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Pag-Asa

Mon, 08 Sep 2008 02:38:39 +0000

Monday blues... Wala pa gana para magtrabaho... >_< At na-inspire ako magsulat dahil sa isang kwentuhan nung weekend hehehe.

Sa proseso ng ligawan or getting-to-know or kung ano man yung tawag dun sa stage na medyo obvious na may gusto si lalaki kay babae or vice versa, minsan ang tanong eh "may pag-asa ba ako?" Madali lang sagutin yan eh. Oo or hindi lang naman ang sagot, di ba?

Pero ang mas mahirap na tanong eh, pag binigyan mo ba ng pag-asa, binibigyan mo na rin ba sya ng karapatan? Karapatang magselos? Malaman ang bawat galaw mo, pati skedyul mo? Mag-astang boypren/gelpren?

Ito ata ang pinaka-misunderstood na question sa mundo, at kadalasan di alam ng mga tao na ang PAG-ASA ay hindi OO. Naalala ko dati may isang taong binigyan ko ng pag-asa, sabi ko "siguro pag-graduate pwede." Eto naman si mokong, aba nakikipag holding hands na saken! Tapos pag may ibang umaaligid, aba nagagalit ang lolo nyo! Dahil dun, nasakal ako. Anlabo no? Di pa nga kami, sakal na ako hahaha. Ayan tuloy, dahil sa pag-asa na yan, nasira ang aming pagkakaibigan.

Dalawang dahilan lang ang pwede kong mabigay kung bakit nagbibigay ng pag-asa ang isang tao. Una, dahil talaga namang may pag-asa, at like rin ni boy/girl si manliligaw (yihee!). Yung pangalawang dahilan, at masama ito tandaan nyo, ay ang pagbibigay ng pag-asa dahil ayaw makasakit.

Technically, pag binigyan mo ng pag-asa ang isang tao, ibig sabihin nito ay may possibility na maging kayo. Take note: POSSIBILITY lang. Pwede rin hindi mangyari (Murphy's law: anything that can go wrong, will go wrong). So technically, wala pa din karapatan ang boy or girl na binigyan mo ng pag-asa na mag-astang ka-relasyon mo. Kasi HINDI pa kayo eh. Pwede LANG maging kayo, pero hindi PA.

Ang kadalasang nangyayari kasi, pag binigyan na ng pag-asa, nagfi-feeling na. Feeling. Assuming. Kapalmuks in other words. Okay lang naman kung mag-feeling kung gusto rin ng nililigawan mo. Yung pag-asang dahil like ka rin nung isa, malamang magiging kayo nga. Pero kung yung pag-asa dahil ayaw ka lang masaktan, aba'y delikado ka dyan, tsong. Baka sampalin ka lang sa pagfi-feeling mo.

Ang bottom line lang ng aking mahabang pagsasalaysay ay: Kalimutan mo na ang pagbibigay ng pag-asa dahil ayaw mong makasakit. Saktan mo na lang habang maaga pa, kaysa baka magpakamatay pa yan dahil sa sobrang asa. Or mas mabuti pa siguro kung di na lang tinatanong yung "May pag-asa ba ako?"

Morning Greetings

Fri, 08 Aug 2008 01:58:26 +0000

On my way to work, I often encounter people who... well, greet me to work. I don't know them, but I find simple "good mornings" really pleasant because somehow, it makes me look forward to a really good morning and a good day (kahit na minsan eh mukhang manyakis yung nagsasabi nun). Some of the usual greetings I get are: "Hi Miss," "Hello," "Good Morning," and "Gandang Umaga." But today.... I got a really really weird greeting. Near Shangri-La mall, this guy greeted me with a "Hi Miss Brainy."

Oh--kay.

That got me thinking. Do I really look like a geek? I know I am, but I never thought I really looked like one. Or maybe my head is too big (the head people, not the cheeks). Or maybe I knew him when I was in Grade School and his impression of me back then was that of a brainy student and that I forgot about him. Or perhaps I had a brainy look on my face this morning. Well, whatever. Salamat na lang for the greeting hehehe.

Hi Skul Layp

Mon, 04 Aug 2008 03:30:21 +0000

Just recently, Anna Mae posted some High School pics in her Multiply site and it was just so nostalgic. It's fun remembering the things we did back then, and how happy we were with the small things that came our way. We studied hard, but we also knew when to play. Some people called us geeks and nerds, and most of the time, we thought of ourselves as one. But that didn't stop us from having a normal high school life like most people did.

