And on a different note, guess who kicked Muppet U's ass...!!! Woohoooo... CHELSEA! CHELSEA! For once it was good Monday Blues!!!

It hurts so much to leave u for a week, u do know Ive gotta do this kan. I'll be back before u can even spell...I dunno, a major disease which is hard to spell! :P LOML!!!!

Oh but Im so lazy to drive down.... dammit!

But I cant wait to see MooMoo!!!!

Ok, mixed feelings. Yes I know, Im sometimes BiPolar.

Via is a great houseman in the making. She's extraordinarily hardworking. She doesnt talk back like some foolish 1st posters Ive come to know in the OnG Dept in MHPP. She's learning fast and everyone's startin to love her! Way to go boo!!! I told u so!!!

Ok. Need to go shower, pack and go!!

Love u Boo!!

NKMI

Non-smoker, Occasional Alcohol Intake

Allergic to Penicillin, PCM, Sulphur containing drugs

Past Surgical Hx: Ulnar Nerve release 2007

Generally well.

Been complaining of slight chest discomfort upon climbing at least 2 flights of stairs. No SOB

NYHA I

No chest pain.

ADL Independent.

No known risk factors.

RP, LFT, FBC: perfect. No dyslipidaemia

ECG: SR, no acute ischaemic changes

ECHO: NAD

Stress Test: Not elaborated, but depressions (unsure of which leads) was informed over the phone

Angiogram: LAD 80% Narrowed. Diffuse.

I saw life pass right thru of me. I was angry, it being so unfair. I was cool, I wasnt irrational. I was still positive this could not be the last straw.

Right after the angio, he was told the only option was a by-pass.

3 days ago, the CTC Surgeon calls him up and said, it'll be angioplasty instead.

Miracles do happen.

As scary as it may sound, and as sureal it may be, I was not about to just sit back and watch the events unfold in front of me. This is one man who's gonna be actively managed.

He was so worried, Mummy said he was so down and almost did nothing around. But now he's back to singing and cooking and running around with Moo Moo, Im just so overwhelmed.

He made me medically qualified. Ive saved a lot of people, yes I have. And Ive brought a lot of lives in this world. And this is one man Im gonna make live, way beyond his prime.

It is indeed hard to digest. How a perfectly fit man can get his LAD narrowed so badly. His cholestrol level is so acceptable and there weren't any risk factors to pin point an early clue.

Well, it has happened. And the whole family's taking it positively. He's got enough lovin to last him forever.

My Daddy's gonna be fit and stong forever.

I'll be heading home this week, and will look into things and ensure him only the best.

On a different note, Ive completed my 3rd posting in ObGyn. It has been one year of me working.

I wouldnt say Ive learnt a lot, I could have done better. But Ive definitely learnt much.

Im thinkin of sitting for the MRCOG part 1. No harm.

It feels nice to be blogging again. It feels like a huge chunk of me has been deleted, not blogging. And there's just so much to say.

Well, take care now and be well.

Much love.

Oh but it'll just be another day, before I'll be driving back home. Bliss..

Much belated.. but, better late than never. CONGRATS DR VIDYA CHARIYA!!!!! You've made it, you've made us all so proud. You know you'll make a marv doctor!!! Finally, a reality!! A begining of a very noble journey!! Love you loads...!

Im imagining us shopping for groceries at Tesco, and it's getting me all excited!!!

Oh, and looks like there are more of us around. Ive made some lovely friends. And it's uber cool!!! Speakin of which, there are instead certain friends who's gone way down...but then again me duns care!! U wont get arnd far....just keep that in mind!

Ok, food's here. Im gonna have dinner and sleep.

Much love!

Somehow, everyone's feelings matter more abundantly more than mine ever will. Denied, I know. But it's pretty obvious.

I was supposed to for Sive's house warming today, but it somehow dint matter as Susie Mummy had an asthma attack. Hope she's well. And hope Sive understands.

Ok, off bck to being lonely.

Much love. 

So my days in Ortho are coming to an end. Soon, it'll be raging hormones and PMSing women in Obs N Gyne. Oh, and the bosses are nightmarish, just as in all other gyne dept around. Sux.. Im not lookin forward to it. But Im gonna pull through somehow, it was, as a matter of fact, one of my favourite subjects back in Med School. So, yeah.. I'll survive, somehow.

So, the past few days has been nice. We've been driving down to Nibong Tebal to meet up wit a darl who came down fr Subang! It was lovely.. Always be my teacher, and me loves her so much. Happiness and love!

Oh, and someone recently found out about it. Accidently, but deliberately all the same, she found out. Which is all good, as she's so close to me and I love her to bits, and was really wanting to finally tell her!! So yay!!!

