sana naman maging masaya yung birthday ko.. :) at least sana mabawasan yung mga iniisip ko.. napapagod na ko.. :(

wishlist:

1. new digital camera.. preferably, Cybershot 5.0 hehe

2. 7610 celphone or kung wala talaga, K700i, or 6600.. wow! pano kaya yun? 6630 from insan... (my fingers are crossed!)

3. longer hours with nice, julie, ate lorena, ate ems, maoi, joyz, AK, mommy Baby and Joanne..

4. nv&m, southborder and MYMP gig.. well, that's really up to me..

5. chimes, cymbals and that stick.. ano ba tawag dun, kuya glenn? hehe

6. peace of mind.. can anyone buy that for me?

Looking at your picture laying on my bed
Wishing I was pulling close the real you instead
I don’t know what I said or did
But girl I’m missing you
And I like to hear my music
But there’s nothing I can listen to

Cos I can’t play the song I used to play because of you
The lonesome feeling starts before the intro halfway thru
Everyone reminds me of the things we used to do together
And I can’t go to places that I used to take you to
Cos everywhere the faces there they all look just like you
Until your heart comes back where it belongs
I can’t play the songs

Everywhere I’m drivin’ I go a different way
I can’t turn on my radio, afraid what they might play
My friends all drive me crazy cause you’re all they ask about
And why I live in silence but they just don’t understand

Without you, I can’t play the song I used to play because of you
The lonesome feeling starts before the intro halfway thru
No one can replace you cause once I tried
And even when I try to go with someone new
You are so deep in my head
I looked into her eyes but then I said your name instead
Until your heart comes back where it belongs
I can’t play the songs

There’s nothing left that I can do cause I so lost in love with you
No where to turn, no place to run
You know you are my only one

I can’t play the song you used to sing along with me
Cause’ everyone is always bringin’ back the memory
Until your heart is back where it belongs
I can’t play the songs (won’t you please come back to me)

PART-TIME LOVE

I need somebody who's consistent
with me
Someone already there when I need
company
'Cause when l'm feeling low
I don't want to have to go out
looking
For a part-time kind of love

And when the dreams and rainbows
start to disappear
Don't want somebody up and running
out here
'Cause when you stop and start
Baby it's just too hard upon
my heart
That part-time kind of love

And I can't take you darling living here
wait and see
I want somebody who's committed
now to me
Somewhere, someday you'll have
to take a chance
So if you like the music baby
get up and dance

And if we grow together daring to dream
I know we'll find our shares of
peaches and cream
And when the juices flow
I don't want no no no excuses
Just want your full time love
for me
Just want your full time love
for me.

ANNE

FIND ME

The skies are not as blue, when you're not with me
The stars, they never seem to shine as bright
And the hours crack like days across the ages
And a year or two pass by with every night.
It makes me know if i should ever leave this world before you do

When you follow you must promise, cross your heart and promise to Find me,look hard, and dont stop, I'll be waiting 'till then
Dont sleep, and dont eat 'till I'm back, back in your arms again
I dont wanna have to spend all my forever without you.
Just knowing that your out there somewhere too.
So darlin...please I'm begging you on bended knee...
Find me...

I've tried to tell this world how much i love you.
But they dont understand how deep it goes.
And i can't even find the words to tell you
So I'm the only one who really knows.
And though we have our times together, I am always wanting more
So if we get separated wont you do just like before and


Find me...look hard and dont stop, I'll be waiting 'till then
Dont sleep, and dont eat 'till I'm back, back in your arms again
Through a hundred million faces you will see me shinning through.
'Cause I'll glow when you come close , I always do.
So darlin' please im begging you on bended knee..
We can share our love through all eternity
'Cause with you is all i ever wanna be......
Find me

BELONGING

*sniffs...*

How do you go on?

When in your heart you begin to understand there is no going back?

 There are some things that time cannot mend, some hurts that go too deep, that have taken hold..

can anyone tell me how i can get over this? him...

Now here it comes, the hardest part of all
unchain my heart that's holding on
how do I start to live my life alone
guess I'm just learning, learning the art of letting go

Try to say it's over, say the word good bye
but each time it catches in my throat
you're still here with me and i can't set you free
so I hold on to what i wanted most
maybe someday we'll be friends forevermore
wish I could open up that door

Now here it comes the hardest part of all
unchain my heart that's holding on
how do I start to live my life alone
guess I'm just learning, learning the art of letting go

What can I say, what can I do
but try to make it through the pain
not one more day without you

Where do I start to live my life alone
I guess I'm learning, I'll be learning
learning the art of letting go

--i really have to let go--

bhubye! stitch

i met with ate michele, my cousin and kuya ivan (my cousin-to-be) at robinson's Lipa. pero nauna ko nakita sila kuya stanley, na almost 8 years kong hindi nakita, at si kuya junard.. tapos dumating na sila ate michele at kuya ivan, at kuya jayR Sena at Papa Lloyd. Tapos konting kain lang umalis na rin kami, kasi almost 3pm na, eh 3 pm yung start ng wedding..

katext ko rin noon si kuya Jay R LAndrito ko. hehe na-miss ko yun! kasama naman nya si ate Jihan ang aking counsin-to-be rin.. dami noh?

we checked-in na sa resort, we were gonna stay overnight pala! hindi ko alam! wala pa naman akong dalang damit.. but oh, well... bahala na!

halos umuulan na nung nag-start, pero mabait pa rin talaga si Lord! hindi nya tinuloy. napakasaya ng wedding ceremony, pati sa reception..

other people who were there:

Sir Balayong and Tita Bing, Ma'am Mazo na nagpa-sign ng alumni form sa min at si Ma'am del Mundo..

