bittersweet

yay!

Thu, 27 Nov 2008 16:53:58 +0000

whew! it was such a loooonnnngggg time since i last posted an entry...

anyhoo... i'm just happy right now that i finally found something again to look forward to in school... it's a welcome break from all the whining about school that i seem to be doing so often for the last couple of months... it's a mababaw thing, really. but hey, if it gets me out of bed in the mornings, why not, right?

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had my first decent conversation with HIM today.. and although we still talked about acads stuff, it was slightly more friendly in nature... and he initiated most of it!!! woohoo!!! haha...

psych, how i love thee!!!

a very long shot

Sat, 09 Aug 2008 16:06:38 +0000

THIS IS A LONG SHOT.

probably longer than ___ liking me back...

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it's such a coincidence that i just came from a buddhist temple this morning. i just find one of its tenets very apt for the situation.

-desire is the root of all suffering.

desiring this thing is driving me nuts. however, according to the buddhist way of life, to be able to take out the suffering, you need to take out the desire. but this time, i choose to satisfy the desire, or at least, i'll try to.

i'm a big dreamer. but most of the time, i'm not as big a worker. but this time, i think i owe it to myself to at least try. i've already let too many opportunities pass by me. this time, i know that it will be better to have tried even if i fail than not to have tried at all. i owe myself the chance, even just a tiny bit of possibility, to fulfill my crazy dreams. they're crazy but not impossible.

i've always lived in the past and the future, never in the present. and i think it's high time that i start living in the present. i need to stop thinking of what-if's and what-might-have-been's. i need to stop putting off doing things in the future. i need to do something about my life, NOW!

i know that i can do this!

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Note: that was just me pep talk-ing myself. i need all the pep talks i can get if i really want to keep on with this journey.

another one

Tue, 05 Aug 2008 15:33:20 +0000

here's another one: :P

"The truth is I gave my heart away a long time ago, my whole heart, and I never really got it back."

- Melanie Carmichael, Sweet Home Alabama

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Mon, 28 Jul 2008 12:43:19 +0000

"look after my heart, i've left it with you."

-edward cullen, eclipse

be still

Tue, 24 Jun 2008 13:01:35 +0000

today is one of those days... be still, my heart!

ahaha post

Mon, 16 Jun 2008 15:14:57 +0000

natutuwa talaga ako pag nababasa ko ung blog ng isang certain person.. ang galing eh.. nastistir talaga ung emotions ko pag nababasa ko.. tsaka ang cool ng pagkasulat kasi di katulad ng iba na parang may purpose talaga to write an entry with every entry. ung sa kanya, parang wala lang.. nagkwekwento lang pero may marerealize ka, agree o disagree man sa mga sinasabi niya.. anyway.. ayun lang.. :P

just had to...

Mon, 02 Jun 2008 15:43:27 +0000

realized that i just had to blog about this...

my bdj planner just got lost... i remember i was using it pa for the first few weeks of summer class... then some time, i decided to just leave it at home since i only had one class and there weren't too many requirements anyway.. and now, i just can't find it.. i don't remember where i put it specifically.. it's so sad... i need to find it before the sem starts!! :(

hmmm...

Mon, 02 Jun 2008 15:28:39 +0000

i know it's such a waste of time... but i'm hooked... (what?!?!?!?!)

so to keep my mind off it for a while, here's a reading list i want to finish by the end of the year...

- bloody chamber and other short stories by angela carter (i was able to start reading it already... it was fun... haha.. but extremely gory... but at least it was not very graphic... or was it just me? anyway...)
- once and future king by t.h. white (hah! haven't finished it until now)
- one hundred years of solitude by gabriel garcia marquez (like with once and future king, this has been part of a reading list for english... pero this one's later... it was required 1styearcollege 1st sem.. the other one's during 4th year hs pa.. see how masipag i am :P )
- brothers karamazov by fyodor dostoevsky (kasama pa rin sa reading list for eng12.. haven't started it yet... and while i'm at it, i advertise sparknotes.. i survived 2 exams about brothers on sparknotes alone... teehee...)
- lord of the rings (grabe... haven't watched the movies, haven't read the book... it's just so tiring to be so op whenever speakers or teachers use it as an example:( )
- stardust by neil gaiman (i loved the movie.. so i wanna read the book :) )
-eclipse by stephenie meyer (i was able to read the 1st two books already and i just love the saga.. i just got really busy with *work* after new moon kaya i wasn't able to read eclipse.. pero hopefully, i'd be able to read it before classes start)
- sophie's world by jostein gaarder (i was able to start reading it but then, schoolwork got in the way.. :( )
- the pact by jodi picoult (i just love jodi picoult!!!)
- one book from john grisham... (i last read a john grisham book nung sembreak pa ata.. so i really need to read one before schoolwork starts to pile up.. such a shame... )

so there... my lame excuse for a blog entry.. :P

very nice...

Thu, 29 May 2008 17:08:01 +0000

curiosity killed the cat...

now it's time to move on...

wth?!?!?!?!

Thu, 22 May 2008 16:22:38 +0000

i have just watched the season finale of one tree hill season 5. and i must say that it was one heck of a finale. i say that one tree hill is really here to stay... gosh.. i'm so excited.. if only there were already new episodes, NOW!!!