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Wed, 16 May 2007 10:00:24 +0000

When I Open My Eyes.... Acr0ss the Sky

A hand to hold
Is often hard to see
And I cannot
Deny You're reaching out to me
The day is gone
And still I know You're near
And I've got nothing to fear

But when I open my eyes
You're the first thing I see
A vision once clouded
I feel Your presence over me
From when the sun comes up
'Til I fall asleep at night
I know You'll be there
When I open my eyes

Now granted...
I've been here a time or two
I've learned, I've lived
And now I've learned again
I pray that I...
I might become like You
I've got nothing to lose

Your love is like the ocean
It never stops rolling in
You are my world
I can't survive without You
With You it's all surrender
In that I find such peace
Tell me this is no dream, yah...

When I open my eyes
Oh Lord, I feel Your presence over me
From when the sun comes up
'Til I fall asleep at night
I know You'll be there
I know that You'll be there...

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Thu, 12 Apr 2007 14:23:40 +0000

Thump…. Thump… thump….
I could almost hear my heart beat faster and faster by the sec0nd… I felt a lump in my throat as I swallowed hard and hanged on to my dear life….
What if I just fall off? Horrible thoughts were creeping into my head. Y0u can barely make shape of the trees and buildings as they swiftly passed by… I quickly mumbled an urgent prayer to the Divine Providence for protection…
And tried to think of something else to calm my nerves…
“Whooo!!! This----is----the----life…! Yeah….!”
Her shoulder length brunette hair dancing in the fearful wind, my eldest sister smiled. She was acting as if she was in a rollercoaster ride or something. Was there something wrong with her? Or with me??? I mean, her outfit even defines a night out in Eastwood maybe, but not a motorcycle ride at 1:00 in the morning… at oh, let’s say, 70-80 km/hr… and I was used to her driving at 40 km/hr! hahah.. we were on our way to Cavite…
I wondered how she could keep looking glamorous and pretty at that m0ment and silently laughed at myself… I was wearing pants and a t-shirt and my hair was a mess. I didn’t know if I was underdressed or if she was overdressed.. or maybe we were both improperly dressed…
Vr0o0o0mmm…!!! Was it just me or are we going faster?! Vr0o0oomm…!!! My nerves got the better of me again… I stared hard at the road in front of us and kept my eye open for any roadblocks…
I am so paran0id. oh shhh---! Just a small crack 0n the r0ad.. we passed a truck.. a black car cut in right in front of us.. my sis hurriedly hit the brakes and lost c0ntr0l..
CRRRAAAAASSSHHHH…..!!!!!!!!!
I was thrown in the air screaming... my life flashing before my eyes…
G0sh. What a h0rrid way to die… My head was full of worst case scenari0s…
I sho0k 0ff all my b0sh thinking. “ wh0o0o0oo…!!!” I just screamed at the t0p of my lungs as we went 0ver a bridge s0mewhere in Edsa. The feeling was so intense.. so great… I could just let go but I would fall off. Hahah.. it was so scary…. Soo exciting.. the adrenalin rush was incredible..
I held on tight… I savored the feeling… before I knew it… we were h0me…^^
Life can be so scary at times… but let’s enjoy the ride…

wh0o0osh!!!

Sun, 01 Apr 2007 13:55:05 +0000

exciting!! nyiee.... haiz.. hahahahah... mixed em0ti0ns it0h! ewan q bah! NAPAKAdaming kaewanan sa mund0 n0h?! ewwness.. mwahahah... duh. like, since when did life bec0me s0o0o dull?! NAPAKAColorful... hahaha.... haiz...

its s0o0o frustrating t0 be in the kn0w but t0 feel s0o0o damn helplesS c0z even though uR be aware 0f wats wat and ol... u cAnt seEm t0 figure awt wat the heck ur supp0sed t0 d0...

okei... so anu daw?!? hahahah... haiz... s0o... here i am sa cainta at ineenj0i q ang aking spare time.. im like this fugitive nga eh. d q malaman san aq ppunta or watever. hahaha... d aman.. am currently bedspacing kila bespren.. ahahah... aww.. haish...

LiFe iS 0nLy as ColoRful as Y0u maKe 0F it. it c0uld be all grAy areas... 0r maybe just bLack n White.. WhateveR y0u ch0ose.. the Paintbrush is iN ur Hand.. anD its uP t0 y0u to make a mAsterpiEce...

ewwnes..! anu nnmn yan?! ewan q ba! hahaha.. san ba nanggaling yang mga yan.. wellz.. gnun talagah anah.^^ its like.. s0o0 damn haRd t0 just keep smiLing and LAughing and being siLLY when deEp inside uR totaLLy in the duMps.. or is it? hmm.. maybe thats h0w y0u c0pe.. maybe thats wat makes y0u survive.. maybe thats what y0u need...

arrgh?! em0?! mwahahahah... ewn q ba. hahahaah.. oh. bat black n t0h?! hahah.. ahmm... am i even making sense herE?!? ewan! hahaha.... saya nit0h n0h?! parang mei kausap ka na wala nmn na mer0n pala. hahahah. what i mean is.... (mageexplain pa en0h?!) at the m0ment its like.. geez.. wat the heck. alam niu na un! hahah... bbai sa entry na t0h..

NAPAKAhaba m0h na... kea i'll end it na. hahaha... mwahaha.. baliw. ge2.. next entry ulet.. Mwah!!!

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Tue, 20 Mar 2007 14:45:40 +0000

:tooth::broken::girls::bomb:O:-):knockout::-X

right.. so this would be my first time to do this kinda thng. whatever. tarush. hahah.....

okay. so wats the point of this? i dunno.. its like an online journal ryt? one thats open to others.. hmm..

this would probably come out all awful and stuff coz im not really in a g0od mo0d ryt now..

and thats partly why i wanted to write here... i mean.. it just feels go0d to just let it out right? those th0ughts in ur mind.. those things u have to say..

havent y0u n0ticed that we all wanna talk about ourselves? how we feel? its not unc0mmon really.. in fact.. i think thats how wer suposed to be...

and we've been blessed to have certain pe0ple that we can share these feelings with... theyre wat we usually call our friends.

hmm.. i was thinking of a TOTALLY different topic wen i started this.. but it turned awt differently...

sigh...