And I wonder what I'll do next week. XD

And I can lie next to you, but I can't lie to you
So walk into the sun and watch me
Run into the rain,
For you the future's easy, so don't weep, for me it's getting
Steep

YAY! RAINBOW! WOOT!

It has been a while since I blogged. Thanks to Plurk and its microblogging features, I don't know if I still can blog.  This is what my CW10 professor told us, "If you do not know what to write, if you can't start an essay, if you are having writer's block, start by saying, 'I don't know what to write.' You'll find that you'll do."

Maybe, I'll start by giving updates.  Or maybe not.  I don't know!  Gah, this is getting frustrating.  I have been feeling, hmm, down for a while now.  It's not serious, just, me, feeling the years get to me.  MY GOD IN A LITTLE BIT MORE THAN 10 YEARS I'LL BE TURNING THE BIG THREE-OH.  Okay, that might be shallow, but this is my blog.  So, suck it all up and just read.  Bitch.

"Hello, yeah, it's been a while." "..." "Not much, how 'bout you? It's been such a long time and I really miss your smile."

I don't know when was the last time I spilled my guts.  What I mean is, sitting down with a close friend, or a group of close friends, and just telling them all that has been bothering me these past few... months?  I really miss that, that sense of closeness, that sense of bonding, and just feeling every emotion get to you while divulging a secret.  Then you get your friends' reactions, which can range from happy to sad, shocked to bored, whatever.  I think I'm getting incoherent.

What I especially miss is the lightness I feel after sharing.

Or maybe I'm just getting to melodramatic.

I know some people will say that I'm letting myself down, that's it's all in my head, and that life is fun and we must be happy... But I don't know what my point is.  All I know is it has been a while.

It's been a while since I've been...

It's been a while since someone else...

It's been a while since we've...

But times have changed.  I have to move on.

Hello to my multiply.

Now what to do?

Pwede na akong mag YouTube.. or mag-upload sa Multiply.. or download ng mp3s.. ewan..

Basta DSL na kami..

Nakow.. baka bumalik ako sa Ragna dahil dito.. >.<

First is, that person told me, that whatever I have done, whatever I am doing, and whatever I might do that could affect that person, I am forgiven already. That person has given me immunity. I would say that it helped me to be true to myself when I am around that person, because I knew that I would be forgiven, rather, I am forgiven already. I am free to do anything I like. I could say anything.

Of course there were times when that person got mad or something at me because of what I do. Whenever that happens, I think to myself, "I thought you will forgive me?" I am not sure if it really helped that that person told me that I would be pardoned for everything I do because I am quite certain that there will be some instances wherein I would not be easily forgiven. I hope I am making sense here. My point is, why make a promise like that when it could be easily be broken?

The other thing that person has promised is to be always there for me. Well, not only me, but that person promised that to all of that person's friends. Maybe I am taking that promise too literally, but nevertheless, it crosses my mind. How could that person say that? That person wasn't there for me yesterday. That person wasn't there for me last March 30. That person wasn't there for me last March 27. Should I give more instances?

Sure, I know that person will always be there for me when the need arises, but still, I know I am not on the top of the list. Why give me that promise? Why tell me that you took an oath to be always there?

I hope you are getting me. I am not angry at you for giving me these promises. I am just not sure if I could really - and I mean completely - count on your promises.

Ngayong gabi ay napagdesisyonan kong makipagchat sa mga tao. Mostly Opal, sinimulan ko ang conversation namin with, "sasama ka ba sa opal outing?" Tapos ayun.. kung anu-ano na pinag-usapan namin.

Ang mga kausap ko ay sina Cheska, Jovi, Pabs, Garrick, Jaky, at Regi.

Sa isang punta sa talakayan namin ni Ms. Siongco, natanong ko siya, "So.. UP o AdMU?" Kaso ang sagot na niya ay "for (i=0;i++;i>-1) cheska says "shit";"

Si Jovi naman, pinagsisikapan na tapusing basahin ung "What you've been missing at Friendster."

"I dont juge the book by its cover I read it first" -aminin nating may punto siya pero.. BWAHAHAHAHA pa rin!

Si Pabs naman mukhang hindi papayagan sumama dahil siya ay taong bahay.

Isa sa mga napag-usapan namin ni Garrick ay tungkol sa mga musical. Sabi niya di raw siya ma-hook ng mga lumang musicals tulad ng West Side Story at Sound of Music. Pero sa tingin ko kaunti lang sa batch natin ang may alam talaga dun sa dalawang yun. Eto mga alam kong musicals: Rent, Avenue Q, Grease, West Side Story, Sound of Music, Wicked, Les Miserables, at Phantom. Kaso ang may soundtrack lang ako ay yung sa unang tatlo, kaya memoryado ko halos lahat. Pero memoryado ko rin naman ang mga kanta sa Sound of Music, wahahaha! Basta ayaw ko ng High School Musical. Pero ito nakakatawa, galing kay Garrick yung link. They Didn't Study.