And so, been pretty disturbed later. I mean, it took so much of me to finally get over it, and grow as a person again. And then, he calls. Hhmmm... apologetic. But, it's all numb. I dont even know what is there to feel anymore. After what has happened, every word he utters denies believing. Simple as that. Do not judge me, but if you were once in my shoes, you'll truly comprehend as well. I just cant. I dont want to. Although it's only humane,.. hhmmm, somehow, no it's not. But I just cant. Karma's a bitch, you've learnt. This will be the one thing, I'll never be able to forgive. Forgotten, totally. But not forgaven.

Ish.

And so, this is me ranting. No, Im not washing my dirty laundry out in the public. This is simply me voicing out. If you, you and you were to somehow read it.. then good for you. Mission accomplised. As speaking to fake retards like you is such a waste of good oxygen. So, here goes. I know word's been going around... 'Why'd they do it?', 'They shouldn't have'..'They were so rude..' I dont know what that low-cow-brain person has been speakin of around, but here's my gist. If your very own were to verbally attack and accuse YOUR dad of the unknowns, Im pretty convinced you would have done the same. You should have been there to understand this. So, please stop judging what my brother and I did. To me, I'll deem it sanity. And it was perfectly called for. Once again, karma's a bitch. We really dont need these kinda people. And if you'd rather go on and on, mesmerized by mutton meat and forth.. jst leave my family out of it. For as long as Ive known, my Dad's been the one who's been keeping the family strong. So dont you even dare think bad of him. Dont you even dare. Screw you, you and you! You're all horrible people, and you damn rite know it. In fact, horrible's too mild of an adjective.

Oh what the fish.

Wooozaaaahhh-ed.

On a lovelier and happier note. It's only another 33 days!!!!!!! Ecstatic.. the one person. Will always be... yay!!!! Yeah, not many know yet. So... yeah.

Ive made lovely frens at Ortho. And it's been great. To Sive and Sara who'll be leaving the jing bang soon, it's been marv guys. Ya'll are talented doctors. Ya'll be great!

I need a haircut. Teacher, game? Yes, she cuts my hair :D

Amazing what someone said to me earlier in the week. Totally made my day. Her daughter scored marvelously in the recent SPM, and she told me...'Anan, it must have been you. You were her ultimate inspiration' Wow, Im truly honored. Lovely things like this go a long way.

Ok, so this entry may seem a bit alienated for many. Im sorry, I just had a lot to release without actually tearing down Rome. Excuse the limited transperancy.

Ok. Much love ya'll.

LOML... you knw you're it. This is for eternity. VCS...!

So much has happened.

Last Friday, 2 nuts surprised me by appearing right in the middle of the C12 ward, only to drag me out while I was almost completing a Ray's Amputation,...!! Such darls they were..! I had the best weekend ever. We went to Churchhill, had snow beer while waiting for Mary to bring back the lamb. Then over to Gurney for food. Saturday, like typical tourists we visisted The Snake Temple, where the boys almost stole a baby 3 inch snake, and to the Bayan Lepas waterfall, where we found by mistake as I got lost driving, then to Fort Cornwallis (is that how u spell it) and we ate and ate and ate every hour!!!!! Dropped by SS aft dinner, watched the game had a bottle of Chivas.. and things got a lil messy aft dat over at Moist, shall leave the details out. Hate pariah fools who hit people for fun, and worse the whole male ego which made matters worse! They went back on Sunday after stuffin ourselves silly with Line Clear's nasi kandar!! Oh me loves them... Sunny Boy and The Pet!!

So, work's gettin better. I think. Just cant stand one fool, who's being such a racist. Or maybe he just hates me alone, as apparently almost everyone thinks he's ok. But Im still gonna make myself clear to him. Im gonna await the day to when he'll realise Im actually quite good, and run dry of reasons to pick on me. Everyone else thinks Im ok, and capable enough. Except him, who's a mere MO. Ass...

And so, I'll be drivin down to KL tmrw after work, for a copla days. Wont really have time to do much, I just need a break, and my room! And I tell you, lovely wonderfull frens Ive got. There's already plans on paintin the town Barney even before I could even cross into the Selangor border!!! We'll be blastin up Borneo til the sun cries mary...!! Mary again..! Hah...

And I'll get to see MooMoo....!!!! And my parents, of course!

Me thinks mes gotta decrease perfecting. Me thinks mes goin too much on it!

Via lost her ATM card. Ukraine being lovely Ukraine, the card got swallowed in. The the whole process of gettin it back is simply absurd. So, I spent all evening msging friends over at FB, when I received an SMS fr her with an alternative acc number. Wonderful.. NYHRGK!

Ok. Gotta go home now.

Much love..!!!!!

Damn, I miss blogging.

I think I should make that above line a template. Since Im using it pretty often now.

Oh yeah..