Iba pang tropa, Kuya Paul Alvin Aseoche, Carlo Aristorenas, Joel Natividad.. at ibang taga-Batangas city na relatives ni Kuya Charles..

enjoy ito!masaya!

kuya stanley

insan power!

papa lloyd, ako, kuya stanley and kuya joel

insan Jay R and Ate Jihan

It hurts to think that I can never be able to let him know of this. Not that I don’t want to, but this is what I have to do. This is the right way of facing it. Keeping my silence to myself and to the ones I truly trust. The truth is, I want to see him, talk to him and even try to show him how I feel. I once tried to do it that way, but as I said, there’s no way that I can set things and everything in favor of me. I’ve always been a loser when it came to situations like these. There’s too much courage in taking a chance on love, but then there comes a point when you have to let go and that becomes the hardest part of all. I’m just not capable of letting go of something I've come to love and care for. Someone you'd want to spend the rest of your life with, share everything til the last breath of your life..

i have to let you go...

sana ganon lang kadali lahat.

sana lahat ng bagay may paliwanag.

sana sa lahat ng nangyayari, alam mo yung dahilan.

sana malutas na lahat ng problema ko.

sana makalimot na ako.

sana matapos na to.

sana.

i'm done obssessing my board "exams", take note, not just one exam, but two! hehe (sana lang pasa pareho)

honestly, i enjoy playing the cajon.. gives me a calm feeling..

i can't seem to comprehend everything that's going inside my head. siguro im just forcing myself into this, or maybe not. maybe im really feeling this, or maybe not.

maybe i truly love this person, but what's my basis? 

maybe i'l get over him, maybe not.

 maybe he'll eventually forget me, i hope he will.

this is the best feeling i've ever felt in years, but this is the most confusing situation i've ever been in my entire life. this thing that i call love is killing me. sucking me up and leaving me empty, with nothing to hold on to, nothing to hope for.

i was nothing before he came to my life, or is it before i came to his life? well, whatever....

he seemed to have completed the missing parts in my whole being, he seemed to have given me the contentment anyone could ever hope for.  he'd been my source of courage and strength, the strength i've ever had over the course of my entire existence. now, i can say that there are reasons for my existence, and one of these is to be part of his life and he in mine. wherever this life takes me, i know he'll still be one of the most special people in my life, the only ones who can bring out the best in me and make me even more stronger by their mere presence. that's how he has affected me (or infected). He's contageous! he caused me to be a different person, and in a different and positive way, he as completely changed all that's been going on through my squeezed mind. he has taught me that to love is to set no limitations in everything you do or give, in love, there will always be excemptions and extra giving, or simply going the extra mile just to prove how much another person's existence means to you.. he even let me blurt out every little dark detail of my other self, not that im with  personality disorder, what i mean is, he has let me be myself, with no pretentions, there's nothing i held back, because i knew that he would be able to accept me for who and what i am, without judging or accusing me. he made me realize how far a love can reach, how how one can give and how deep one can love anoter being.  no one has ever done that  before, and i know no one will ever be able to do what we has done and is still doing for me.

if life takes him away from me for good, i'll accept it. but if God permits me to love him for the rest of my life, i wouldn't waste even a second giving all my life and love for him, because he deserves to be loved and be cared for.

in my life..

and for the first and last time in my life, let me tell him through this that i love him with everyhting that i am. and im damn too certain about this. im just too sad that i wouldn't be able to pursue any of these..

fallin' (janno gibbs)

ooh... yeah..

our litle conversation
are turning into little sweet sensation
and they're only getting sweeter everytime

our friendly get togethers
are turning into visions of forever
if i just believe this foolish heart of mine

i can't pretend
that i'm just a friend
'cause i'm thinking maybe we were meant to be


i think i'm fallin', fallin' in love with you
and i don't, i don't know what to do
i'm afraid you'd turn away
but i'll say it anyway


i think i'm fallin... for you
i'm fallin' for you...

whenever we're together
wishing that goodbyes would turn to never
'cause with you is where i'll always wanna be
whenever i'm beside you
all i really wanna do is hold you
no one else but you has meant this much to me

i cant pretend
that i'm just a friend
'cause i'm thinking maybe we were meant to be

**only the Lord knows the future.. :)

lakas-tama!