Noong una, ang pinag-uusapan lang namin ni Jaky ay mga taong sasama sa Opal Outing. Kaso mayamaya nagdrama na siya, tungkol sa isang myembro ng Westlife na may boyfriend na ngayon. Sa madaling salita, masyadong nagpaapekto si Jaky. Wahaha. May pictures pa siyang pinakita. At nagdrama rin pala siya kayna Garrick at Jovi. May iba pa ba?

Si Regi naman, akala niya invisible siya. Eh kitang kita naman. Wahahaha.

[At napansin kong "wahaha" ang intro ko at huling statement ko.]

Nag-online ako kasi wala naman akong halos ibang ginawa ngayong summer kung hindi ang mag-online, manood ng DVD, kumain, maglaro ng O2Jam, makipagchat, kumanta, magligpit ng bahay, tumambay sa kusina, teka.. maramirami naman pala akong ginagawa. Pero the point is, stuck ako sa bahay.

Tapos may nag-online. Kinulit ko siya. Eto usapan namin.

ako: wahoo!! isa kang taong pwedeng kong kulitin!
ako: update!!
siya: alang bago eh..hahaha
ako: haha
siya: bat ka naman walang makausap? haha
ako: wala..
ako: nahihiya akong mambulabog ng tao. eh di ka naman tao. so ayos lang.
siya: walangyang reasoning yan
ako: haha
ako: bakit. tama naman ang logic ko ah?
siya: hindi. hindi kaya yun logical. unless logical sayo ang pakikipag-usap sa hayop or extraterrestrial creature...dapat hindi mo kinakausap ang "hindi tao" hmph
siya: hahaha
ako: oh.
ako: you just confessed your true identity.
ako: i am a sworn federal agent, ms. [oops]. i am putting you under arrest.
siya: I AM EXTRATERRESTRIAL [INSERT NAME NIYA HERE]!!!! ETC what's your reason for arresting meeeee????
ako: you are an illegal alien!
siya: bakit naman illegal?
ako: may pasaporte ka ba? may visa ka ba? illegal alien ka!
siya: well...uhm..may konting DNA ako sa body ko..di ba pede yun???
ako: basta ba ACTG yan, pwedeng pwede.
siya: yehey
ako: tell me, what does an ET like you do here? anything interesting here in our planeta?
siya: yep. everything about your planet is interesting!
ako: like? please enumerate.
siya: for one thing you people are actually affected by gravity!!!
siya: that's like...the weakest fundamental force
ako: whoa.. i never thought of it that way! what else
siya: in our planet...we are affected by the strong nuclear force
ako: we can learn from you ETs.
siya: la na kong maisip
ako: aww.. ako rin eh.
ako: ma'am, requesting permission to post our conversation in my blog, ma'am!!!
siya: it's called the freedom of expression. go ahead. basta wag mo na ko hulihin kasi may ACTG naman talaga ko eh..i have every right to be here at earth..observing you guys
ako: uki.

Ayan. Mula sa usapan namin, mahuhulaan niyo kaya kung sino siya?

The Life Path 8 suggests that you entered this plane armed to lead, direct, organize and govern. You are very ambitious and goal-oriented. You will want to use your ambitions, your organizational ability, and your efficient approach to carve a satisfying niche for yourself. If you are a positive 8 you are endowed with tremendous potential for conceiving far-reaching schemes and ideas, and also possessing the tenacity and independence to follow them through to completion. In short, you were born to be an executive.

You know how to manage yourself and your environment. Your ability to judge the character and potential of the people around you is an asset used to your advantage. A large part of your success in life comes from how hard you work. This Life Path is the most prone to producing workaholics. But your ability to spot good people and engage them in your endeavors is a special trait not to be overlooked. There is an inspirational quality in your makeup which allows you to become a great leader. You are practical and steady in your pursuit of major objectives, and you have the courage of your convictions when it comes to taking the necessary chances to get ahead.

With the Life Path of the number 8 you are focused on learning the satisfactions to be found in the material world. The Life Path 8 produces many powerful, confident and materially successful people. Most of your concerns involve money and learning of the power that comes with its proper manipulation.

This Life Path is perhaps the one that is the most concerned with and desirous of status as an ultimate measure of success. You want to be recognized for your hard work and achievements. The attainment of honors and acceptance into the club of executive leadership is all important. For this, you may find yourself very well suited to compete in the business world or in the political arena.

In relationships, you are frank, honest, and steadfast. You may be very much in love, but watch that you are not too busy and preoccupied to show it. Being the lavish provider is not always an adequate substitute for showing your devotion and affection in more personal ways. You have a great need for close personal relationships to mitigate and somehow soften your nature. You must find the time for love and keep it as an important project in your life.

The negative 8 can be dictatorial and often suppresses the enthusiasm and efforts of fellow member of the environment. Often, the strength of their own personality excludes close feelings for other people with whom they come in contact. Material gains and rewards often become issues of utmost importance, even to the neglect of family, home and peace of mind. Dedication to success can become an obsession. Emotional feelings are often suppressed by the negative 8, resulting in isolation and loneliness. All Life Path 8 people must avoid discounting the opinions of others.