Roel needs to be Relieved of Duty.
ROEL needs to have many qualified subcontractors for every trade.
roel needs to give up.
Roel needs to find a Wrath
roel needs hanneke
Roel needs to update his profile.
Roel needs and up to 4GB total memory on board.
Roel needs some "special" training
Roel needs models
Roel needs to have his priorities straightened.

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Roel needs to be Relieved of Duty.

I like that. Well, I'm ALMOST relieved of duty for a while

ROEL needs to have many qualified subcontractors for every trade.

I have enough of those already.

roel needs to give up.

That works.

Roel needs to find a Wrath

But I already have one.

roel needs hanneke

What's hanneke? The only hanneke I found was a feminist philosopher, she's too old for me.

Roel needs to update his profile.

True, but I'm busy.

Roel needs and up to 4GB total memory on board.

4GB only?

Roel needs some "special" training

I already have one of those.

Roel needs models

I agree.

Roel needs to have his priorities straightened.

What priorities?

Well, that's it. By the way, daikon kiru koto gijutsu is supposed to be translated as "Radish Slashing Technique". Stupid Translators. 

March 3 ,2006 = 12:30 midnight

    I've just had a nightmare a while ago. It wasn't a normal one, since I usually die in a normal one, but someone else did. My dream went like this:

    I saw in a newspaper(at that point, I knew it was a dream) that a little girl died of drowning. Next thing I knew, I was at a mall, near a giant shower thing on display. The floor of that thing was huge, it was very much like a fountain. There were doors there that were translucent. Out of curiosity, I went towards it. All of a sudden, The shower turned on. People around were looking at it and me. For some strange reason, the people there started to join me(they thought I was taking a shower). After sometime, there were 5 of us left: me, a little boy, a woman with a boy and a girl. The woman with her childeren were on one side, the little boy and I were on the other. They were playing, both of us were also. I had a feeling, so I put down the little boy and walked towards the other side. The woman was playing with the little gur, with the boy watching. All of a sudden, the girl fell in(It was a bit deep, about my waist) and the woman fainted. I started running, while the boy was able to pull out his mother. I grabbed the girl and pulled her out of the water. For some strange reason, she rolled off my arms and fell back into the water. By the time I was able to fish her out, she was dead.

    I woke up after that dream. I was thinking over the dream when dad went in and told us that my lola died.

Math: 84 (OWNZ)

Social Science: +3

Science: 90(supposedly. But I was sure it was line of 8. Reached top 5 due to a draw.)

I have other achievements that are not related to school also like:

1. Played Freestyle. Level 7 Guard. Name: tehpwn3d
2. Played NFS:MW. Currently at Blacklist #6: Ming
3. Started my debut in fanfiction.net about Initial D(don't ask). Here's the linky. Currently, as of this date, at the 1st chapter. Note: Part of the pact.
   
4. Became taller by 1/2 inch.
5. Reached 100+ friends in friendster(finally!)
6. Persuaded Ildefonso Mackramick to post his fan fic in the internet.

I think that's it for now. Other things that I'll try to achieve:

1. Finish NFS:MW.
2. Become a Shooting Guard at freestyle.
3. Heighten my grades.
4. Finish my Initial D fan fic.
5. Post Ildefonso Mackramick's fan fic about RO.(Which has a lot of carbonara in it)
   

I've just recieved my card grade ad the thing that shocked me the most is:

MATH: 75=>73

SOCIAL SCIENCE: 90=>80

DEPORTMENT: A- => B

This is my marks. 'Reap wat you sow' right? So I should change my attitude. I decided that I will concentrate on studies A LOT MORE. Balancing my schedule is a bit hard, so I'll just focus on studies and some activities.  Spend a lot of time studying and studying and studying in the library. Saving money is also a good idea. I'll also try to finish my side of the pact in the Beltran side. Determination is the key.

Sure it will make me even harder to be with. A large price, something  that will leave a giant hole in my soul. But if it will help me a lot, The price MIGHT BE worth it.

