poverty. that'd probably be it. i have no money at all. i love katips, but i hate the prices. eating at katips, when compared to eating at u.p. is definitely different. then again, i looooove katipunan. it's my home away from home. hahah! :)

some things i remembered, or at least they were worth remembering these past few weeks.

1. my block is perfect, or maybe i just think it so. it has its share of the "goody-goodies", the quiet but sweet types and the rest are just damn crazy. hahahah! the noise is ok, it can do better though. my new group-of-friends are somewhat great. we get serious when we need to, but most of us are just loud, and funny. kami ang mga suki ng katipunan at ng mga tricycle sa katips. hahah! :)
2. MC is fun, and, yup it is unexpected. Who would've thought? I'm only learning at 2-3 subjects though. College Algebra, which is my fave btw because that's the only subject i use my mind in. Comm Skills, Adame is not a bitch after all. There is a tie between Kasaysayan and P.E. though, because I sometimes learn from them. Quizzes are a breeze. For instances, I get good grades in quizzes I never expect I'd get good grades in. How? CHEATING. The food is ok. I've only eaten a thing or two in the caf, a pizza roll amd some hotdog sandwich. The tricycle fares - 6 pesos, the U.P. ikot/ katip/ philcoa jeeps - 6.50-7 pesos. CUTTING is great. I just have to lessen it though. MC's just great, for now at least.
3. two effin enemies slash acquaintances - Ionna Wasan gave me a letter about some things said and unsaid. We talked it through, i just wish i couldn't and didn't see right through her. She had some things to say to me, and I respect her for that. Someday I will like her or whatever. Margeaux on the other hand, is a big blah. I don't really hate her or see her as an enemy. It's just that, she really puts all of us off, and I do mean ALL of us. I just don't get her, then again, she need at least something to tell her therapist. hahah! damn that girl has issues! For Ionna, if you do read this.. I hope all the things are said and true. You're also the reason why i'm not censoring any names anymore. :) For Margeaux, please take your pills. You're freaking people out.
4. I have no guys in my life lately. I've had dejavus, daydreams, nightmares and revelations about them. I haven't really understood them yet. CHOOP. I miss you.  ACKY. I despise you, and I can't get you out of my system. YOU ARE SO NOT GWAPO, puhleez! hahah! :) SHMIKO. There's only one thing I'm sure of, I miss US. :( MARC. Guy ka ba? Di naman a! hahah! :
5. Lesbian tendencies. Oh god. MC has this one person who sds out from the rest. YOU ARE MY HOT BITCH. I love our friendship though, I wouldn't risk it for anything.

~ love sucks. i'm still bitter. ick. ~  i love courtney love. ~ funny dentist appointment experience ~ missing my high school friends ~ men suck ~ no maid, still ~ amazing rain adventure ~ love my mp3 player ~ miss my blog ~

mae:

1. I loathe MAE because she has her someone.
2. MAE is the skinniest hottest bitch on earth.
3. If I were alone in a room with MAE, I would feed her.
4. I think MAE should get fat and have boobies like me. :)
5. MAE needs absolutely nothing.
6. I want to feed MAE.
7. Someday MAE will be a girl with boobies and fats.
8. MAE reminds me of the hot bitches in the world.
9. Without MAE, I wouldn't have a rockin block.
10. Memories of MAE are bitchrants and the term 'horribly plastic' HAHAH!
11. MAE can be a singer.. DUH?
12. Worst thing about MAE is she's shy.. ULOL!
13. Best thing about MAE is that she's a real person.
14. I am the prettier than MAE.

go section 10!

what i loved most about my block is the fact that i can be myself with them. they don't mind the smoking and drinking at noon or the fact that i am a little (or am i just) weird. too bad monday got postponed. STUPID HUMANITIES CLUB. eeekkk. we planned to go out for gateway and swim afterwards pa naman at ja's house. oh well.

we have a year to look forward to and i am definitely looking forward to it. :)

liza diane, happy birthday! i love you so much! i will always be here for you no matter what, you know that right? mwah! :)

last wednesday, i got to see the school again. it was really something. i missed mrs. sulit, mrs. bernardino, ms. malayas and all the other teachers. they were really something if you ask me. i loved the fact that my yfc core group missed me. hahah! :) all the outher undergrads were amazing. thanks to sun, we get to keep in touch. HOLY IS THE BEST.

the visit was nice but it became great when i got to see LAIA. i love her so much. she's just someone i'll never get over and i just can't get her out of my system. there's just something about her that makes me go gaga. oooffff. :)

"I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead;
I lift my lids and all is born again.
(I think I made you up inside my head.)

The stars go waltzing out in blue and red,
And arbitrary blackness gallops in:
I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead.

I dreamed that you bewitched me into bed
And sung me moon-struck, kissed me quite insane.
(I think I made you up inside my head.)

God topples from the sky, hell's fires fade:
Exit seraphim and Satan's men:
I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead.

I fancied you'd return the way you said,
But I grow old and I forget your name.
(I think I made you up inside my head.)

I should have loved a thunderbird instead;
At least when spring comes they roar back again.
I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead.
(I think I made you up inside my head.)"

someday, i'll find that person i made up inside in my head. i hope i don't kiss the wrong frog this time, and actually meet my prince. although, a part of me still wants to think that he is my prince.

i love it when things are sorted out. mae and i talked things through. it was just one big mess but as it turns out, we got along just fine. it wasn't right of me to dislike her so soon. not only did we clarify a few things, but i get to have someone with me to audition in the orgs at mc as well. i'm hoping i can find a friend in her, and i hope she finds a friend in me, too. :)

what is it with the rain that makes everything so sad?

the big 'whatever' we had was pointless, but i did learn a thing about it.

i learned to never take sides.

from now on, i will always remember that you can only judge a person with total conviction.

thanks mae, i now learned my lesson. i am sorry for doing such a thing.

i'm hoping i can find a friend in you, and that you can find a friend in me too.

see you at mc! :)

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how can i fix this?

i hate all the back biting and all the bitching that comes along with it.

school hasn't even started yet and i am making enemies already.

funny. how can i be plastic to you after saying hi to you?

that one word - HI - and i am 'horribly plastic' already?

although, yep, i did say things that were uncalled for. those were just my opinion. i'm sure that girl you were with told you a lot about me also. i am sorry, but i am so NOT plastic.

we can not be friends, and we can also not be enemies. we can just be better strangers. you can judge me AFTER WE TALK. ayt?

Why is it that civilized women can't do the right thing without paying too high a price? Is the thought of women getting along too hard to ask? i see it everyday. i see it in reality tv, awful talk shows, and such. it's like 'who hates who', 'oh no she didn't, oh no she did', and all the things that revolve around women.

we can be the greatest friends, and we can be the greatest enemies.

i lived it in the School of the Holy Spirit for eleven years, and now i get to live it again in Miriam College.

edit : he texted, and it's no "send to all" text. hooray! :) the world makes sense again!