realized, maybe because I can’t trust you. Maybe you’ve injured my heart so many times that it’s afraid to trust you again. Don’t get me wrong, this is not about you not replying to my messages or you acting like you don’t care.

It because you want me to behave like someone I’m not and you don’t seem to be exerting any effort to make things work for us.

I am selfish. I want to be with someone thoughtful, someone sweet. I want to be with someone who cares with the things that I’m doing, who listens, who, even if he doesn’t like doing it, will still stay on the toughest times of my life.

And you refuse to be that. And I won’t insist in making you that.

]]> http://chasingfireflies.tabulas.com/2009/11/05/unsent-letter/ http://chasingfireflies.tabulas.com/2009/11/05/unsent-letter/ Thu, 05 Nov 2009 22:18:35 +0000 sleep deprived it's 6:51pm, november 3, 2009. I need to get some sleep, because i still have to work later. I need to sleep!!! Please let me sleep. I need sleep. sleep. sleep. sleep.

i only have less than 5hours left before its work time, and the more that I stay awake the lesser time for me to sleep. huhuhuhu.. sleep... i want sleep.. i love sleep.. i need sleep..

]]> http://chasingfireflies.tabulas.com/2009/11/03/sleep-deprived/ http://chasingfireflies.tabulas.com/2009/11/03/sleep-deprived/ Tue, 03 Nov 2009 10:48:25 +0000 thank you God! I want to Thank you God for letting me wake up every morning.

For making healthy. For letting me see the beauty of this world.

For giving me the chance of experiencing life.

For giving me the honor of becoming a mother.

For letting me feel love.

For letting me see his smile again.

For sending me friends with good heart.

For everything.

There is so much in my life that i want to thank you.

It may not what i expected it to be, but it's perfect the way it is.

]]> http://chasingfireflies.tabulas.com/2009/10/25/thank-you-god/ http://chasingfireflies.tabulas.com/2009/10/25/thank-you-god/ Sun, 25 Oct 2009 07:35:34 +0000