I'm already imagining what will happen. I'll become even harder to approach, sadness in my face, and VERY anti-social. But (hopefully) it will heighten my grades a lot more and, eventually, maximize my hidden potential.

Please tell me what you think of this plan. I need to know what to do that could change my life so much that it will give me something to tell God.

God plays a very large part in this entire thing. Hopefully, he can help me out.

So, I should start studying right now. Bye. 

1. Sarted sem break on Oct.27...I think it was that date.
2. Reached the last chapter of Beatdown: Fists of Vengeance. Will finish it this weekend.
3. Finished the 10th episode of Samurai Champloo. I'm just waiting for the next episodes.
4. Attended the Metrocon. It was fun even when there was a lot of mud and I did'nt get enough sleep.
5. Attended the Faci Training for the Youth Camp that happens on November 3-4. Am supposed to fast/abstain.
6. Visited my deceased lolo. Wish he was still alive.

I'm sorry to everyone if I acted badly. Usually I act that way. It's just me. I'm either very quiet, very noisy, very crazy, very violent, or none of the above. I'm just like that. If you want to help me then go ahead.

P.S. if you want to see the Breakdancing Transformer, go to http://students.washington.edu/colin2/breakformers/Video_player_06.html

and you will see it. 

1. Went to my sister's debut. THANK YOU THAT IT'S FINISHED!!!
2. Disected a frog. It was fun, and was not as gross as others would say.
3. Finished exams. THANK YOU EVEN MORE THAT IT'S FINISHED!!!
4. Finished Radiata Stories - Nonhuman side. Now I can go around saying: "I just finished a game to be able to see a 2-second ending!"
5. Started Beatdown: Fists of Vengeance. I feel like this game is making me feel 'deja vu'
6. Finished practical test in Science. Bought gloves for nothing.
7. Watched Brothers Grimm. Was OK.
8. Watched FF7: Advent Children. Was GREAT. Didn't like Tife so much, unlike about 10,000 or so people.
9. Watched Hitchhikers Guide to the Galaxy. Was NOT laughing hard.
10. Watched Longest Yard. Was pretty funny.
11. Made an entry in blog entitled: Exciting Xerox-machines Are Made 2gether. DUH!
    

1. Worried about my family and temporarily thought of the future.
2. Wanted it to be painless.
3. Thought of my belongings and what happened if I leave them behind.
4. Thought it was not morally correct.
   
5. Got lazy.
   

How did I get like that? When there was a very hard expirience, I try to think of something to brighten my day. But I always end up thinking of past situations where life was hard. Thus, I torture myself with myself.

A connection with the last entry is that I  can't express what I feel because I have this problem with my life. I study in LSGH, a all-male school. Because of this, I cannot express myself very well as people already tease me and I don't want to give them more things to tease me with. I must be the least charismatic person in my class.

That's it for now. If you have any problems with this entry, put a comment. I will always be happy when people know me better.    

If you see me around, I look like there's nothing wrong with me. Like I'm always happy. I'm wearing a mask to hide myself. It's true, I always wear a mask.

I try to hide what I really feel inside. I can never tell what I really feel. I had this mask for a long time. I felt this way a lot of times. I realized it everyday. If you see a day in my life, you'll also be depressed.

BUT AT LEAST I KNOW THAT I HAVE NOT FAILED A SUBJECT FOR THE 1st QUARTER!!!! (unsure) 

That's it for now 

Anyway, The first location was La Mesa Dam. There, I took note of all the plants. But I tried fishing but failed to do so. I went up and down the tall staircase TWICE!!! But still, I had fun.

The secont location was Availon Zoo. Obviously enough, it was about animals(duh). It was... very eventful. I did'nt enjoy so much because I was still keeping notes while others were just taking pictures of everything. At least there were parts that you could'nt take pictures.

Overall, It was a nice field trip and to make it better I think I passed all subjects. Well, gotta go.