Here's a picture from Anna Mae's site: All girls of 2-Sampaguita/3-Beryllium/4-Tau (Batch 99):

Back L-R: Zu, Naty, Jenjen, Anna Mae, Mitz, Grasya, Lilluck; Front L-R: Angie, Pats

I hate this pic. I really, really, really, really look like an idiot (with bangs and that stupid grin) =))

OMG - Jake Cuenca

Thu, 31 Jul 2008 03:34:16 +0000

As in OMG. Pagkatapos ng masalimuot na pagpupuntirya sa SONA ni Gloria, eto naman ang pinagkaguluhan ko ngayong araw na to.

OMG talaga. Weakness ko pa naman yan! Lapuk!!

Note: Ang ibig sabihin po ng OMG eh Oh My Golay! (Bawal blasphemy)

GMA at ang kanyang SONA

Mon, 28 Jul 2008 09:47:25 +0000

Sabi ni GMA sa kanyang SONA:

As your president, I will let no one -- and no one's political plans -- get in the way of the wellbeing of our people. I will let no one hinder our people's progress and prosperity. I will let no one threaten our nation's survival. This... Is.... My... Commitment.

Oh--kay... Wala ako ma-say. Kaka-basa ko lang ng draft SONA speech nya and I can't help but get the feeling na binu-bullshit lang ako. Apathetic citizen ako ng Pinas pero updated naman ako sa mga nangyayari. At nadi-disappoint ako kasi the person with the power to build or break the nation is the same person who spoonfeeds you with rainbows and butterflies when reality tells you you're in deep shit. Ano yun, paasa? Pagsisinungaling? Or ginagawa nya lang talaga tayong tanga?

Sabi nya may massive rice production daw tayo, and that since 2001, rice production is 2x bigger than population growth... Pero bakit ganun, naubusan pa rin tayo ng bigas?

Sabi nya andami daw na-gain natin dahil sa "effort" nila to fight corruption, which includes allocating Php 3 Billion++ for gathering and filing of hard evidence against corrupt officials... Di ba inamin nya na dati na cheater sya sa elections? Hehe, nasa pwesto pa rin sya. Wala lang.

Hay. Andami pa nyang "stuff" na sinabi. Ayoko lang isa-isahin baka ma-depress ako lalo. Pero in fairness, nagpasalamat sya sa TAXPAYERS. Welcome rin, madam presidente.

At dun sa commitment statement mo, ewan ko lang. Di na nga ako makapaniwala sa mga kwento at numero mo, maniniwala pa kaya ako sa commitment churvaness mo? Haynako!

Squall Leonheart

Tue, 22 Jul 2008 03:34:25 +0000

When I was in college, I remember spending 2 weeks playing Final Fantasy 8. And I just couldn't get enough, so I played the game again for a few more weeks just because I wanted to complete all the side quests. The main reason why I played this game was simple: Squall Leonheart.

I was madly obsessed with the character -- the fake hair, the sharp pointy nose, the obvious computer-generated perfect face, and the horrible outfit. After seeing the Final Fantasy 8 poster while strolling along the computer shops in Shangri-La Mall EDSA (back then it was on the 6th floor), there was this divine arrow that hit my naive heart, ultimately making me fall head over heels in love with Mr. Leonheart.

I would stare at his picture in my monitor for hours just so I could memorize all the lines of his face. I would dream that I was in Rinoa's place so that I could be in his arms. I often listened to the game's theme song (Eyes On Me -- a very good song, I would say) and get teary-eyed because I oh-so-wish that I could touch his hand or stroke his hair. I even made my yahoo account as a tribute to him (iskwall). I was mad. And of course, my so-called love was unrequited. I was crazy about someone who doesn't even exist in real life. I knew it was impossible to find him, so I just hoped so badly that I'd meet someone exactly like him.

It was a crazy obsession. (And now that I think about it, it's creepy o_O)

Fortunately, after only a few months, game giants have followed Square Enix's footsteps by developing games with ultra-hunk characters. The births of Onimusha, Dante, Tidus and other really good-looking game characters have diverted my attention. The F4 also played a major role. And of course, how could I forget the guy who made college life so much brighter, and yet much more painful because I know that he is THE perfect guy, but he can never be mine.

Why the hell did I fall for the wrong guys??? Shet ang pathetic ko pala nung college hahaha!

