THE OPTIMISTIC PESSIMIST

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Tue, 13 Jan 2009 15:39:48 +0000

what was unexpected

has become

the inevitable..

what long has been forgotten

has unraveled itself..

should it have been left

unexpected?

i don't know..

should it have remained

forgotten?

maybe so..

yet it has answered

the wondering..

but it presented

the thought

to wander...

perhaps it was meant

to happen..

at that very moment..

a moment that should

be left in that

shelf of forget..

before we lose sight

of what is here

and now..

almost 4 am..

Sun, 23 Sep 2007 10:46:29 +0000

in the heat of dusk,

questions and answers

are of no regard..

just an exploration

of what long has been witheld..

responding to the climax

of proximity..

-gel '07

everyone's folly..

Sun, 23 Sep 2007 10:41:27 +0000

fighting blind and maimed, when downfall is a given..

-gel '07

thoughts of an almost infidel

Sun, 23 Sep 2007 10:37:34 +0000

enamored by the happy
and ideal,
yet the real deal
doesn't quite measure up..
then ideas
come afloat,
swaying me
from the dream,
to a
newly furbished complication..

-gel '07

sublimity under the influence

Thu, 19 Jul 2007 02:19:45 +0000

alcohol sublime.
regrets and sorrow afloat.
welling up after too long moments
of drought.
capitalizing on considerations
when under the influence.
embarking on a shooting spree
of regret and rage.
but with entities of empathy
surrounding.
resolution is not far off.
yet solitude sinks deep.
leaving no room for any cure.
only to lead us back to.
alcohol sublime.

- gel '07

trust vs. mistrust

Tue, 19 Jun 2007 12:33:15 +0000

as erikson puts it, when consistency and love is present in early childhood, we might as well bet that the kid grows up to be well-rounded, nurturing and loving..

but the absence of such turns us to the opposite..

so therefore i might as well conclude that i don't know what to make of me..

hehehe

note: this is me. trying to give u a dry joke. hehe just very drained today. i got so effed up with school.

mga poem ni panyang..

Fri, 19 May 2006 05:24:40 +0000

friday night

mercury rising.
every touch effervescent.
every thrust unnerving.
dripping.
oozing.
every single breath
a struggle.
shuddering in lustful silence.

-gel '06

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daydream

sleepy girl.
dozing off with
thoughts of halfscreen.
intoxicated.
his junkie smile.
though fleeting.
nonsensically arousing.

-gel '06

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of facts and fiction

steps lead to death.
a fact.
breathing and the lack of it.
infarction.
still a fact.
you and me.
not a fact.
not even quite fiction.
not even close to that.

-gel '06

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smoke #3

brown eyes.
staring, lusting over sense.
wondering.
if tomorrow comes daylight.
puffing thoughts.
as nicotine sets in.

-gel ' 06

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limbo

altruism's best
has caught me.
holding me back.
destination.
quite hazy.
handing me
unwanted comfort.
sharing evaded wishes.

-gel '06

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#5

almond-shaped windows.
bucked pearlies.
puggish smelling thing.
pale overcoat.
junkie smirk.
criminal phalanges.
evil self.

-gel '06

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09262052***

f**cking for
f**cking's sake.
Thrusting for
thrusting's sake.
loving?
for who's sake?
not for f**cking.
not for thrusting.
not even for love's.
but for
yours.
who's
a f**cking fake!

-gel '06

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4:52

Running towards this brink.
insanity,
they call it.
i wear this tangible smile.
this infallible mask.
i knew they'd all fall for it.
fools,
they are.
i say.
and i,
the greater doer of folly.

-gel '06

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out in the cold
from that
warm, fuzzy bubble.
it used to be our world.
here, i puff.
to keep me warm.
but every puff,
designed
to deceive you.
because
in this stark,
lonely winter,
lies a blistered heart.

-gel '06

hahaha taya kantaha

Mon, 10 Apr 2006 13:31:09 +0000

:sing: bakakon ka! liar! evil ka! :sing:

:sing: bakakon ka! liar! evil ka! :sing:

:sing: bakakon ka! liar! evil ka! :sing:

:sing: bakakon ka! liar! evil ka! :sing:

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Sun, 19 Mar 2006 13:20:20 +0000

atop a cliff
the stillness of the sea affects me

every light ripple
a tidal wave

washing away
wishes of dreamer

humana..

Mon, 20 Feb 2006 02:57:46 +0000

humana. wa na. mana storya. ambot wa ko kbaw unsay bati-on sa amo gpangstorya. wa na gyud. nya wa pa mi magkta balik. nya inig kta namo ky ambot lang kaha. dba ingon ko "i wish i know how to quit u?". ay mana gyud. quit na gyud. saon ta man. lahig mga points of view. wa man sad dangatan. gusto ko maglagot. pero d nalang. kapoy ra a! pero piste ghapon. ngano magsuko suko man ko na wa man gani to maghunahuna ang buang. kng isog sha, ay mas labaw pa ko. utot nya. mao ra ghapon. iya ning sala. cya gyud akng gbasol. ambot btaw. pis, lab, en rak enrol nalang ta.