So, life's in the Orthopedics Dept is slowly pickin up, in pace and excitement. Its pretty cool, and lovely being a second poster, what more from Medical.. almost everyone looks up to you, especially when someone's collapsing! Sick I knw.. but Im slowly lovin it. MOs are nicer, although the work is much yucky.. its kinda chilled back.

It feels lonely sometime being all by myself. Though Ive friends around it's simply not the same. Sometimes, I wonder what's else is there to life? Ok, that sounds dramatic, I knw.. but..oh nevermind.

I need to start furnishin my aprtm. Currently, there's only a mattress and some other essentials.. I wanna cook again! I want my kitchen with all my sauces and what nots.. hhmmm

My first call in Ortho starts tmrw. Wish me luck..

Im hoping to go back home again around the last few days of April and stay around til early May or so. If all systems go well.

Was just thinkin last nite, and realised how much I miss Ukraine life and everyone. Life was crap as it was over there, but now when things are so much different, you cant help missing it. HHmmm... the company especially. Friends, you know will be around no matter what. Now, everyone's so far away, and it has been ages since we last met up. I hope we never ever loose being in touch, I want us to be friends always. Hhhmmm... so darn emo edi.

I need to start saving money. Period.

100 days more til Via comes back!!!! Yay!!!! Sounds so near, yet so far. Things will be so much more different once that happens!

I miss Moo Moo..

Speakin of which, Im Moo Moo fying my car. Everything in it is Moo Moo fied...!!! The cushions and all..!!! Hehehehehe...

Much love ya'll.. I truly miss ya'll. Be well... Ta~!

Yes, my bad for disappearing so long. I hardly have good internet access.

So, Ive just returned from my one week break. Just reached Penang 4 hours ago, went straight to the GH, submitted my log book and got my lapor diri letter for tmrw. Honestly, Im lookin forward to startin Ortho, but all the same wishin Id have longer breaks. Its pretty depressing to be all alone again, I knw Ive got wonderful peeps around.. but I'd rather have home and MooMoo. Being in comfort zone for a week has been blissfull. I want that..

Oh well. This will only make me stronger. Havin to fend for myself and rough it out, will only make me wiser. Havin to make my own moves would only eventually lead me to the right path. I just cant wait for these 20 months or so to pass so I can sit for the exam and get outa here..

Its inevitable for me to feel lonely. I sometimes wish I'd be workin nearby home. But then again, I made this choice for a reason and Im gonna persevere. Somehow..

Ive moved apartments. Finally got my own place and not tumpanging someone's place and paying exorbidantly to some cuckoo people. The new place is affordable, yet comes with a pool and tenis court and the works. It's also totally empty. My only furniture is my 8-inch mattress. Yes and so this is an open invitation to all.. come visit me in Penang, you now have a place to stay!

While I was back last week, I met up with my 'best friend since kindie days'..! Yes, we still introduce one another as such, sober or otherwise. It was totally cool, impromptu and all. At least it's finally rollin.. hope we stay in touch. The usual darls were around too.. Azlina and Vasan. Was supposed to have met up with Unc Shan and family as well, but somehow time was too much of a constraint. Pls dont be mad Uncle Shan, Im plannin to return home again by early May.

I wanna be content, I wanna be happy, I wanna be successful. Pray for me please.

So much to say, yet so few words may not make the cut. Hhmmm...

Im glad more people know now, it's wonderful having someone to talk about to. And glad they're our friends, who somehow accept the way things are. Just a few left, you know who you are.. wait till we meet face to face.

Tmrw's a new begining, may it be wonderful and pretty.

Girl, 4 months more. Before you know it, you'll be boarding Uzbek Airways for the very last time back home. Blink of an eye I hope..Take care, stay strong and thank you for your never ending prayers. I love u so much...!

Much love ya'll... if all goes well, 16 weeks til Im bck to KL again.

Be good now...

Hellow world. I miss MooMoo...the blog, n the dog. So much has happened,i dont ven know whre to start. I was just reading my achived entries, n realized how faithful I was at blogging.. and now the MOH has just robbd me of that privalage. Yeah,so Im havin my last Medcal all now. Off back home for a week aftr work tmrw, n Im so excited thinkin about it! Totally coolness...! Will update more soon. I miss you, wish you'd com bck fast and call me. I miss ya'=l too... Ok,im gonna try to get some shut eye. Hopefully th Nephro and chest wards stay calm. Much love darls.

Oh but I saved a life or two, and that somehow made my day.

Im thinkin of growin my hair, been lookin at my Friendster pictures, and I think I miss my long hair.

And you,..*hugs* I'll talk to u later. Check out FB!

Ok, it has passed bedtime, gonna shower and sleep

Happy Chinese New Year, all!

Much love.