(Na-LSS ko kasi yung Eyes on Me kaninang umaga, so I thought about writing this... only to find out how geeky I was >_<)

Mr. Satan (a.k.a. Mr. Pogi)

Fri, 18 Jul 2008 07:19:39 +0000

This is what made my day. Hahahaha! I missed Dragonball all of a sudden.

Manipulative People

Thu, 17 Jul 2008 04:33:06 +0000

It's amazing how some people have the power to turn things around to go their way. Call it charm, cunningness, or simply persuasion, but this ability is most often used by people who always take advantage of everything that comes their way. Ethical or unethical.

It's like giving somebody a candy, and ending up with your candy stash being stolen. Or lending somebody cash, and ending up bankrupt while the other one gets millions. It's also like showing mercy, and ending up being a fool.

I hate it when some people take advantage of good and kind-hearted individuals. I hate it when they twist the lies to become the truth. And I hate it when they make good use of their drama lessons to get your sympathy and exploit your trust. Those people should be banished to the ends of the milky way galaxy where black holes can suck their dirty asses (or in some cases, their ultra-long chins). And it's a big mistake just getting acquainted with them, even more, having people like them in your team.

But the biggest mistake ever (or maybe the biggest act of stupidity that the universe has ever known) is finding out the true nature of those persons, partially doing something about it (like kicking them off of your team), and then backing out on your decision. That means you ended up where you started. It also means you just swallowed what you just threw up (yes, that's totally gross). And finally it also means that you've just been manipulated again and that you are one stupid son of (whatever).

Such.

P.S. Zeus (Lord of Olympia) is the ultimate KS. Also I miss playing Rylai Crestfall (Crystal Maiden) and I'm thinking of playing her again very soon. And also I want to try that new hero... Clockwork Gobln... Someone always beats me in picking him first T__T.

Gloomy Wednesday

Wed, 16 Jul 2008 05:16:31 +0000

Miyerkules, ala-una ng hapon. Sa area ko, ako lang mag-isa ngayon dito... Waaah!

Si Tito Rouel at si Kumpareng Julyus wala pa, si Inay Bien at Tito Gary nasa workshop. Si dota-berks Joel nasa UK. Yung iba, pang hapon pa sila.

Nalulungkot tuloy ako!! Ano ba yan, loser mode ako today dito sa office. Tapos na ako magpaka-busy kaya petiks mode na ako... kaso naubusan na rin ako ng pagpepetiksan!! Lahat ng sites na binibisitahan ko, nabisitahan ko na. Tinatamad pa ako magupdate ng blogs ko. Na-stalk ko na rin lahat ng isa-stalk ko sa Prenster at Peysbook. Walang kumakausap sakin (at wala akong gustong kausapin) sa YM pakshet! Hahaha. Loser mode talaga.

Pero sa aking pag-iisa (naks), andami kong na-realize at napag-isipan...

- Bakit kaya yellow ang naisip nilang kulay kay Pikachu?
- Ang pogi at ang galing talaga ng gumanap kay L sa Death Note Live Action Movies
- Antagal ng oras, gusto ko na maglaro ng Dota o kaya Cabal
- Bakit kaya yung ibang tao eh ang hilig magpost ng "I'm so Hot" or "I'm so Fab" sa social sites nila?
- Si Helen (yung bagyo ngayon) ba eh magla-launch din ng "a thousand ships"?
- Bakit yung iba pinopost nila as status msg sa Ym yung bawat kilos nila?
- Bakit ba ang lungkot ngayon???
- Bakit ko nga ba sinusulat to ngayon?

Waaaah! Such loser-ness, man! Maglalaro na lang siguro ako ng solitaryo.

Frank hits Iloilo the hardest

Mon, 23 Jun 2008 04:39:00 +0000

Last weekend, typhoon Frank ravages Iloilo and submerges the province, making this event the worst tragedy in Iloilo's history. I couldn't help but feel so helpless with the situation. I am here in Manila, safe while the city I grew up in is literally like an ocean.

I couldn't contact my parents last weekend because the phone lines were dead, and even if I were to call them via mobile phone, the power supply was also dead and thus, the minute they ran out of batteries, they were unreachable. Fortunately, they were safe despite the heavy rain and strong winds, and our backyard flooded up to the knees.

My prayers and thoughts go to the families and friends who have been victims of this horrible tragedy. I have yet to hear from my friends there. I really hope they are safe.